Chapter 4: Time passing
Few days had passed and Ellisa refused to eat anything or even to walk outside the room.She learned the japanesse better and now she could speak pretty well.Sesshoumaru wasn't threating her or anything,it was her choice to stay inside the room.She was wearing the clothes wich Sesshoumaru gaved and requested her to wear but she wanted her clothes,her national clothes.She was staying all day at the window,staring into nothing, hoping that someone will come and take her away.It didn't matter who as long as he came.She was feelling guilty that she trusted him and that he liked him ...desire his kisses and his touch.He was the worse any woman could imagine.She was wearing now a pale yellow with some blue stripes on the edges.It was from the most expensive silk,one maked only for demons.The most powerfull ones.Her hair was free on her shouldeurs,simply bruhed.She didn't weared any make-up.Not anymore.She was still beautifull,even without it.Her eyes were red because of the long nights in wich she had cried.But she had no tears anymore.Not even one.Hunger was torturing her but she wasn't going to give up.Not untill she will be respected and be able to wear her kind of clothes.At least that.She knew that sooner or later he will make her his.She could feel his desire but she refused him.Fear.That's what she fell.And still felt.Not love,not even desire.Fear.She feared him that soon he will lose his patience with her and do something like raping her.A demon character is so different from,a human.He can look cool and calm but he can became very angry and turn into another persone in a second.That's why her trust in him dissappeared.She will not forgive him.Never.
'I heard you don't eat and drink anything.'
It was him again.Inside her room,he closed the door behind him.She didn't turned to face him.
'I am wearing your damned clothes.You can't force me eating your food.'
'I can and I will!'he said and in a second pulled her to him,turning her to face him.Then he saw her painfull look and her red eyes.His eyes turned a little softner but he send away any sign of kindness towards her.
'Why are you keeping me here?'she asked all of the sudden.
'You know why.'
'I am not her...can't you understand?She's dead.DEAD.Accept it!'
'Shut up!'he said and pushed her on the bed.He remained in the same spot and watched her body rising from the place she collapsed.
'I am speaking only the truth.Don't I?'
'Rin will return to me cause you are her.I know all about this...She just needs time...'
'Time?To kill me,isn't it?'
She stood and camed closer.
'If you know all this why are you asking?'
She stopped in front of him with pain in her eyes.Her all body was trembling in anger.
'You only want her,don't you?'
He looked at her confused.He was clear enough,wasn't he?
'ANSWER ME,YOU BASTARD!'she yelled and slaped him as hard as she could.
He wa surprised by her action but anger tooked control over him too.He grabbed her wrists and tooked them at her back,above her ass(excuse my language).Then he pushed her into his chest(without armour).
'You will never touch me again,do you understand?'
She laughed.
'You won't hurt me.'then she looked serious.'You need this body.What will you do with a hurt one?'
'Hmpf,I need the body indeed even if the one of Rin's was much beautifull and perfect...'
That hurt her.And that was what he wanted.Making her wish to die.In that way,his Rin will return.That was his hope...
'I see...My father will come and take me from here...'
'Your father had passed away.'
Her eyes widened in shock.Tears come in that second and her body start to shake.
'He...he...is...'she wanted to say he wasn't dead but she remembered that night...'He is dead...'she finished and her breath was taken.Her longs couldn't gave her the air she needed and soon collapsed in her knees.She had astm.Her hands were shaking,trying to bring some air to her but it was useless.Sesshoumaru sat in his knees next to her and placed a hand on her back.
'Calm down.'he said in a whisper.
But she still couldn't breath.She was gasping for air but no result.Then,sudden;y,he hugged her...gently...in a different way than before...like he used to hugg his Rin when she was a child,when she was having a nightmare and they were alone.Ellisa forgot everything about her feellings towards him and allowed him to keep her in his hugg.Step by step she got herself calm and easilly,her breath returned to her,but her heart was still beating to fast.This situation was remembering him his many nights spended like this with a much smaller Rin.
Flashback
'What is it Rin?'
Rin was crying in the middle of her big bed and was trying to forget what she just dreamed.When she heard him she rised her head and saw him in the door.She smilled and runed at him.He looked down at her waiting for an answer.
'They were after me again,Sesshoumaru-sama.Gomen for disturbing you...'she said with a voice that was not her usual.She was really affected by the dream and still she was trying to be happy for him.Then he do something for the first time.He entered her room and closed it behind him.
'Sesshoumaru-sama?'she looked at him with big brown eyes.
He was hugging her.It was pretty strange for him but he tried.Rin hugged him back,happy that he allowed her this oportunity to touch him more.She was 12 now and loved the way her Lord looked and acted,even if he was very cold even with her.
'They are not real,Rin.'he said and tooked her in his arms.he put her on the bed and looked at her now happy eyes.'Sleep.I will stay here until you fall asleep again.Now sleep.'
'Arigatou Sesshoumaru-sama.'
He placed a hand on her belly to calm her more and looked over the window.
'Sesshoumaru-sama?'
'Yes,Rin?'
Rin blushed.
'Can Rin kiss you for good-night?'
'Kiss for good-night?'he rised an eyebrown.
''When I was smaller I was kissing my parents for good-night...'
'If that makes you sleep faster...'he said in sign of aprooval.
Rin rised a little and tooked him by his neck.Sesshoumaru felt strange at her innocent touch.Then,she kissed his cheek long.He felt something like electric shoks send in his body.It was the first time she ever kissed him and the first time he ever allowed to be touch in this intimate way.Then he sensed her touching his left ear,scratching easilly and without knwowing...he purred...
End of flashback...
How much would he like to be kiss again,to be given such an innocent kiss from his Rin.Then he felt her heart.She was normal.How long did he thought at that memory?Ellisa blushed now seeing her in his arms when she was Ok.Not knowing what she's doing she rised a hand and touched his left ear,scratching easilly,behind her.Then she heard something she never thought she will ever hear from him.He purred.That was a shock for him too.But he suddenly pushed her hand away with a growl that replaced his purr.Her eyes showed vim her surprise and fear as she walked away,into a corner.
'Never touch me again.'
She nodded and brought her legs to her chin and then start to shake.
'Some boxes camed today.I will send them to you because those belongs to you.'he said and left the room.
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Few days later...
'What?'she answered annoyed from her bed.It was the middle of the day but she didn't find the power to leave it.Her father death had affected her very much.
'Miss,Lord Sesshoumaru had sent you a letter.'
'Come in and leave it on the table.'she said and covered her head so the maid couldn't see her red face and bad look.
After she heard the door closed behind the maid,she walked to the table and tooked the letter with shaking hands.Then,she returned to the safety of the bed,to read it.
Tonight I have important bussiness to atend.I want you to come at 20:00 in the dining room.I hope you'll see your interest and prepare yourself.If you choose not to come,I shall make you a 'visit'.
Her anger grew like a flame and almost burned the letter only by a look at her.So,she will give him a payback.She rised on her weak legs and walked to a huge box.She opened it and tooked out a very expensive and gorgeus dress.It was a romanic type,with a free shouldeur and a very large view of her legs in it.She put it on the bed and went to take a bath.
'You will see Sesshoumaru.I can have any man I want too...Let us see what will you do when your guests will look at me with those perverted looks...'she said smirking and walking into the bathroom.