It was about 9 am. Marissa, Summer and Jake were at the airport and made their way to the gate. They were late.
"Jake with you I'm always late." Summer was a bit angry. She didn't want to miss the plane.
"I'm sooo sorry…but they said if we hurry up we
don't miss our plane…" He tried to rescue the situation.
The
three of them arrived the gate. The plane didn't leave. Yeah they
didn't miss it.
At the same time in the plane
"Why
aren't we leaving? Liz asked a stewardess.
"Uhm…some passengers are late. We will wait another 5 minutes." The stewardess replied friendly.
some minutes
later
Marissa, Summer and Jake entered the plane. They were
breathing heavily.
"Follow me, please." The stewardess
told them.
They nodded and followed her silently. This was a bit
embarrassing, all passengers stared at the three of them as they went
to their seats.
"Here are your seats."
"Thank you"
Summer said "Coop do you want to have the window-seat?"
"Yeah
please." She replied. Till now she didn't look up…it was
embarrassing for her, just because of them the plane was late. And
the other passengers knew that.
She looked up and wanted to go to
her seat and there he was.
Ryan.
Ryan talked with Liz. He never enjoyed flying… but he got used to it.Then he heard voices from the front door of the plane.
"Finally the last passengers have arrived…I mean don't they have watches? We all have to wait just because of them" Liz complained.
"Hey… don't get angry… they are now here and we will leave. You will see we will be shortly in Las Vegas." Ryan tried to calm Liz down.
"Yeah funny Las Vegas…this will be awesome." Seth added.
"You guys are right…" Liz said.
The stewardess showed up and behind her the missing passengers. Ryan looked up. There she was.
Marissa.
Ryan
First
Ryan wanted to turn away…pretending he hadn't seen her or she
him, but it was too late she looked at him. He could feel her look
all over his body.
He looked back.
They exchanged an intensive
look. He looked right into her beautiful eyes. These eyes he knew so
well. He saw this well known Marissa-sparkle in them, like always but
he found something other in them too...shock and insecurity. Ryan
believed that eyes are a door to the soul.
Marissa
Marissa
couldn't help she had to look at him. She had to look him right in
the eyes. It was one of these intense moments, a moment where nothing
else mattered, just the two of them.
These blue eyes, they
belonged to Ryan. For how long she missed these eyes and of course
the person they belonged to. It was like she drowned in them.
She
looked at them intensely to identify all these glances. First she
thought there was happiness in his eyes, but now she could only see
hurt and sadness in them.
This made her feel even guiltier. She couldn't stand seeing him in this pain. It hurt her too much. She wanted to apologize for everything, she wanted to ease his pain, but she couldn't say a word... and even she if she could say something... there was nothing she could say to ease the pain.
The Rest
Seth, Summer, Jake and Liz watched
this scene. Summer knew she had to do something. She had to rescue
this situation and Marissa.
She was so into helping Marissa that she didn't see Seth, who was sitting right in front of her. But it was better that she didn't recognize him.
"Hi Ryan. You decided to go to Luke's party, too?" What a lame question…it was obviously that he was going to Las Vegas too. But Summer tried to rescue the situation. But it was useless…this was so awkward for all of them.
"Err…yeah we're going too. Yeah" Ryan was back… he escaped out of this "Marissa world".
"So you are Marissa?" Liz knew that she was. But this intensive look made her worry.
"Uhm… yes I'm Marissa and you are?" she asked a bit too friendly.
"…Eliza, but you can call me
Liz. I'm Ryan's girlfriend. Nice to meet you." Liz replied and
put on her nicest fake smile.
This was enough for Marissa. She
faked a sort of smile and rushed to her seat. The seat right behind
Ryan. 'This is going to be a funny flight.' She thought
sarcastically.
Summer watched this scene, too and then suddenly she noticed that someone was staring at her. It was Seth. Seth Cohen. She stared back at him.
"So darling do you want to sit in the middle of Marissa and me, or do you want the seat next to the corridor."
'I would like to have the seat next to the
corridor…then I can run to the toilet and vomit if you call me
darling again' she thought to herself. She didn't liked this
nickname and especially not in front of Cohen.
She suddenly
blushed.
