When there is nothing left for you

by NDebN

I can't play tennis anymore, So I quit...........Why? That's simple, there is nothing left for me. Ryoma stopped playing tennis. why? Some angst and deathno regulars. Will Ryoma get his will to play tennis back or will he find something else? COMPLETE

8. Part 8

Rating: K+
Summary: I can't play tennis anymore, So I quit...Why? That's simple, there is nothing left for me. Ryoma stopped playing tennis. why? Some angst and death(no regulars). Will Ryoma get his will to play tennis back or will he find something else?
Pairings: FujiXRyoma, OishiXKikumaru, onesided TezukaXRyoma, onesided MomoshiroXRyoma, MomoshiroXTezuka
Listening: Changin' My Life - Eternal snow
Disclaimer: No not mine, I wish they were mine. They only characters that are mine are Miyako and Ayumi, those are mine. But POT is not mine, to bad. I just play with them. And the songs I use aren't mine either.
Notes: I forgot to do this with the other chapter but I will do it now
'When they think.'
"When they speak."
singing
And everybody is a little out of character or that is what I think

Authors notes: This is the big finishing chapter, it became really large, because I wanted to give everybody an happy ending. It took me long enough to write this. The most songs I used for Ryoma are songs from the previous chapters. If I used a song that isn't from the previous chapters I will only use a small fragment from the lyrics. Hope you like it. Don't forget to review please.

Thank you for the reviews:

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-Solo Duet-: Thank you for reviewing, Yes I also like FujiXRyo and TezXRyo, but I didn't let Tezuka end up alone. Tezuka really became ooc, but I hope you don't mind.
Old Fiat: I hope you enjoyed so far.
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When There is Nothing left for you - part 8

----FlashBack----
"How do you know if you love someone?"
"You will know when that day comes my child."
"But how will I know that?"
"You will feel it."
"How will I feel it?"
"You can't stop thinking of that person and you want her or him not to go away ever. And if something happens to that person, you want to hold him tight and say that everything will be alright."
"Does it matter who it is?"
"No, as long as you love that person and that person loves you back."
"Do you love daddy, mommy?"
"Yes I do, even though he has some flaws, because remember no one is perfect."
"Do you know, I love you mommy."
"I love you to, sweety."
----EndFlashBack----

"Wake up, Ryoma."
"Yeah, I'm awake okaa-san." Ryoma tries to get the sleep out of his eyes. The last days were a little hectic, especially because he didn't want anyone to know the lyrics for the last song and he still had to practice the other songs. He would be the last performer and after his songs than they would right away perform the last song together. After that there would be firework.
Ryoma got out his bed, he didn't like to get out of bed early, but this was diffrent. Today he could be himself. "Oh shit it's already nine thirty, Fuji would come and pick me up and he will be here any second." Ryoma ran to the bathroom.

"Will he be oke up there." Nanako looked worried at Rinko. "Yes of course he will, do you want some tea, Fuji-kun?" Rinko looked smiling at the young man who was sitting at the table. "No thank you, I'm fine." said Fuji smiling. "Are you sure?" Rinko asked again. "Yes I'm pretty sure, Rinko-san." said Fuji smiling again.

"Okaa-san, do you have anything to eat for me, because Fuji-sempei will be here any second." Ryoma ran through the diningroom without paying much attention, so he didn't see Fuji sitting. "Ryoma-kun, that's no way to behave in front of a guest." said Rinko while she was comming out of the kitchen. Ryoma turned around and saw Fuji sitting at the table. "Ano...Good morning Fuji." said Ryoma a little surprised. "Good morning to you to, Ryoma." said Fuji with a chuckle. "Here is your breakfast and eat it like a good boy." said Rinko. Ryoma could only blush and stare at his food, almost like a girl before her first date. Fuji chuckled again. Ryoma gained again his composure, "Okaa-san, have you made this?" he looked at the japanese food on his plate. "No actually, Nanako made it, because today is an special day for you." She said smiling. "Thank you." said Ryoma smiling. Ryoma ate his food fast. Within five minutes he finished his plate and looked at Fuji who was staring at him. Suddenly he felt another blush comming up to his cheeks and fast he said. "I guess we should get going now, Fuji." Fuji nodded and stood up from his place. "Thank you for your hospitality, Rinko-san." said Fuji smiling. "Are you comming or what." said Ryoma standing by the door. Rinko and Nanako stood by the door while Ryoma and Fuji where walking away. "You know Nanako, my little boy has finaly found love." "Huh?" Nanako looked like she had just seen pigs fly. Rinko laughed and said: "You look like you've just seen pigs fly."

