Title: It's a Big Girl World
Author: MissMouseMD
Rating: T (Naughty words, nothing more)
Disclaimer: Don't own nothing.
A/N: So I was in an incredibly bad mood, and the beginning is really angsty, and then it inexplicably turned almost fluffy. Almost, mind you. And I really like this chapter, so I hope you guys feel the same. Enjoy!
There
(present day)
She's curled up in her bed.
The memories just won't go away.
They replay in her head.
Over and over.
The hurt and the pain.
The loneliness.
Her mother died today.
Her mind can't quite grasp it.
In the back of her mind, she thought she'd be there forever.
Always there, but never there.
She wasn't there on birthdays.
Or graduations.
Or soccer games, or ballet recitals.
But she was there when people looked at her.
When they saw Ellis Grey's daughter.
Maybe that would never change.
Maybe her mother would always be there.
Haunting her.
Making her feel incompetent.
Like she wasn't good enough.
She wonders if she'll turn out like her mother.
She hopes not.
God, she really hopes not.
And suddenly she's crying.
She's not sure if it's grief.
Or fear.
Fear of becoming her mother.
All she knows is that she can't stop.
The flood gates have opened.
There's no stopping the tears now.
…
She's not sure how long she lays there.
All she knows is that it's dark when someone knocks.
She would tell them to go to hell.
But she seems to have lost her voice.
"Meredith? Are you okay?"
She would like to scream that no, she's not okay.
Maybe she never was.
Instead she just croaks feebly.
"I'll be fine."
It's a lie.
She doesn't feel like she'll ever be fine.
She waits for the door to close.
So she can wallow in pity some more.
Alone.
But to her surprise, the voice doesn't go away.
It's joined by more voices.
Whispering to each other.
And then, they're all coming in.
Izzie, and George, and Cristina.
Even Alex.
Izzie gets on the bed first.
The other three follow suit.
And after much elbowing and pinching and wriggling, the five of them are all on the bed.
She's in the middle.
Izzie's on her right side; and Alex is on her left.
No one says anything.
They don't need to.
She knows they're there.
A/N: That was the last chapter, and I'll really miss writing this. It's one of my favorites. So...review, please.