Seth still stared at her. She was beautiful, as
always and she was with a guy. He hadn't seen her for so long. Yeah
the last time he saw her, she broke his heart. And it hadn't healed
since then.
Summer saw this hurt in his eyes. She knew that she
had broken his heart and that he hated her for all that. She could
understand because she hated herself for doing that all to him. How
badly she wanted to turn back time. But she couldn't.
"Summer? Summmer?" Summer heard someone calling her name.
"Do you want the middle seat?" Jake asked again. It was like she was daydreaming he thought.
"Uhm. Yeah…middle seat sounds great." She sat down.
Summer looked at Marissa. Marissa
looked out of the window, but Summer could see that she was fighting
against tears.
'Poor Coop' she thought. It wasn't easy for her
to sit right behind Ryan. Ryan, the man she hurt and the man she
loved.
'But it's also poor me' she thought. 'My ex who hates me,
is sitting in the front row and my actual lover is sitting right next
to me and has no clue who Seth is. And if that's not enough we are
spending the weekend with him and the ex of my best friend. We should
have stayed home.' with that Summer closed her eyes, hoping that the
next few days will pass by very fast.
Marissa sat in her seat. Her head felt like he would explode. There were so many emotions going through it and through her whole body. So many thoughts. She had to fight against tears…no she couldn't cry now…not now and not here...and not in the presence of him.
'Be
strong Marissa…only this one time…be strong' she told
herself.
She closed her eyes. There it was…the picture of
Ryan…his eyes…this look…this painful and hurt look. She opened
her eyes quickly…she didn't want to see his picture.
She
breathed heavily in and out. 'Keep cool Marissa'…she repeated this
sentence a few times. She calmed down a bit.
Her thoughts were now
a bit more sorted.
'So his new girlfriend is called Liz. If they
are together long?' she couldn't help asking herself this question.
It hurt her to see him with another girl and it was hard for her.
Something in her had hoped that he wouldn't move on and forget her.
But obviously she was wrong.
'I won't make any problems' she
convinced herself.
Her thoughts went back to her last college
years. She hadn't had relationships. Yeah she dated guys, but not
more.
So Ryan moved on. 'If I could only talk to him, explain to
him and sort things out…but is this possible… to sort everything
out? I mean he trusted me and I disappointed him and did the same
mistakes once again. How could I have been so naïve.' she
thought to herself.
She knew that she couldn't tell him her
little secret. She hadn't told and couldn't tell somebody. She
lived with it all these years...
Ryan sat uncomfortable in his seat. He didn't like the thought of Marissa sitting behind him and staring at him or better at them. Liz cuddled up to Ryan.Though Marissa hurt him and broke his heart…something told him it was not right to demonstrate her how happy Liz was with him.
But he also saw that Liz was alarmed…how could he have
this intensive look exchanging here… in front of her. What would
she think now? But at the moment that didn't matter.
He thought
about Marissa. He thought that these feelings had gone that he got
over it…that he could remove these memories. The memories of the
week before they broke
up.
----------------Flashback---------------------
Marissa
and Ryan were together. They were happy…a happy couple. Julie and
Caleb were still married…what nobody had expected.
Then that new
guy came to school. Ryan didn't like him from the beginning. But
Marissa had some courses with him and found he was nice, but she also
said Ryan that he had no reason to be jealous. That she truly loved
him.
Summer & Seth, Ryan & Marissa and Jason (aka the new one) went out together. Ryan noticed that Jason sometimes stared at Marissa and... he didn't like his looks. He seemed dishonest. But Ryan knew that Marissa wasn't going to believe him…she would just say he's jealous and has paranoia.
Ryan saw it
coming…it was the same situation like the situation with Oliver…Ok,
Jason seemed normal in relation to Oliver but yeah…he really didn't
like him.
But Julie adored Jason and she showed Ryan that Jason
would be better for her daughter.
Ok...With time she accepted
Ryan, but Ryan knew that Julie hadn't changed, rich and famous
people are always better people for Julie…
One day Ryan
visited Marissa at the Nichol-Mansion. Julie opened the door and said
that Marissa will come in about 10 minutes. She was having a
shower.
And the time till Marissa would be ready, used Julie to
show Ryan that she hadn't changed.
