Chapter 46: Ignoble Integration
June 17th, 1989 Around 2 PM.
(Near the Koubuin House.)
[Kageyuki]
After going to pick up Takeru from his morning classes in school, we were ready to depart to Osaka. I thought we would have to use the public trains, and that's why Maya-san had gotten up so early to ready herself, and why she asked me to go buy 'souvenirs' to take with us. I still can't believe they would send a freaking limo to pick us up at the station, even more to have had us use the Royal Guard's private trains to get to Osaka.
Even less for us to now be entering through the main gates, as if we were important guests. I remember seeing the main houses on TV, being amazed at how imposing they looked… But seeing them in person is completely different, I'm simply awestruck. Being but an inductee I was never called here, I always stayed in our outpost near the Osaka Castle. And, well, my 'fellows' don't exactly like me, so I never thought I would ever set foot in this place. To think Takeru did so before me… Life is weird sometimes.
"Maya-san, is this really alright?" I say in a whisper, while she was trying to keep Takeru from staring out the window.
"Hm? Yes, why would there be a problem?"
"Well, two commoners are coming in a limo, using your private trains, entering through the main gate. I think some people are not going to take this nicely."
"…I can understand you worry, but rest assured. As much as some would like to voice their opposition, this has been allowed by Yohime-sama. Let me be the one in the lead, in case anyone sees your presence with foul eyes."
"Yes, I agree. Thanks again, Maya-san."
"No, it is nothing."
"Say, Dad…" Takeru looked back from the window towards us. "Do you know why they put a pond over there?"
"…I think it's just for decorating. Back in my school, we also had a pond with Koi fish."
"Really? Why does my school not have one?"
"Well, it's kind of an old custom, so new schools probably don't have them."
"Ooh… Why were there fish in the pond? Did you eat them?"
"Of course not, Takeru. It was just to have some… sort of atmosphere set."
"…I don't get it." He furrows his brows, shrugging his mouth again.
"Don't worry about it. You'll understand once you grow up." Maya-san sighs as he groans in disagreement.
During that conversation, we had finally parked within the large state of the Koubuin Main House. Getting out of the limo, I saw a woman with emerald hair coming our way. I suppose she's Col. Bazora's daughter.
"Welcome, Maya. And I suppose you must be Kageyuki Shirogane-san?"
"Ah, yes." I stood up in attention by reflex, giving her a salute. "Good morning, Miss."
"Please, there is no need for such formalities. You are not here as a member of the Guard, Shirogane-san. You are our guest today." She smiled, more sweetly and caring than I ever expected someone of the Shinpan to do towards me. "My name is Mana Tsukuyomi, and regardless of my station you, as a permanent member of Takahisa-sama's squadron, are one of my fellows. I am pleased to make your acquaintance." She gave me a small bow, politely and without any tension or signs of rejection.
I gulped, hesitating a moment, thinking it may be yet another test of character. However, after a sigh, I returned the gesture. I'll just stick to doing my best speaking formally.
"The pleasure is mine, Tsukuyomi-san. Thanks for your hospitality towards me and my son."
"Ah, no, it is nothing. Also, Mana-san shall suffice. We are many Tsukuyomis in this house, so I do not mind you using my name to refer to me."
"In that case, shouldn't I use the -sama?"
"As I said before, you are our fellow. Also, I am used to little Takeru, so I do not mind. However, I concede using said honorific when around my Father and Uncle would indeed be the correct choice."
…Not like I was planning on calling the Colonels by anything other than their ranks. They're terrifying enough when they're not upset, and I don't want to return to my first weeks in the Guard.
"Oh, hi Mana-nee!" Takeru came rushing from behind me, coming up to Mana-san… and giving her a hug.
"Hello, Takeru. How have you been?" And she smiled… widely. Patting his head, she seemed to be in cloud nine. Does she like children, maybe?
"I've been fine. But Maya-nee made me study until late for a math test… It was a lot." He complained, as usual. He really doesn't get along well with numbers.
"Oh, that is awful." She said, raising her tone a bit, purposely talking funny. She seems to truly like him, it's good to see at least someone else is honestly nice towards him. "You must have been so tired."
"Yeah… That was so mean." He replies in a pouty voice, making me chuckle when I see him puffing his cheeks. It's a surprise to be sure, seeing a noble be this warm to a peasant.
"Ahem…"
Maya-san had taken some steps forward, tapping her glasses as she did, looking just as her father does when he is about to begin berating one of us for something.
"Allow me to clarify that it wasn't anything you should concern yourself with, Kageyuki-san. I merely had Takeru studying half an hour more so that he could achieve the score he required to reach a respectable passing grade."
"Oh, I see." I would ask more, but her narrowed eyes and dry tone are making me think I should stay out of… whatever this is.
"I think you could have been slightly more receptive towards Takeru." Mana-san replied, smiling and caressing her hair. "Having someone study for longer periods of time does not guarantee success."
"Still, he achieved the score he needed, which proves I was right in my method." Maya-san retaliates.
"Even so, such approach could backfire, making Takeru unwilling to study for math in the future. Taking into account his own learning pace is of utmost importance." She said as she patted Takeru's head.
"Thank you kindly for the suggestion Mana, but do remember that I am Takeru's retainer. Therefore, I do know more about his habits and limits than you."
"Um…" Both of them look my way, almost making me flinch. "I do think forcing him might not be a good idea, but Takeru can be really stubborn from time to time. Takeru, was studying bothersome?"
"No, I just don't get the stuff we see. I did manage to get some of the problems right thanks to practicing more, that's why I got a good grade on the test." He smiles, sticking out his chest in pride.
"See, Mana? My method was the right one."
"It was a lot to study, though." He continued, folding his arms and puffing a cheek. "You could have given me a small break to rest, Maya-nee."
"…You were saying, Maya?" Mana-san curved an edge of her lips into a smirk while placing a single finger on her cheek, lowering the inner side of her brows in what I can only call a smug gesture.
They then remain staring at each other for a moment, saying nothing. Maya-san with a stone cold expression, Mana-san with a slightly more relaxed but still somewhat confrontational smile.
What the hell is going on here? Are they… arguing over Takeru?
"Well… Yohime-sama is waiting. Let us go." Mana-san said, smiling my way.
As we walk towards the house's entrance, Maya-san made quite an obvious effort to place herself between Takeru and her cousin. I was on Takeru's left side, holding his hand. When Mana-san seemed to bring something up in a low tone, making Maya-san focus on her, I used that chance.
"Hey, Takeru…" I whisper to him.
"Hm?"
"Do these two usually argue like that?"
"Yeah… Maya-nee and Mana-nee sometimes start arguing like that. Maya-nee then gets all angry, her eyebrows get all spiky and low. I don't get why they fight like that." Me neither, Takeru. Me neither.
"Kageyuki-san?" Maya-san turned towards me.
"Ah, yes?"
"Would you prefer to go meet with Yohime-sama now, or to join us in the dojo?"
"Do I get to choose? If Yohime-sama doesn't have the time, there's no way I'd demand to see her." Lowering my head a bit, she returns yet another smile my way.
"She seems to be free as of now, however, the lessons at the dojo have already started. Takeru would have to come with us there. What would you like to do?"
Well, for one, I would like some cold water. To see if I'm not actually dreaming. Why would they be treating me with such respect? I don't get it. Well… As much as I'd like some answers, I want to be there seeing him train. Just in case something happens.
"I'd like to accompany you to the dojo, I want to see how Takeru is doing." His grasp on my hand tightened a bit.
"Very well. Allow us to go there, then." She said, and then we four picked up our pace.
As we entered the house and they guided us to the dojo, while I asked Takeru about his fights in the dojo, I could clearly see some people throwing glances as we passed them, some clearly frowning. Sigh…
When we made it to the dojo, Mana-san excused herself and said she had to return to her duties. After giving her a bow, leaving what we brought from home in her hands, we entered the dojo and when we did I could see Col. Bazora overseeing the training of two little shapes in the normal protective gear. So they don't spar with the Armored Kendo gear? I would have thought they would prefer to use that.
The Col. sees us and gives a nod, finishing the duel as one got a certain hit to the other's abdomen.
"Welcome, Maya." She bows to him, he nods at her once she rises. "…I didn't expect to see you here, Shirogane." He looks at me in the eye, with that unchanging stoic expression and dull tone.
