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Love Is

Roger waited along the side door for Mimi to come out. The minute the door opened Roger started talking.

"Mimi I am so sorry. I didn't mean to start anything, but I just thought that Gordon was going to try and sell you a gram and I got scared. You are-"

"Roger Davis! I cannot believe you do not trust me! This is still my first day back. I have not even been here for 24 hours and already we have fought." She leaned against the wall in frustration. "What is happening to us baby?" she whispered.

"Mimi," Roger said. "I don't know. I want to trust you. I want everything to be alright, but it is so hard to believe what you say. You promised me a year ago that you wouldn't do drugs and you did. I just don't know anymore."

"What is there to know?" she cried. "I love you. Why isn't that enough?"

"It is enough," Roger said defensively.

"Then why are we dwelling on this," she said. "Love is about trusting desire and starting to learn. Now Roger, you need to learn that I won't ever betray you. You need to trust your desire to be with me. You need to walk through every fire and believe that you won't get burned. Love is about clinging a shoulder. Love is where the leap begins. Stinging and older, being asleep on pins."

Roger smiled at his girlfriend. They walked home together arm in arm. Mimi hated how they always got into little fights here and there, but then made up two seconds later. One on hand, it showed how strong their love for each other was, but on the other hand, it was eating away at their lives and adding more things to be angry about later.

When they got home, Mimi went directly to sleep. She had not slept in her bed in 11 months. She threw herself onto the mattress and took a deep breath. Roger had not cleaned her apartment in 11 months, either.Luckily, Mimi was sound asleep, so he had time to straighten up. He did not want to get hell from her in the morning. He went to the bathroom first. He opened the mirror and found about 10 syringes and 3 packets of smack. He grabbed them in his fist. They were definitely old, which meant she was true to her word about staying off drugs. He walked slowly to the garbage can and dropped them in. After another half hour, Roger finally crawled into bed next to Mimi. Mimi began to stir as he climbed in. She rolled over and smiled. Roger kissed her on the head and closed his eyes.

o o o o o

A loud obnoxious knock woke up Mimi the next morning. She rolled over Roger and shuffled over to the door. The minute she opened it, she saw her x-boyfriend Benjamin Coffin III.

Mimi instantly pushed him back out the door. She closed the door behind her and put her finger to her lips.

"What are you doing here?" she cried.

"Hi to you too," Benny said opening his arms. Mimi leaned into the hug, half-heartedly.

"Roger will murder you if he sees you here," Mimi whispered. "You need to go?"

"You're still dating that scum. I thought you went to rehab to fix your life," Benny smirked.

Mimi glared at him. Benny coughed nervously and continued, "Listen, I just wanted to stop by and say hi. If you need anything I am always here. You know that right?"

"Of course I do," Mimi smiled. "It is nice to see you too."

"Maybe we could go out to eat later," Benny offered.

"Call me," she whispered. She walked back into the house. Roger was thankfully, still asleep. Mimi looked at the old clock on the wall. It was dusty and pathetic looking. The only reason she kept it around was, because when she was 16, her and her friends stole it from a diner in town. Every time she looked at it, it reminded her of the days where she had so many opportunities and when she was healthy. It read 7 a.m.

"Typical Benny," she thought. "He always did wake up very early. Probably on his way to work. Probably on his way to make the plans for evicting us." She sighed as she thought about her days with Benny. In many ways, she missed him. It was easier to be with a powerful man from the upper class, instead of being with an x-druggie who played his guitar all day. She also loved Roger more than anything and would never leave him, no matter how hard it was to be with him. She walked back into her bedroom and saw Roger, still sound asleep. She laughed as he let out a small snore. She reached under the covers and put her cold hands on his stomach.

"SHIT," yelled Roger. He jumped out of bed. "What the heck Mimi?" He had an angry look on his face, but it was obvious he was trying with all his might to suppress a laugh.

"Good morning babe," Mimi said in a happy voice.

"I am going to get you back," smirked Roger.

"You just try," Mimi flirted.

Mimi went over to the cabinet. Nothing was in it.

"Roger," she said. "Have you been in my room at all since I left?"

Roger smiled sheepishly.

Mimi grabbed her robe from a nearby chair and walked upstairs. She knocked on Mark and Maureen's door. She heard laughter on the other side of the door.

