A/N :Ughhhh this took me forever to write. I kept writing and rewriting and rerewriting. My apologies of the horribleness of this chapter. But I needed something to kind of link this one with the next few.

School is stressful as ever. I can't wait until next year. Then I can have senioritis and actually get away with it.

But over the weekend I got to see "Fault" once again. I had to leave my tape with that episode behind while I was at the beach house, so I was "Fault"-less all weekend. When it came on USA on Sunday I was quite happy.

Speaking of "Fault", my last chapter was not meant to be so similar... what with Olivia deciding to leave. I didn't even have that episode on the mind when I wrote it. Sorry for the similarities.

Okay, I'm leaving before my mom tells me to get off again. And before I fall asleep right here on the computer.

Again, thanks to my reviewers.

Disclaimer: You know.

Casey offered to drive Olivia home the next day. She had talked to Elliot briefly, so she had a vague idea about what was going on. She couldn't help but feel guilty, feeling that she was the reason for the ruined friendship.

The ride home was silent. When Casey pulled up in front of Olivia's apartment building, all she got was a quiet "thank you." Olivia was out of the car within seconds, leaving Casey behind. Casey rested her head against the steering wheel. She'd never intended for this to happen. In fact, she intended quiet the opposite to happen.

She jumped when she heard a knock on the passenger window. Looking over, she found Olivia standing there. She lowered the window.

"Casey, come up and have some coffee with me," Olivia said.

Casey turned off her car and got out. She followed Olivia up to her apartment. When Olivia shut the door, she turned to Casey. "Casey... I'm sorry about the little silent treatment in the car. I'm just so stressed out and-"

"It's okay. I understand. I completely understand. Elliot told me a little about what's going on. I feel horrible, Olivia. If I hadn't... if I hadn't pushed you into talking to him-"

"That's the best thing you could have done." Olivia walked to the coffee maker, plugging it in.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean... if it wasn't for you, he would probably never know about this. Until something happened to the baby and they discovered that Elliot's the only other one with a perfect blood match, leading to DNA, and... ha. I'm rambling."

"It's okay. But I really am sorry."

"Don't be."

Casey sighed. "Why don't we just skip the coffee and just talk for awhile?"

"Sounds good. I can't really even have coffee anyway." She unplugged it and sat down next to Casey.

Silence filled the space between them again. Casey looked around, admiring the small decorations in the apartment.

"I should write to Elliot," Olivia said suddenly.

"What?" Casey replied, confused.

"I should write to Elliot. I need some form of closure. I can't just end things like this."

"But why write? You'll see him soon."

"No, I won't. I called Don. I, uh, told him that I can't work at the SVU anymore."

"What? Olivia, why on earth would you do that?"

"Would you want to work with the man whose child your having after he doesn't want to be a part of your life anymore?"

"I suppose not..."

Olivia got up and retrieved a large notepad and a pen from a drawer in the kitchen. She sat back on the couch. "How should I start?"

"How about... 'Dear Elliot,'"

"Oh, how creative." Olivia rolled her eyes, beginning to write.

The two spent a long time coming up with a letter for Elliot. The paper was covered with marks and scratches from various changes. Olivia copied the final draft of the letter, careful to not make any mistakes.

"Okay, so how did it turn out?" Casey asked when the finally finished.

Olivia handed her the letter. "You tell me." Casey held the paper in her hands and began to read.

Dear Elliot,

They say that time heals all wounds. I'm not sure that time could ever heal this one. For the rest of my life I'm going to look at our child and see you. Each day I'm going to wonder if he or she was a mistake. If what happened between us was a mistake. And I'm going to kick myself for letting it happen and not telling you sooner.

Maybe if you'd known earlier, things would be better between us. Maybe we'd be able to raise our child together. But I don't see that happening. Not after all we've been through.

Elliot, I care deeply for you. I did some thinking once the possibility of my pregnancy came up, and that's what I decided. I wasn't expecting the same, especially since you were married at the time. But I figured that even though I was drunk, the fact that I 'chose' you to be with that night said a lot about my feelings. Casey managed to talk me into it as well.

So I suppose this is goodbye. I'm sure Don's already told you my decision to leave the SVU. I can't face my past anymore. It's time to face my future- with our child. Without you.

Perhaps we can meet as time goes on to work out custody arrangements. Just let me get through everything first.

Sincerely,

Olivia

"That's deep," Casey said, looking up from the letter.

Olivia shrugged and stood up. She walked to her window. "I tried. I'm trying to be as nice as I can." Tears stung her eyes. "I understand why he's angry, but he really hurt me. He might just have me raise this child all on my own. I don't know how I'm going to look at Baby Stabler- er, Benson without thinking of him."

"I understand."

"I don't think anyone can understand, Casey." Olivia walked back to Casey and took the letter. She found an envelope in the drawer in the kitchen. Folding the letter carefully, she placed it in the envelope. "Can you give this to him when you see him next?" Olivia asked, writing on the envelope.

"Sure." Casey checked her watch. "I should probably go now. I told Cragen I'd be back as soon as I could."

"All right." Olivia handed her the envelope. "Thank you, Casey. For everything. I'm sorry to be venting on you like this."

"What are friends for?" Casey gave Olivia a hug and ran out the door.

Olivia sat on her couch once again. She looked down at her stomach. "Well, my love, it's time to start our new life. With or without your father."