This
is now a sort of second part of the Flashback from the last post.
We
are in the past…and now we are like somebody outstanding watching
the scene…so you get all actions not only the Ryan related ones…
To
get into it, here are the last few sentences of chapter 5:
"So it's time for the second surprise. I'm happy to announce that my beautiful daughter Marissa is in love with one of the sweetest guys in Newport. I saw them kissing and I'm so happy for Marissa and…"
Marissa
looked Ryan happily in the eyes. Her mum accepted Ryan...finally.
Ryan
looked at Marissa and they both were just happy. Julie accepted
him...
"…Jason" Julie continued.
Marissa's smile froze. And Ryan's heart broke.
Ryan
glared at Marissa. Didn't she tell him that there was nothing going
on between Jason and her? How could she do something like this to
him?
Ryan
stood up, he couldn't take that now. He just wanted to get to his car
to escape. Yeah escape was the right word for it. This whole event
seemed so unreal to him and he hoped that he would wake up and
realize that this was just a nightmare.
His
head was full of questions. He suddenly had something like a
headache…his head ached because of all these questions that only
she could answer. But he couldn't take talking to her right now.
His
whole body was trembling because of his emotions. These emotions that
flow through his body.He didn't really knew what he was feeling, it
was a mixture of anger, pain, hurt and sadness.
All he knew was that he had to get away...
-----now Marissa's point of view:----
Marissa
looked right at him…she knew what he was thinking.
For
her it was like she could hear his heart breaking…and with that
hers was broken too.
She
felt like this wasn't real…no this couldn't be real…
'Marissa wake up...' she thought.
No
it wasn't a dream…or a nightmare - it was reality, the hurtful
reality.
But
before she could explain everything to Ryan he ran away.
He
ran away from her. She ran after him… she knew that he was going to
leave…and she had to stop him. She screamed desperately Ryan's
name. Again and again. But he didn't stop running.
Tears
were running down Marissa's face. She didn't cared what people
would think of what happened. She didn't care about how these tears
were ruining her make-up. Her only thought was Ryan.
She
was so desperate…what should she do? What could she do to stop him?
She
reached the entrance of the Nichol Mansion. Ryan's car was standing
in the parking area in the front garden.
"Ryan…please wait…let me explain everything." she yelled desperately, her vioce nearly cracking.
"...to explain what? That you lied to me? That you told me there was nothing going on? Too bad for you that your Mom saw everything. Can you believe it...it's the first time that i'm thankful to Julie. How long would you have hide this from me? Marissa…how could you do that? I can't even look at you…I never want to see you again. Never." It was hard for Ryan to say this…but it was that what he was thinking right now. He gave her one last look full of hurt and anger, then he turned round.
Marissa
was speechless…this made her cry even more. She didn't care, she
let flow all these tears that were burning inside of her.
A
soft "Ry.." was everything that she was able to say, before her
voice broke.
In
the mean time Ryan had turned the engine on and drove away angrily.
---The
view of the others..---
Everybody
was shocked. Ryan ran away and Marissa ran after him. A typical
Newport drama...
Only
Seth, Summer, Sandy and Kirsten understood... what that really meant.
Julie
went to Sandy and Kirsten.
"What…what was this right now…what is wrong?" Julie was shocked. How could her daughter ruin this evening?
"You
ask what is wrong? You can't be that stupid, or? I mean Julie
you've ruined the relationship of your daughter. One day before
she's leaving for college…that happened. Well done, well done
Julie." Sandy said sarcastically and clapped twice.
Kirsten
gave him a look, but she knew that he was right… Julie couldn't
be that stupid.Or?
Seth
and Summer ran after Ryan and Marissa. They witnessed the whole
scene.
When
they reached the entrance they just found a hysterically crying
Marissa. Ryan was obviously gone.
Summer ran to Marissa and took her into her arms. She tried everything to comfort her..
Marissa's
whole body was shaking because of her heavy crying.
Summer
looked at Marissa, she felt a bit helpless.
"Sum..tell..me..that..this..is..just a..nightmare. And..I..will..wake..up..every..moment" Marissa said under heavy sobs.
"Oh..Coop. Shh...It will be ok. Everything will sort out, it will be ok."
Marissa got out of the hug. She looked at her with tears in her eyes. Marissa's look frightend Summer. Her look was empty..no it wasn't empty...there was a hurt glance in it. And that was even worse than just an empty look.
"How can you say that it will be ok? I'm leaving tomorrow and my world fell apart tonight... nothing will be alright... nothing" she broke down in Summer's arms again.
Summer couldn't reply something to that. She knew that Marissa was right. Nothing would be ok. She took Marissa into her arms again.
Seth
was looking at them both.
'What
a night' he thought.
After a while Marissa stopped crying. Seth gave her a handkerchief.
"Thanks.." she nearly said inaudible.
Marissa
felt empty, powerless and tired.
She
thought about this evening...
'As always my Mom ruined everything.' She thought.
And with that thought her strenght came back. No her mother wasn't getting away with that. Never...
Marissa stood up immediately and ran into the house.
