I noticed that...when I write the title as PB, its like...Peanut Butter. Thats my favortie food. hehe.
Thank you to all that reviewed! It made me really happy! Sorry it took so long to get this one out because I have two projects to do and my other computer is being stupid so...the next update my be after my projectsare done in a week.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything In Kingdom Hearts. They belong to Square and Disney. I also don't own teh MCR song "I'm not Okay." Don't ask why it's in there... at the moment I was writing that part I was listening to it and I felt like putting it in the sory. Ehehe.
Warning: Okay, this whole time I've been worried about how I was writing Riku. So I was kind of writing a bit differently. So if at any part of the story the writing kind of changes it's because I finally had enough of it and decided to write it without caring. It made it much easier to get thoughts out. That's why some parts in the beginning I think are crappy because I was ttoo busy trying to think of how to write Riku.
Well that's enough! On with it!
After finally getting a taxi that seemed to have like super iron roof top so the hail couldn't get through, we made it to Sora's apartment. It was pretty big for something that was normally so small. I wonder what his job is since he seemed to have been able to furnish it with enough stuff.
The kitchen was nice and cozy like, with a table with four chairs and a living room with a good sized TV, couch and a reclining chair. He had small bedroom and one full sized bathroom. There was a lot of blue in his house.
"What are you doing?" He asked as I set my suitcase down next to the couch.
"I'm sleeping on the couch right?" I asked and he shook his head.
"Guests can sleep in the bed." He said and took my suitcase into the bedroom without giving me time to protest. When he came back he sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. "But you can go get a can of orange soda from the fridge for me. And one for yourself too." I nodded and went back into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. I stared at the cans, and picked out the two orange colored ones and went back to him. I gave him one and sat down to the left of him on the couch. He started to flip through the channels and finally landed on some music channel that had letters on the bottom of the screen. I knew that he was reading it because his eyes would dart back and forth to read the scrolling messages. I stared at them but only could understand the letters. Feeling left out? I scowled and I saw his eyes glance at me. Smooth.
Oh, why don't I make dinner or something," he said like he was kind of talking to me and also himself as he got up. "Come on, I can't do it myself. I'm pretty bad at cooking." He laughed and I forced one. I wasn't that good at it either. He got out a pot and started to search through the cabinets. "Wanna hand me the chicken?" I nodded and went to the freezer and opened it up. I looked inside to see a couple of packages and then saw two that looked the same. I went to grab one, but then noticed the letters on them were different. I stared at them intently, trying to figure out the words on them. Tur...key... I squinted my eyes in thought and then I saw a hand reach in and grab the one next to the package I had been pondering over. I jumped slightly in surprise but he didn't seem to notice.
"What, you can't read?" he asked in a half joking voice. Yeah, he's stupid. Shut up, it's not my fault. I shuffled over to him and pulled out the strainer that I found in one of the draws because I saw he had taken out macaroni. I put it on the counter and looked around to see if there was anything else I could do. But Sora had it all under control and eventually I got so upset at the fact that I seemed to just get in the way the voice started to get louder and louder and the room was getting smaller and smaller.
"I have to use the bathroom." I said kind of quickly and rushed to my bag. I grabbed something out of it and closed the door behind me on the way in.
"Riku...where are you?" I heard Sora's voice and I pulled down my sweater sleeves.
"Coming!" I opened the door and met a very confused looking Sora.
"Not feeling well?" he asked.
"Yeah, something like that." I answered and smelt something very yummy. He grinned at me and I followed him back into the kitchen.
I sat down and looked at the practically feast he had in front of us. He made a lot of spaghetti, macaroni and meatballs. I felt kind of guilty, knowing that I probably wouldn't eat a lot like usual and it would most likely insult him. So we said our thanks and he started to eat. We ate in silence, the only thing I heard was my chewing and the nagging voice in my head I was attempting to push aside.
"Riku, how do you-" He started and then his phone went off. It was an interesting phone, it's ring was kind of like... a techno dance song but it had singing in it. So it was a singing phone which slightly disturbed me but he sighed and got up to pick it up.
"Hello." He answered in English which made me slightly upset that this conversation would be limited.
"Woah hold up. What about Mr. Sunshine?" He asked and his face got serious. "Cloud, forget it, you know how he is." He groaned. "He's always depressed, leave him alone to cry and he'll get better." Sora rolled his eyes and glanced in my direction. "He's right here, the planes can't take off. Look, I'll call you tomorrow okay?" And with that he hung up the phone without hearing a goodbye. He sat back down at the table and looked at me. I shifted in my seat and started to move the food on my place in circles.
"Riku, how do you know Kairi?" He asked.
"School."
"Really?" I wonder what he's trying to get at...
