The boys picked Marissa and Summer
up. Together they were on their way to the hospital.Marissa and
Summer didn't talk about what happened. They were just crying
hysterically. Marissa just hoped that they would reach the hospital
soon. She felt guilty, but why? She and Summer weren't the one to
blame, or?
'You
should have looked after her before she got up on the bar..' she
thought. Marissa couldn't help, she felt guilty for what had
happened.
Ryan couldn't ask the girls what had happened.
They had just stopped crying and sobbing, he didn't want to upset
them now; they would start to cry again immediately.
He exchanged
looks with Luke. Luke signalled him that he thought the same. They
would ask them at the hospital, though it was very difficult for Ryan
not to ask now. He was very concerned about Liz.
Liz and he
were together now for about a half year. They get along really well.
She was beautiful and they had good times with each other. Moreover
she was understanding (or sympathetic…which word is correct?) and
Liz had been there for him. It was good to talk to her, though he
never told her the truth about Marissa. She knew that he had gone
through a though time.
He
told her everything about leaving Chino, living in Newport, about his
new family, about his new friends. But he left out everything
concerning Marissa. Ok, by now she found that they were a couple in
the past (remember chapter 4), but she only knew that they broke up
because it didn't worked out. Ryan was grateful that she accepted
this explanation. He didn't want to talk about "that". It would
suit him best if he could erase all these memories of his mind.
They arrived at the hospital. They had to wait in the waiting room. Ryan was nervous, but he was tired too. He should get some sleep, but now it wasn't the right time for sleeping. He just stared at the floor. Seth sat quietly next to Ryan.
Silence – there was a depressing silence. Everybody avoided the look of the other one.
Only
Marissa dared to look at Ryan. He looked anxious and nervous. It hurt
her to see him like that.What
hurt her more than to see him in this condition was to see him worry
so much about Liz.
'Well…he's a protective person, but Liz must
be important to him, if he cares so much about her. Finally he has
got someone other to care for, to protect. But who's going to
protect me, who cares for me?' Shecouldn't help but feeling lonely. She knew that she
had Summer who cared for her, but that wasn't the same
thing.
'This situation is so awkward.' Summer thought. Her
boyfriend sat in the opposite corner of the room and didn't even
look at her. But right now she needed him. It made her angry that he
couldn't forget this dumb fight and just comfort her now, when she
needed him. No, he had to be the offended one.
She
sat next to Marissa, who seemed to be lost in thoughts. She
recognized that she was sometimes glancing at Ryan. She knew how hard
it was for Marissa. How well did she know. Her own ex was sitting
right next to Ryan. He was obviously drunk, but – what a wonder –
he just sat there quietly.Their eyes suddenly met, but Seth
turned away quickly.
'He hates me' was Summers only
thought.
"What happened?" Ryan broke the silence. He
couldn't take that silence any longer.
Marissa and Summer looked
up.
"Uhm…we were at this bar and…" Marissa started to explain but was interrupted by the doctor.
"Carter, Eliza Carter?" the doctor asked.
Ryan stood up. "Uhm …yes?"
"Are you a relative?"
"Yes, I'm her boyfriend."
"We had to pump out Miss Carters stomach, because she got an alcoholic poisoning. Moreover she got a brain concussion and some cuts from broken glass. She has to spend the night here. she should be able to get out by tomorrow, but she should be staying in bed for at least the whole next week." (A/N: I can tell you having a brain concussion can be soo annoying….I had one, years ago – it was so annoying to spend all day in bed.)
"Thank you. Can I go and see her?" Ryan asked.
"Yes she's in room number 236"
Ryan just nodded. He was relieved that she was okay. But how did it get so far? He couldn't think of a reason why she had drunk so much….or?
"Marissa what happened? I mean the doctor told me that she has a brain concussion?" he asked.
"Uhmm…she fell off of the bar…" she looked down.
"She did what?" Ryan got angry…he knew that this "lady's night out" hadn't been a good idea right from the start on.
"Yeah… she fell off of the bar. She wanted to get another drink and when we saw her the next time she was dancing on the bar. As we made our way trough the crowd, to get her off of the bar, she fell off of it. When we arrived there, she was lying there on the ground… unconscious… Ryan I'm sorry... this night shouldn't end like this…" Marissa had to fight against tears.
"How could this happen?" he glared at her.
"Ryan…she…she drank a bit too much …" Marissa said gently..
"A
bit too much…a bit too much, Marissa?" Ryan got more and more
furious.
"…they
had to pump out her stomach…she got an alcoholic poisoning…do you
call that "a bit" too much? I know that you like to drink,
Marissa….but not everybody is a heavy or better habitual drinker
like you. And you can't tell me she drank that all for fun…what
did you tell her, that made her drink so much?" Ryan yelled now at
her.