"Open up," Mimi said.

No one answered, so Mimi pushed open the door. Mark was lying on the bed and Maureen was on top of him, kissing him vigorously.

Mimi coughed. Maureen turned quickly, but in the process, fell off the bed. Mimi laughed.

"Do you have any food?" Mimi asked.

"I wish," Mark said. "A box of Cap'n Crunch would taste so good."

"I think we have a piece of stale bread in the cabinet," Maureen teased.

"Yum," she laughed. She turned around and walked back downstairs. She opened the door and was met by Roger, whose face was clouded over.

"What babe?" she asked.

"Your cellular just rang," he said. He held up the phone. "Why don't you see who called."

Mimi snatched the phone away from him. It wasscratchedand really cheap.Benny had given it to her as a gift when they were dating. She flipped the phoneopenand checked her call history. "Benny," she whispered.

"WHY THE FUCK IS HE CALLING," Roger roared.

"CAN YOU CALM THE FUCK DOWN FOR TWO SECONDS," Mimi yelled. "WHAT THE HELL HAS GOTTEN INTO YOU LATELY. I REALLY CAN'T STAND IT. I CAME DOWN HERE TO SEE IF YOU WANTED TO GO OUT TO BRUNCH!" She calmed down and gave him a dark look, "but I think I will call Benny."

"If you take another step," Roger whispered harshly.

"What are you going to do about it," Mimi yelled. She stormed out of the room and ran down the stairs. She stopped at the bottom of the stairs and took a deep sigh. She began to let the tears flow. She heard footsteps behind her. She turned around and saw Maureen sitting on the step above her.

"What happened, Mimi," Maureen asked. "This is your second day in New York and you and Roger have already had 3 fights."

"I love him so much," Mimi said. "He is just so overprotective of me. I can't stand it. I am really considering leaving him."

"You can't," Maureen whined. "When you left for rehab, Roger totally shut down. It was even worse, than when April died." Mimi cringed at Roger's dead girlfriend's name. She was the reason Roger had AIDS. She has the reason Roger was so bitter. "He just sat in his room and played that stupid guitar. He went back to smack. He-"

"What?" Mimi practically yelled. Maureen threw her hand over her friend's mouth.

"Shhhh," Maureen hissed. "He only took two hits. Two days after you left, I walked into your room and saw Roger in the corner shooting. He saw me and had tears in his eyes. He pleaded with me and made me promise I wouldn't tell Mark. I agreed, but I made him give me the needle. He said he had found it in your cabinet and couldn't resist. That night though, Mark caught him on tape doing it again. I totally flipped on him. After that, he stayed out of your room."

"Oh my god," Mimi cried.

"Let's face it," Maureen said. "You are a tease to him. You give strangers lap dances all day. You are getting thinner. He isn't sure if you and Benny are over or not. He just isn't sure. So, the way he keeps it certain that you won't leave him, is by treating you like a daughter, someone he can boss around and protect."

Mimi stood up and slowly walked up the stairs. Maureen reached out and gave her a reassuring pat on her arm.

"Roger Davis," she said, walking through the door of her apartment. Roger started to stand up. "Sit down! We are going to talk. Now! I want to get things straight with you."

"Fine," Roger mumbled.

"I do not love Benny. I repeat me and Benny are over! You need to stop freaking out every time I am out of sight. You need to start being happy and fun to be around. I really love you, but loving you has become harder and harder," Mimi cried.

"Meems," Roger said. "I am just so afraid you are going to leave."

"Roger! I love you," she said. "Not anyone else, you!"

"I am not talking about that," he said. "I mean, you are sick. You said so yourself. I am scared you are going to die."

"What makes you think that I am not scared for you," Mimi cried. "I go to sleep at night, thinking about being alone. I just have to keep telling myself, 'No Day but Today.'"

"Mimi," he cried. "I am sorry. I just need to………" he stood up to go, but Mimi pushed herself in front of the door.

"Roger, you need to tell me that you will try harder," Mimi said looking deeply in his eyes.

"Mimi, I will try. I just don't trust myself anymore," Roger said. Mimi came forward and hugged him.

"Well," she whispered. "Love is not a three-way street. You can never share real love until you love yourself."

Roger smiled. "What would I do without you without you Mimi?" he whispered.