Title: It's a Big Girl World
Author: MissMouseMD
Rating: K+
Disclaimer: Don't own it.
A/N: Here's chapter trois! Okay, tell me what you think, PLEASE, I have low self esteem. Thanks!
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(Age Eleven)
She's almost all grown up now.
Almost big enough to fit into the 'Teens' section.
Almost needs a bra.
Almost.
She's at that awkward age.
When she wants affection.
Compliments.
She needs to know that she's going to end up okay.
She doesn't get any of that.
At school, she's perfectly fine.
Teachers dote on her.
She makes good grades.
She wants her mother to be proud.
But it seems like she can never be pleased.
She ignores the high marks.
Comments on the low ones.
She can never be good enough.
She makes a 96 on her math test.
It's the highest grade in the class.
By almost ten points.
She's so proud.
The teacher praises her.
Her classmates envy her.
She runs home from the bus stop.
Anxious to show her mother.
But she's not home.
So she waits.
Makes herself a sandwich.
Does her homework.
Watches TV.
Finally, she hears the door open.
She runs downstairs.
"Mom, mom, guess what?"
"What, Meredith?"
She sounds tired.
Like she doesn't have enough time for her daughter.
Suddenly shy, she can't seem to find her voice.
It's obvious her mother doesn't care.
Why did she think that this test would be any different?
"Oh, I, uh, I got a 96 on my math test, see?"
Her mother looks at it.
Obviously checking her mistakes.
And then,
"Well, why didn't you get a 100?"
She feels like she's been punched in the stomach.
Tears well in her eyes.
Her mother looks at her.
"Why are you crying? For heaven's sake, you're eleven years old; you're too old to be crying. Go clean yourself up."
She runs upstairs, and locks herself in the bathroom.
She sobs silently until she doesn't have any more tears.
The next day at school, she's silent.
Doesn't raise her hand once.
The teacher looks concerned.
Asks her if something's wrong.
She replies that no, nothing's wrong.
Everything's fine.
But she's lying.
Everything isn't fine.
It hasn't been for a long, long time.
A/N: I'll try to update again as fast as I can, but I'll go faster if you REVIEW!