"I cant belive this is happening. Johnny's dead! How could everything go so wrong? Was it my fault? It was my idea first...i suggested it the first time...And it was I who brought the tequila... How could I be so stupid? I knew he was in love with Marissa...I knew he was almost heartbroken..Or really heartbroken? I bet the letter he throwed into the fire was from Marissa... Maybe telling him she choose Ryan. Maybe that she loved him , but not enough? I didnt exactly do anything better. I...I hanged with him 'cuse of Marissa. My perfect sister. Mostly wanted to make her jealous.So I used Johnny. But i can't say I didn't like him. I really did. Thats why I feel so awful. And...Because of me he.. God.. the look on his face when he stood on the cliff. I'll never forgett it. So misserable. So sad...So...heartbroken."