For The Love Of A Child

Chapter Four- Lu's Troubles Begin

The days and weeks that followed the rape were extremely hard and trying for Lu, because she was an emotional car crash.

Dana seemed to bounce back pretty quick form her ordeal and was soon back to her normal everyday activities. Although Lu was still taking care of her patients, she was becoming depressed and she started doing things no one would ever believe she would do.

Lu started skipping meals and whenever she ate she would throw up. She felt she had to punish herself for what happened to her. So when she ate she would throw up and then if she still didn't feel satisfied she would cut her arms with a razor blade. Of course nobody knew that she was doing this because Lu hid it so well. The only clue was that Lu's once perfect one hundred and ten pound body began to was now becoming nothing in her quest to become perfect. She figured if she was perfect what happened to her would never have happened. So now she is forcing herself to become perfect so it will never happen again.

Jonas knew that something was bothering Lu but him being a guy and all didn't know exactly how to approach Lu about it and so he decided to just give Lu her space and that she would figure it out herself.

Four Months After The Rape

"Baby…" Jonas said to Lu one night at the dinner table. "I know something's bothering you. Could you at least clue me in as to what is going on?"

Lu just sat at her place at the table and picked at her turnip greens and green beans. She moved them around on the plate not letting an ounce touch her lips. Jonas sat there starring at her playing with her food.

"I just don't feel well OK?" Lu asked as she shoved her plate away.

"You have to eat something. You haven't eaten anything in the last two days and you have hardly eaten anything since you were raped four months ago!"

"Your right Jonas something is wrong."

"What is it?"

"What's wrong is I'm four months pregnant."


The Next Day At Work

"Dr. Delgado to the ER. Dr. Delgado to the ER please." The loud speaker yelled to Lu for the fifth time.

"Where the hell is Lu?" Kayla asked as she finished up on the patient they were calling Lu for and sent him up to the OR.

Lu was struggling in the bathroom tossing her breakfast. The difference was though that she wasn't making herself throw up the morning sickness was kicking in to high gear. She had been in the bathroom for two hours and every time she tried to get up and stand up she would throw up. She finally took her cell phone and called Dana.

"Dana!" Lu gasped as she struggled for air. The morning sickness was ten times worse that normal because she has an eating- disorder.

"Lu! What's the matter? Where are you your late!" Dana asked.

"Bathroom, 1st floor, by office, last stall." Lu said as she through the phone down and another wave of vomiting hit her.

"I'll be right there Lu."

Dana walked out of her office and to the bathroom to look for Lu. She found Lu huddled in the stall by the toilet vomiting.

"Lu what's the matter honey?" Dana urged

"Dana I'm pregnant. Four months pregnant." Lu began to cry.

"Do you think it could be his?"

"I'm afraid that it'll be his."

"All we have to do is take a blood test. We can do that before the baby is even born. We need to get Jonas's blood also but we have some on store. He donated some blood incase anything ever happened to you. We can be one hundred present sure."

"Yeah lets do that."

"Have you had any prenatal care or any check ups?"

"No I just found out last night."

"Let's get that done right now. Come on let's go to my office."

"I would but I can't stop throwing up!"

"I'll be right back." Dana said.

"Where are yeah going?"

"To get you a shot. It will immediately stop the vomiting. But normally if you don't eat morning sickness worsens." Dana said giving Lu a look that simply said 'I Know What Your Hiding.'

Dana went and got the shot and then gave it to Lu in her hip. Twenty minutes later Lu was laying on the exam bed in Dana's office getting an examination.

"You really should have gotten this done earlier Lu." Dana said. "We'll have to do some tests but your eating habits have caused your baby, a baby girl, not to grow properly. Your baby is about the size of a two month fetus instead of a four month fetus." Dana said knowing that Lu would want the truth straight forth.

"So…So what's going to happen?" Lu asked. It was as if all of her years of medical school had suddenly vanished form her mind.

"Well you have a choice. You could abort the fetus or you can start to eat right and have a chance of saveing this baby's life."

"I could never kill my baby. Even if it is his I could never do that."

"Then you have to start eating right and take vitamins. There are nor promises Lu. She's really small. But there is always a chance." Dana said as she handed Lu a tissue.

