And many thanks to : Duddley111 ; thatgirlyoucantrust ; mazkalns ; strawberrigashes ; Tommy4eva ; Little Eirtae ; tommys21 ; melodie568
And to those who asked about Surviving Fate's sequel, I'm probably going to start it tonight; I'm sick and bored and so you get stories :-)
Part Three: Addicted
Jude took center stage, thanking everyone for coming.
"This next song is my newest single, Addicted. Thanks again, and I hope you all like it!" She kept her eyes directed towards the balcony, a small smile on her face that didn't go unnoticed by Tommy, who was standing off towards the back.
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let
You have all the power
It's like the only company I seek
Is misery all around
She started slow; trying to remember the pain she felt when she wrote the song.
It's like you're a leach
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you
Have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna
Quit you over time
She could remember vividly now how she felt when she wrote the last few lines. How empty and helpless she felt, and how she believed she'd never stop loving him. She knew deep down she still hadn't, but she also knew that line wasn't completely true. She could move on.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost
That's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in
My head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
She went for the bridge, staring into the crowd, and she froze on one person in particular. It couldn't be…
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix, I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
It was. She was almost squinting, but she knew, she could feel, that it was Tommy. She suddenly forgot all coherent thoughts. She heard Speed behind her, and continued with the song.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
She ended the song and left the stage, quickly muttering another thank you.
He knew she recognized him; the look on her face said it all. She was scared, she was confused, and she was still in love with him.
Seeing that, he quickly walked out of the hall, following her up to the balcony.
Jude stumbled up the staircase, rushing to meet Kwest.
"You were awesome out there, Jude. Really," he said as she approached him, but he immediately was worried.
"What's wrong?"
"He's here, Kwest. Tommy's back."
And with those last two words, he was both disappointedand overjoyed.
Tommy waited outside of the door to the balcony; he could hear Jude talking to someone. Herself maybe?
He had to go in; he could hear her sobs. He knew she was confused, and more than likely scared. Hell, he was too.
He paced back and forth, not sure of what to say when he walked in. But he didn't have to.
Because she opened the door; he stopped mid-pace and was face to face with the girl he walked out on.
"Kwest, I don't know what to do. I don't want to see him. Just when things are good, he comes and tears it all apart," she cried, and he wrapped his arms around her, remembering the wreck of a girl he had to console so many months ago. He hated that she was backtracking.
"Jude, look at me. Be strong. He's obviously got something to say. You're going to have to listen; at least hear him out. You can make a decision from there," he said, and she could immediately tell this was hurting him too.
She shook her head, " No, I don't have to listen to anything. I'm good now; we're good now. He can't come and ruin that for us. He left us, Kwest. He can't pick and choose when to be in our lives… And I intend to tell him that exactly."
Kwest smiled softly, encouraging her. But he knew it wouldn't be that simple. Tommy and Jude talking? There was bound to be trouble in that; she was 18 after all, and Tommy was always her number one. He knew if Tommy was here to get Jude back, he'd succeed, no matter how Kwest felt about it.
Jude wiped her eyes and moved away from Kwest, taking a deep breath. She could do this. She had to do this. She was putting Tommy in his place, once and for all.
"I'll be back. Maybe he already left, he has a tendency of leaving when there's so much left unsaid, doesn't he?" she joked feebly, and Kwest just nodded.
She swung open the door, prepared to go look for him, but she didn't have to go far. He was standing in front of her.
"Tommy," she almost whispered, and she suddenly completely forgot the point of telling him off.
"Jude…" he lost all memory of the excuses he meant to give, of the feelings he meant to share, of the pleads he needed her to understand.
And while they stared blankly at each other, searching for the right words, Kwest sat hopelessly in the chair on the balcony, closing his eyes so he didn't have to witness the site so close to him. Maybe if he didn't see it, it wasn't really happening.
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-Ashley