"Greetings, Colonel." I give him a salute, he remains inexpressive.
"Dad, his name isn't Colonel."
"Takeru, that's his rank in the Royal Guard."
"Rank?"
"I'll explain it later. Don't worry about it." He again furrows his brows and groans.
"Well… I suppose I should introduce you to your son's sparring partners." He said, moving to a side and gesturing towards the little shapes that had come closer, taking off their head gear. "The one on the left is my nephew, Shion Tsukuyomi, the one on the right is my younger daughter, Mion Tsukuyomi. Both of you, your greetings."
"It's a pleasure to meet you, sir." Both of them said in unison.
"The pleasure is mine… Uuh…" How should I call them? Normally, I would have to use the -sama, however, even if Maya-san said that wasn't necessary, the Colonel might not agree.
"You might refer to them merely by name, Shirogane."
"Oh… Ahem, would that be fine, Colonel?"
"Sigh… Your son does so all the time, I see no reason to force you to use an honorific on this occasion. I hope you understand the honor it is, to be bestowed this privilege."
"…Yes, sir. I am well aware." He nods, seeming satisfied with my court answer. "Then, it's a pleasure to meet you, Mion, Shion." Both gave me a nod, staring firmly at me.
"Well then, Shirogane, are you ready to begin?" He looked at him, Takeru gave him a nod, pursing his lips a bit.
"Dad… I'll do my best, so look really well. Okay?"
"Haha, yes, I'll be looking." I pat his head, his eyes seem to shine brighter as he smiles.
"Hehe… Get ready, Mion, Shion. Because today I'm gonna win!"
Maya-san sighed while the one called Mion smiled at him. Col. Tsukuyomi merely closed his eyes, tapping his forehead with a single finger.
"I wonder about that." Mion said. "You barely can trade blows with us after all."
"Uh… You'll see today! Shion, you too get ready to finally lose." Takeru said with a confident smile, raising another fist up. And yet…
The turquoise haired little girl folded her arms and looked away from him, seeming to be really pissed off for some reason. I can see she is truly Col. Kazora's daughter, perhaps she doesn't like Takeru much. Maya-san said she was warming up to him, but still…
"Shion? What's up?" He got closer, staring directly at the turquoise eyes that refused to budge on their animosity.
"…You're late." She said, sounding upset.
"Huh? I'm here, I'm not late."
"Yes, you are!" Placing her hands on her waist quite hard, she glared at him. Feels as if her tone suddenly heated up, tightly shrugging her lips as she did. "We had to start training without you. I most sincerely dislike those who don't keep their word."
"Shion, we had to wait longer for a taxi to come for us." Minding my tone, getting closer and crouching by Takeru's side, I look into her eyes. "It's not Takeru's fault. I also had to come here, so we took some more time to be ready. Please don't be angry at him."
"I see… Um, did you bring the souvenirs at least?" She politely asked, cooling down her tone but still with her brows tense.
"You mean the sweets? Yeah, I went to buy them myself."
"Dad brought more than usual, so we have a lot of ice cream today!" Takeru said happily, nodding once.
I mean, Maya-san told me to go buy something sweet for the kids, and I just brought what we had when Sumika and Haruna-san visited us for his birthday, since there would be three kids. I also tried to buy something 'good' even if I know they would have access to better stuff. Maya-san said it was fine, though.
"Um… What flavor did you bring, sir?" Shion asked, this time clearly interested and leaving the anger behind.
"Strawberry, lemon, apple, and pear, all in their own separated packages. I brought a kilo of each, since Maya-san told me you enjoy sweet food."
"Oh, I want the pear one!" Mion suddenly said, a small smile in her face.
"No, you always get that one." Shion practically hissed at her cousin, dropping her manners and puffing a cheek. "Today I get the pear, you eat the lemon cream." Mion grimaced for some reason, I guess she doesn't like lemons.
"…Takeru, are they always like this?" He nods, giggling as the cousins glared at each other.
"See? I told you they were always so bitter. Dumb pickles." He keeps giggling at the cousins' quarrel.
"That's enough." Col. Tsukuyomi said, as composed as ever. "The one of you who wins the most duels gets to choose first. What do you say?"
"Yes, Bazora-sama!" Shion immediately replied, smirking for some reason.
"…Yes, Father." Mion did the same, not as loud but still showing a resolution I didn't expect to see in a noble over some ice cream. Mion then looked at Shion, one of her hands shaking when she did so, and narrowed her eyes. "I'm winning today."
"In your dreams, perhaps." Shion replied with a smirk, clearly not intimidated at all.
"Maya, take Shirogane to the changing room." She nodded and grabbed his hand. I gave him a nod when he looked back, and then they went to the room. "You two, another duel." Col. Tsukuyomi said, and the two girls took their poses, beginning to duel again.
…They might be young, but they are really good. No wonder, they are members of the Tsukuyomi family after all.
"So, it seems you came along this time." The Col. says as he comes to my side, not letting the dueling duo out of his sight.
"…Is my presence an inconvenience, Colonel?"
"There is no need to force yourself to speak formally, Shirogane. It doesn't suit you."
"…So, does me being here bother you?"
"Not necessarily."
"Huh. Then, what is the matter?" He never speaks up without having something to say, so what's up with this?
"…Surely you noticed how the girls acted up at the mention of something as simple as the ice cream you brought."
"Are you upset at that, sir?"
"All the contrary." He made a small smile, grasping his chin. "It's thanks to such simple interactions that Mion finally began progressing. It was fine indeed to have been proved wrong."
"Did you disagree with Takeru being here at first?" He nods.
"I didn't think it would bestow any boons to anyone, as my brother did. I cannot speak against the results Mion is achieving now, however." I turn to see the girls, who were still evenly matched. "This would have been impossible months before."
"I see… How did Takeru manage to help, if I might ask?"
"He simply gave both of them some time to relax. I admit I was pushing both of them too harshly at the time. Your son isn't anything special, but his honest friendliness was welcomed by my daughters, so I have no complains as of now. Even more considering the results you produced during the test battles against the Kagerou."
"So, I take it no one is being harsh to Takeru?"
"Worry not, we would never allow him to be injured during the trainings. Your loyalty and efforts for our faction won't go unrewarded, Shirogane." His tone grew low, stern, yet somehow… accepting. It lacked the edge they always have when they reprimand me for a miss. "I suppose, you have no more reasons to quit your post, do you?"
"…If you've been this kind towards my son, there is no way I could want to leave now. It's just…" I look down, tensing my hands.
"What is it?"
"I don't understand why would you go so far. We're commoners, your image would suffer if this were known. Why do so much for us?"
It's unheard of, at least for me, for a Regent House to give this much good faith to an inductee without a history of service. Despite those who clearly don't see us commoners in a good light, the honor that is to be here, to be treated as an equal by the members working on a Main House… it's not something that's achieved easily. Hell, Koetsu is still a Tozama despite all the generations of service his family has dedicated to the Koubuin House, and he himself has said that he's only ever come here a few times. And I'm sure he wasn't treated this nicely, he probably wasn't here as a guest but as a vassal.
So… To give me and Takeru such an honor… when I haven't really done anything worthy of it… Despite the trouble that would give them with the nobles that would get royally pissed off at this gesture…
"I'm just confused, to be honest. I can't see why we'd receive such treatment."
"…Perhaps you are not seeing the value you have for our Regent, Shirogane."
"What do you mean?" I am just a useful pilot, nothing else. And that's being generous on myself.
"Your skills were vital in our victory in the last battles, as well as in all prior mock battles and trials. Your honesty is also welcomed, for we can see you are not one to lie."
That's just the minimal requirements to being a decent person. Who in the right mind would try to deceive a noble? Lies are short lived, nothing good will come out of hiding my own limits and failures.
"Considering your recent performance, despite what you were going through, I think it to be obvious that you should be treated with the respect you earned."
"Is that so…"
"You should be more proud of your results, Shirogane." His voice calmer than ever, taking a moment to look at me. "I believe Takahisa-sama has told you this before, but perhaps you should begin to see yourself as a permanent vassal of the house."
"…Wait, he was serious about that?"
"He never speaks if he isn't sure to follow through his words, as troublesome as that trait of his is at times." He narrowed his eyes, shaking his head a bit. "While rare, it isn't unheard of to have commoners become vassals of a Regent House. I believe you have earned the right to be a fellow of ours."
