If I Could
I
think I overthink.
Gazing in the stars.
Trying not to let them
bleed,
these anceint battle scars.
Trying not to close my
eyes,
to keep them to the sky.
But at the same time I'm
fighting,
I have to wonder why.
What is worth this?
What
am I doing?
Inside my head,
heavy thoughts stewing.
Watching
people fall,
stepped on by who they love.
Some people from the
devil's gate,
abuse those from above.
Watching everything
end,
keeping my face blank.
Wondering how much else I'll
ruin,
not sure I like being fake.
Not sure even if you
could,
I would let you see.
I'm not ready to be someone
else,
not yet ready to be me.
But I can't anyway,
so
what I think can't be.
I wonder why life is this way.
Kept in
the dark, I want to see.
I wish I could tell you,
but
myself I would break.
Stand here, eyes shut,
ignoring myself as
my shoulder's shake.
Coming out, sitting down,
talking
softly together.
Watching the clear night sky,
promising fair,
soft weather.
Sitting here, content agenst you.
Can't say
what I feel.
Wishing to bring myself to life,
to make
everything real.
But leaning agenst you,
for now will have
to do.
For the daugther of the devil,
to herself can't be
true.
Raventhedarkgoddess: Raven poem.....again......