"Yeah. When she first saw me she said 'you're so emo, you shoot spider webs out your nose.'" He raised an eyebrow, not knowing if I was serious or not I guess. I sighed as I looked at my plate. I had arranged the meatballs and macaroni into a lovely picture that the guidance counselors would have a field day with. I quickly mixed it up and looked back up at him.
"I'm done." I said and grabbed my plate.
"I'll clean up, don't worry." He said and he shot out of his chair. "Go watch TV or something." I nodded slightly and left the room.
Sitting on the couch, I felt myself sag into it. I sighed and turned on the TV to nothing to interesting and I finally stopped on a cartoon with a blonde guy trying to get chicks get failing. I guess it was funny.
Sora sat down on the other side of the couch, luckily I had remembered to sit on the left so I could see him this time.
"You play DDR?" I stared at him. Was he crazy? Of course I played that! I must say I'm pretty good at it...perhaps that's the only thing I am good at. I nodded and I got up and he pulled out the Playstation 2 and the mats. I quickly grabbed the mat on the left, also because it was the mat I liked better. After giving me a weird look, he turned it on and we started to play.
After collapsing onto the couch I looked at the clock. 1:07. I panted as Sora still stood on the mat, glistening with sweat. I mentally took of note of this image and stored it away for sometime in the near future when I will become depressed.
"Another round?" Sora grinned but obviously didn't have the power to go again. I suddenly realized I was having fun. I was having fun without doing... other things. The voice hadn't been around for the whole time either. I felt a small smile tug at my lips as Sora flopped down on the couch.
"Bedtime I suppose," he then yawned really loud and instantly collapsed to the side.
"Sora?" I looked at him, moving a bit farther to the left, afraid to touch him. Sora didn't move and I watched as he rolled off the couch in a heap and then he started to snore. Right, so, that was interesting. I got up from the couch and after trying about 5 of the different remotes I got the TV to turn off. I think that's what I'll do to try to take my mind off of things, create a giant master remote that does everything. That way I don't have to worry about accidentally breaking one in my anger of none of them working.
Because you would definitely break one. I scowled at the voice 'Go away, go away, go away...' I walked into the bedroom that Sora told me that I had to use and pulled out my CD player. 'This will teach you.' I pulled the headphones on and turned the volume all the way up as I threw myself on the bed.
But it didn't make a difference. It never did. I could still hear it louder than my music as I pulled the pillow over my head.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
-nothing but a big loser. You have no real friends, that's why you had fun playing with this totally stranger. He's only trying to be nice, but he really hates you. You're-
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Poke. "Riku?" I rolled over and pulled the blanket over my head. I have a headache, go away. Poke. "Rikuuu..." Poke. Poke...poke, poke, poke, poke poke-
"STOP THAT!" I grabbed the pillow from under my head and slammed it over my assailant's head. It exploded into a bunch of feathers that through them I saw a annoyed looking brunette. Oops.
"Well," He started, his eyes narrowing slightly. "I came to tell you breakfast was ready, but you won't be getting any." I crawled off the bed and went out the door. Good Job stupid. Just destroy his stuff. I'm sure that's the perfect way to win him over. I groaned and fell back on the bed and pulled the other intact pillow over my face. It's too early for this.
So are you going to leave the room a mess? I'm sure he'll like that. Along with you not eating his nicely prepared food. Today just isn't your day is it porky?
No it's not." I groaned and pulled the headphones off my head and threw them at my open back. They fell on the floor and the top part broke in half. I need new tape. "And I'm not fat." I snapped and heard it chuckle at my delayed reaction as I shuffled towards my bag, grabbed the Tylenol and popped a few in my mouth. I swallowed it without water, making my throat fell even more dry. I looked at the mess of feathers I had made and went out the door, not bothering to get out of the clothes I was still wearing from the other day. When I saw Sora munching on his waffle as he read the newspaper, I noticed a feather sticking out the back of his head. I walked by and grabbed it out and stuck it in my own hair and plopped down on the chair opposite of him.
"Sorry." I said quietly, attempting to redeem myself. He continued munching. I ran a hand through my hair, upset, and then just stared at the plate that had pancakes on it. I heard him swallow and then look up at me.
"It's okay. I'm sure it's not your fault your brain is so slow in the morning." He said with a slight smirk and took a gulp of milk, turning a page of the paper. I gaped at him as the voice in my head started to go into a frenzy. I did my best to just try to ignore it as I stabbed the stack of pancakes soaked in syrup. Bringing it to my plate I glanced at the glass of milk next to me. It was strawberry milk. That's the only milk I'll drink. I placed the pancakes on my plate and then looked at him expectantly. He just continued to read the paper. Sighing, I stabbed my pancakes again and pulled out a piece of it and started to chew slowly on it.
Every time I swallowed he would look at me. I didn't know why but he did. So I would take a longer time to chew my food just to see if it was because of me swallowing and not because he had some weird problem with looking up at people at regular intervals. He did look at me when I swallowed.
