An Imbalanced life

Edward left and Jake and Bella fell in love, they started planning a future but when Bella leaves to college out of state and finds out she's pregnant she breaks it off with Jake…. And this is what starts the change in Jake to occur. Bella does not know of the Wolves

Chapter 2

TY and I had been in bed for hours now and I was just as restless as I had been since I left Arizona, she fell asleep right next to me while I read to her, I've been laying here listening to her deep breathing and its calmed me but not enough to grant me some peace of mind and fall asleep… she was the best part of me, even if he never forgave me I will be eternally grateful to him for giving her to me.

I know I should have come home sooner but I was a coward, I was worried for my friends, for myself and I thought being away was going to help.

I need to get out of this house, I stood up put some shoes and a sweater on and went down the stairs. I walked towards the front of the house and quietly went out the door. It was cold and dark, that kind of darkness that only happens like at three in the morning, where you can't see anything at all, the kind of time when the monsters you were told about when you were little came out to get you. Well I've had my share of monsters and they came at any time of the day and night, I was tired of running. This ache in my chest was making me anxious, I've become accustomed to it and being here has made it more bearable and it's not as constant. What could this mean? It can't be just a coincidence, I stopped believing in coincidence a long time ago.

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"What are our orders brother?" Sam whispered behind me, I knew he was trying to be careful and not push me. He knew the wolf was here and that it was close to taking over.

"Tell Seth to add Charlie's house as part of his patrol, we will be patrolling until she leaves, who knows if anything has followed her home". I told Sam.

"but Jake, what about the treaty, we can't patrol if the Cullen's are back?" Sam knew better than to question me now.

I turned around and looked him straight in the eye, the wolf was there I could feel the intensity of it and so did Sam, he immediately lowered his eyes and turned his head to offer his neck in submission. "you will not question me, I don't care about the Cullen's or the damn treaty, they have been gone for years and if they are back it is their responsibility to contact the pack and let us know. Until then we will patrol wherever I say". Sam still didn't look up at me and he kept offering his neck.

"Go home to Emily, we will be taking over in the morning", I stepped away from him and turned toward my home.

"Jake, we are here for you, we know what she meant to you. We loved her too" he was really pushing me now.

"Go Sam", I said thought gritted teeth, I hear him sigh and start walking away.

"It could be a sign Jake; the dark moon is coming and you know what the legends say about that. Just keep an open mind. We don't know why she left and what led her to come back home". Sam really didn't know when to stop.

I ran to him and held him up against a tree, "why don't you listen? I said to leave Sam". He looked up at me and I know what he saw, he saw the Alpha but he also saw the brokenness, the insecurity and the rage inside me. If I really couldn't control the wolf his throat would have been ripped out the Alpha didn't like his pack to be insubordinate. "You're are my Alpha but above that you are my brother and I am here for you, even if it's to need someone to take your anger out on", he sounded just as wounded as I felt. I stared at Sam and then I let him go and just walked away.

The urge to drive to Charlies was almost impossible, my wolf wanted to see Bella to meet her, he knew of her from all my memories but knowing she was so close, he wanted to go and see her. I had to fight him on it, he wanted me to pretend that these last five years didn't happened that she didn't leave me, or that she left and never called or answered my calls. I was so stupid! I should have never gotten involved with her, I should have never loved her, hell she was involved with a leech, with my natural enemy. When I found out that Edward Cullen was a vampire, and that my Bells fell in love with him and then he broke her heart I was so angry with her and myself, I should have protected her. After her heartbreak she came around a lot more and we became friends again, then like a bad cliché movie I fell in love with her just like I did when we were children, if I was being honest I never stopped loving her.

5 years ago

"I got accepted to NYU!" Bella yelled, I was sitting in the living room with Charlie and my dad, we had just had dinner and were watching a baseball game. She came running in from the kitchen and Charlie stood up congratulated her and hugged Bella and spun her around.

"Dad put me down I have 2 more letters to open!" she laughed as Charlie set her down, she stood there and opened the other two, I sat there praying that one would be here in Washington I don't know how we would manage with being apart, I'm sure we would figure something out but just the thought of her being so far away made my skin crawl.

"Well come on bells don't keep us waiting" Charlie said sitting back down on his recliner. Bella dangled the letter in front of us and laughed when the three of us began to complain.

"I got accepted to UW" she said while smiling at me. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in, I silently thanked all the gods out there for this miracle, she told me many times that Washington was her first pick and if she got accepted that's where she would go. It was close to home and to me and Charlie. I looked at Charlie and Billy and saw the relief in their eyes, they knew Bella won't be leaving.

