"I've Had Questions Without Answers"
A/N - Hey, everyone! I'm back with a new Instant Star ficlet :3 This is just a quick prologue. Chapter 1 will be up tonight or tomorrow. This is just a little sneak peak to set it up and to see if anyone is interested.
It takes place after last week's episodes…Jude and Spied are dating. Jude is still mad at Tom for everything he's done. And Jude's 17th birthday is 2 days away.
DISCLAIMER - I don't own Instant Star. (sniffle) I wish.
(I also don't own the song used in this chapter. It's "The Beautiful Letdown" by Switchfoot. I really liked the lyrics, and the title worked great for the chapter:3 )
Enjoy! And review, please!
-JQ-
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Prologue : The Beautiful Letdown
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Jude settled herself onto a stool, guitar in hand. It felt good to be back, recording her sophomore album. Even if Tom was on the other side of the glass. But she didn't want to think about that.
"Jude, you ready?" he questioned over the intercom. She nodded and pulled the microphone closer to her mouth.
"Yep." She began strumming slow, a haunting and hypnotic melody filling the room.
It was a beautiful let down
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful let down
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do
In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in, fit in,
Until I found out
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But I don't belong
It was a beautiful let down
When you found me here
Yeah for once in a rare blue moon I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful let down
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasing our tails and the rising sun
And our dark water planet's
Still spinning in a race
Where no one wins and no one's one
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But I don't belong
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down yeah
Let my foolish pride
Forever let me down
Easy living, not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Won't you please take me off your list
Easy living please come on and let me down
We are a beautiful let down,
Painfully uncool,
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures and the fools
Oh what a beautiful let down
Are we salt in the wound
Let us sing one true tune
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Feels like I don't belong here
Let me down
Let me down
Feels like I'm let down
Let me down.
Cuz I don't belong here
Please
Won't you let me down?
Jude strummed the last chord, letting the sound fill the studio booth. When she was done, she looked up at Tom, tears filling her eyes. She set down the guitar and ran from the room, not wanting him to see her this upset. She collapsed against the wall outside the studio, salty tears flowing swiftly down her cheeks.
Why was she doing this? He hadn't even cheated on her. He had cheated on her sister. But in some twisted way, it felt like he had cheated on her.
All because she had let her guard down and had even begun to trust him again. She believed in him with her whole heart. She believed that he was better than all the tabloids made him out to be. She believed that he was better than his best and he was better than everyone said.
And she loved him with her whole heart.
But while he and Sadie had been dating, she had made it her personal mission to make sure that the two people she cared about the most in life were happy…together.
Big mistake.
Tom would never change. Ever.
And as sad as it was, it really was a beautiful letdown.
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A/N - Okay, this was just a quick prologue, but tell me what you think! I'll get the next chapter up a-sap!
Love,
Jude Quincy