"Oh… I…" Blinking a few times, rubbing my eyes, and taking a moment to look at my hands, I see this is no dream. Huh… "…I wasn't expecting that, to be honest. The idea of being a formal member of the Guard never crossed my mind."
"Truly? After all your displays and the results you bestowed us?"
"Well, I just wasn't expecting any further rewards for my service. Becoming a permanent member of the Guard seemed like such an impossibility… I honestly still can't believe Takahisa-sama was being serious." I look back at the girls, that were still dueling.
"Sigh… Trust in my words when I say he never backs down from a promise. Furthermore, these three years have shown us you are deserving of the honor of becoming a vassal of this house. You should hoist some more pride after what you have achieved in this time, Shirogane."
"I'm just not used to… Wait… Colonel, when you say a vassal of this house… You can't be implying that Takahisa-sama wants to me to be under his direct command, would you?" He looks down my way, arching his brows as he does.
"Why, yes, that was his intention. I believe he was clear enough before. Would you be inconvenienced by that, perchance?"
"Wait… Huh? He was… being serious? Me, placed as vassal of the Main House?"
"…I can understand your surprise, more so considering how many see you at the Castle, but as I said before, your own efforts have granted you this chance. Hoist it with pride in your heart."
"Huh… I just… can't really believe this is happening…"
One thing was to make me a Flight Commander, but this? To become a formal member of the Imperial Royal Guard and being placed under a Main House… It's what the Fudais and Tozamas aim at, what the top spots of their ranks dream of reaching one day. Commoners getting this treatment is… well, it isn't as if this hasn't ever happened as far as I'm aware… but it's very, very rare.
"I see. Well, I think it's just a matter of time and bureaucracy. And if you continue to excel, I suppose we could make this arrangement of your son into a formal induction."
…
"…What?"
"Well, since you've been serving us so devotedly, and considering your son's situation as of now, I am sure you would be proud to see him following in your footsteps." Not a single spec of hesitation in his words, absolutely not a second of delay in them.
I look down, tightening my fists. That's the exact opposite of what I want. I don't want Takeru to have to fight in the war, all I've done… what I promised to Miho… If this is why they've allowed him to be here…
I see… That's what they're expecting in return of the promotion. Another family of vassals in their service… I see, now it makes sense. Hahaha… To think I once dreamed of having this chance, and now that's it's here… It's as if I had a noose on me, as if a chair was slowly leaving my feet.
"…You'll have to forgive my rudeness, Colonel." I somehow mustered a serious, low voice, despite knowing how my words will be taken. I inhale through my nose, clenching my lips into a line. "However, that's not what I wish for my son's future."
He slowly looks my way, brows arched. Scanning my face for a second, he puts a few fingers on his trimmed beard, I can pretty much feel the pressure of a bonfire irradiating from his stare.
"…So you're saying you do not wish for him to follow in your footsteps?"
"No, I don't want Takeru joining the Royal Guard. All the sacrifices I made, all I've done so far was so that he wouldn't end up entangled in the war." I look at him, arching my brows. And then, he moved his head back, rising his chin as his eyes narrowed.
"Despite the honor of being placed as a permanent member of the squadron, despite the offer to become a vassal of the Koubuin House, and despite all that has been done for your son… You do not wish for him to remain in our fellowship?" It feels as if I were talking with a Fort-Class, my knees shook for a moment under his emerald gaze, under his slow but clearly angered tone.
"I want him to be happy. Fighting in the war… will take his freedom from him, as it did to me. I know how much all what has been done for me means and what an honor it is, but if all this was done with the expectation of having my son become a vassal… Then, I will have to refuse your kindness." Giving him a bow, placing my gaze under his again forced me to take a few breaths to not recoil back.
…
He remained still, looking at me without changing his expression. Only the sounds of the wooden blades clashing against each other could be heard. He slowly folded his arms as he held my gaze, as I slowly breathed in, as I felt a twister turn in my stomach. I know that this will be seen as an insult, and I will probably be kicked out of the Guard. But I'll be damned if I let them have their way. I won't bow down and let them turn Takeru into a soldier.
After a moment, the door of the changing room opened and Maya-san's and Takeru's voices reached us. The Colonel looked at them and nodded.
"Well, let's begin the training."
"Wait Colonel, I don't consent to this." He looked back, somehow taken aback.
"You don't consent, huh?"
"I already said my opinion, I do not agree with what you're doing."
All of this makes sense now. The younger Tsukuyomis were being so respectful because they assumed I would become their vassal, and have Takeru do the same. Maybe that's why Maya-san chose to stay back home, to teach him how to 'behave properly'.
I had thought they were telling the truth back then, that Maya-san and Mana-san simply were being nice to Takeru, that they had taken a liking to him for some reason. What an idiot I was. We're just peasants in their eyes, after all.
"Dad, what's wrong?"
"Nothing Takeru, we're just having a talk."
"But my training is about to start. Why are you angry?"
"I'm just… discussing something with the Colonel."
"Shirogane, you're here merely as a guest." He said, folding his arms. "What reason could you have to be against this?"
"I believe I already stated it."
"Bazora-sama, what is going on here?" Maya-san furrowed her brows, seeming to not understand the situation.
"Nothing of importance." He then looks at Takeru. "Shirogane, you're ready to train?"
"My name is Takeru!" He complained as he usually does. "But yeah, I'm ready. Why were you arguing with Dad, Bazora-san?"
"Matters not. Go and take your pose."
"Wait a second, I don't-"
"Do you not want to see your son train, Shirogane?" He said, making Takeru look at me, I could see his eyes lower in worry.
You son of a bitch… Using him as a shield… I should have known better. What do they want from him? Are they using Takeru to make me continue serving them? Inhaling through my nose, a few fingers piked at my palms, hands shaking a bit. What have they been teaching him all this time? Leaving him in their hands… when they want to turn him into another servant…
"Shirogane, I am convinced you are looking forward to seeing how your son is-"
"Don't mess with me Colonel…" One of his brows twitched, I couldn't stop my teeth from grinding each other. "You're touching my son's future here…"
"Kageyuki-san, please calm down." Maya-san came to my side, still looking taken aback, placing a hand over my arm as I was about to take a step forward. "Please do take in mind how important this is for Takeru. Nobody will harm him, so please do not be so alarmed."
"Yeah, don't worry Dad. I'm gonna be fine!" He replied with his usual cheer.
"…You want to train Takeru?"
"Of course!"
"Okay… I got it." I send a look towards the Colonel. "I suppose we should have a talk later."
"…It seems so, yes."
Takeru gets in position, paired to fight with Mion. As they do, Maya-san circles to my right, standing close to me.
"What happened while we were in the changing room?"
"…Don't feign ignorance, Maya-san."
"What do you speak of?"
Takeru and Mion begin to trade blows, but it's clear she's not taking this seriously. Unlike Takeru, who is trying really hard, going by how much force he's putting in his swings and in his steps to not fall back.
"Heh, stop acting please. The Colonel told me you all are planning to induct Takeru into the Guard."
"Wha… Excuse me, what?" Hm? I looked at her and found her squinting her eyes. "Are you being serious?"
"Do you think I would joke about this, Maya-san?" I return the harsh gaze, she then looks at the Colonel, who simply looked at us as if bored.
"…I didn't knew of this. What did he told you?" She's… pissed off. Just like yesterday.
She doesn't seem to be lying… so, is this idea something the Colonels have? No, Col. Kazora is pretty much allergic to commoners. Then, what's going on here?
Takeru's defense was broken, Mion struck his chest and won their duel. He started complaining.
"Next pair!" Col. Tsukuyomi said, Shion took Mion's place as Takeru's adversary. "Well done, Mion." The little girl bowed to her father, standing by his side.
The next duel began, with Takeru being in an even bigger disadvantage. What's the point of doing this? He is learning, but what do they gain? Someone to talk to? As if the nobles didn't have enough fellows, and they could simply have chosen someone from the local area, to avoid all the bother with the train and the limo from being noticed. It was obvious from the start, they were just disciplining a 'vassal'…
"Bazora-sama…" Maya-san had gone to the Colonel's side. "Is what Kageyuki-san told me true?"
"…Regarding what?" She gets closer, whispering her question. "Well, there is some truth to it."
