Okay, since mazkalns has been a dedicated reviewer tonight, and won't be able to read until Monday otherwise, I decided the last part would be posted now.
Thanks to : mazkalns ; Catch1star ; thatgirlyoucantrust ; Insanelyradgirl and everyone who reviewed the other chapters :)
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PART FIVE: An Intricate Decision
He almost lost all hope when he felt her pulling away, pushing him farther away from her and keeping him at arm's length. But the look in her eyes told him it was for her own safety, not because she didn't feel for him. Simply because she felt too much.
"No, Tommy. You're too late. I waited too long to hear you felt the same way. And you waited too long to tell me. I can't do this anymore, I'm sorry…" she turned to walk away and felt him grabbing her arm.
"Jude, I was in Montana. I was taking care of my family. My sister died, Jude. I had to leave. But the entire time you were all I thought about. I couldn't talk to you, Jude, because I would have come right back home, and I knew I couldn't do that. My niece needed me. I'm all my sister had, and now she's gone. And now I'm all my niece has. I'm practically a father now, Jude. And as much as I love my family, and as much as I want to be there to help my niece, I know that I can't go on living this life. It's fake Jude; it wasn't real to me. It's like playing house. And I know now that it was fake because I'm missing you. And so I moved back. Things are different, but my feelings aren't, please just give me a chance. I know you won't regret it."
"I'm sorry… about your sister I mean. I had no idea."
"Because I didn't tell you," he said pointedly.
"Exactly. How do you expect anything to work for us, Tommy? Really? You're a wall when it comes to communication. You've made it your second job to shove things aside.."
He was going to defend himself, but the door swung open, and Kwest stood before them, looking at Jude.
"Your dad's leaving. Sadie, too. They wanted me to tell you, they were getting worried, so I told them we were leaving together. I hope you don't mind?"
"Thanks, Kwest. I'll get my stuff," she replied, then turned to Tommy. "It was good seeing you. I hope things work out with your niece."
"Jude, please? Don't just walk away. I'm trying here, I really am," she was shocked to see he was pleading with her.
"Tommy, I tried for years. You're the only one who walked away, whatever the reason; you could have given some explanation. And then I tried 150 times the night you left. And when you were ignoring my tries, I tried to get over you. So please, don't tell me about trying. I already told you, you're too late."
Kwest looked at her, shocked. Was she choosing him?
"I'll see you around, man?" Kwest said to Tommy, hoping their friendship wasn't completely ruined.
"Yeah, at the studio."
"You're back!" Jude asked, bewildered. She looked at Kwest, questioningly.
"Darius gave him his old job back. I was talking to him downstairs; he explained everything."
Jude shook her head, " But you're my producer now," she argued.
" He'll still be producing you, Jude," Tommy finally answered. "We'll just go back to producing together. After your tour, of course."
She stayed silent, nodding her head sadly. Could she deal with Tommy every day and not be with him? Could she fight him off for that long? And what about his niece?
She thought, stupidly enough, that if she said no, if she told him he was too late, that he'd leave. She realized now that he was back for good. She sighed for what seemed like the millionth time that night.
"Okay, well I guess we'll see you tomorrow then," she said to Tommy, taking Kwest's hand in her own and turning to leave.
"Jude, please. You can't do this," he was crying now, openly, and she felt Kwest tense up beside her.
She squeezed his hand reassuringly.
"I'm sorry, Tommy. You should have thought about that when you ignored 150 phone calls. Or when you left for 6 months. I can't give up what I have now," she glanced up at Kwest, and she saw his eyes light up, reassuring her that this was the right decision, "just because you want to try over. You used all of your chances."
"I love you, and I know you love me."
"Tommy, I'll always love you, and you'll always be one of my best friends. But I think Kwest and I have something here. Stability, friendship, possibly love, and I won't pass that up," she said, thinking about the rose and glancing at her wrist.
"We'll see you around."
Please, don't kill me? I've been wanting for awhile to write a oneshot where she chooses Kwest over Tommy, simply because of the shit he puts her through. I think it would just be funny, because it's not something you'd expect. I wasn't going to make her choose him, I was gonna turn it into a Jommy, really.But then once I got into it, by part three, I was like dude, she can't leave Kwest like that. It's just wrong.
But now that it's out of my system, you can be sure all my future stories will be strictly Jude and Tommy. And most likely Sadie and Kwest.
I hope you don't hate me!
But you're more than welcome to tell me how mad you are and how upsetting that ending was. Or, if you're really that mad, you can just not review, and I'll understand and suffer for my decisions, lol.
-Ashley
