Kon'nichiwa!
I start another story... this only a one-chpater story, though. Lately I wrote a bit from Dark Magician Girl's POV, so I decided to change things a bit. I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I neither own Yu-gi-oh nor the song Tong Hua.
Notes:
-This is in Dark Magician's POV
-It takes place shortly after he was killed by Bakura and sealed away.
-This is a Mandarin song by Guang Liang. I wrote the translations, so I am not totally sure if they are in the same sense as they are in chinese. It is not my first language, maybe only my second, so it should be okay... Sorry!
-My first language is not English, so I apologize for any grammical mistakes. If I have any, please point them out to me.
-Just for your information, 'tong hua' means 'fairy tale'.
I wish… I wish I could say I have no regrets. But I do.
I am glad that I have brought you time, Pharaoh, and I am glad that I can forever-more be your loyal servant. But here in this flat, timeless expanse I regret to say that my thoughts stray from you.
Mana…Her warm dark green eyes, her laughter echoing through the halls, her infectious good mood…
I miss her – all off her. Her clumsiness, humor, and even occasional bad mood. I vaguely remember… a particular clay pot out of them all. Her choice in hiding spots. …'I am going to do it now?' Her choice of excuses.
You were so different from me, Mana. You always wanted me to relax a bit, be a bit more like you. And always disappointed when I made a stupid excuse.
I forgot how long had it been
That I haven't heard from you again
Telling me the story you loved the most.
I pondered for a long time
I started to panic.
Is it because I did something wrong again?
I remember when I first admitted I loved you to myself. I had asked to you to be sure to practice a freezing charm… and you caught a cold from it. I felt so guilty… I wanted you to get better so badly… and I couldn't use magic, since I had sealed it away, and I didn't want you to get worse from a forced healing spell.
Then one night, when you are incoherent with fever – and I suspect slightly delusional from the heat – I mumbled to you "I love you" and you laughed, eyes-glazed and told me that you didn't believe me, your words slurred. But you also said… "Even so… I think… I like you too."
I was so happy.
With tears in your eyes, you told me that,
Fairy tales are all human lies
There's no way I could be your prince
Maybe you don't understand
Since moment you said you love me
All the stars in my sky are lighted
You fell asleep. I couldn't sleep, staying up and watching you all night. Then, morning came and the feeling didn't fade. For maybe the first time, I smiled for hours on end.
The next day, you were healthy again, thanks to the healers I demanded look after you. But… you didn't seem to remember that night.
I wish I could become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
Open both my hands
Turn them into wings to guard you
You have to believe
Believe that we will be like the ones in the fairy tale
That felicity and happiness are the ending.
I don't think I ever got over that. And even though I tried to hide it, you always asked me, concerned, why I seemed so sad. I couldn't bear to tell you. I didn't want to tell you that my sadness was from you. I knew it would make you sad, because you were so kind-hearted, and I wanted you to be happy, always.
So I always said there was nothing making me sad, that I wasn't sad at all. But that only made you sad, thinking that I didn't trust you with whatever it was. I think, once or twice, I caught you crying over it, but you would always tried to hide it from me.
With tears in your eyes, you told me that,
Fairy tales are all human lies
There's no way I could be your prince
Maybe you don't understand
From the moment you said you love me
All the stars in my sky lit up
That only depressed me. I wanted to keep you safe forever. Not only from the pain of injuries, but the pain of sorrow and hurt. But I was causing some of your pain, wasn't I?
I never wished I were like Set. But I regret that. He would have the courage to tell you, wouldn't he? If I had that courage, maybe we both could've been happy.
I wish I could become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
Open both my hands
Turn them into wings to guard you
You have to believe
Believe that we will be like the ones in the fairy tale
That felicity and happiness are the ending.
I found myself doing what I've never done before. I began to… dream. Of what I could've done when I had the chance. If I had the courage.
I dreamt… that one day you would remember what happened that night. I don't know how… maybe it would come to you in a dream. And... I dreamt that you would love me.
I want to be the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
Open both my hands
Turn them into wings to protect you
You have to believe
Believe that we will be like the ones in the fairy tale
That felicity and happiness are the ending
I wished for so much… so much I could've had if I'd the courage. Courage… I wished that I had that a lot.
They always did say being a willing sacrifice was an act of courage. But I, being one, knew differently. I chose the coward's way out. I thought I could escape and serve Pharaoh. Killing two birds with one stone.
But it didn't work out, did it?
I dreamt that we could have the happiness I always wanted you to have. I dreamt that we could have a future together. And that we would be happy, just because we had each other.
But it didn't work out, did it? And now I am alone, save for my regrets.
I wish… a great many things.
Things could have been different.
I will become the one in the fairy tale
The angel that you love
Open both my hands
Turn them to wings to guard you
You have to believe
Believe that we will be like the ones in the fairy tale
That felicity and happiness are the ending
Together, we can write our own ending.
By the way, if you get a chance, listen to this song... it's one of my favourites.
Thanks for reading,
Jisushika-chan