An Imbalanced life

Edward left, and Jake and Bella fell in love, they started planning a future but when Bella leaves to college out of state and finds out she's pregnant she breaks it off with Jake…. And this is what starts the change in Jake to occur. Bella does not know of the Wolves

Chapter #5

Time seemed to stop as I saw Ty run to her grandfather and her father, I could feel myself wanting to move, to run and grab Ty, to protect her, but I was stuck, I couldn't move. Everything around me sounded muffled, all I could hear was my erratic heart beating, it was so fast I knew everyone around me could hear it. My lungs seized the moment she noticed that Jake was standing next to her grandpa, her step faltered, and she caught herself from falling. She jumped and squealed, I saw her turn around and look at me, her face was one of wonder and joy as she looked at me while pointing in the direction of Jake.

"Mama! Mama! Look its daddy!" she yelled.

I could feel the tension in the air at her words, I could feel the stares of everyone digging into my skull. I could hear the sharp intakes of air; this was surely hell; this moment was my punishment for getting involved with the supernatural. For falling in love with a vampire and getting wrapped up in that danger. Those decisions I made long ago brought me to this time and place, and all though I hated having everyone's stare on me, I knew one thing was trues; karma was real because any chance of Jake taking me back, just shattered into pieces.

She stood there my reason for living, stunned at seeing her father. She stared at Jake as in awe of him, I knew the feeling, that's how I felt when that beautiful boy wanted to be my friend and then when he wanted me, loved me and I ruined it. Suck it up Bella, she's more important, be strong for Jake, he's going to need it. Once Ty realized that he was really there, she quickly turned back around and kept running.

My chest felt like something was crushing it, it was getting harder to breath and I could feel my eyes watering. I couldn't let them fall; I couldn't fall apart, not now, just wait, I told myself, after Ty falls asleep you can have your breakdown. Just wait. Wait until you're alone.

I finally made myself look up and I wish I hadn't, the whole beach was quiet, everyone looked at Ty as she was reaching Jake. I couldn't look at him so instead I looked for Charlie and Sue, I needed them right now. As I looked around and saw them by our umbrella, I slowly made my way towards them, Charlie and Sue were holding each other as they stared at Ty. They looked so happy; they've been wanting this to happen for some time now but have respected my wishes on waiting.

When I made it to Charlie and Sue they didn't even notice until they heard a whimper come out of me, hearing the noise Charlie turned and held me and sue to him.

"It's going to be ok kiddo" Charlie whispered into my hair as he squeezed me to his side. "This needs to happen; it's going to be hard, but Sue and I will be by your side the whole time, we love both of you".

Hearing those words come from my father, who always held himself back when it came to emotions made the tears I was holding back finally fall. As they slid down my face, I sniffed and kissed my father's cheek silently thanking him for the strength he was giving me and would continue to give. I placed my head on his chest and breathed in his scent, thanking everyone and anyone out there that Charlie was my father, even though I knew that I didn't deserve him.

"Honey, I know it's difficult but look" Sue whispered as she caressed my hair. I looked up into Sue's kind face and I saw that she was tearful as well, I also saw my fear and sadness reflected in her eyes. "Ty needs you, so clean yourself up and put on a brave face, for her and for Jake. It's going to be a hard day, but it'll be over soon" Sue said as she wiped my tears with a shirt she was holding. "Don't miss your daughter meeting her father because you are afraid, you are so much stronger than this". Sue continued to clean me up and made me let go of Charlie, she put her arms around me, squeezing me and then turned me around to look at the beautiful scene before me. "Go Bella, they need you" she whispered to me while giving me a gentle shove towards my daughter and the love of my life.

She was beautiful, my beautiful Bella. Not only was her body so different with all the extra curves but her strength could be seen from everywhere. She held herself differently, she's so different, the Bella I knew would never be caught in a bikini and in the water no less but there she was, showing off all that skin. My wolf was howling, he was desperate to go to her. He wanted to touch her and cover her up at the same time, no other male should be looking at her, she was ours. I shook my head at the thoughts, "enough" I told my wolf, she didn't want us, she left, I remind the wolf.

My wolf didn't protest which was odd, he was on alert which made me check our surroundings. I didn't see anything; I couldn't smell or hear any danger, but he continued as if waiting for something. I was trying to feel what my wolf felt, but it was like he didn't know either, he just knew to be on alert. It was making me anxious, it must be because of Bella, maybe he was waiting for her to approach us. My heart began racing, I couldn't think with this weird behavior of his.

