Welcome to my author notes. This chapter is just a few notes and general musings about the story you have just read. Basically comments I wanted to make while I was writing the story, but didn't so that I would not interrupt the flow. I mentioned in an earlier chapter that this would follow. I don't pretend to think it's especially interesting, but if you had too much time and wondered, here's my thoughts on some of the events in the story.

First off:

I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of it's characters. It took awhile, but I have come to terms with this (mostly). Since I forgot to put this at the beginning of the first chapter or any of the following chapters I thought I'd toss it here. I do own Kasai the shape shifter and the pink puff sprites from chapter three. Not that anyone is fighting me over the puff sprites. Now to the story.

I didn't name the chapters. I've never been good with titles, and didn't want to have to come up with a new one each chapter. It wasn't until later I realized this makes it harder to know when a new chapter is up or not. Gomen. Next time maybe I won't be so lazy.

Chapter One:

This story was intended as a one shot. Essentially I knew I wanted 2 things from it. (1) Hiei and Kurama end up together. I really like them together and no matter what kind of hell I threw at them I wanted a happy ending. (2) Neither of them could be fatally wounded as a means of getting together. This is a popular trend in fan fic where the bad-good guy gets hurt and is nursed back to health by the one who loves them. I'm not saying there is anything especially wrong with this, just that I wanted more of a challenge.

After I wrote about 5 pages of just the battle and the boys walking home I realized I was gonna have to make this multi chaptered. After I posted it I was a little disappointed because I thought it was a weak beginning. Nothing much happened to catch anyone's interest. Special thanks to those who read it from the first chapter and stayed around, I know it was a long battle.

Chapter Two:

Hiei tells Kurama that it is wrong for him to love Hiei. It was never intended for Hiei to have a problem with Kurama liking a guy, it was more Hiei not believing he was able to love or be loved.

Chapter Three:

The infamous cotton candy battle. I was trying to make the story like watching an episode so there had to be random bad demons to fight. This was when Hiei got really dark and mean. It was also about now that I realized I was writing mostly from Kurama's pov which I hadn't planned.

Chapter Four:

Koenma issues his new orders. I almost took that out a few times because I thought it was a lame excuse to get them together. In the end I left it in because in one of the Rescue Yukina episodes there is a reference made to Hiei and Kurama having their sentences connected. So I guess I felt justified.

Chapter Five:

Hiei brings back Kurama's shirt then Kurama gives it back to him. Although its never really said I got the impression that Hiei was holding onto it because it reminded him of Kurama. Hence why it is wrinkled. Think of it as a security blanket, leftthatout of the story cuz it was kinda ooc.

Chapter Six:

Big chapter, this is when we got a real plot. Since I had planned this to be a one shot I really hadn't thought out much beyond them having some trouble then coming together. Now I realized I had to come up with something intense to make them decide to be together. Really this was the start of the story. Not my favorite chapter, but then I've never been good with beginnings.

Chapter Seven:

More Hiei and Kurama alone in Kurama's room talking. Maybe next time I need to come up with more diverse locations. Just seemed to fit that they would both be more comfortable alone in a room. I really like writing just the two of them talking, but I figure I'd better add stuff to keep you guys reading. Hmm actually anyone still reading this? Heh probably not, this is pure self indulgence.

Anyways here we meet our villain. I tried to describe the shape changing thing as best as possible so you guys would have a heads up with where I was going with this. Think I lost some people a bit.

Chapter Eight:

I love this chapter. Hiei and pancakes I was smiling as I wrote it.

Chapter Nine:

Opens with another argument for Hiei and Kurama. Hiei seems to get mad over odd and unexplained things and his reasons are random. The purpose being that he doesn't know how to deal with feelings, he's not used to having any, so he lashes out at Kurama. Kurama tries to be patient, but even he gets frustrated after awhile. I almost took out a few scenes just because I wasn't sure why they were fighting anymore.

Chapter Ten:

Ah the grand finale. Originally Kasai was more innocent. He was more lovesick then evil and just wanted to be with Kurama. When I realized Kurama would have to kill him to save Hiei I started making Kasai more evil so that I didn't have to feel bad for letting him die. That is why it takes hundreds of lives, both human and demon to become a shape shifter. Also my original idea involved a cliff and Kurama having to make a choice "The Good Son" style. But I just couldn't make myself write a sudden magic cliff in the middle of a overly dense forest. And I needed Yusuke and Kuwabara to be around to give a sense of urgency.

The reason Hiei doesn't just kill Kasai isn't because Kasai is especially strong, he isn't. Instead it was more because Hiei didn't want to just kill him, he wanted to hurt him for hitting Kurama. If Yusuke and Kuwabara hadn't shown up Hiei still would have won.

I had to rewrite the ending three times until I could finally work in Hiei's last statement. I thought it was a sweet way for him to say what Kurama needed to hear without having to say it. Dignity intact they are both now free to pursue a relationship.

I'm plotting a sequel if I get anyone interested in reading. Much shorter (I hope) fic about Hiei and Kurama's first time together. Nothing explicit or vulgar, just them deciding if they are ready and if their relationship is strong enough.

Finally thank you so much to all those who read and reviewed for me. After realizing how important reviews are I've been leaving them like crazy for everyone else now. Thank you all for reading.

-ZE