I Care, Why?

I care what she thinks

I care what she feels

I seem to care too much

seem to care a whole bunch

she ignores me

she detests me

she's appalled by me

she's turned on by me

she thinks I'm interested in another

is she blind cause I see no other

when she's around I have to approach

throw a bone her way though she says no

refusing me? she's in denial

the attraction's intense, not mild

but it's different, it's getting deeper

feelings emerging, it's getting stranger

I see her with a guy

and I just want him to die

jealous? who me?

no, it can't be

her words of rejection

they hurt far more than injections

but it's just my pride

nothing more is bruised, right?

I do care, but why?

Crap, I can't lie

I adore her

but do I love her?

puzzled is my mind.