Maya-san seemed to be frowning for a second, she tapped her glasses and took a step back. All the while, Shion had Takeru on the back foot without a chance to get out of her lock. It didn't took much for her to win.
The Colonel orders for the next duel and both girls take their stances in front of each other as Takeru comes to my side, hanging his head.
"Hey Takeru… You did a good effort."
"…But I still lost." He finally looks up, letting me see his low, dejected eyes.
I sigh, crouching to meet his gaze. Letting go of the anger that was flooding me, I pat his shoulder as I make a small smile towards him.
"Wanna know something? When I was your age, I still hadn't learned how to use a sword as good as you do now."
"Really? But didn't Uncle Koetsu taught you?"
"Yes, but that was in high school. You're doing great for having started just a few months ago." His eyes regain their usual shine, smiling widely.
"Then, will I get to join the samurais like you?" His tone was like cat seeing fish being dangled above it. I, on the other hand, sobered my face and lost some of my glee.
"…Why do you want that, Takeru? Being a samurai is really hard."
"Because then I'll be able to help you out."
"You don't have to worry about me. Dad is going to end the fight before you know it. It's a promise." I pat his head, covered by the cloth keeping his hair tidy.
"Uuh… Then, will you stay home then?"
"Yes, when that day comes. So, you just wait for me. You can practice if you want, but there's no need for you to fight. Dad is not going to lose, Takeru."
"Okay… But I wanted to help out." He sulks a bit. Sigh… Stubborn to a fault.
"You can help elsewhere. Once you grow up, you can decide what you'll do. But leave the fighting to me, okay?"
"…But what if you get hurt?"
"…I'm not going to. Have some faith in the samurais, Takeru. There is nothing we cannot defeat if we fight together." I force a smile, trying to sound like Takahisa-sama does whenever he gives us an important briefing.
"Really?"
"Really. So, you don't worry about me. I promise you we'll beat the bad guys soon." I again pat his head, this time more slowly. I stand up, Takeru comes to my side as he watches the duel.
"So, how good are you with a sword, Dad?"
"Well… I'm not as good as the rest of the samurais, but I can at least give them a challenge."
"Can you show me? Come on, we're here so have a duel!" He tugged at my arm, being again all smiles.
"We don't have any armors for me here, Takeru." And if I were to duel now, I'd probably would end up reacting aggressively towards someone. He puffed his cheeks as he groaned again, still tugging at my arm.
"Sadly, it is true. We don't have any armored kendo gear here." Maya-san said, coming towards Takeru. "Perhaps another time, Takeru."
He pouts, groaning again. Once the duel was finished, he was again made to face off against Mion while Maya-san practiced with Shion. The kids had some more duels, Takeru didn't win a single of them, and then Maya-san took charge of the training as they practiced their swings side by side.
It's amazing, how much he has learned in so little time. It took me three years of on-and-off practice to learn with Benmaru-san just the basics. I was mostly fooling around, but still. And yet… Why would they, specifically the Tsukuyomi brothers no less, have their heirs train with a commoner? Even if they expected us to become their vassals, this is too much for people of their station.
"It looks like you have something on your mind, Shirogane." Col. Tsukuyomi had come to my side, we were rather far from the kids so he had no need to whisper.
"One could say that."
"It is rare, seeing you unwilling to be open." He narrows his eyes.
"I think I already said what I have on my mind."
"I see… I had thought you weren't planning on leaving your post, alas it seems I was mistaken." He folds his arms, now looking at the kids.
It's like talking to a mountain. Another test, is it? I should have seen this one coming, of course the Tsukuyomi brothers were not going to let my wish to leave my post go without a single reprisal. I guess he thinks I'll turn tail one day, the question here is… Is he merely baiting me, or do they really want to induct Takeru? Or… Is their plot to use him to keep me from leaving?
As much as this angers me… I can't lose this position. Miho was right, if I leave I'll be called a traitor, and then Takeru will also be called that. Dammit…
You wanna test me again? Fine by me. I may not want to have Takeru be a Guard, but that doesn't make me a traitor. I'll say it as many times as it takes to get into their daft skulls.
"I never said I wanted to leave my post Colonel, just that I don't want Takeru to be inducted."
"That is… puzzling, one could say." He grasped his chin, a finger threading his beard. As the ceiling was scanned by his eyes, the confusion in 'em grew more when he finally looked at me. "Plentiful have been the gestures you have been bestowed with in these months. I cannot comprehend why would you not wish to become a vassal of our fellowship. What honor could best such a proposition?"
"It's not a matter of honor, sir." I lower my brows, feeling a small jolt run through my arms. "I do not wish to have my son join the Guard."
"And why would you not? If you became a vassal, you would receive an ample raise, be the one who gives your family a road to follow into the service of the Royal Guard. It is rare, to give such an opportunity to a commoner. For you to refuse the chance to stop being an inductee and begin to be a proper member of the Guard, a fellow of the Koubuin House…"
He took a few steps towards me, I remained still. As if I were a scarecrow trying to endure a downpour while simultaneously being pecked by lightning, I didn't lose grasp of his eyes. My hands tensed up to stop shaking, and despite knowing what words would come next I managed to stay calm.
"It means you would rather be serving elsewhere, 2nd Lt. Shirogane." His voice filled with contempt, he simply returned my gaze.
"That is not the case, Colonel."
"Then, why would you refuse such an offer?"
"I already said why. I don't want my son to fight, safeguarding his future has always been the reason why I've endured the pressure all these years. I know that if I do become a fellow, it will be expected of Takeru to also serve the Koubuin House. And I… don't want to take more things from him." I look at him, swinging that sword trying to keep the rhythm of the other two, despite beginning to clearly start delaying his swings. "I want him to be free to live a life unaffected by war. So, if all these favors you've given me were done with the expectation that I would formally join you… I will have to decline them. And if that means Maya-san has to stop looking after him, if that means ceasing to be a Flight Commander, then so be it."
"…Surely you know what you're saying? To knock away the hand of a Regent… Do you think this will go unpunished?"
"I am not insulting your or Takahisa-sama's aid. I wish to remain as an inductee, until the day you no longer find me useful. No other honors or privileges are needed, I'm content as I am." I frown, gritting my teeth for a second, choosing to simply let out my thoughts for a second. "I live for my son, his happiness is my priority. That's all there is to this."
And then, he simply remained staring at me.
I gulped, breathing through my nose. Feeling a small jolt run across my shoulders.
He slowly blinked, folding his arms. Scanning my face without a hint of an emotion in his.
I licked the inside of my lips, feeling as if my legs were being piked by iron barbs.
"…I do not comprehend it." He finally said, shaking his head.
"I believe I made myself clear enough, Colonel."
"Then, let me be frontal with you. Shirogane, you still wish to remain in the Royal Guard?"
"Yes, I am not displeased with my position." Even if some of my 'fellows' can go fuck themselves with a Destroyer-sized drill up their ass. Maybe then they'll be able to get their heads out of it.
"Then, why would you not wish to become a vassal of the house? Your son could be allowed to serve the Guard as well, perhaps one of your descendants will manage to earn the honor of being granted the rank of Tozama. And you could also aim to become a Captain in our forces."
"…Colonel, I said that I have no need for that."
"Do you not wish to safeguard your family's future? To serve your nation?"
I sigh, remembering my last talks with Miho. For a moment, I look down and could hear her voice again. When I meet the Colonel's eyes again, my face had relaxed.
"I made a promise to my wife before she passed away, to protect our son no matter what." And for the first time ever, he grimaced for a second. "If I become a vassal, then Takeru will also have to serve the nobility, and I don't think that's the best for him. You've seen how he is, I doubt the other nobles would take kindly to him."
"And yet, you have adapted just fine."
"Do you think I enjoy being badmouthed behind my back all the time, Colonel?" I narrow my eyes, he does too.
"I believe you said you weren't displeased…"
"I'm not, I just accepted that as part of this position. I know you and your brother dislike us commoners, as well as many others in the Guard, and while I've endured this for Takeru's and my wife's sake, I don't want this life for him." I frown, crossing my arms again.
"I was under the impression that you had asked Takahisa-sama for aid so that, if you were to die, he would look after your son."
"Yes, I did. I only asked him to look after Takeru so that he doesn't end up in a cruel place, and only because he insisted on offering his helping hand. If it was out of place, I shall apologize." He grasps his chin, again silently staring at me. "I am not ungrateful… I merely want to keep him safe."