"Son" Billy said, pulling me from my thoughts. I looked down to my father who was now sitting in his wheelchair under an umbrella. He looked sad and guilty, why would he look like that?

"What is it dad?" I said to him, he shouldn't be sad or guilty about Bella. I was expecting it, of course she would be here, it wasn't a surprise. "I know I saw Bella already, its fine, as long as she keeps her distance I don't care if she is here". What could I do? Dad was right, I couldn't go and kick her out without upsetting Charlie and the pack. As lost as she keeps to her end of the beach there should be no problems.

Billy looked up at me with raised brows, but that look of guilt and sadness had not left his face. "It's not about Bella, it's about who's with her" he said to me. I looked back at Bella, she was still in the water, I didn't notice or smell any other males. I looked back at Billy not understanding what he meant.

"What do you mean?" I asked in a confused voice.

I stared at my father, he's guilty because he knows something.

"What do you know dad?" I asked in an irritated voice, I could feel myself getting angry. He knows who came with her, he knows about this Ty. I looked away and searched for Charlie and Sue, when I found them, they were speaking to someone. I could hear the extra heartbeat now; I heard the giggling coming from this person. My wolf was at attention now, he wanted to go see this person.

"Son" Billy whispered at the same time as a small voice yelled "Mommy".

I knew, in the deepest part of my heart, I knew that "Mommy" was directed at Bella. I looked up and saw the most beautiful little girl running towards Bella. She was tanner than her mother and had beautiful dark curly hair that was all over the place as she ran to Bella. She had a daughter, a little girl who looked to be around five years old.

I couldn't stop staring at her, the wolf was excited he was looking at this child and thinking "mine, our pup". It almost brought me to my knees, the realization that this was my daughter, mine and Bellas. I looked back down to my father and he was already staring at me.

"Dad" I angrily whispered, "who is that". but I knew, my heart knew, and my wolf knew.

Billy had tears in his eyes and when he opened his mouth to respond, I heard the little girl yell "Mama! Mama! Look its Daddy" and my heart stopped as I looked up at her as she pointed right at me. my heart gave out at that second, my breath caught, and I thought I was going to be sick.

No! Bella wouldn't do this; she wouldn't do something this terrible. She wouldn't, I kept repeating to myself. She did, Bella Swan has undoubtedly broken my heart beyond repair.

The little girl quickly began to run to me as I took her in. She was beautiful, I could see how much she looked like me, the dark hair, the big smile was all me. Her eyes were her mothers, those big doe eyes I've loved since I was five, were now on a miniature version of us. My heart ached, as I looked at her, I couldn't believe what I was looking at.

In almost no time she reached Billy and I, she stood a few feet from us and had the biggest smile on her face. She seemed anxious and excited, she was practically jumping up and down.

I looked down at her and smiled, she smiled back and took a step closer to me.

"Hi Daddy" she said with a sunny smile. My breath caught at her voice, at what she called me.

"My name is Ty-ohni Sarah Swan, but everyone calls me Ty or Tyty. Umm, but you can call me whatever you want". She whispered the last part sounding a bit shy. Which made me smile.

"Hi Ty, I'm.." I started but then was interrupted when she finished my name.

"I know who you are! You're Jacob Ephraim Black, the soon to be Chief of the La Push tribe" she yelled which made Billy and I both laugh. She just bounced and laughed with us, clapping her hands.

"Well aren't you a smart cookie Ty" dad said to her, "now where is my hug I was promised" he told her with a big smile.

She smiled right back and jumped on him, he huffed and then laughed at her excitement. They hugged as I watched on, trying to figure out how I should be feeling right now.

As I watched them, I heard footsteps and I heard the heartbeat I would know anywhere, she was right next to me. as I looked up, Bella was there, still in her bikini that I know see matched Ty. Her eyes were red and puffy as if she's been crying.

"Ty bunny, be careful with grandpa; we don't want to hurt him" Bella said in a strained cheerful voice.

I stared at her, how could she? She wasn't the girl I thought I knew, maybe I never knew her. From the second she broke it off I knew she had changed and now I know she lied as well.

She wouldn't look at me, why would she do this? Why keep our child to herself? All those feeling of insecurity came back, she didn't know I knew about the leach, she didn't know about the La Push pack, but she will soon. Especially if she is the mother of the Alphas firstborn and liked Ty said the soon to be chief.

I couldn't look at him as I stood there telling Ty to be careful with Billy, I was such a coward because I could feel him staring at me. But for the life of me I couldn't do it, I couldn't look up at those eyes because I knew they wouldn't be the eyes that still loved me.

