Disclaimer: obviously, I don't own Zoey 101. If I did, there would have been some interesting pairings by now…and the show wouldn't just be a dot on the horizon of kid's TV.
Every time we lie awake
After
every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't
missed you yet
Logan Reese. As detached as I managed to become, saying his name still kept me awake at night. The night of the party, I had a little too much 'special punch', to calm me down. I knew he was going with Lola.
Unfortunately, I don't really do well with alcohol. Which is why I ended up being a total bitch. After that, I was too ashamed to face him, and with time, I realised that he probably wouldn't want to see me. And I was fine, as long as I acted like I didn't care. For a while, I gave up on caring… until I decided it was easier to act (Lola isn't the only actress here)… and pretend I didn't miss him.
Every
roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the
feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
I know I'm in denial about this, but I can't seem to snap out of it. Seeing Logan cry? That helped. Knowing he was suffering, maybe even more than I was really opened my eyes. I still dream about him, remember what kissing him was like. I can't believe I kissed him and pushed him away. Maybe if I hadn't, he wouldn't have run scared to Lola. I often wake Zoey and Nicole up with my tossing and turning. Sometimes I cry, and scream his name… I guess in my sleep I'm honest with myself about how miserable I am.
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate
everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate him so much… I wasn't lying when I told him that. He just doesn't seem to know that I love him more than I could ever hate him. For an angry girl, I have a pretty big heart. And I loved him with all of it. No matter how hard I try, I still do love him. Which is why I agreed to meet with him. Maybe make a new start…or maybe not.
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we
take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Maybe he doesn't think about me all that often. Maybe he didn't mean that kind of love. I don't know, maybe he was the one that was drunk. I've smashed every mirror I own. It's seven years bad luck for each, but it's worth it, because I don't see Logan's eyes reflected back into mine. Hoe can I miss him when I see him everywhere I look? It's ridiculous, but I need him. And deep down, I think I need to see him. He's like a drug… and I think I'm addicted.
Only when I stop to think about it
I
hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything
about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About
you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you
know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You
hate everything about me
Why do you love me
We've both been pretty cruel over the years. I never expected you to love me back. I guess it's true what they say, love springs from hate.
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I
hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I just wish we could go back…or forwards, anywhere to get out of this place we're stuck in. I want him…so much. I'm scared to get close to him, because I know he's just like me. I hate everything about him… so why am I in love with him, and why can't I tell him that I am?