She left Seth and Summer standing in the entrance of the house.
"We should go after her…sweetie. When she does that what I'm thinking of... than we better follow her." Seth suggested.
"You think…?" Summer gave Seth a worried look
"Yeah I think…" Seth answered.
"Ok let's go!" Summer replied shortly and started to run. Seth followed her.
---
The
guests at the party talked about what had happened. Julie was sitting
at the table of Sandy and Kirsten. Caitlin and Caleb sat there too.
Suddenly an angry and furious Marissa entered the room. She looked across the room... ah there she found who she was looking for.
"Are you crazy?" Marissa started to yell at Julie.
Julie looked at her in shock, but that didn't impressed Marissa. She just glared at her and went on:
"I
wonder if you could sleep at night 'Mom'" Marissa said
sarcastically.
"How
could you call yourself a mother? You're sooo selfish. The one
daughter you send off to boarding school... and the other one you
want to put into a mental institution. Just don't deal with their
problems. Noo...just go on living in your perfect world of illusion.
All you can do is destroying other people's lives. Especially mine.
Have you ever recognized that you know nothing about me and my life?
This action today was too much even for Julie Nichol. You saw Ryan
and me here tonight... we were in love and... you knew we were
together and that we didn't broke up, so why are you doing this?
But
you know what... you've done a good job. I mean I've really
thought that after all that what Ryan and I went through... that you
finally accepted him. But obviously I was soo wrong. You can congrats
yourself Julie. You destroyed...no better... you screwed up my life
once again." Marissa looked at Julie satisfied. It felt soo good to
tell her that all.
"Yeah. Blame me.. but honey.." Julie replied cold "..you kissed Jason not I. You can congrats yourself"
"You know what…have you ever thought about that things are not always like that what they seem to be... Ah just forget it..But it was clear that you did this tonight. You want Jason to be with me... because he's more the society's darling. He would have suit perfect into Julie Nichol's perfect world of illusion. All you think about is what other people think about you. The "high society" is the most important thing for you. Julie Nichol herself and her image is the most important thing for you."
She gave her mother a last glance full of hate and turned away, when she realized that everyone was staring at her and Julie in shock.
"What are you looking at? You just have heard something about the real Julie Nichol. Or better you just saw the real Julie Cooper-Nichol in action. I think the party is over. Good night folks" She took a glass of champagne from a tablet and went upstairs.
---
Julie
sat there in silence. Her face looked a bit shocked, but also cold.
It seemed that she was more upset about the end of the party than
about the drama itself.
Sandy and Kirsten were shocked too. They never saw Marissa acting like this. They never saw her sooo furious and desperate at the same time. But they knew that she was right. Julie was always like this and she wouldn't change. And they knew that this evening would change everything.
---
"Do
you think that Julie was right…that they were kissing?" Kirsten
whispered to Sandy.
"I don't know exactly…but I think that there must be something behind it…what did Marissa mean with 'Things are not always that what they seem to be'?" Sandy replied in whisper.
"Whatever…I think we should go home. This party is over." Kirsten whispered back.
"Yeah, but can we just leave? I mean wouldn't this be rude?" he asked her.
There
was silence at the table of Julie, Caleb, Catilin, Sandy and Kirsten.
"JuJu…darling.
I think we should end the party." Caleb broke the silence. He took
her hand.
"Yeah…you're right. Marissa will calm down." Julie answered.
All the guests were leaving the dinner party. Sandy, Kirsten, Seth and Summer were driving home.
Seth and Summer did see the conversation…or better the fight between Julie and Marissa.
"Do you think that Ryan drove home?" Summer looked at Seth.
"Hmm… I hope so." He replied.
"Yeah…so do we." Kirsten and Sandy said.
They were on the way to the Cohen's house. Ryan's car was here. The four went to the Pool house.
"Ryan….can I come in?" Seth asked from outside the pool house.
"Leave me alone!" Ryan yelled.
"Ok...wront time..I see.." Seth shrugged.
"Err…I think we should give him time." Sandy suggested. The rest of the four only nodded silently.
---
Summer
and Seth went upstairs to Seth's room.
"Coop is going to leave for college tomorrow…I mean this will be horrible for her…I don't think that Ryan will come or..?" Summer said.
"After all what happened tonight? Nah.. I don't think so. We will have to go alone with her to the airport. But I think she needs us right now…and Ryan will need us,too."
"Yeah you're right Seth. She needs us and he needs us. She didn't even want to open up the door... I told her that I won't let her stay alone tonight, that I'm worried about her. But she only told me to go home…that everything is alright…that she just needs some sleep and forget tonight. Poor Coop. Everything is so messed up."
"Yeah…but poor Ryan too. I will look after him in an hour. Hopefully he opens the door. Summer... did Marissa tell you something about this kiss? Was there this kiss?" Seth looked at her.
"No…really I don't know anything about that." She replied.
"But Seth…" Summer looked Seth seriously in the eye
"Uhmm?" He looked worried…Summer had her serious look in the eye. That couldn't mean something good.