"Ok last one" she smiled and started to open the last letter, I looked up at her and smiled, it doesn't matter what that letter said she would stay and go to Washington and then when I graduate I'll go there too and we could plan our future. "I got accepted to the University of Arizona, oh my god, dad they want to offer me a partial scholarship" Bella whispered to us and then Charlie jumped up and spun her around again. I couldn't be happy for her, I knew it was wrong and it made me a shitty boyfriend but all I could think about was that the woman of my dreams, the girl I've loved ever since I first laid eyes on her, the love of my life was going to leave. There was no way I was going to let her stay, she needed to take that scholarship. I got up and hugged her as hard as I could "congratulations Bells I knew you would get an amazing offer like this, I love you" I whispered to her and kissed the top of her head. She hugged me back and cried I could feel her tears soak through my shirt, "It'll be ok, we will figure it out" I choked out.

Present Day

That night changed everything we swore to each other that her leaving would change nothing but two months after she left, she began to ignore me, she wouldn't talk to me for long and when she did she seemed distracted like talking to me was wasting her time, then she stopped calling me and would only text or email me but even those were far in between. I thought it was just her being in college and being busy, but then the text and emails stopped and I started calling her and she wouldn't answer me, I got desperate enough to go see Charlie and asked him where exactly she was living at, I had saved some money from mechanic jobs I had done and told Charlie that I was going to go see her, that same week she called me to broke it off and made it seem that it was the distance but I knew she was lying, the girl couldn't lie to save her life. She refused to take my calls, she never wrote back to emails or texts, even Charlie was no help he just kept telling me to move on and that Bella was concentrating on school and that I should do the same. Charlie and dad mainly would hang out at Charlies it was like he was avoiding me, the only reason he would do that is because he was hiding something from me, one of the rare times he was over at the house he was telling Billy that Bella was dating, that she was happy and had someone in her life now. That's the night I phased for the first time and when I found out about the Cullen's and how Bella knew the truth, my heart broke all over again.

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I had been outside for about an hour and I was getting tired and cold, I stood up and was about to go inside when something made me look out into the woods across the road. The trees were rustling and I could feel someone or something staring at me, I started to step back slowly towards the door and opened it, I quickly stepped inside and locked the door, my heart was racing I needed Ty. I ran back upstairs and laid down and snuggled Ty to me, I breathed her in and felt her heartbeat and soon it lulled me to sleep, whatever monster out there would have to wait for another time.

I woke up to an empty bed, I panicked at first but then I heard rustling and giggling downstairs, so taking advantage of the help, I got up headed to the bathroom and took a shower. I got dressed in black leggings a black tank top and a maroon cardigan and some knee-high camel sued boots. I put my hair in a high messy ponytail and some light makeup. After Ty I gained some weight, I don't feel like it looks terrible I actually like being curvier my hips and thighs were curvier and so were my breast I went up almost two cup sizes when I was breast feeding her and then after I went down to only one cup size bigger. But I started to care more about my looks I started wearing different clothes and not just jeans and long sleeves, I started getting into makeup as well, right now I decided on something light some foundation, blush and mascara.

When I went downstairs I found my dad, sue and Ty making breakfast, Ty was on a chair helping sue flip pancakes and dad was next to them trying to take a picture of them. I loved seeing this, I loved seeing Ty with her family and like always the familiar feeling of guilt crept back in, I should have come home sooner.

"Hey guys, it smells good in here", I walked up towards them and gave dad a kiss on the cheek and hugged him, he must have been really surprised because he didn't hug me back right away but when he did he squeezed me and gave me a kiss on the head.

"Mama look I'm helping grandma with pancakes", she smiled a huge toothy smile and at that moment anyone that saw and knew Jake they would without a doubt know she was his daughter. And my heart ached for him and for me, he was going to hate me for keeping her away from him.

After we had breakfast I went up and gave Ty a quick bath and dressed her. She was wearing almost the same exact outfit I had on only with a chunky coat, fuzzy boots and a scarf with a beanie and mittens. She wasn't used to the cold so I was going a bit over board. I needed to make sure she was nice and warm we were going to the beach in La Push. It was time.

Hi everyone!

I hope you are enjoying this story so far, I know it's not very long but I'm trying to feel this story out still and it's my first time letting others read my stuff. So, thank you for your future patience with this.

Just a quick reminder in the books Jacob is younger than Bella please keep that in mind trough out this story… once again thank you for taking the time to read this.