Hideaway
No one to trust.
With it all to lose.
I play out carefully.
My life as I choose.
My own little battle.
My self-created hell.
Hating everyone and everything.
I used to know so well.
Turning, ignoring, refusing to look.
Not listening to you yell.
Not looking at your now-shocked face.
Or at the way you fell.
The place I made you fall.
I'm trying to retreat.
I want to run, run to my hideaway.
So I don't have to weep.
I can remain bitter and angry.
I can keep my spite.
I can forget what I know.
Darkness can keep down my light.
I never thought I'd do these things.
Burning so far, so fast.
Anytime I settle down.
It's never meant to last.
Kill, my feeding, to step away.
The one I love is dead.
I never could, I pull away.
I feel the bite, my dread.
I don't know who I am.
Or even what I've become.
All I know is my hideaway protects.
And the lie lives so I stay numb.