"What?" I finally asked and he grinned.
"You make a weird noise when you swallow." I stared at him blankly.
"What?"
"When you swallow you make this weird gulping sound." I hadn't the slightest idea what he was talking about so he sighed. "Like this." Then he made the strangest noise in the world that sounded like...a cow swallowing molasses. I really have no idea what that sounds like, but that's what it made me think of. He then laughed at me; I couldn't imagine what my face looked like.
"I do not!" I protested, taking a huge bite out of my pancake and swallowing. Oh my God, I do make a strange sound! I stared at him astonished and he only laughed harder. Scowling I jugged my strawberry milk and stomped into the living room. Temper, temper. "Shut up." I growled and sat down on the couch staring at the TV screen.
"You know, TV is more exciting when it's on." I heard him come up from behind me and I turned too look at him. He had his arms crossed on the top of the couch with his head lying on it with a sideways grin plastered on his face. Damn, he was good looking. I turned away from him to continue sulking but he just laughed and sat right next to me. Right next to me. It then dawned on me that I was on the right of the couch and he was on the left. Shit. I continued to look forward as he turned on the TV and started to flip through the channels. The screen flashed with the letters "DVD" and then an anime came on that I knew. If I remembered correctly, it was called Spiral. A guy with brown hair was watching a TV screen of his own intently as a commercial played about buying a knife set. A girl burst through the door, ranting but he paid no attention to her, telling he to be quiet because he needed the number. This reminded me of a time I wanted to a buy a knife set like that. It was only $19.99 and it came with like fifty knifes. But this one had a anti-bacterial cutting board. This one sounded better. But the other one came with a carving knife, I wonder if the one in the show came with a carving knife. Or that electronic cutter that moved back and forth by itself. That certainly would mean less work for me-
"Eyes is hot." I snapped out of it and turned my head to stare at Sora. He looked at me and shrugged. "He is." I looked on the screen to see a guy with hair like mine sitting and playing the piano. Some red head was in the background talking and this 'Eyes' character kept playing the piano. Weird, I used to play the piano everyday...
"I think he looks like you." My eyes went wide and I felt a blush creeping up on my cheeks. "His hair is the same..." He grabbed a longer lock of my hair from the back and started to twirl it around his fingers. Every curse was flying through my mind as I felt his body getting closer to mine. "I bet he would smell like you too.." My face was hot and I shot straight up and started to hyperventilate.
"I have to sue the bathroom." And I sprint to the bathroom and locked it.
Good job. "Shut up!" I almost yelled at the voice as it snickered back at me and I frantically realized that I wasn't feeling like I should. And I couldn't get out to get what I needed. Panicking, I started to quickly look around the bathroom as the voice started to get louder and louder. Can't even let someone get that close to you? I thought you didn't have that type of problem. Are you afwaid sweetie? It snickered and I cursed loudly. Hmm it seems like you're even stupider than I thought to forget to get it from your bag. I guess I'll be staying around for a while longer. Last time I came back faster than normal didn't I? Oh I bet Sora hates you now. He seemed pretty into you and you went and 'had to use the bathroom.' What kind of excuse was that? Don't you want him? Or is Stupid your real name? So you've been lying all this time! I wonder what Sora will say when he finds out your real name. I bet he already knows. I bet that he-
"I don't care! Shut up!" I yelled and I opened the cabinet looking for anything.
"Riku?" I heard Sora's voice drift through the doorway. Good job. I guess he'll call the psycho place for you now. Not like that could help. I just love you so much I can't leave you! You know what, this has to stop. I don't want to be separated from you because your too much a moronic goofy nitwit to be without me. So I think-
You don't think." I hissed as I found a razor in the cabinet. "See you later." I grinned wildly as I pulled the sleeve of my sweater up.
Ah ha! Did anyone see where I stopped worrying? It was right after Riku was listennig to the MCR song that I was like this is crap! So because I couldn't rewrite the beginning of it, I just decided to keep writing it the way I wanted to. (Omg and the DDR, I'm sorry, but I'm addicted to that game xD)
So...What do we think? Do we know Riku's lovely problems yet? I'll give you a hint, there are three in all...well four including the voice. I love my little depressing Riku. Ya know, that voice isn't really that bad, in fact it's pretty true. I'm not going to say how it is, but let's just say I know some stuff about hearing voices like that. But I guess the voices aren't the same for everyone neh?
Don't worry, everyone else will be blended into the story in the next chapter. Kairi is going to be calling a lot... Cid might show up as a traveling flamethrower salesman... (actually...that sounds intresting...)
This story is like.. the counterpart to my other one. That one was Sora's happy POV and this is angsty Riku's POV. Riku is fun to write, but I think I like Sora better... hmm... So anyways... go review please! :D