"We have to save her. Jonas and I have been trying to have a baby ever since we got merried. I want a baby more than anything in the world."

"Let's take some blood form the umbiblical cord of the baby, then we can see if the DNA matches Rand or Jonas."

"Hello RWHC Lana speeking ."

"Hey Lana this is Jonas is Lu around?"

"Yup she is but she's in Dr. Stows office and I've been told to hold all calls."

"OK well thank you Lana could you just tell her I called please she wasn't looking too good this morning."

"Will do Jonas."

"Alright Lana thanks!"

"Any time baby, anytime."

"Dana I don't know what I'm going to do!" Lu vented as she layed on the exam bed.

"Your going to eat right, come in for WEEKLY exams, and in five months you are going to give birth to a healthy, happy , bouncy, baby girl."

"I know Dana but what if it's his baby?"

"Try not to think about it. We'll have the results in about two to three weeks. The labs are backed up right now." Dana replied as she told Lu to role up her sleeve.

"Do we have to do this right now?" Lu asked as she pulled her arm away.

"I mean that's what we were going to do right ? Take blood so we can give the baby a DNA test?" Dana looked at suspiciously.

"Yeah but we already took blood form the unbiblical cord.Do we have to take blood form me today too?" Lu asked although she knew the answer.

"Well Lu as a doctor you know that we have to have blood form the mother and the baby before we can do the testing." Lu still had a look on her face and still refused to let Dana look at her arm. "Role up your sleeve for me." Lu looked down and then looked up at Dana with a pleading look in her eyes.

"What's the matter?" Dana went to reach for Lu's arm and Lu quickly pulled it away.

"What are you hiding Lu?" Dana asked

Dana gently reached for Lu's arm and then roled up the sleve of Lu's long sleeved shirt. When she did she saw deep gashes in Lu's wrist.

"Lu!" Dana whispered as she looked at Lu with a sad look on her face. She asked in a gentle tone ."Why?"

"(Lu looked at Dana.) I don't know umm. ….I just get so angry. After what what he did to me, again, and I don't wanta hurt anyone else." Lu said as tears ran down her cheeks.

"So you butcher yourself up with knives and razor blades?" Dana asked.

"Cutting myself is…. it's just a thing I do to feel better. It doesn't hurt Dana."

"Ok well um lets clean those cuts and then get you up onto the scale." Dana said forgetting about the blood she needed to take.

Lu hopped down and stepped up onto the scale. Dana messed with the weights before finally concluding….. That Lu weighed one hundred lbs and she would need to gain atleast twenty to thirty lbs before she could give birth to her baby. Dana finally got some blood form Lu and then she took the blood tests p to the lab and then she came back to Lu.

"Have you had your tetnis shot yet?"

"Yeah about five or six years ago, when I got a rusty nail stuck in my foot."

"Hold out your arm were going to give you a shot to make sure you don't get anything form those cuts." Dana gave Lu the shot and then cleaned the cuts again and applied Neosporin before she said Lu was free to go.

"Thanks Dana."

"I want you to go home and get plenty of rest, don't forget to drink an abundance of fluids and for Gods sake would you eat something? And if you need me…." Dana stopped and turned Lu towards her so that they were eye to eye. "If you need me please don't hesitate to call me! I know where you live and I could be there in ten minutes."

"I'm fine Dana, really, but I can't leave I have to take care of my patients." Lu protested.

"I don't have naymore patients for today. My last patient was at 3:30pm. I'll take care of them for you and since it's Wednesday night clinic I'll take care of that for you too."

"What about your childen?"

"Nick can take care of them."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure. You need some rest your baby is depending on you."

Lu went home but when she got there she didn't go to bed like Dana had asked her to. Jonas was waiting for her at the door when she walked in.

"Baby I need to talk to you." He said as she walked into the door.

"Huh? What about?" Lu asked

"About the baby."

"Huh what about it?"

"I just want you to know that even if it isn't my baby we'll still love it and we'll care for it as if it were my own."He said as he placed his hand on Lu's tummy.

Lu snuggled into him and hugged him. She didn't want to tell him nothing about what was happening to her. She just wanted to savor the time she could spend with her husband without him being mad at her.