Marissa
was shocked… why he blamed her for everything? Why he thought that
she want to ruin Ryan's relationship?
She
turned away quickly so Ryan couldn't see the tears running down her
face. She was vulnerable to Ryan...all these words from him hurt soo
much.
"Ryan, Marissa told her to stop drinking…that she had enough for one night, but Liz didn't listen and went to the bar for another drink." Summer tried to defend her best friend. He couldn't just yell at her like that.
"I
know Marissa is always the innocent one…" Ryan mumbled and walked
away to visit Liz. Marissa sat down and started to sob… Everybody
looked at her…
"Shh…Coop" Summer took Marissa into a long
hug. She knew that Marissa needed her support now.
After Ryan visited Liz, who was sleeping, they drove silently to the hotel. Marissa sat in the front row, so she hadn't to face Ryan.
---
They
arrived at the hotel, but nobody felt like sleeping."Luke can I
get another room? Summer asked. She didn't want to sleep in the
same room as Jake. She knew that it was bad from her not to tell Jake
about Seth, but so much happened tonight, he could have been there
for her, though she lied to him and that made her angry. Jake was
sitting at the bar.
"Uhmm…another room…why? Luke asked.
"I want a room for myself" she replied.
"Uhm...Okay…I'll go and ask.."
Luke
went to the reception, but unfortunately there was no free
room.
"Sorry Sum, there isn't a chance to get a free room
tonight."
"Damn" was everything that Summer could say.
"But Seth could sleep in my room and you sleep in Seth's room. I mean Seth is drunk, I think he doesn't care in whose bed he sleeps." Luke suggested.
"Okay…I will go and get my things." Summer accepted - she had no other choice.
"I will go and tell Cohen..." Luke said.
---In the meantime at
the bar---
Ryan
felt frustrated. He sat there together with Jake and drank.Ryan
got in rage…the alcohol, the events of this night and the feelings
Ryan bottled up inside all these years. He felt like a volcano…he
had to explode…these feelings had to be revealed…
---
So
Summer stays in Seth's room for this night and Seth sleeps in
Lukes.Seth was in his room to get his things he needed for the
night.
Somebody knocked on Marissa's door. It was
Ryan.
"Ryan your drunk…" Marissa could tell it by the smell
of his breath and by the fact that he barely could walk straight.
"You're
not the only one that can be drunk Marissa!" he answered
sarcastically.
Marissa looked down.
"It's my fault your drunk? What do you want to prove with that?" she asked.
"I don't want to prove anything. Just look at what you made of me. Why you always have to destroy everything? Why you didn't believe - trust me when I told you that Oliver wants to tear us apart, why you cheated on me with DJ and then with Jason. How could you tell me that there was nothing going on between you two and kiss him behind my back. How could you be so cruel and lie to me like that? How could you sit there right in front of me with an amorous look and cheat on me…what if your mother wouldn't have found out… would you have told me? Did you ever think about how I felt? Did you ever think about someone else than yourself? I was always there for you, taking care of you when you're drunk, when you needed help! I can't believe it… that I loved you all these years... you hurt me soo much Marissa…" Ryan felt exhausted but relieved.
"I've never asked for your help!" she yelled at Ryan.
"Oh come on, Marissa!" Ryan answered laughing.
Ryan suddenly ran to
the bathroom. Marissa could hear the sound of him puking..
After
that he came out of the bathroom. Marissa looked at him.
"In case you don't know I'm not feeling very well… No wait you do know! Cause you're drunk like 24 hour a day." Ryan said sarcastically.
"Yeah…you're soooo funny, Ryan." she added.
"It's just the truth Marissa. Maybe you were drunk every time we kissed; maybe you were drunk when you kissed the other guy. Maybe you never loved me really…" Ryan said, sounding sadly and hurt at the same time.
"How could you even think that? I knew you were stupid but never this stupid! You should know that I love you and things aren't always like what they seem to be.." she mumbled the last sentence, she was angry at him. How could he blame her for everything? If she only could explain everything…but what for? Everything was lost now.
"Yeah how long did I love you, how long did I suffer just because of you… yeah I might be the stupid one, but you are the drunken who.." he realized what he was going to say and regretted it at the same time.
"I am what?" Marissa got in rage...that was too much to take.. "Finish your sentence… Come on tell me what I am…you wanted to say that you might be the stupid one, but I'm the drunken whore…wasn't that what you wanted to tell me? I won't forget this Ryan, never!" Marissa yelled at Ryan. How could he dare to call her a whore? She couldn't handle Ryan anymore, she was so furious. She needed to get away. She gave Ryan a hatred look, opened the door and stormed off.
---
Ryan stood there in shock.
This shouldn't end like this. No, he wanted to be relieved and get
rid of these feelings, but now he had the picture of Marissa in his
mind. Her look when he said that she's the drunken w… no he
didn't wanted to call her that, but they both got so angry and it
just..got out of control.
