It's posting time! Thank you all for your kind reviews ) i really appreciate them... they mean really a lot to me.


and for the one person that posted this sort of "critic"... i don't have something against critic...if it is real critic and if it's helpful or at least not offensive. so...give me suggestions what i could do better or so...or what in detail you didn't like...

Chapter 10 – or "Say What You're Really Talking About!"

Short review of Chapter 9:
Marissa left a notice for the others.
Ryan didn't tell Liz that Marissa left and why she left.
Summer thinks that Marissa will be in Tahiti (Jimmy lives there) and decided to go after her.
Jake and Summer had a fight that caused the end of their relationship.

Summer finished packing and went to the lobby. She looked around and spotted Ryan and Seth sitting at the bar. She went over to them and sat down next to Ryan.

"What happened Summer? We just saw Jake leaving with his suitcase." Ryan asked with a puzzled face.

"Uhm… let me think… suitcases and leaving… what could that mean? Yeah… I've got it….HE'S LEAVING?" Summer answered sarcastically. She was really mad about what just had happened.

Ryan looked at her sort of shocked.

"uhm….sorry… I didn't want to take it out on you… " Summer said.

"Soo… I guess you two had a fight?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah… it's over. He's soo stubborn. Whatever. Could we change the subject? There are more important things to talk about then this ashole." Summer said and rolled her eyes.

"Uhm… Sure." Ryan said and shrugged. She was right there are really more important things at the moment.

The three of them sat there in silence.

Summer wanted to talk about what happened, but Ryan obviously not. He seemed to be lost in thoughts and looked blankly at his glass.
'He's drinking again? Didn't he have enough last night?' she thought to herself.

"Ok…so enough of this awkward silence. When did you develop this drinking habit?" Summer said, motioning towards his glass.

Ryan looked at Summer, surprised and a bit shocked by her directness.

"Don't worry…this is just coke…" Ryan said pointing at his glass.

"You're sure? No coke with vodka or something?" Summer said sarcastically.

Ryan gave her his famous "Atwood-look"

"Sorry...it's just I never thought you were the "get-drunk" type. That yesterday made no sense… I mean you hated it when Ma…." Summer regretted to mention her, when she saw Ryan's face. It said something like :"Yeah.. thank you for mention her… I just have tried to forget last night for one moment…"

"…uhm..I mean you hated it when someone drank too much…uhmm…for example Cohen." Summer tried to rescue the situation…but it didn't really work out.

Summer sighed. 'This conversations is really great…' she thought sarcastically to herself.

"I don't know Summer. I'm not an alcoholic or something. And you're right normally I'm not the "get-drunk" type. But this trip…seeing her again… brought back so many memories. And then that with Liz. Everything got a bit out of control. All these feelings…" he sighed and looked down. He had to fight against his tears.
He knew that getting drunk just to forget feelings is kind a sign of weakness and no really solution, but yesterday it seemed to be the only solution for him…

"A bit out of control? I would leave out the word bit…that would be more appropriate. You screwed up a lot…" Summer said and looked angrily at him.

How could he say "a bit"…it was obviously that it was more than "a bit"…
Her best friend was gone because he called her a "drunken whore" and besides that Summer didn't want to imagine what other sentences and words they could have thrown at each other in their anger…
Fact was that Marissa escaped…yeah that's the right word for it… a escape.

"Oh come on Summer!.." Suddenly Seth spoke up and glared at her… "…he screwed up a lot? And how do you call that what Marissa did? How many times did she get drunk just to forget everything? And…did you yell at her about that? NO, not one time. So don't come here and tell us about how Ryan screwed up." Seth sorta yelled at her.

Summer and Ryan were astonished by Seth's outburst. Summer wanted to say something against it…but she couldn't.

"Yeah to drink that much was wrong… but did you ever think about how much it hurts him to see her again… the person that hurt him soo much. All the feelings that were bottled up…that he tried to forget, were present again. How do you think was that for him? How do you think it hurt him that all these memories came back by just looking at her? All these memories of him and her, of a happy couple. The memories when she messed things up, because of her ex-boyfriend…" Seth yelled angrily at Summer.
He knew perfectly how Ryan felt.

----------------Flashback---------------------
It was about a month after Ryan and Marissa broke up. Seth and Summer attended different colleges, but they talked a lot on phone and were seeing each other when ever possible.

It was Wednesday. Seth was sad, because he couldn't visit Summer this weekend. He had to visit the Nana together with his parents and Ryan.

He would love to see Summer. He missed her very much. He was very happy that their relationship lasted, though they both were attending different colleges in different places.
Since the incident on the dinner party, he and Ryan talked more about their problems. They were now real close friends….like real brothers. They talked about god and the world…nearly everything. Just one topic was forbidden: Marissa.
But Seth respected that.

His phone rang. Seth looked at the caller ID…it said: Dad

"Hey son…how things are going?" Sandy asked his son.

"Pretty good... Happened something or why do you call?" Seth asked.

"Can't I call my son just to know how everything's going?"

"Uhm… Let me think." Seth put his finger up to his lips, rolling his eyes and pretending to think, though his father couldn't see that, then he said: "No, not really."