I knew I needed to do this, so I set my head up high and reached for Ty. She complained a bit but settled into my arms and wrapped her arms around my neck. She was small for her age, a bit petite like me but I was glad since it meant I could keep carrying her like this without struggling.

She put her head near mine and smiled up at Jake. She was doing a good job of giving Jake space. We talked about giving her dad space before she jumped on him, because once she did , she was never letting go. She was so smart just like him, because she understood that he would need to adjust.

"Daddy look, mama is here, were all together!" she laughed. I smiled at her and cringed a bit when I saw Jake stiffen. We needed to take this somewhere a bit more private.

"Jake" I whispered "would you like to go on a walk with us" I said to his chest, still avoiding his eyes.

"Yes" he said sounding breathless.

Ok, this is good, I turned and smiled to Billy, "Ty, tell grandpa you'll see him soon and give him a big kiss" I said as I leaned her down.

Billy smiled and gave Ty his cheek, she kissed it with a big smack, and laughed as Billy tickled her belly a bit.

I put ty down and grabbed her hand, as I lead her and Jake down the beach from prying eyes. As we walked away from the barbeque, I felt my shoulders relax now that we were alone. I could hear Jake behind us, his gentle footfalls were the only thing I could hear.

"Oh mama! Look seashells!" Ty screamed as she ran off towards the waves.

"Not too close to the water baby!" I yelled after her, as I stopped and watched her running around looking for more shells.

"Why?" Jake said in a calm voice, "why would you do this?"

I tensed, surprised he was talking to me, he hadn't said anything for a while. I looked up at him, but he was watching Ty with a look of confusion and love.

"It's crazy isn't it? how quickly your world can change, how everything you knew has turned upside down". I whispered back, I looked back to stare at Ty, she was now on the sand playing with it. I could feel him staring at me, as I continued, "now imagine that feeling and being eighteen and in college and having no idea what to do".

"Why, wouldn't you tell me, I would have been there!" he said angrily, "she's my daughter, I deserved to know" he yelled enough so that Ty wouldn't hear him. He turned around and placed his hand on his head, gripping his hair, he was breathing heavily and pacing.

"I was scared, and you were…you" I said, tracking his movements.

He stopped and looked towards Ty again, he snorted "I was never good enough for you was I, the rez, my tribe, it wasn't enough for you, and you didn't think it was enough for our daughter" he spat.

I looked at him stunned, of course he's enough, his tribe his family all of it is all I've ever wanted.

"How can you say that?" I growled at him, I was pissed, is that how little he thinks of me.

"I love you, I love La Push and your family has always been my family, this is everything to me" I got out before he interrupted.

"Don't" he yelled loud enough that even Ty looked at us, she seemed a bit confused but soon turned back around and kept playing. It startled me that he yelled, he's never spoken like this or been this angry before, this is a new Jake I've never seen before.

He seems older, than his twenty-one years, but that's not it, he's more mature. Now that I'm getting a good look at him, he's bigger, taller, more muscular. My breath caught, he's just more…more than I've ever wanted.

"Then why would you not tell me, Bella? Why keep her a secret for years" he said in a toned-down angry voice.

"I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to ruin your life" I choked out, tears threating to fall.

"Everything has been tough for you; I didn't want to add on to it because I forgot to take my pills" I continued as I tried to keep the tears back. My chest hurt knowing this was only part of the reason, that I was still lying to him. I couldn't tell him about the Cullen's or Victoria, he would hate me or worse not believe me.

"I wanted to give you a chance to be you, to do what you wanted. Not have to take care of someone else" I huffed out, the tears slowly sliding down my face, I tried to wipe at them discreetly, but it was no use.

"It's like you never knew me Bella, I would have been thrilled" he said in a dead tone, he sounded like if this conversation had drained him completely.

"I would have taken care of you and Ty and never would have thought twice about it. You two would have been my life, and nothing would have made me happier" he continued in that dead tone, that was beginning to give me chills. It sounded so unlike my sunny Jake; this realization made my heartache even more.

"I know" I said in a small voice, my voice catching, the tears flowing "that's why I had to leave and stay gone" I told him as much as I could, there was nothing else I could share without putting him in danger.

I wiped my face as best I could and stood next to him. Do what you came for Bella, be strong, Ty needs it.

"I didn't come here for you to forgive me Jake" I told him matter of fact, he still wouldn't look at me.

"I came because Ty deserves to know her dad, his family and culture. I wanted to come home and be with Charlie" I continued even though for a split second I saw him flinch at my words and I hated myself for it. But I was here because my daughter deserves the world and Jake is the world…and the universe.