Double Meaning
I proclaim my love
But I guess it doesn't show.
No matter what I do
You'll never really know.
Never know about my love
And just how deep it flows.
Deeper and stronger than any root
Of the deepest, darkest rose.
But all of it is hidden
Under my blanket of apathy.
Which is so large sometimes
I wonder if you even know me.
I'm stubborn in my own way
And I guess I really hurt you.
Somehow though it'd be different.
If only, if only you knew.
So do you even realize
All that I can really feel?
Or are my words with yours not enough
To really make this real?
I know you get frustrated
And then I'm upset too.
But sometimes I just feel like
The way I am isn't enough for you.
Still, I would give all I've ever had
Just to make you understand,
Even my hidden emotions
Are always, for you, close at hand.
So even when I act that way
Try to look under my skin
And see the double meaning
That my life is now cloaked in.
The double meaning of love and hate
Of control and letting go.
All the things I wish I could say
That you're never going to know.