"Hmm… I still cannot understand you. You are given this chance, yet you would turn your back to it? You do realize that if you become our vassal you won't have to return to being a pawn of the IJA in the future, do you?"
I can't tell if he's upset or if he's still testing me. Why is he still insisting so much? He would have raised his voice and called me a fool by now, or worse considering what we're discussing.
It's not that I am ungrateful, and I do understand how rare this chance is. I once also dreamed of being a Royal Guard, of doing good for the people. I know that I'm still rejecting them, but I'm only doing that to keep Takeru safe. That's… the only selfish desire I have in me.
I don't think they would understand, though.
"…I just want to keep my son away from the war if I can help it. That's all there is to this, Colonel. I will keep serving as I have been, I'm not going to quit my post." If only because Takeru would suffer more from that than me.
"…I see. I suppose there is no further need to cross words." Still without showing emotion in his voice, he turned around and went his way towards Maya-san.
If they took offense… and in the end they'll brand me a traitor anyways… Then, I'll just leave. I don't think Takeru would understand, but it's for the best. I'll keep working as I have until they eventually kick me out. It was too good to be true, all this respect and favors they gave us. It was just obvious from their eyes, to wish to gain another family of vassals… And while I know that joining the Royal Guard isn't the sole path available for those who become part of the fellowship, I know Takeru won't be welcomed here. I don't want him suffering through those whispers as I've had to do.
The training is finished, and I go to Takeru to take him to the changing room.
"So… What did you think of the training, Dad?"
"You are better than I was at your age. So, good job Takeru." I pat his head, he giggles. At least he's happy for now.
"Do you think I could become a samurai someday?" He again asks once we had entered the room.
"…There's no need for you to do that."
"But I wanna be like you."
"Come on, don't be stubborn." I help him get his gear off, sitting by his side on the small bench that was in the room. "There are a lot of other jobs you can choose once you grown up."
"Hmm… But aren't the samurais the ones who help the people?"
"Sigh… Let's leave this talk for later. So, what do you do after this?"
"Oh, we go to play with Yuuhi." Smiling much, he nodded once.
"Huh… So, when do we go back home?"
"Hmm… Sometimes on Sunday's night, other times in the afternoon."
"You… stay to sleep here?"
"Yeah." He nods, simply and calmly.
Why… would they let him stay over? I know I asked Takahisa-sama to look after Takeru, but that was if I ever died. I never asked him to be put under the Guard's care. …I'm just a pilot. That's all I can do. There's no reason to go so far. Why would they do this? Even if they wanted us to become their vassals, this is just…
I finish helping Takeru get back into his clothes and then along Maya-san and the little Tsukuyomis we went towards where Yuuhi-sama should be.
"Maya-san?" I got closer to her as the kids talked with each other.
"Yes?"
"Is it true that we'll have to stay the night?"
"Oh, didn't you knew? I had assumed you already were informed."
"No, this is a first. Why would you go so far for Takeru?"
"As I said, Yohime-sama allowed it."
"…I suppose I should ask her if I want an answer?" Confronting her about this… Sigh… I can only hope I can leave with my head above my shoulders.
"Kageyuki-san, I assure you Yohime-sama has no intentions to have Takeru join the Royal Guard. She said so to me the first time we visited the house together."
"It's not that…" I briefly tell her of the proposition Col. Tsukuyomi said would come my way, and of what that means for Takeru. "…So, well, I suppose I am in a tough spot as of now."
"…Indeed you are." She taps her glasses, eyes almost closed. "I didn't think Bazora-sama would suggest such a thing, but I can see why you would be wanted as a fellow."
"Huh? Please, be serious. I'm just a pilot, I don't think I've done anything worthy of such an honor."
We're talking of having me join the fellowship of a Regent House. Not from a link with a lower house, no, joining under the direct service of the Koubuin House is what's being offered to me here. And there's also all you're doing for Takeru. I don't think I did anything to deserve this.
"Perhaps you have merits that go beyond your abilities inside a cockpit?"
"For example?"
"Well, I heard you are someone worth our trust, and you are Takeru's father. He might be rude, but he was been raised with good values. I believe you have served for three years already?"
"Almost three years, yes. Still, I… I don't want Takeru to be forced to become a vassal. I don't think that's the best for him, considering how I'm treated by the rest."
Maya-san looks down, seeming to want to agree with me but, due to obvious reasons, being unable to voice it.
"Hey, Dad?"
"Hm? What is it?" Takeru and the other two were looking at me, the little Tsukuyomis straight into my eyes like their fathers know to do.
"What do you do with the samurais?"
Right, I never told him much about my work. Though, I don't know how much I can tell them. Most of our tasks are classified, since they're to make new protocols for the Guard. And I doubt I want to have Takeru saying I'm a pilot on Takahisa-sama's squadron, I don't want those kind of people to have more reasons to be harsh to him, both back home and in this place.
"Well, I work as a tester of sorts."
"A tester?"
"Yeah, I see whether things work well or not." He mulls over my words, not entirely happy with my answer.
"Sir, may I ask what is your rank?" Shion asked, shortly and coldly.
"…Why do you want to know, Shion?"
"I'm just curious about what kind of person Takeru's father is. I don't see why you'd not wish to answer." Her reply was rather… rude, I think she might have taken after her father.
"Well… I'm just a Second Lieutenant, and I wear the pale black uniform."
"So that would mean you belong to the bottom of the hierarchy, then?" Sigh… Here we go again. And from a child, no less.
"Shion, do not be rude to our guest." Maya-san immediately retorted.
"I only spoke the truth." She lowered her brows.
"…It's alright, I'm used to it." What did I even expect from a Shinpan? "So, is there anything else you'd like to ask?" Shion looked at me again, and this time she frowned.
"Why is Sister looking after your son, if you're in the lowest rank of the Guard?"
"Shion, don't be mean to Dad! He's still a samurai, whatever this low rank is." Takeru puffed a cheek at her, she folded her arms and looked away from him.
"I'm just asking a question." She then plucked her lips. "You're funny to be around sometimes, but why is Sister staying with you if your father is on the lowest echelon on the Imperial Royal Guard, with such a low rank to boot?" Takeru then looks down, plucking his lips. "As a Shinpan, I would like to know why an inductee is having Sister take care of you." Raising a finger, she pointed it at me accusingly, the same inquisitive frown of her father in her face.
I was about to react, not necessarily nicely, but Maya-san patted my shoulder. Looking at her, she had her eyes narrowed as her mouth became but a small circle. Seeing her, Shion stiffened up like a cat hearing a thunder, comically shifting from the serious expression to the open shock.
"Shion, apologize for your rudeness this instant."
"Eh? But I just asked a-"
"I'll have you know that Kageyuki-san asked the favor of having me watch over Takeru to Takahisa-sama in person."
"EH?!" The three kids shout in unison as they stopped walking, kitties and thunders all over again.
"Um… Maya-san? I don't think saying that is a good idea."
"Why would it not be? I know you are under secrecy, but I see no issue with telling them who you work for, as it would explain Shion's question." Her tone a business one, she still sent a scolding gaze towards her sister.
"Still, you should know how others will-"
"Please, it is merely the truth. Anyone offended by it is clearly an obstinate fool." Tapping her glasses, she nodded to herself.
"Dad, you work with Takahisa-san?!" Takeru asked, coming up to me with a shocked face as I haven't seen in him for a long while.
"…You know him too?"
"Yeah, I saw him last time I came here. He's even better than Yuuhi at Shogi." Takeru frowned, folding his arms while the other two nodded in agreement. "So, you work with him?"
"Well… Yeah, I work under Takahisa-sama." I do wonder why he kept quiet about it. I mean, he could… have said something… about how you were doing.
"Um…" Mion looked at me, tapping some of her fingers together. "Kageyuki-san, does that mean that you're a surface pilot?"
And there is the question I don't want to answer. I look at Maya-san, who nods in approval for some reason. But… I don't think Takeru should know. If he said something…
"Dad, what's a surface pilot?" Sigh… At least he doesn't know yet.
"Takeru?" Again, while I was doubting, Maya-san spoke. "What your father does should remain as a secret, you can't tell it to anyone."
"Is it something dangerous?" He looked at me, curving his brows and giving me the puppy eyes.
