Fake Reactions
A/n: This was its own story, but now it is a chapter in Still Waters Run Deep. This is Kira's view on things. I have changed the plot line and thanx to ritachi I have a new style. It is going to be about their (GS cast) thoughts on coordinators and the like. This one takes places a few days after Lacus' one does, so by then Kira may have sensed something wrong. Let us begin.
Athrun tells me there is something wrong with Lacus.
I don't believe him. He would probably know Lacus the best, but she continues to smile, so I don't worry.
She wouldn't lie to me, would she?
Never.
But I continue to believe in things I can see. If she smiles I believe she is okay. Is that wrong?
I still feel torn up over Flay, but Lacus is the one for me.
I tell her I love her, and I mean it.
Flay was like a relief and then she became a friend, but Lacus... She is my soul mate.
Athrun asks me if anything is wrong with Lacus, and sometimes Cagalli does too. I don't see anything wrong.
Maybe I am getting blinded by love?
Andy and Murrue seem to ask her a lot if there is anything wrong. I still don't see why though.
I tell her I love her, I am over Flay.
Sometimes I think about Flay, but then I think of Lacus and that makes me feel better. Lacus doesn't ask me about Flay, but I think she is curious, so I tell her about Flay, but then she leaves before I can tell her that Flay doesn't compare to her at all.
Lacus seems to be wearing a lot of make-up lately too. I heard from Cagalli that she borrowed some from Murrue and herself.
Cagalli seems to worry about Lacus too. Why is it that everyone can see something wrong and I can't?
Lacus comforted me when I cried, but I don't think she will let me comfort her when she cries.
Why is it that everyone can see what is wrong and I can't even comfort her from her own thoughts?
I tell her I love her, but she is worried I don't.
I can't see where it hurts, but I used to be able to guess. Athrun seems to know something I don't. He tells me I should talk with her, but I don't understand. My father said that when you are in love, you will be able to know what the other is thinking.
But I feel like a schoolboy with a simple crush. I won't kiss her because it would remind me of Flay. Until that memory goes away, and stops hurting so much, I won't let Lacus see all of me and I won't let her surrender to me.
I don't want to be used by anyone ever again. But Lacus is too nice. In fact she smiles so much that I don't think there is anything wrong. Just that she likes smiling or that everyone is making a big deal out of nothing... Then again.
I tell her I love her, but she doesn't answer me.
Could that be a sign? She has been singing love songs lately, maybe I should talk to her. Maybe take her out to dinner?
God, I feel like a boy trying to impress a girl by doing something big so that she will like me. Maybe I am doing that, but I know that Lacus looks past that into your soul. She stays by my side and we are addressed as boyfriend and girlfriend, but that title doesn't seem right.
Maybe fiancees? Or how about husband and wife? I would like to spend my life with Lacus, but she might be keeping something from me. How could I live with hanging over my head?
I tell her I love her, and she runs further away.
I could be faking everyhting, trying to make sure I don't see anything wrong, becuase I don't know how to comfort another? My reactions to her not saying "I love you" back to me is that she is embarrassed or that she is shocked. Maybe I am wrong. My fake reactions and my blinded viewing might be my fault.
I sure hope not...
I tell her I love her,
But that might be hitting where it hurts.
I tell her I love her,
And she cries.
A/n: Was that a bit better? Athrun has been talking to Kira and giving him coded messages about what Lacus said a few days before. Athrun didn't tell Kira, but Kira is getting the gist of it.
Next one will be Cagalli, after Kira and Lacus talk. Kira comes to her. And then Athrun after Kira and Lacus talk, when Lacus comes to him.
These pairings you can see. No, it will not be Lacus/Athrun and/or incest Kira/Cagalli fics. Just simple friendship/sibling and love (for the KxL and AxC) pairings. Hope you enjoy these random angst fics.
Happy Easter minna-san!
TearShieldAlchemist (A.K.A Teary)