He
regretted what he called her. Her look…she looked so hurt, but
furious at the same time.
Ryan felt suddenly very tired and
dizzy. This conversation or better fight made him powerless, he sat
down on Marissa's bed and passed out.
Minutes later Seth entered the room. He heard everything. Though he was drunk, he knew that this fight would have huge consequences.
---
A
knock on Luke's door. Luke opened it. He was shocked.A broken
Marissa stood there in front of him. Tears streamed down her face and
her whole body was trembling.
"Marissa what happened?" Luke asked.
"Ryan...He's drunk, we had a fight… and I can't deal with this right now! I need to go..." she said her voice cracking.
"What? Marissa you can't go!" Luke said.
"Luke I know it's your birthday and I'm really sorry, but I just can't stay here…I'm really sorry. Are you mad at me?" Marissa asked.
"Nah...I knew that it wasn't a good idea at all..you and Chino in one hotel..that couldn't work out. I understand that you can't be here… It's just bad, these couple of days should be fun, but instead they're getting a catastrophe." Luke replied and hugged her.
"Ok so let's get a cab for you." Luke suggested, he understood that she had to get away.
"Thanks…I'
will be there in a minute. I just go and get my bag." She said and
ran to her room.
She took a bag and put in it everything she would
need… some clothes, her mobile, money and passport….just the
essential things. She didn't want to wake up Ryan, he slept in her
bed. She took one last look at Ryan; he looked so peacefully when he
was sleeping.
"Why this had to end like this…" she whispered sadly, a single tear rolling down her cheek.
---the
next morning---
Ryan
woke up and had headache. He looked around and realized that this was
Marissa's room. Slowly he remembered the events of last night. He
remembered everything till he got to the hotel bar. After that he
remembered not everything. He knew that he knocked on Marissa's
door and that they had a fight, but he didn't really remember the
details of their conversation.
He
got up and walked out of the room and entered his own. Minutes later
Seth knocked on the door and entered.
"Hey man… you're finally awake. I think my head will explode every minute.." and with that he laid down on Ryan's bed.
"I know what you mean. Mine feels like that too."
"Yeah…the
Cohen's and the alcohol…noooo good combination." Seth
said.
Ryan had to laugh…but stopped immediately when he realized
how much pain it caused.
Summer stormed into Ryan's room.
Seth forgot to close the door.
"Where is Coop?" she yelled
hysterically.
"Don't yell Summer, please." Ryan said.
"I don't care if you two have a hangover, but what the hell happened… I can't find Coop."
"What do you mean with you can't find her?" Ryan asked.
"Ok..you can guess: what could I mean with that Chino?" she got mad, she knew something must have happened and her feeling told her that Ryan was involved.
"I really don't know Summer." Ryan replied.
"It means that she isn't in her room or somewhere else in this hotel."
Ryan stood up. He was alarmed, but tried to stay calm.
"Ok let's go to the reception. Maybe she left there a note for us. You will see she's just shopping or so…" Ryan said, trying to convince Summer and most of all himself.
---in
the elevator---
"What if she left without a note? I have a bad
feeling, I'm really worried." Summer said with a worried voice.
"You shouldn't be the one to worry Summer. Ryan should be the one." Seth mentioned.
"What do you mean Seth?" Ryan asked.
"Don't you remember last night? Even I remember it and I was drunk." Seth said.
"I remember that we had a fight yeah… but I can't remember exactly what I told her…" Ryan said and looked down.
"Uhm… I can't remember exactly every word…but you both were yelling at each other about the things that happened in the past. And you called her….a drunken whore."
"YOU CALLED HER WHAT CHINO?" Summer got one of her famous rage blackouts and started to hit him with her bag. Besides that if looks could kill…Ryan would be dead by now.
"Summer...please...stop it...that hurts.."
"Chino it's meant to hurt...you deserve it.." she didn't stop.
Seth helped Ryan...and finally Summer stopped hitting him..
"No…Seth…please tell me that is one of your jokes…" Ryan said unbelieving. What had he done?
"No sorry man… but I don't think that she left because of it. I mean you were obviously drunk and yeah… maybe she didn't take it seriously." Seth didn't believe that himself…
The elevator stopped and they went to the reception.
"Uhm… is there a message for room number 917?" Ryan asked the receptionist.
"Room
number 917…yes there is one" she gave a piece of paper to
Ryan.
Room read it an got pale.
"Ryan what's wrong…it's from Coop or?" Summer looked concerned at Ryan.
"Seth I think you're wrong… obviously she took it seriously." Ryan gave the piece of paper to Seth.
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Short preview
of chapter 9:
What says the piece of paper? What happened with
Marissa?
Seth and Summer have talk – sounds boring but it isn't
– I promise
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