I love this chapter, I really do. It's nothing that special but it's almost exactly how I'm feeling at the moment so it was nice to vent without loking like I was complaining.
Anyway, Enjoy!
Kat x
Dear Diary,
So today I had Sunday school, and I asked my teacher about becoming a doctor. He said that God would accept it if I was helping people and it made me happy, that he just wanted the best for me, and it didn't matter to him if I was a girl or boy.
So I thought that my parents could hardly argue with God's opinion and now they had to allow me! I was so happy, but I spoke to my Dad first and he looked at me all sadly and said I'd have to speak to my mother. So I asked my Mum who was all, no way, absolutely not, I will not allow it. So I thought, maybe if I study really hard and get a job now, I can do it without her permission. But then I realized there's no way I can possibly manage that, my grades are hardly the best. So I asked my mum if I could get a tutor. But she said no, that she wasn't wasting her money so I could learn things I didn't need to know. So then I asked her to explain something to me, but she didn't know! I don't want to end up like that! Acting like education doesn't matter! I care about my intelligence and I want to prove that women can become doctors, no matter what my Mum says!
Ahhh! I'm so annoyed! She did everything short of taking by brother's exams for him, but when it's my education, it's all 'You don't matter, you're just a girl!' She's a girl too, how can a woman be sexist against women! It's so incredibly stupid! We were not just put on this earth to cook, clean and make babies! But it seems that's all I'll ever be allowed to do! Just because my brother is a boy, that doesn't make him better than me! That doesn't make him more worthy!
Oh this is so stupid, just a week ago I was perfectly content with growing up ignorant and becoming a housewife, but because of that stupid lesson, it now seems like a nightmare!
Oh, what am I going to do?
Alison xxx