She talked about Jason and
how sweet he was…that she met him and his parents and that he suits
perfect in the society of Newport. Ryan knew that this should be a
allusion to him never fitting into the society of Newport. That he
would never be the right one for Marissa. He thought about that the
whole day long. But little did he know that Marissa recognized that
something was different, that he seemed to be lost in thoughts a lot
lately.
It hurt her that he obviously was unhappy, but he always
told her that he's happy and everything was alright. Did he have
not enough trust in her? Did he want to leave her? But about all
these thoughts Ryan didn't know.
Then Marissa started to
behave weird. She didn't want to go out with Jason or even meet
him. Ryan was sure that there was something wrong….and he had the
feeling that something happened between them...that they must have
hooked up. But he couldn't ask her right in the face…this was too
straight even for an Atwood and more important...he was afraid of the
answer. If she would say yes…it would destroy everything.
It
would break his heart.
Marissa recognized that Ryan looked often
at her and when she looked at him he looked away. He behaved a bit
weird…should she talk to him about that?
It was time for one
of Julies well known dinner parties. She prepared everything and it
was a Saturday evening. Marissa would leave Sunday for college. But
Julie was happy for her…that she made her way. Ok…Julie helped
her to get on "the right" way…because for Julie…designing
wasn't the right one. So Marissa was going to become an interior
designer.
Ryan came over to Marissa on Saturday afternoon. He
couldn't wait longer. He had to ask her, to talk to her.
Ryan
remembered detail of that afternoon
Marissa was beautiful as
always…but Ryan found that she behaved insecure…she had this
insecurity in her eyes. He knew she faked her smiles.
"Marissa can I talk to you" Ryan asked.
"Sure" She replied a bit nervous. Ryan had a serious tone in his voice.
"What's going on with you and Jason?" Ryan wanted to stay calm….but inside of him it was like a volcano. If…he was going to explode…
"What..what do you mean? She asked innocently.
"You know what I mean…did you two hooked up…or...uhm...more?" Ryan had said it. He felt a bit revealed, but only for a second. He was afraid of her answer. He looked at her…he noticed every look of her every, move her body made…and he noticed her body language. She was nervous.
"No Ryan…there's nothing going on between us Ryan. I love you…and no one else. Believe me. Please" She replied.
Ryan stared at he believe her? He decided to do, he wanted to. He went over to her and kissed her. She kissed back and it ended in a passionate and long kiss.
At night, at the dinner party
The party was
going well... everybody enjoyed it.
Julie had to make an announcement. The evening was beautiful. Summer and Seth danced a lot and were a sweet happy couple. Ryan and Marissa too. Ryan had forgotten about the afternoon. He enjoyed every moment he had with Marissa. Tomorrow she was going to leave for college. It was going to be hard for them both...
Then Julie went up the stage and got
the micro.
"1,2,3 test..test."
"So I thank you all for
coming. We are celebrating the last day in Newport of my sweet
daughter Marissa. Tomorrow she's leaving for college and she should
know that we all will miss her.
One of my children is leaving and
another one is coming home. Caitlin honey…welcome home...I'm sooo
happy that you are here." Julie said.
Caitlin entered the room
and everyone smiled. Marissa hugged her little sister. She was happy
to meet her again.
"Err…I'm not finished… I have two surprises. The first one: Me and Caleb are proud to tell you that I'm pregnant. We are sooo happy." Julie smiled brightly rubbing her belly.
Everyone was clapping but also astonished. Kirsten had to take a big sip of her wine. She couldn't believe what she was hearing….she will get a step-sibling. Her dad and Julie will get a child... the devilish pair will get a child…that was too much at the moment.
"So it's time for the second surprise. I'm happy to announce that my beautiful daughter Marissa is in love with one of the sweetest guys in Newport. I saw them kissing and I'm so happy for Marissa and…"
Marissa looked Ryan happily in the
eyes. Her mum accepted Ryan...finally.
Ryan looked at Marissa and
they both were just happy. Julie accepted him...
"…Jason" Julie continued.
Marissa's smile froze. And Ryan's heart broke.
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So
this was a veeeery long post. A bit of the past of Marissa and Ryan
is now more clear.
So hope you enjoyed reading.