Fuji and Ryoma walked silently next to each other till thy heard a yell: "Fuji, Echizen, wait up." They both turned around seeing Miyako waving and she hold the hand of another girl who she dragged along. "Hi Miyako-san." said Ryoma and Fuji followed with, "Hello Miyako-san and Shimizu-san." said Fuji smiling. "How come that you know her?" asked Ryoma pointing at Ayumi. "Oh...I'm hurt, that you don't even remember your own school body president." said Ayumi with a smirk. "Oh." said Ryoma and he shrugged. Together they walked towards the school. "Shimizu-san do you know how much tickets are sold for the festival?" Said Fuji looking at Ayumi. "Hai, there are sevenhundred tickets sold, but there are still tickets availeble at the door." She said smiling. "Saa...That's twohundred more than last year, so I guess this year is going to be a big festival?" Fuji smiled back. "I hope the biggest ever." her smile grow bigger. Fuji and Ayumi talked a bit more till they reached the gates. "We have get going, I have to open the open podium and there is so much to do. You two don't be late for your performance." She warned. Than Miyako and Ayumi ran away.

"Is there something you want to see at the festival?" Fuji asked Ryoma. "Not really, anything is fine." he answered. "That's good, I wanted to go and play some games they have here, do you come with me?" asked Fuji sweetly. "Sure." Ryoma said. Fuji took that as a sign to take Ryoma's hand and dragg him along.

"Come here, and throw a ball. So that your favorite tennis player falls in the water." They heared someone yelling. "There I want to go." and Fuji dragged Ryoma behind him. "Hi guys, look who I have with me." said Fuji. "Ochibi!" yelled Kikumaru and jumped so what on Ryoma. "Kikumaru-sempei...you're choking me." was Ryoma able to bring out. "Eiji, please let go of Echizen." an worried Oishi darted around them. Fuji laughed at the scenery, but suddenly an dark cloud seemed to hang over everything. An angry Momoshiro yelled: "Baka, do you think you can show up after so long and think that everything will be back to normal!" Everybody looked shocked at Momoshiro except for Ryoma, he looked hurt. 'I deserve everything you say, but you don't know what it did to me. You wouldn't have understand, not like he did. Why do I think about him when these things happen.' "Momo..." Ryoma said breathless as if he was going to collapse. "You just disapeared on us and you just say 'Momo...', you should be explaining yourself, why disapear on your friends and not say a thing about 'There is nothing left for me', did you think about anything than about yourself." Momoshiro was ranting on and on. "Momo." Tezuka laid a hand on his shoulder and he calmed down right away. "Captain." Momoshiro said. Ryoma secretly smiled about the interaction between Momoshiro and Tezuka and thought: 'They would make a great couple. I didn't just think that, did I? Oh I really getting to be a pervert. '

"Your right Momoshiro, I do ow you all an explaination. But this is not the place to do that." Ryoma explained. "Than we will go some where else and let you explain it." said Tezuka, knowing that everybody in the team needed to hear the story.

After a while the entire Regular team had settled down in the grass away from the crowd. Ryoma looked at Fuji as if he needed a sign to start his story. Fuji nodded to him and at that he began his story. "My father died four weeks ago, the only reason I played tennis was because of him, the only reason I needed to get better at tennis was so I could defeat him. It never was a burden to me to play tennis, don't get me wrong I liked it. But when my father died the cause to play tennis died to. I have to admit I was angry at first, sad at second. After I told you guys I would quit I ran away from home. For three days I stayed at the beach. Alone and by myself. I learned then I needed a new purpose for my life. At first I didn't want to tell you the story because I just wasn't ready yet. After that it just got harder. I told Fuji the first, because he asked me. I couldn't refuse that..." Ryoma told his story and everybody listened nobody interrupted him. Efter thay talked things through Fuji looked on his watch and said: "We have to go, I don't want to miss the Theather play they are going to perform." Fuji took a hold of Ryoma's hand and dragged him along. Ryoma could just wave goodbye. "Fuji likes him doesn't he?" Kikumaru asked Oishi. "Yes I guess he does." said Oishi pulling his best friend and lover in a embrace. Kikumaru leaned back in the embrace and said: "Yes I guessed that to, that's good for them." Oishi could only smile at his friend.