"OK…you're right I called you because, I have good news. We have to postpone the weekend with the Nana. Kirsten and I are very busy and the Nana told us it would be better if we visit her next week or so.." Sandy said.

"Oh… that are good news...err...I mean sooooooooo sad that we can't go this weekend." Seth smiled like a little child. Maybe this was going to be a good weekend. Now he could pay a surprise visit to Summer.

So he was going to see Summer. He already stood in front of her door. She had a small apartment together with Jenna. Jenna was her roommate. He knocked on the door and a blonde girl opened the door.

"Hi…what can I do for you?" the girl asked.

"Uhm…Is Summer there?" Seth asked. This was obviously Jenna.

"No…she's out with Zach." Jenna answered.

"With…ZACH? A tall, good-looking guy with brown hair?" Seth asked shocked. Summer never mentioned Zach… or that he was here… what the hell was going on?

"Uhm… yeah that's Zach… some guy from her past. Excuse me, but you are?" Jenna was annoyed by all these questions.

"Seth… Summers boyfriend… uhm or maybe soon her ex-boyfriend. Did she tell you where they were going to?"

"Oh my god… you're Seth. Summer will kill me… I think they were going to "Jungle Club"…" Jenna answered quietly. 'Summer will definitely kill me…' she thought.

Seth followed Jenna's directions to the Jungle Club. He was furious.
'How could she do this to me? How? I will kick Zach's as!' he thought to himself.

He entered the club and looked around. On the dance floor he spotted Summer and Zach.
They were dancing. Very close…
Seth decided to watch them for a few minutes… he wanted to see what was going on…

The two danced, laughing often.
Suddenly it happened:

Zach kissed Summer

And what was the worst…. Summer did nothing against it… for Seth it seemed that she liked it.
That was too much for Seth.
He made his way furiously through the dancing crowd.

"Summer what the hell are you doing?" he yelled at her.

"Oh my god…Cohen…what…what are you doing here?" Summer's face went pale. This couldn't be real…

"What it seems like? I wanted to see you...so I found a way to visit you. But obviously you're busy…..WITH ZACH! I saw you kissing…so don't tell me you two are friends.." he gave Summer a hatred look and turned around.
He was going to leave when Summer tried to stop him.

"Seth…please...let me explain.."

"Oh yeah… I'm curious to hear that explanation…" He didn't want to hear her excuses and explanations. Nothing that Summer would say… would excuse or explain this.

Summer looked at him as he left.
It was no use to talk to him right now… he wouldn't believe her… no matter what she would say.
He wouldn't believe her that it was a coincidence that she met Zach yesterday.
He wouldn't believe her that she loves him so much and regret going out with Zach.
He wouldn't believe her that she regretted that kiss very much. She herself didn't know what the hell she was doing… for Seth it must have looked like she had enjoyed the kiss… she did nothing against it…she just let it happen. Normally she would have slapped someone who kissed her just like that… but she was shocked and then suddenly Seth was there… there was no time to slap Zach. What a luck for him..
It definitely was a bad idea to go out with Zach. Zach would never see Summer as just a friend…he would always try to make a move on her. Why she didn't saw that earlier?
-----------End Flashback---------------------

Summer and Ryan listened to what Seth just told.
In Summer's mind it made "click"…now she understood what he was talking about…

"Cohen… Jason wasn't Marissa's ex... so why don't you tell us who this all is really about? Who or What you're talking about really? Could it be that "he" is a synonym for SETH COHEN and let me guess what "her" stands for…maybe ME?" Summer yelled back.

"Whatever….believe what you want Summer…" and with that Seth stood up and walked away in the direction of the hotel Terrace/patio.

Summer looked at him walking away…again. Tears start to form in her eyes… 'He hates me..' was her only thought.

Ryan looked at Summer… he saw that tears in her eyes. He forgot one minute about his own problems and tried to console Summer.

"He hates me Ryan… he really hates me…" tears start rolling down her cheeks.

"No Summer… he doesn't hate you… and that is the problem. He still loves you… can't you see that?" Ryan looked her directly in the eyes. "And as I see you do love him too….right?"

Summer looked away…Ryan had his answer.

"No answer can be answer, too." He said putting on a half smile. "Summer I know it seems weird, but if you really love him than don't sit here around and cry about him. Go after him…and talk to him." Ryan suggested.

"But he won't listen to…" Summer tried to say but she was cut off by Ryan:
"You don't know that… maybe he will listen to you. Besides that…what do you have to loose?"

Summer looked at Ryan. He was right…she had nothing to loose.

"Thank you… I never thought you would be that understanding… and sorry… I know you're sorry for yesterday and it wasn't your intention" she said, wiping away hear tears and trying to give him a smile. Then she stood up and hugged him.

"Go, get him" Ryan smiled at her. He prayed that Seth would listen to her.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sooo that was Chapter 10. Hopefully you liked it. I know that the R/M thing was kinda left out… but yeah in Chapter 11 the R/M fans will be happy… or at least a bit satisfied, but I really had to finish this Seth/Summer plot…
And I tried to give a bit of an explanation for Ryan's alcohol consume.

Please leave comments as always

Preview Chapter 11:
The promised Seth/Summer talk and a Ryan/Summer talk
And Marissa comes back in the picture..