Ghost of You
Summary: A ghost of you is all that I have left. It's all that I have left of you to hold. I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me There's nothing left of what we were at all. (Marco? read to find out!) Please R&R!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! I'm just a lonely girl wishing that I had Good Charlotte, Adamo or John to hold!
A/N: This first chapter recaps what has happened up until the end of "Tell It To My Heart". Please tell me what you think of it and be honest. CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is always welcome!
Much of Marco's life he had been in hiding. Hiding from himself, his father, the world in general. The first person to find out his little secret had promised to protect him, but when she realized that meant wasting her time she decided against it. She didn't out right tell his secret, but she had made it hard for him to hide anymore. Especially with the first guy that he could see himself with mere feet in front of him. His instinct had been to run, run and hide some more. He knew that it was wrong, but he couldn't help it.
As he sat upon the rocks, Dylan came up behind him and sat down next to him. Dylan had guessed the real Marco from the beginning of the day. He had known that Marco was in hiding and didn't know how to help him. He just knew that he had to in some way show Marco that it was ok to feel the way that he felt. Their relationship bloomed from that day on.
Marco soon began to show his true colors. Not to his close-minded parents, but to his friends. They were all supportive, except of course Spinner. Marco knew that he was doing the right thing. He knew that nothing would ever be the same again, but that it would ultimately end up how it should have been.
Marco had decided to take a stab at a date with Dylan, and figured that the movies was the perfect opportunity, after some pushing by Spinner of all people he finally got up the nerves to ask him out. They had a great time at the movies and were walking out of the theater laughing about the movie, when they saw Marco's parents. They invited them to join them for dinner, and Marco knew it was a mistake from the beginning. With his father calling the waiter a finoaky (I'm not sure if that's how you spell that or not) through out dinner, and then when Dylan finally made an excuse to leave. Marco had thought that he had lost Dylan forever.
However Dylan had other plans. He liked Marco, and wasn't going to let his close-minded parents get in the way of a relationship that he knew would ultimately be right for both of them. The next day when Marco approached Dylan and apologized, Dylan told him not to worry about it. When Marco tried to protest Dylan merely kissed him. It was the best thing Marco had ever experienced in his life. They had established a relationship and nothing was getting in their way.
At least that's what Marco thought. He had forgotten that Dylan was two grades ahead of him, and wouldn't be there after that year. Dylan was lined up to attend University on the other side of town. They had been having a great time together, up until school started the next year. Marco was at the mall getting pictures taken for his campaign posters for school president. Dylan was with him and leaned in on the last one and kissed Marco's cheek. This shocked Marco, and since he was giving them to his mother also freaked him out. What would she say when she saw it? He decided to tear that one off before handing them over to his mother. She had thought it was strange for that there only were three pictures, but didn't make a big deal about it.
Dylan however pointed it out to Marco. It had hurt him, he was sick of sneaking around behind Marco's parent's backs. He just wanted him to open up to them, and stop putting on an act. Marco had tried to say that he just wanted to give Dylan the pictures. Dylan had known that wasn't the only reason, and told Marco that he needed to talk to his parents.
This had upset Marco, who went home and was crying. His mother heard him, and went into his room to investigate. When she asked, and he said that it was relationship problems. She said that she didn't know he had a girlfriend. He said he didn't, and his mother knew right away that it was Dylan. She had always known deep down that Marco was different. That he was special. She had said that she'd keep his secret from his father.
At the election Dylan showed up, and was shocked at the way Marco defended himself when Jay yelled 'fag' from the audience. He knew that it wasn't Marco coming out, but it was a step in that direction. He decided that he couldn't drop Marco like that. He cared too much for him to do that. They were back together and everything was working out great. Marco still hadn't come out to his father, but Dylan was ok with it.
Later that year Marco had been denied from the blood drive that he had organized based on the answering of yes to the question of having had sex with someone of the same sex. He was pissed off about it and had expressed how he felt about it. When he went to talk to Dylan about it he found Dylan making out with some other guy in his dorm. Marco couldn't believe it, but had decided to go to a party that night anyways, and maybe work stuff out with Dylan. He loved him, and wanted to spend the rest of their lives together.
At the party everything went down hill. His outburst hadn't made the news like he was hoping. Dylan was set on opening their relationship up, and was even encouraging when he saw Marco talking to some guy. Marco was sitting on the steps outside the dorm talking to Craig about it, when Dylan called for him. Marco didn't know what to do so he just locked lips with Craig. This had shocked Craig, Marco, and Dylan.
After the kiss, Marco went to talk to Dylan. He didn't know why Marco kissing Craig would make him jealous. After all it was Craig. Marco had stood up to Dylan and told him that he didn't want an open relationship, and that it was him and only him or he wasn't going to stick around at all. Dylan chooses his freedom, saying that it was something important to him at this time.
After that incident Marco was crushed, but knew that his life would get back on track, and that he'd eventually find love. Just when he was running out of hope a new guy shows up at school. Tim was the type of guy that wore black, and was into drama. When a couple of guys pushed him into lockers at school, Marco decided it was his chance so he went for it. Approaching him as a friend. They ended up going to The-Dot and talking. Marco makes Tim think that he is already out to his father. The next day he asks Marco what to do after his father confronted him about a gay teen chat room that was up on the computer screen. Marco tells him to be honest with his father, show him the Tim he's been hiding for so many years. That night as Marco was eating Dinner, Tim showed up crying and hugged Marco. Marco told his father it was because Tim's father didn't like him being in the play. The next day before they left for school Marco's mother asked Tim if he'd be staying there again and he told her no. Then Marco's father asked him why his father kicked him out just because of acting. Tim took that and used it against Marco. That day during the drama festival Marco came out on stage to his father, where he couldn't just ignore what Marco had said to him. His parents ended up leaving for the remaining part of the play. When Marco got home and tried to talk to his father about it he said that he didn't want to know that part of Marco, and that he didn't want to talk about it.
After that moment Marco knew that nothing was going to be the same. He hoped that Tim would be able to help him out, but he wasn't counting on it. The next day at school Tim approached Marco and asked how his night had been. He told Tim about it with tears streaming down his face. He just couldn't hold them back. Tim embraced Marco in a tight hug and pulled him close to him. They had both just come out to their fathers, and they needed a support system. They thought that they could be each other's support systems. They didn't talk about what they were to each other, but they knew that it was slowly developing into more than friends.