Fuji and Ryoma had good seats at the stage. Ryoma was intensely watching the play, Ryoma enjoyed the play much. He didn't know this could be so beautiful. He know how to reconize a good singer and enjoy there way of bringing a song to life. But this had so much more. Ryoma had even held himself from not to break away in tears when the two lovers died in each others arms. Fuji on the contrary had watched Ryoma the entire time. He decided he liked this Ryoma, his Ryoma if he could help it. But he liked the emotions in HIS Ryoma. These emotions made him human.

After that Fuji and Ryoma decided together that they were very hungry and that that they should eat. The school had enough eating stands to chose from. They ate and made small talk. Ryoma felt at ease with Fuji around him. It felt like a home.

After eating Fuji dragged Ryoma along with him to watch more things on the festival. Ryoma didn't mind really, he liked being around Fuji. Although he wasn't sure if Fuji felt the same as he did, but tonight would change all that. This would be the night he would find out what kind of feelings Fuji had toward him. Ryoma didn't want to think about what ifs. He had to know for sure.

Fuji had the same insecure feelings, but he did think about what ifs. More than he wanted to. When they were eating Fuji almost felt as if his head ould burst any second. He had so many what ifs in his head that he would go crazy, if it wasn't for that Ryoma ws right beside him. They had the entire night, he didn't want to spoil the moment now, because what if...What if Ryoma would reject him?

After a while most stands were closing. Because everyone wanted to see the main events. Fuji on his piano, Miyako with her violin, Miharu and her voice, the band Loveless and of course the mysterious Ryoma and if he could really sing. When Fuji and Ryoma came back to the open podium the seats were gone so that more people could get close to the stage and making it able to dance if you felt needed. Fuji and Ryoma were really exited, because Miyako was the first who would perform. They really heared how Miyako rocked with her violin in the practice.(1)

Suddenly the stage got dark and the spot went on. There she was sitting on a chair and she began to play he violin slow at first. Everybody was already in awe. Fuji and Ryoma looked at each other smiling knowing that this would only be the beginning. And than she stood up and kicked away her chair, and her play developed a certain power where most would only dream of at her age. Most people were dancing enthousiasticly.

After a few songs Fuji said to Ryoma: "I have to go, I have go on next." "Oke, I'll manage." Fuji let go of Ryoma's hand, what made Ryoma wince inwardly. 'I'll have to let go some times, he can't hold my hand all the time.' Fuji was also hurt by the fact he had to let Ryoma go, but he was more surprised by the fact that they still had held each others hand, he hadn't even noticed as if it was normal.
Tezuka watched the entire scenery before him, they hadn't noticed that Tezuka stood right behind them, not right behind them but a few feet away, well out of sight. Tezuka cleansed his fist, and snorted inside himself. "Are you oke, Captain." Momoshiro put his hand on Tezuka's shoulder. "Oh, Momoshiro I didn't hear you comming, yes I'm alright, Thank you for asking." Tezuka said, but the hurt was visible on his face. "You love Ryoma, right?" Momoshiro asked. "I did, but he rejected me. And you Momoshiro?" Tezuka was never this blunt. "I guess I did, but I never thought I had the chance. And then something changed." Momoshiro sighed. "What changed may I ask?" Tezuka was blunt again, not knowing what posessed him. "You may, I fell in love with someone else. I always thought that person was really cold, but somehow I was able to see him in a different daylight. I walked past the lockers, when he was upset. And that's when I saw he did care. I don't know if you're willing to let me in you're heart, but you already have mine. That sounded really bad, I should go before I make a fool out of myself." Tezuka was letting the words sink in. Momoshiro was busy walking away. "Momoshiro..." Tezuka grabbed Momoshiro's arm. "Yes, Tezuka-sempei." Tezuka looked in the soft eyes of Momoshiro. "Do you want to go on a date with me? I don't know if I love you right away, but I know there's something there." Tezuka sad look changed into a smile. "As long as you smile like this, I'll go anywhere with you." Momoshiro pulled Tezuka towards him and kissed him, there they stood for a while in each others embrace.

In the meanwhile Fuji had began to play a song. The song was called 'Deep blue'.(2) I started really slow, but the suspense became greater and greater. Although it was still a song for people to slow dance. "Ryoma, where is that cute boy of yours." Ryoma turned quickly around, as he wanted to see who gave him the scare of his life. There his mother and Nanako stood. "Mom, thought you couldn't come?" Rinko smiled and hugged her son. "I made time, I wanted to surprise you." This time Ryoma smiled. "I'm glad you could come and you to Nanako-san." "Ryoma, I asked you a question, where is that cute boy of yours?" This time Rinko got all serious. "He's not mine and he is performing on stage." Said Ryoma. Rinko caught a glimps of sadness in his voice. "I didn't know he could play this wel, now I know at least that you didn't let someone incompetent on my piano." She winked at Ryoma. What made Ryoma smile. "He will be back after his performance." Rinko smiled at Ryoma understanding. Together they listened to the songs Fuji played. One of them was Unknown Love, when he heard the name of the song he felt a jealous stab in his chest.(3)