"No, it's not that. But…"
"It has to stay as a secret, and you can't tell it to anyone, not even to Sumika." Maya-san said, giving me a nod when she met my gaze. "If you ever end up speaking of it…" She then tapped her glasses right in the middle, arching her head back.
Both me and Takeru twitched upon seeing her piercing eyes glaring at us. Of course, she is the Colonel's daughter.
"I get it, I won't talk." Takeru said, with a creak in his voice. "So, are you a pilot, Dad?"
"…Yeah, I am. I'm in Takahisa-sama's personal group of pilots, which is why this is a secret. So don't tell it to anyone." He nervously nodded twice, almost made me laugh.
"U-Um… Kageyuki-san?" Shion was looking down now, the confrontational tint in her voice gone. "Forgive me for speaking rudely to you." She gave me a deep bow, one I know would make her father angry if he learns of it.
"No, it's fine. Sigh…"
"So… What's a surface pilot?" Takeru asked again.
"They're the ones who ride the TSFs, Takeru. You know, the flying robots?" Mion said. "Kageyuki-san, how does it feel to fly a-"
"Wait, Dad flies the robots?!" Takeru shouted his surprise, drowning Mion's question. This time I couldn't hold it in and I chuckled at his reaction, his voice is popcorn in the making.
"Yeah… So, don't tell it to anyone, okay?" He nodded again, this time his eyes shining like dawn.
"So, um…" Shion again tried to look at me, but couldn't. "How is it to fly?"
On the rest of the way I told them what little I could, exaggerating some parts of the flying experience. Shion and Mion seemed more knowledgeable than I thought they would be, asking me what was my highest altitude, if I could perform Kulbits, and other rather technical questions. It seems they have seen some mock battles in preparation for their duties, according to what Maya-san told me while we spoke, so it is possible they have seen me piloting already.
Takeru however just made the most innocent questions, if the robot was like the ones in the mangas, what 'special moves' I could use, and if my robot had a special name.
For a moment, I forgot about the discussion I had with the Colonel, simply enjoying the kids' curious questions. Until we made it to the room we were going to, where those standing guard gave me one nasty stare again as we entered the place where both Yuuhi-sama and Yohime-sama were awaiting us.
I had never met Yuuhi-sama before, but she seems to be as calm as her mother. Yohime-sama seems unchanged to the scarce times she has visited the Castle, it is the first time I am in her direct presence however. Both of them dressed in a traditional dress, the mother dressed in teal and lily matching her hair and the young one in a white one with some flowery patters in the same tone of purple as her hair. We bowed to them once we got inside, and my worries returned to my mind again.
"Good afternoon." Yohime-sama said, her voice being a soft caress of spring. "You may rise." We did so and I saw her face, her lily hair and amethyst eyes gazing at us with a calm smile, just as her daughter. "I believe it is the first time we meet in person, Shirogane?"
"Y-Yes, it is. It is an honor to be here, Yohime-sama." I'm face to face with a Regent's wife, in their Main House and as a guest. Maybe this is all a dream? All that's left is for Takahisa-sama to suddenly manifest himself out of thin air and we got bingo.
And yet… What I'll have to ask her isn't entirely pleasing. Sigh…
"It is a pleasure to finally meet you. Yuuhi, dear, your greeting."
"My name is Yuuhi Koubuin. It is a pleasure to make your acquaintance, Shirogane-sama." She's so well mannered… And you're telling me she's friends with Takeru?
"No, the pleasure is all mine, Yuuhi-sama. And there is no need for honorifics, Shirogane is enough."
"Is that so?" She replied, slightly lowering her head. She truly seems to be a nice girl, she didn't take any offense at my words despite being who she is. "Then, it is a pleasure to meet you, Shirogane."
"Well, I'm sure the children must be waiting to play, so let's leave them be. Mana." Yohime-sama didn't even finish speaking and Mana-san appeared right by her side.
Like… She just manifested herself there. How… did she even do that?
"The souvenirs are right here, Yohime-sama. The cards and board have already been arranged." She reported dutifully, as if it were an official mission's report.
"Thank you kindly. Now then, let us go to the hall." She stood up and we followed behind her.
Both young Tsukuyomis went to Yuuhi-sama's side, and then the girl remained looking at Takeru, waving at him. He looked up at me, grasping my hand.
"It's okay, go have fun." I smiled, he did too before going towards the girls.
…I wish I had that bravery to approach girls as he does when I was his age. If Miho hadn't been so forward with that cake she baked me, I would have ended up alone or forced into an arranged marriage.
Still… I feel so out of place here. The room is literally better than those expensive rooms that appear in TV sometimes, and here I am with my 'best' formal clothes, a modest attire to be honest. I'm like the young swan when it was an ugly duck in the pond, just that I'll never become a swan.
We went further into the room, where a table with the sweets and food we brought were laid on. On another corner of the table, there was a deck of cards and some notebooks and pencils, and some ways away there is a small table with a Shogi board set up ready to play.
"So, what have you brought on this occasion, Maya?" Yohime-sama asked.
"Kageyuki-san was the one who chose the items today. I asked him to choose a mixture of sweet foods he found proper, as well as other appetizers, while I brought a few of the latest picture books I bought for Takeru."
"I see. You have my gratitude, Shirogane." She smiled at me, looking like an angel incarnate.
"No… It was nothing, Yohime-sama."
"So, what manner of sweets did you choose?"
"I… Ahem, I choose to bring ice cream. I don't know if it'll be of your liking, but I bought what was best in the local stores."
"Um… What flavors did you bring?" Yuuhi-sama asked, to which I answer as I did before. She smiles for some reason. "Which one would be the strawberry one?"
"Yuuhi, dear, please show moderation." Yohime-sama lowered her eyelids, raising a finger at her daughter. She nods, but despite that she's pouting.
"I suppose she favors strawberries?"
"Indeed she does." Yohime-sama says with a smile, patting Yuuhi-sama's head. "Sadly, there was one time where Takeru brought a small cake with strawberry cream and… well, Yuuhi forgot her manners for a moment." She smiles widely at her daughter while running a hand over her purple hair.
"That is not true." Yuuhi-sama then protested, pout still in place.
"Hehehe… Well, you may play at your leisure today. Maya, I leave them in your care."
"Yes, milady."
And with that, the four kids marched towards their table. It seems Shion won the most duels so she asked to have the pear ice cream first, to Mion's complains. Yuuhi-sama, on the other hand, monopolized the strawberry one, only giving some to Takeru, that also asked for some of the apple one. If it weren't for the dissonance between his clothes and theirs, one could simply mistake this for an everyday scenery of some kids playing around.
And yet, that difference is all too important. Their gratitude aside… this is nothing they couldn't have bought, it's certainly much worse than what they could buy using their influence. Yuuhi-sama… seems to enjoy talking with Takeru, but why are they allowing this? A future Regent being this close to a commoner… I never heard of anything like this.
"Shirogane?"
"Ah… Y-Yes, Yohime-sama?" Shit, I was lost in thought again.
"Please do not be so tense. Do take a seat." She gestured towards her left, to a seat rather close to her in the table.
"Ahem… Thank you kindly for receiving me, Yohime-sama." I bow to her as I sit, remaining in position.
"It is alright, you may rise." She was still smiling, playing with a strand of hair. "I had heard you were a rather rude fellow, yet it seems those rumors were incorrect."
"No, I am merely doing an effort."
"I see. Please do not be so tense, you are my guest today."
"Thank you very much for your deference, Yohime-sama. So…"
"Yes?"
"Well… Is there anything you were wishing to speak with me?"
"Oh, yes." Resting her hands on her lap, again smiling like an angel. "First, would you be pleased with Maya's performance as your son's retainer?"
"To be honest, I think she's doing much more than the money I'm sending her."
"I see, it is good to see you have been pleased." She nods, still smiling. "So, am I right to assume you have no qualms with her staying in her role?"
"… Actually, I was meaning to ask something."
"What would it be?"
"Um… Don't misunderstand please, but, why has Maya-san been sent to take care of Takeru?"
"I chose her myself, based on the requirements the person who we had to sent needed to meet. Is there a problem, perchance?" She tilted her head, a slight change in her tone, now slow and stinging like hot wax, made me shift in my seat.
