It's not a Diary!

Chapter four: Love potion #9

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Tuesday, September 23, Hospital Wing, Bed three

When I said that Delaney was evil before, I don't know if I really made my point. I'm sure there was someone out there thinking "But she just has a crush on him. It's sweet, why can't he give her a chance?" Well, to all you people out there thinking that... screw you!

Because yesterday, you will never guess what she did to me... she put love potion in my drink at breakfast!

So I walk into the Great Hall with Sirius and spot where Remus and Peter are. They were by the end of the table, and when we got closer, I saw that Delaney was there with them. I considered turning around and sitting somewhere else, but Sirius dragged me on. When we got there, Delaney looked up at me.

"Hey James, I was just about to leave, I'm not feeling so good," She said, "Here, take my seat." She then got up and left. She abruptly turned around and said, "I'll be in the hospital wing if you need me," Then she winked at me and walked off.

I sat down and began to eat my food. When I took a swig of pumpkin juice, I thought it tasted funny, but I just shrugged it off. By the time I was done with my food, and consequently my drink, I felt kind of odd. Like I really wanted to find Delaney.

"Come on James, we are going to be late for Charms ," Remus said, as I was the only one still sitting down.

"I don't think I am going to go. Delaney said that she was in the hospital wing because she didn't feel good. I have to make sure she is okay!" I said. They all looked at me funnily.

"James, what are you talking about? You hate her," Sirius said. I looked at him in shock.

"What? Hate her! How can you say that? I think I may even... love her. Oh gosh, I have got to go see her!" I said. At this point I ran off, so Sirius is filling me in on the rest of the conversation. Apparently Lily had been listening, and she walked up.

"What was that all about?" Lily said. The guys turned around to see her.

"James just confessed his love for Delaney Fisher. Dang, something is really wrong with that guy. I think we should make an appointment for him in the funny farm," Sirius said. Now Sirius tells me that Lily started to cry. Odd.

"What! How can he like her! That is not supposed to happen, I love him! I might as well go kill myself now, I have nothing to live for," Lily said... wait a minute. SIRIUS! He just burst out laughing. Apparently that isn't what Lily said. I mean of course not! He didn't fool me... Anyway, now he is telling me what really happened.

"Are you guys really all that thick! She was sitting in his spot, then all of a sudden after he finishes his drink he falls madly in love with that psycho? Come on, it was totally a love potion!" Lily said. The guys all looked at her as if she was crazy, then it finally dawned on them what she meant.

"Then we gotta go stop him before he does anything stupid," Sirius said, "I mean, you know, stupider than ususal," Oh thanks a bunch Sirius. So anyway then they run after me, and throughout this whole thing I was running through the halls like a maniac to get to the hospital wing on time.

I burst through the doors and see Delaney sitting on a bed. She looked fine, I'm sure there wasn't really anything wrong. So I ran up to her and asked if she was okay.

"Delaney! I got here as soon as I could. Are you okay? You should lay down, who knows what will happen to you if you are sitting up like that!" I said, running around anxiously. What a fool I was, there was obviously nothing wrong, but whatever.

"Oh, I'm fine Jamsie. But what are you doing here?" She asked playfully. I blushed.

"I just wanted to see if you were okay. Ya know, because I love ya so much," I said. Thank God I said 'I love ya,' or else she would never let me live it down. Then she walked over to me and pulled me into a tight hug. I hugged her back and suddenly Lily, Sirius and Remus burst through the door.

"STOP RIGHT THERE!" Sirius yelled. He ran over to us and knocked me to the floor. Delaney crossed her arms and glared at Sirius.

"WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM?" I screamed from under him. I started to say more, but was cut off by Sirius pouring a small vile of the antidote for love potion down my throat. I coughed a few times and suddenly everything started to come back to me.

I was in the hospital wing. Sirius had just tackled me and saved me from a fate worse than death while Remus and Lily laughed in the corner. Just then Madam Pomfrey came bursting into the room, an insane look in her eyes.

"What on Earth is going on in here! I turn my back for two minutes and all hell breaks loose! Now what is wrong with you my boy?" She said, turning her attention to me. I looked at her, and tried to answer, but couldn't. Sirius said I had this dazed look on my face, and I was just staring off into space. Remus then spoke up.

"Someone slipped some love potion in his drink at breakfast, and we just gave him some antidote we got from Professor Slughorn. I guess he is now 'lovestruck'," Remus said. I didn't really understand this, but now Remus is telling me that after you recover from a love potion, you stay lovestruck fora few hours. That means that you can barely move, and although you are perfectly capable of thinking, you can't talk. No one really knows why this happens, but healers think that it is so the person can think about what happened, and who they really love after they take a love potion.

