June 13th, 2006

I woke up to someone's breath in my face, "Oh good grief what the hell is that!"

I yelled opening my eyes.

Axel was hunched over onto me, "I just thought you'd like some breakfast in bed."

I looked down and saw a couple of cooked bass and roasted lobster. I patted him on the head, "Well thank you axel, I was wondering what happened to you yesterday, it turns out we do need you for getting us food, Jason tried to get some dinner but came up with crabs that were no bigger than his hand!"

He smiled and watched me eat, "I couldn't find anything to drink, so you may have to resort to ocean water again."

I shrugged, "Maybe Cree or Tara has one of those portable water filter thingies."

When I finished eating axel cleaned up what was left and came out with me into the sunny day. No one else was around so I figured I'd get started on my laundry. I went back inside and grabbed my suitcase then came back out and went towards the water.

"You know Brian you should be careful when you're doing this."

I turned around to him, "Be careful about what?"

His eyes shrunk, "I mean…the jellyfish, I overheard your conversation with Jason last night, ha-ha, and I'm only kidding with you!"

I pretended to back hand slap him and continued on getting the dirt out of my clothes one piece at a time.

Out of curiosity Axel stuck his head into my suitcase and pulled out a pair of underwear, "Hey what are these for?" he asked.

"Well those are for…um…..keeping your pants up, yea, and if you don't wear them every time you wear pants they'll fall down!"

He backed up, "Wow sounds pretty embarrassing!"

I smirked under my breath and continued.

By the time I was done everyone else had came back to the hut for some lunch.

"So Brian did you have fun washing your laundry?" Tara smirked.

"Yea really Brian, why would you wear underwear to keep your pants from falling down?" Jason laughed.

My face turned red as a rose, "Well what else was I supposed to tell him?"

And out of nowhere Axel yelled, "They have a point you know Brian, I'm not that stupid!"

I sat back on the sand trying to be a good sport about it.

"Anyways enough with the spying, who here is hungry!" Tara asked.

Everyone raised their hands except me. "Um right now I don't have much of an appetite."

Everyone stopped what they were doing, "Oh get real Brian, you know you're hungry you're just too embarrassed to admit it!" Tara yelled.

"Oh please, I have other things I should be doing." I calmly said.

"Like what, hitting tennis balls!" Jason countered.

"No like smacking you upside the head Jason!" In which I did without hesitation.

Everyone seemed to be against me that day, even Axel made some comments that seemed unlike him.

That afternoon I sat around without doing anything, Axel came up, "I'm sorry about earlier Brian, you know you need to laugh at yourself sometimes."

I looked over at him, "I know I just get irritated sometimes. I…" I stopped for a moment.

"You get what?" he asked.

"Never mind, I have something I have to do; I'll see you at dinner."

He didn't know what was going on but I figured he'd ask again soon. I went over to the side part of the island and sat there watching the waves go in and out. I heard footsteps behind me in which Tara made her way up beside me.

"Everyone wanted me to come apologize for them, Axel is right Brian, and you have to laugh at yourself once in a while. Since we met I have never seen you laugh once."

My head was still down, "I'm sorry I can't help it, it's one of those things that can't be explained."

She tried to be understanding and passionate but it was one of those things that you can't help but yell at.

"Brian please you have to believe me, I want you to feel comfortable talking to me!" My eyes turned red a bit and I took in a big breath, "Even if I told you why I act like I do you wouldn't understand! You think you would but you wouldn't!"

I said with tears beginning to form in my eyes.

I wiped my nose off and stood up, "If you want this to work out between us you must give me time." I ran off leaving her by the shore.

When I got back everyone was looking at me wondering what had happened.

"Brian what's wrong?" Cree asked.

I didn't bother looking over instead I went into the hut and lied down on my bed for a bit. I began thinking about how she has been there for me since she arrived. I must have forgotten about it because soon I was asleep and having the same dream I did a few nights ago. It seemed like I had slept the whole day, when I walked out it was dark out and the moon was high. I looked in Tara's room and surely enough her and Cree were sleeping. However Jason wasn't in our room.

Soon I heard someone ask, "Brian, why aren't you letting Tara help you?"

I turned around and saw Jason leaning against the hut.

"I saw her going into the hut with tears in her eyes."

I walked up to him, "You know you're not the one who has to put up with this! Let me take care of my own business I don't need you poking around!"

He didn't move at all, "Well Brian looks like you have a decision to make, either it's her or you can kiss our friendship good bye."

He made his way past me and into the cabin. I fell down underneath the tree putting my head against my knees with little tears coming down.

I thought to myself, "Why me, why is this happening. I just wish it was all a bad dream!"

My mind was so full of Tara that I hadn't bothered moving from the side of the hut and soon I fell asleep against it.