Than the next performer went on stage. But it wasn't who was expected. "You had fun till now? I know that we were the next but we had slight chance of plans. Will Ryoma please report backstage, they need you. So let's get this show on the road. We Are Loveless and we will perform a few songs. Hope you'll like it." Said a voice to the crowd. And a rock song started to play. The crowd didn't mind who was playing as long they were good.

"I'm sorry mom, I guess I'm needed." Said Ryoma smiling. "Go Ryoma, we will wait for you here." Rinko said fast, Nanako smiled and nodded. Ryoma ran as fast as his legs would cary him.
"I'm here, what's the emergency?" said Ryoma once he came backstage. "Oh, it's terrible, the girl, Morita Miharu has sudden stage fried, and now I don't know what to do. So I needed to have my next act here." said Ayumi in desperation. Miyako who stood next to her sighed. "What I have to go next? I haven't brought enough songs to prolong this all." Ryoma choked the words out "Whaaat, you have to." Ayumi yelled trying to shake sense into Ryoma. "Wait don't do that." Miyako pulled Ayumi back who was breathing very fast. "I might have an idea, you know that you've practiced a few songs with us, I always remember songs I've played and you Fuji?" Miyako asked looking towards where Fuji stood smiling. "I know them also." he answered. "Oke than with the song you made you have how many songs." asked Ayumi looking towards Ryoma. "Nine." he said dumb struck. "That's good." Ayumi sighed as she fell back on the chair.

"You have to change into your outfit." Fuji said smiling pushing Ryoma into the chambers. "I'll wait here." he continued smiling. Ryoma changed into his outfit. When he got out of the chambers, it almost looked like Fuji was drooling over this sexy little prince. Ryoma wore a thight pair of leather pants with red Tank shirt, which was also really thight and showed his slim figure and a pair of fingerless leather gloves and his hair looked like he just got out of bed and with those eyes still a little sleepy like he didn't know what had happend. He just looked so hot or that's what Fuji thought. "Fuji stop drooling, Loveless is almost finished with there songs." Fuji fast looked somwere else and Ryoma looked around like he missed the big clue of the joke. "Oke, is everything ready? Good, than we go over things ones more, Ryoma you will first do your five songs with the Orchestra and after the songs Fuji and Miyako will play with you the last four songs. You will need to save your song you made for last. You do have finished the lyrics Echizen right?" Asked Ayumi looking at Ryoma. Ryoma just nodded.

After Loveless was finished, the Orchestra took there place on the podium and started to play. Then there was the cue for Ryoma he hold tight on his microphone and walked onto the stage. As if the stage was build for Ryoma, he moved his body on the music as if he never did anything else.
When the intro was over Ryoma brought his mircophone to his mouth and started to sing.

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

'This is were I life for.' Ryoma thought as he saw the crowd listen to his every word.

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters...

"I hope you enjoyed the song Nothing else matters." Ryoma said as he finished his first song. "Yeah." screamed the crowd. "My name is Echizen Ryoma and the next song will be a song I wrote for my father. It's called Sakura No Ame, Itsuka." smiling at the reaction from the crowd.

Almost everybody was slow dancing on the song. Fuji stood behind stage and watched Ryoma as he walked and danced around on the stage. 'Your so beautiful, that I almost can't control myself.

"Rinko-san I didn't know that Ryoma could sing this good." Said Nanako full with awe she looked at Rinko who let her tears fall as she looked at Ryoma on the stage. Nanako hugged her aunt. "Yes he really loves it." Rinko said between tears.

The five songs that Ryoma would perform on his own went by really fast. "And for my last four songs, I need the help of two friends. Welcome Fuji Syusuke and Ishimaru Miyako." Ryoma smiled at the two figures that came onto the stage. Fuji took place behind the piano and Miyako had her Violin in her hand. "The first song we're gonna play for you is The Starry Sky, it's written by my mother when I was little." Ryoma said. And the music started playing.

Uh...Again tonight there's the fleeting starry sky
Uh...The shining stars are hanging with wishes...

Although worries will always endure,
The door is opening
Walking, falling, you're the one that picks me up and gives me strength
So you'll become a proud star I'll sing
Now I wont do less than my best, I'll become stronger like...