"I'm so happy to have you. The events of tonight showed me that I shouldn't take our good relationship for granted. I mean I'm so glad that our relationship is not…yeah not so complicated like Ryan's and Marissa's. I really love you, Seth Cohen." Summer had now a smile on her face.
"God…you frightened me…your serious look." Seth replied.
"COHEN?" Summer hit him playfully.
"Let me finish Summer…don't always interrupt me. And besides that…it hurts when you hit me, did you ever think about that? So let's come to the important things: Summer I really love you too. I loved you for so long before we even talked with each other. I will always love you, because for me you are the best thing I ever had and have in my life. And god, I really appreciate it that our relationship is not that complicated like Ryan's and Marissa's." Seth finished the last words and Summer kissed him passionately.
It felt so good to have Seth at her side. The same thing thought Seth. If someone had ever told him, when Ryan arrived in Newport years ago, that he will be together with Summer in the future he would have laughed out loud. But now he was with this beautiful, strong and sweet girl. They both ended up on the bed…making out.
---
Ryan
sat in the pool house. He couldn't deal with Seth and the rest of
them at the moment. He couldn't even deal with himself and his own
thoughts.
All
he could think of was Marissa and how she could betray him like that.
Not only betray him also lie to him like that.
He
couldn't help he had to image Marissa and this Jason making out.
His heart ached like someone had it in his hand and squeezed it hard.
Yeah this someone was definitely Marissa.
Ryan
had so many questions.
'Why she did this? Didn't I make her happy? Was there something she was missing? I knew this guy will make trouble…I knew it and couldn't do nothing.'... that was what hurt him the most. He felt the same like years ago. The Oliver-story.
Ryan
laid down on the bed. His thoughts went back to the events of
tonight. He replayed this whole day in slow motion.
He
felt happy when Julie said "I saw them kissing and I'm so happy
for Marissa and…" he thought that Julie finally accepted him.
He
looked at Marissa and she looked happy too. She had an amorous look
in her eyes.
'How
she could fake such a look. How could she…'. Ryan had tears in his
eyes. He didn't want to cry and at the moment he didn't want to see
her again, even if he loved her so much.
'Yeah…that's
the problem…I love her so much that I opened up and was vulnerable.
And the only one that could hurt me, hurt me. She hurt me the second
time. How could she let me down like everyone else.' He thought
desperately.
---
Marissa
sat in her room. She looked it up. Julie didn't dare to knock on
the door. Marissa sat on the ground and rested her body against the
wall. She sat there like a little girl.. a little, lost girl.
She
wore her beautiful black dress from the dinner party. Her make up was
destroyed... she had cried so much in the last hours. She now felt
empty and numb. There were no tears left to cry. In her desperation
she turned to one of her "friends" - a vodka bottle. Her
best friend at the moment. The bottle was nearly empty.
'Yeah…and tomorrow I will leave Newport for college. And I will leave him without speaking to him.. he won't speak with me..he hates me now. I was so stupid...stupid me!' she thought.
She
took another sip of her vodka... it was the only thing that helped
her now. She couldn't talk to someone. She wasn't able and no one
would understand it.
Yeah
vodka was the only real thing that made her pain go away for at least
the next few hours. And there was a lot of pain. She liked it how her
body felt numb from this vodka. It was now 4.00 am. She hadn't
slept a bit and she knew that she wasn't going to sleep much this
night.
The next day Marissa woke up and her head ached like hell. That headache made her realize that last night events were all real. The memories came flodding back.
She lost the one she loved the most and the one she will love forever.
She got up, took a pill against her headache and got dressed automatically. She opened up her drawer. She took a photo of her and Ryan out of it. She put the picture in her handbag. Then she left the room.
Downstairs
her sister Caitlin, Summer, Caleb and Julie were waiting. She ignored
Julie completely. They drove silent to the airport.
There
Seth and the Cohen's were waiting. Everybody was waiting there
except Ryan. He wasn't there.
'What do you have thought Marissa..that he will be here after all what happened last night. Silly you...' Marissa thought sadly.
She
hugged everyone except her mother and Summer started to cry. She knew
that this was soo hard for Marissa and that she couldn't help her.
Seth
and Summer hugged Marissa and Seth said: "I asked him... he didn't
want to come.. I'm soo sorry...but you know he loves you. We all
know...give him time and be strong. Summer and I know it's hard...
and if you need us, just call... we will be there in a few hours,
Ok?" Seth looked at her.
"Yeah.. thank you...you two are so amazing. I'm so happy that I have friends like you two." she said sincerely. She really felt thankful for having them.
Then she went to her gate. Yeah she would have to be strong.
'This time, time won't heal Ryan's wounds... he won't forgive me this. No way.' She thought with tears in her eyes.
-----------End
Flashback---------------------
Ryan
sat in his seat and closed his eyes.
"Honey don't sleep. Talk to me." Liz kissed him on the cheek.
Ryan opened up his eyes and shook the thought about the past out of his mind. He was now with Liz here... he won't live in the past. What happened happened. Just don't think about it right now.
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Let's see what funny things happen in Las Vegas. This
will be a funny trip. R&R