May 31st, 2006
I looked at my cell phone which was in my pocket; it was a bit wet but nothing serious…11:15am, May 31st. I sighed as another month and come and gone. Going outside I looked up at the hut and was relieved to see that it had survived the night. I knew however that I would have to tighten the boards or else they would slide off eventually.
As the sun about reached it's peak for the day I went into the light and cracked my back. (Some people have told me that doing this is a sign that you have arthritis, correct me if I'm wrong) This has become more of a routine for me to lean my legs back and crack each one then turn them slightly making another sound. My back though did feel very stiff and needed some loosening up. If someone else had been on the island with me I would've had them give my back a massage. I stopped thinking about my body and started thinking about what needed to be done that day. I knew I needed something hard and firm to knock the boards down to. If I had a hammer then it would make my day a snap, instead it was going to be the opposite of that.
I began thinking about the dreams I had been having the past few nights. Even when I found something to hammer down the boards I still took my time knowing that something was missing from my life. When I was hammering down the boards it wasn't a matter of getting it done at this point, but rather doing the job right. Nothing around me seemed of importance anymore. I had realized that I wasn't happy doing the things I loved to do. As the sun disappeared from the sky I could feel the temperature dropping. Soon little raindrops started falling, each one representing a fear that I once held. I knew what needed to be done. After this rain my troubles would be cleared and my life started over. Just as I built my hut, I was building myself. Each piece needed to be added at one at a time. I had to go deeper to realize what I wanted.
Out of nowhere I found myself singing an old song that I loved as a child, "If we hold on Together" by Diana Ross. It teaches to not give up and to follow your heart to your goal. I figured I would make that my tagline…or at least until someone else arrived, then I would make them feel the same way.