"It isn't a problem per se… It's just that I don't understand why you would go so far for a commoner like me. Maya-san is a member of the Shinpan, I'm sure you would need her somewhere else."
"Has someone told you she was required elsewhere?" Freezing over, her change in tone almost made me stutter.
"…No, I just don't understand why we received such deference from your House, Yohime-sama." I give her a bow, eyes closed.
"Rise, it is fine." I do so and see her moving her fringe away, letting some air out. "Well then, as for why we sent Maya, it was because we needed someone who we knew wouldn't divulge the specifics of the mission and couldn't be tracked, while also being capable enough to tend to your son's needs."
"Well, but why go so far for us?"
"I do not see it as anything 'too far' myself, I only did what I had to do to ensure this task went as well as it could." She smiled widely while leaning slightly back and nodding, as if proud. She's as extreme as Takahisa-sama, maybe more.
"I see… Thank you kindly for your aid."
"No thanks are required. Now then, I suppose you are not against having Takeru visit the house on the weekends?"
"…About that, actually. Why did you allow him to come here, if I may ask?"
"Well, I had heard from my lord husband quite many stories about you." Smiling again towards me, clear as the sky in her acceptance.
"Huh? About me?"
"Indeed. Takahisa-sama is very pleased with your performance, and he believes you to be someone worth our trust, due to your stellar conduct while on duty."
"I… don't think I've done anything to deserve such praise."
"Well, he has seen you worthy of such words, so please do take them to heart." Her voice soft as silk, she remained smiling my way. "So, when your son came to visit us for the first time…" She then tells me of what happened that day.
"…Forgive him, please. He just doesn't know how to give others space."
"Please rise, I haven't taken offense. I found his interactions with Yuuhi rather… precious." She looks towards the children, I do so too.
The sound of their game fades into my ears, seeing Takeru completely relaxed and smiling from ear to ear as they play some sort of card game. Yuuhi-sama was sitting by his side, also smiling as she looked at her cards.
"As you can see, my daughter lacked what you would call a friend, someone who treated her as an equal instead of a superior. I was wishing to have Takeru be some form of confidant for her if they were compatible, and yet they are getting along far better than I ever thought they would." The clear joy in her words was contagious enough to make me smile for a while, despite my worries.
"So they're just good friends?"
"Yes, that is the case. As such, since it does both of them good, I allowed Takeru to accompany Maya on her visits, so that she could also be with her sister here. Does that answer your question?" She looks at me again, her aura overflowing with the grace of a peacock and the shine of a good jewel.
But… I still don't get it.
"Well, but why us in particular? If you wanted a confidant for Yuuhi-sama, I'm sure there are many others who could have taken the role, and without all the problems you have to deal with to have us come here, and leaving Maya-san back at Hiiragi." She bring a hand to her chin, curving her brows and lips.
"I do not believe this is something anyone could have done. We knew beforehand you are someone trustworthy after these years you've worked for us, and even if we asked, there aren't many who would act as naturally around us as your son does." She smiles as she looks at Takeru, who seemed to be winning the game this time.
"I just…"
"Yes?"
"I don't understand. For someone like me, receiving the honest compliments of someone of your importance, it truly… it truly is an honor to hear such words coming from you, but I haven't done anything to earn this deference. I know Takahisa-sama can be rather obstinate at times, but still, this is a privilege that I don't believe I've earned. The fact that I am allowed to be in your presence in this way, despite being a mere commoner, is hard to believe. I am just a normal person, I don't think I've done anything to earn these privileges from one of our Regents." Giving her a bow, I then remain in place in silence. After a moment, I hear her sigh quite strongly.
"Shirogane, rise." I do, and, contrary to what I was expecting, the graceful smile was still there waiting for me. "I have heard you have done a fine work in your position in these recent months, however."
"Well, perhaps, but I am just a pilot. And there are some who are better than me."
"I wasn't speaking solely of your piloting skills."
"Huh? Then, what else could you be speaking about?" My reports are, well, not bad but they're not what others expect of a Royal Guard with three years of service under his belt. I can't Keigo to save my life.
"You have helped us in disciplining our fellows, according to Takahisa-sama."
…What?
"Excuse me Yohime-sama, disciplining the other members? I never did anything like that."
"Not directly perhaps, however your presence has aided in bringing certain pressing matters to light. I am convinced you are aware of all those who speak ill of you behind your back." Sobering up, she stares into my eyes. I nod, looking down. "Tell me Shirogane, do you know why the Imperial Guard employs different colored dresses for its members?"
"Huh?" Where does this come from? "To showcase one's station, wasn't it?"
"Indeed, that's one of the reasons. Do you know of the second?"
"…There was a second reason?" She giggles at my confusion as the shouts of the kids reach our ears.
"You see, we also have such an arrangement to force visibility upon every member of the Royal Guard."
"Visibility?"
"Indeed. By looking at a dress you can already size up who that person is likely to be merely by the color of the dress and the insignia of their rank. For example, people now could easily tell you are an inductee, but if you had the insignia of a Captain they would know you're actually a fellow. If a Tozama had such a rank, then it could be assumed they are actually a second-in-command of a higher ranking fellow."
"I see…" So it's for organizational purposes, huh.
"Then, the same is applied regarding what is expected of our fellows." Her smile waned, her tone also became dulled. "Someone from the Fudai will be encouraged to take action if everyone else nearby is of lower rank, and if that person were to behave in an unsightly manner, it would be easy to notice. In this way, since we are a small organization divided into other five smaller organizations, we have all of our members watching each other's back, for supporting one's fellows and notifying their wrongdoings."
Constant surveillance, all to push everyone to not slack off and do their share without any room for mistakes. I knew some people usually kept staring at us, but I thought it was more due to my presence, and the fact that we are the main squadron of the Castle.
"In this way, your presence has allowed us to notice a… most shameful side of our fellows." She grimaces, and then… she gave me a small bow. "I can only apologize for the taxing situations you must have been enduring all this time."
"N-No, it's fine Yohime-sama! There is no need for you to apologize like this, really. So, um, I was some sort of bait to snuff out troublemakers?"
"Well, one could say that." Taking a moment to trace some of her hair in her hands, she again looked away, this time towards the ceiling. "When many people in the ranks begin to cover each other's backs for their own benefit, it brings harm to the overall structure. While you weren't intended to fulfill such a role, your presence, performance, and composed conduct during all these years have brought to light quite a few…" She narrowed her eyes, sending a jolt down my back. "…unpleasant attitudes in some of our fellows."
"I see… But still, it seems like a small matter compared to all you're doing for me and Takeru."
"I have deemed you worthy, as has done my lord husband. As our fellow, I ask you to receive these favors open handed, and to continue working as you have been until now."
…She called me a fellow. Despite the fact that I am still an inductee, despite who she is. I breath in, knowing the pleasant talk might as well be over. Still feeling the jolt running a race on my back, I lick my lips and look straight into Yohime-sama's eyes.
"Yohime-sama, might I ask why you referred to me as a fellow?"
"Hm? Because you are one of us, of course."
"But I am only an inductee, I am not part of your fellowship." And technically, I'm loaned from the IJA until further notice.
"I believed a proposal had been made available to you?"
"…Well, Col. Tsukuyomi did say something of the sort. However, there is something that… worries me about this situation." I gulp, let out some air and feel small, painful pokes in my stomach. "If I do become a vassal, then it will be expected from Takeru to also serve your house, is that correct?"
"Yes, that is the case."
"Well… Sigh… In that case, I will have to decline the offer."
…
"Might I ask to elaborate on your reasons?" Her smile disappeared like snow upon reaching the floor, yet her voice was as cold as it could get.
"I… I've been living for my family's wellbeing, Yohime-sama." I look down, towards my hands as I entwine my fingers, resting them on the table. "I don't want Takeru to go through what I had to. I know that all you've done might have been with the idea that I was going to become a vassal… And if that is the case I cannot apologize enough. But my son's future is my priority, and I don't want him to be forced to follow my footsteps. I want him to choose what he wants in his life once he is old enough. Therefore, well…"
"Is the matter a monetary one, perhaps?"
"Huh?"
"Would you be wishing to acquire an exemption draft for Takeru, and because of this you would prefer to work for…" She closed her eyes, bringing a finger to an edge of her lips, trying hard and failing at restraining the small frown that surfaced. "…someone that gave you a better reward for your services?"
"No, that's not it."
