Life(Our Lady Peace):)

Moze's Pov

Okay howadmit right now but I am falling in love with you Moze

-Ned

Okay that was like two months ago.

How did my life get so confusing?

One word answer.Ned.

Why is it me and not some other girl many times do I have to pronder why I said yes to Ned.Really?I love him but I am having doubts if he actually loves me.You know.I am so confused right now.I just wanna be alone with time to think.Who am I kidding I'm in love with him.I'm exicted and happy but are we even dating?

Oh my god am I actually freaking about Ned Bingy my best friend?This could be a being the key word.I don't know how to describe this feeling.I'm not used to this.I complain alot.

Think.Think.Think.I know how to.To many thoughts at once.

"Jen you mind if I come in?"Erin asks.

Yeah I do.Wanna say it won't.

"NO".I say letting her in.

"Jen I know you probally will never ever like me but if it helps..."She starts but can't contuine.

"What happeneed?"I ask worried about her.

I know she's my step mother but she is now the closest thing I have to a mom.

"I never got the chance to tell my best friend I was in love with him".She said.

"Your best friend was a guy?"I asked in disblief trying to hold back laughter.

"Yes and don't laugh.He died when he was eighteen.He got in a car crash and died upon impact".She said going back into her memories.

"Wow".I say realizing how hectic her life really is.
I really am selfish.I only thought about myself and not her or my day or Jullian.I am so stuck up.Ned tried to tell me this and I told him to shut up.Wow.I only make her life worse.

"I am so sorry".I say.

"His name was Eric".She said.

"Was he like Ned?"I asked.

There will be bond if it's the last thing I do.Don't hold me to this.

"In every way possible".She said.

No wonder she was always nice to Ned and Cookie.

"I really am sorry".I say not wanting to think of what it would be like without Ned.

"It's okay".She said getting up to leave.

I try to say something but nothing comes out.

"Jen I tell Ned the whole truth".She said emphazing on the whole truth.

"I think I will".I said cleaning my room.

"ow".I say a few minutes later as I almost break a cd.

I open and out pops a note.

I may be to stupid to ?Who knows.

I take a look at that stupid yearbook.

Nice cover.Nice pages.

Caterorgies were set up nicely too.

Nicest smile:Ned Bingy and Jennifer Mosely.

Best Friends:Jennifer Mosely and Ned Bingy.

Wait the best friend makes sense the nicest smile is Suzie Crabgrass and Seth Powers.

Oh great.

I flip through till I find Ned's page.

His mays well be the same as mine but for a few things.

Picture Prefect Couple That Won't Happen For Awhile:Jennifer Mosely and Ned Bingy

I look at that picture and realize I am past in love with Ned I am wanting to be with Ned.How?HOW?

I feel like crying on so many levels.

Why do emotions get in the way of what we want to say?Why do people hate each other?So many questions no answers.Yet.

Okay I am getting more emotionly because I am falling in love with my best friend and I denied it for awhile.I wanna kiss him so much rite now!This is not fair that your best friend who is a guy is who you end up with in the end.IT SUCKS!I love it though.Okay so what if I am actually falling in love for the frist time.I haven't even had a boyfriend or or my frist kiss.Casey out!