-1"If I can't love you, I mean to be proud of you", I mean it…
My darling, I know better than to love you now. Your someone else's man, never will you be mine. You never loved me. I can tell. You never ever set your eyes on my for more than a second. I know…
I was always the weird one. No one loves me or even remotely likes me besides you and your lover. I should not be jealous because you two are the only people who like me at this castle. I can not completely hide my feelings of anger and bitter betrayal. I loved him, you knew, and you took him from me. I remember you asked me why I looked so happy that night a year ago. I told you, "my darling asked me to the party!" You only smiled and said "that's great". I should have known that you were up to something. I should have seen the burning anger in your eyes, I should have seen it blaze redder than your hair.
I can not go on anymore with out writing this to you to explain my horrible good bye. I did not intend to make such an horribly cold formal good bye. I hated the sight of you two at that exact moment. I hate how she could cling on to you like so and say such sugar coated words to you. My darling, I am not your typical green eyed monster. I have my reasons for hating her and loving you. I have reason that are too cruel and wicked for your beautiful ears. These reasons would cut your heart open because they did mine. She is not what she appears to be. She is a cat of another colour…