"Are you displeased in your position, then?" She shoots out immediately after.
"No, it's not that either."
"Do you favor another Regent, perchance?" And again, instant retaliation.
"Of course not, Yohime-sama. I am truly grateful for all the chances Takahisa-sama has given me, I am not displeased in-"
"Then, why not accept our proposal?" She leaned forward, narrowing her eyes.
"…I said so a moment ago. If I accept, Takeru would be forced to serve in the Shogunate, either as a Guard or a public servant."
"I believe he does admire the Royal Guard, however?"
"I… I just…" I close my eyes tightly, sinking my fingers into their lock. Remembering our last day together, I had to choke on air to prevent some tears from running away.
"Shirogane, what is the source of such worry?"
"…My apologies, Yohime-sama. I already said what I wanted to."
"Please, do not think yourself capable of beguiling me." She scolded me, dulling the edge in her voice, leaning back into her seat. "What is ailing you to such lengths? I would rather not have to deliver such awful news to Takahisa-sama tonight, between your negative and your current complexion."
"I… well… It's a personal matter, I don't think it proper to push this onto your shoulders."
"I would rather not have to use my station to force you to speak… So, please feel free to confide in me if anything is troubling you." She smiled again, sweetly and kindly.
I let out some air as I relaxed onto my seat, the laugh of the kids seeming to be fading away.
"…I swore to my wife that… I would protect Takeru, no matter what. I know he might choose to join the Guard on his own, but I don't want to force that choice on him. I don't want to have him lose all I had to lose in these years. And since I am a pilot, it might be expected of him to follow in my footsteps and… I don't want that for him."
"However, if Takeru becomes the son of a fellow of mine, then he could be given a fine career path from under the options available in the fellowship, isn't that right?"
"And that would be equal to me forcing the path on Takeru when he is but a child. I already am an absent parent, what kind of guardian would I be if I also took his freedom away from him?"
For what was but an instant, Yohime-sama's hands shook unnaturally. She closed her eyes for a long time, caressing her hair. I thought I had angered her, spitting in the face of her goodwill, yet when she opened her eyes she was still emanating that kind glow she had for the most part of our talk.
"…I am glad to hear you harbor such thoughts for your son. And with all the more reason, I must insist that you become our fellow, Shirogane."
"Huh? Yohime-sama, forgive my rudeness, but I just said that-"
"Your main concern is taking your son's freedom, as well as having him fall on the wrong hands should something happen to you, am I correct?"
"Yes. That's correct."
"Well, if you become our fellow, you would be giving us a… connection to use to safeguard Takeru if the worst comes to pass."
"I… well, I don't really know much of how the child care services work, but I'm sure it must not be easy for a Regent to… well, prevent Takeru from ending up in the wrong place."
"Worry not, we have ample resources. We shall find a way to keep him safe while not compromising our standing, I assure you of it." Her voice could tear through a TSF with sheer willpower, it was enough to make me unconsciously give her a nod, to which she smiled. "And also, while we shall look over him, I will make sure Takeru isn't forced into any one path by anyone. He shall choose his own future himself, and he won't be forcefully inducted. The money you earn will also remain on his name, so that if he doesn't wish to stay in the fellowship he has the option to leave whenever he desires."
"However… Why would you go so far? To give me such special treatment, to protect Takeru in such a way… To still give me all the benefits of being a fellow while not expecting my son to serve you as well… I don't know if I'm worth your trust, what could I possibly do to pay back these deference?"
And then, looking up, she took a second to answer as she played with her hair.
"Well, you have already helped me in a very… delicate matter." She again closed her eyes, her tone slowing down as her hands rested onto the table.
"I… I have?"
"Yes… It is thanks to you that, perhaps, the night will one day set in this house once more."
"…What?"
"Worry not, I was merely thinking aloud." She waved a hand in the air, then sighed. What… caused her to show this much worry? Something I did… Something related to the night… No, don't have a clue. "So, I swear to you on my name that I shall make sure your son remains safe in case you were to perish. And he won't be made to follow any path forcefully, Takeru shall choose his own road himself."
"I… see." It's obvious she is being honest, she isn't even veering her gaze a little, and she spoke with such serenity, such conviction. But… Why?
"However, for me to be able to do what little I can, I would need you to officially become our fellow. And that comes with certain… responsibilities."
"I won't be able to return to the IJA, I will have to swear my loyalty to your house and mind my actions in public from now on, even when I'm not actively serving the House."
"Indeed. Your son will also have the choice to work for us, even if not as a Royal Guard. However, in your case, you shall become a vassal of this House, and will have to be always at the ready for our orders, even if it is during your breaks. Your military achievements will also fall under the Koubuin House's effects from now on."
"…I think I always did that, however."
"Is that so?"
"Yes, all the data I generated, all the test courses me and my squadmates designed and tested were given to Takahisa-sama himself back at the Castle." I thought that was the standard rule.
"Hehe… It isn't hard to see why he has you in such high esteem."
"I just thought that was what I had to do, since I am working under Takahisa-sama."
"Well, but there are others who would have tried to remain as the main beneficiary of such developments, or sell the data in the black market, however."
"Has that happened in the past?" She nods, seeming to be really angry now.
"More times than I'd like to recall. Many are the ones who insist on having their names be featured in what little achievements they generate." She let out some air, I relaxed once she seemed to have calmed down, a hand cruising through her long hair. "However, it is good to see your hesitation was not because of an inconvenience but generated by your duty as a parent. Such protective thoughts are what we need in our fellows, so that they can serve the people as well as they could. So, allow me to ask again… Would you be willing to become our fellow, Shirogane?"
"…You truly won't force Takeru to become a vassal?"
"If he joins us, it will be on his own volition. I shall keep him safe, it is the least I can do as your Regent's wife." She smiled while entwining her fingers. "Yuuhi would also be truly saddened if anything happened to him, so it is in my best interest to have Takeru be safe as well." She looks towards the kids and I do too.
Yuuhi-sama and Takeru seemed to be arguing about something, her pouting again with narrowed eyes. …It seems he won the card game to eat the last bit of strawberry ice cream and now she's upset. It's not like with Sumika, it's a more quiet, one sided argument, with Yuuhi-sama unmoving in her position, but still not angry or anything, and he trying to make peace with her, and failing spectacularly at it.
"…They do seem to get along well."
"Indeed they do."
Yohime-sama giggled as her daughter practically dragged Takeru to the Shogi table for a match to 'win the ice cream', Takeru scratching his head as he complains that they can share it instead, to which Yuuhi-sama seems to stall a reaction, seemed to have been pacified. And then, still holding his hand, she returns to the table, sitting right by his side as they begin to eat together.
"Hehe, she truly does show many amusing expressions when around your son." She giggled again as they began to play again, I couldn't help but to also chuckle as I looked on as they played. Yohime-sama coughs, facing me frontally once more. "So… Would you be willing to join our fellowship, Shirogane?"
I close my eyes and breathe in, then set my sights on Takeru, who waves at me when he notices I'm looking. I wave back and remain gazing at him for a moment.
"…You truly will look after him if I die, Yohime-sama?"
"…Yes. I know the pressure that… one feels at the prospect of losing one's own flesh and blood. I will make sure Takeru remains safe if the worst comes to pass."
"No one will force him to… endure those whispers I've had to endure?"
"No, and I shall be taking action to banish such attitudes from my fellowship. I know you perhaps might not see your actions with much worth, but you have earned such an honor. You can place your trust in me, I shall protect Takeru." Then, again narrowing her eyes a bit, she looked straight into mine as she folded her arms. "And I assure you that, regardless of the opinions of the Tsukuyomi brothers, I shan't allow him to be forced to join us. It is the least I could do, after what you've done for us."
Taking one last look at him, seeing how happy he was now compared to all the years before, then again looking at Yohime-sama and finding the angelical smile unchanged, the firm impulse of her words still resonating in my ears…
"Then… It will be an honor to serve you with my life, Yohime-sama. All I ask is for you to keep watch over Takeru, as you've said you would." I bow to her, finally relaxing my shoulders and losing the tension that was in my stomach.
"On the contrary, it is a pleasure to welcome you into my fellowship, Shirogane." She smiled at me, wider than before. "Worry not, your son shall be safe with us. Please do keep supporting my lord husband as you have done until now."
"Yes, milady. To my last breath."