Well, this was pointless for me, because I know who I love. Lily, definitely not Delaney. So therefore, it was very stupid for me to be lovestruck. But still, I had to sit there staring into space for 3 hours. But hey, I got to skip classes because Madame Pomfrey wanted to keep me here overnight.

So now, Sirius and Remus are sitting here, helping me to recount what happened to record in my journal. But we are done. So I think this is where I will leave you.

-James

Friday, September 26, Head's Dorm, Common room

I recently realized just how well Dumbledore would fit in at a mental institution. Today at dinner he made an announcement. We are going to be having a Halloween Dance on Halloween. That is a month from today. And guess who has already asked me three times? If you guessed Halle Berry, you are wrong (though that would be nice...)

Delaney has sent me a poem (totally sucked), a bouquet of flowers (does she seriously think I want flowers!), and just plain old asked me in the hallway. The flowers and poem were both sent by owl, and when the owl would tap on the window, Lily would get all huffy, and sigh with her arms crossed.

After the second owl came, I decided to ask her what was up.

"Lily, is something wrong? Why are you so upset that the owls are bringing me this stuff?" I asked as I dumped the flowers in the trash and went back to my potions essay. Lily sighed.

"It's not just that the owls are bringing you stuff. I'm trying to do my paper, and every five minutes there is an annoying little tap at the window, breaking my concentration. Do that somewhere else will you, I don't need a constant reminder that you have a freaking stalker," Lily snapped. She was really in a bad mood.

"Lily, what is your problem? You think I like getting this stuff? You think I want a freaking stalker?" I said. Oh, maybe it was just her time of the month. That would explain a lot. But still... She didn't answer me, just looked at her essay, pretending to write, yet the quill remained stationary.

"Are you going to go with her?" Lily asked suddenly, causing me to look up sharply.

"What? Are you serious? There is no way I am going with that freak," I said. Lily looks at me trying to decide what to say. She opened her mouth to say something, but closed it again.

"Oh. Good," Lily said. She then stood up and put her stuff in her bag, "Night, I'm going to bed." With that she walked up the stairs. I chose not to point out that it was only about 7:30.

That really was a weird confrontation. She almost seemed happy that I wasn't going with Delaney. Well, of course she would be, she hates Delaney (who wouldn't), but still. It makes me wonder if Lily is jealous of Delaney. And if she is, it come down to...why? Is she jealous that I have someone who really likes me and she doesn't (besides me, but still), or is it because she likes me, and she thinks I may like Delaney.

God, this is so confusing! And now I am faced with another decision... should I ask Lily to the ball? I don't think she likes that kind of thing, the whole dressing up in a costume thing. But you never know. And what did she mean by 'good'? Does she actually want to go with me, and she was afraid that I would go with Delaney instead? Hey, a guy can dream can't he?

UGH! I need to talk to Sirius and Remus. Mostly Remus. Sirius will just be there for the laughs. I think I will go pay them a visit, but put on the Thouritten spell because I'm not in the mood to be writing everything that was said down afterwards.

Okay, the Thouritten spell is on. Now I just need to think of where they would be. Probably in their Gryffindor dorm, as we don't have a prank planned tonight. Well, I'll just go down and find them now.

I wonder if I should even ask Lily to go with me. Maybe she will ask me if she really wants to go with me. Because if I ask her, I run the risk of being shot down again, only this time it will be different. It's not like I ask her every day anymore. This time it will be like I am really asking her out. Well I mean, I was always really asking her out, but now that I know what it feels like to have a stalker asking you out all of the time, I realize that I probably shouldn't push it.

It's amazing Lily will even look at me really. God, this totally sucks. It's not like it's even that big of a deal if she doesn't go to the stupid ball with me. If I have to wait three or four months for her, I will.

I HAVE MADE MY DECISION! I will not push it any longer. I will not ask her to the ball. If I feel the time has come, I shall ask her out, but until then I will wait. And hey, if she want's to ask me to the dance, I'll go with her. Until then, I'll be patient.

Well, I now know what I am going to do, so now that I am in the Gryffindor common room I might as well stay here the night. I'm actually kind of hungry, making an important life decision really works up an appetite. I'm gonna go ask Sirius and Remus if they want to go down to the kitchen. Maybe the house elves will have some apple pie left over...

-James

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