'This is my favourite song that Ryoma sings.' Rinko thought and thought back to the peacefull times when her husband still lived.

Unswaying love, this important love
No one else is so precious
This night is surely uneasy but
We're the one that won't lose, but go on living...

After the third song Ryoma said, "We'll have a short break now and than we'll be back for our last song for now the Orchestra will entertain you." Ryoma, Fuji and Miyako left the stage to go back. "You were great." Ayumi said jumped happy around. "Thank you." Ryoma said and took a glass of water. After a few seconds Ayumi calmed down and started talking to Miyako.
"Fuji?"
"Yes, Ryoma."
"I wanted to tell you something."
"What is it, Ryoma?"
"The song we are gonna perform next, you'll have to listen good to the song oke?"
"Oke, Ryoma, I will." said Fuji not really understanding what Ryoma meant. But before he could ask anything they had to go back onto the stage.
"Goodluck Syusuke." said Ryoma toward Fuji. Fuji looked shocked, did he hear that good, Ryoma called him Syusuke. This can´t be true. Than Fuij got the cue to begin with playing after a while Miyako joined him. And than Ryoma said: "This song I wrote for a special someone, You'll know who you are." And with that he started to sing.

My feelings just keep on growing stronger
Do you even notice how I feel for you?
But I could not say the words when I had the chance

Silently, like the snow
I keep on pretending...

'I knew you could do it Ryoma.' Thought Rinko as she looked at the happy face of her song.

Hold me tight, I never wanted to
Know what it feel like
To fall in love with someone
I love you and my tears won't stop
If this goes on,
I would have been better of not knowing you...

"They made a good song." said Ayumi to herself.

How long am I going to continue thinking about you?
As I breathed one the window it became foggy
My heart is like a lit candle
I wonder if I can keep it from melting

Ryoma hoped that Fuji knew this song was for him, hopefully he will understand

Hold me tight, strong as if I'll break
Even if I run into a winter snow storm

I won't be cold
I miss you, everytime you're on my mind
I'll be hugging this knitted scarf alone again tonight
If the snow falls eternally
I wonder if I can continue hiding my feelings about you

Between the lyrics ryoma looked back toward Fuji and saw that he had his eyes open and Ryoma whispered: "I love you." 'He loves me, me, only me, he wrote this song for me.' Fuji thought happy.

Hold me tight, I didn't want to know
What it felt like to fall in love with someone
I love you so much that my heart overflows
I want to cry out to the winter sky
That I want to see you right now

It was going to the ending and looked back to Fuji and than Fuji joined the two last sentences.

Hold me tight
I love you...

Ryoma looked loving towards Fuji and Fuji smiled loving back. The crowd was aplausing like crazy. "Thank you all you were a great audience." Ryoma said. And hand in hand Fuji walked back behind stage. "Did you really mean it." Fuji asked looking at Ryoma. "Yes I do, are you mad at me?" Ryoma looked scared. "No silly, I love you to." Fuji said pulling Ryoma in an embrace. Ryoma eyes were wide open, but than they soften and he locked his arms around Fuji. After a while Fuji let go of Ryoma and with the indexfinger he lifted Ryoma had so that he looked at Fuji. "I really love you." Fuji said and he kissed Ryoma.

What do you do when there is nothing left for you? Then you will find someone and something new, like I found Fuji.

The End

1. I don't know if you watched the movie 'Raise your voice', yeah that one with hilary Duff. I don't really like her, but my sister is a huge fan of hers, at least she was till she got so thin. Anyway that's beside the point, in that movie there is a girl in the end that really knows how to rock with her violin. If you've seen that you know what I mean. She is good. I've actually used that part of the film I guess.

2. Deep Blue is a song of Keiko Matsui, It's really good, only music. Some like it some don't But that song really fits in the MomoshiroXTezuka scene. If ya listen the song you'll know what I mean.

3. Unknown Love is know song that exists, only in my for that is. As I should give a song that I head in mind when I wrote that name it would be Endless Sorrow from Ayumi Hamasaki. it's sad but stil a beautifull song, with a soul or I would like to believe so.

Authors note: And did you liked it? I did, I liked writing this last chapter even though it's really long. I might ad an Epilogue, but that's not sure yet. Oh I do love Fuji and Ryoma. They are so cute together. The Last song I used was from Changin' My life - Eternal Snow. It's really a beautifull song, I translated it again. There is no violin in it, but my mind heared one so, I thought it could. But anyway did you like it? Please read and Review, please because I live for you reviews.