See the Sun
I woke up to the real world today.
And then realized no one is there.
I cast off the covers and reach out;
My forgotten soul grabs only the air.
I can feel my heart pounding out my blood.
But part of me just wants it to stop.
It's then that I realize just how frail I am.
And I wonder how to stop the last drop.
I sigh to note that my hand is now bleeding.
I'm living this lie, like red on the white.
Part of me wishes something would stop this.
If only that way to make it alright.
But somehow it's harder than it looks.
To sit there normal while she's on your mind.
You cast your eyes away from me now.
Acceptance anywhere is impossible to find.
The sensation is a dull throb I cannot fully control.
And with each breath I take, it worsens the pain.
I can't seem to find anymore confidence in anything.
By living this way what have I to gain?
I try to tell myself just to ignore you.
To forget you and all I held dear.
I can't care about anyone, not supposed to feel.
That's what comes of trying to be with you here.
And so the feeling I feel are now so empty.
As empty as what you mistake for my smile.
I can't really feel, which drove you away.
Everything for me is mere denial.
And then I realize I'm laying in my bed again.
And the entire day was wasted finding myself.
But I know I'll never really see the sun.
When I keep trying to put my emotions on the shelf.