So sorry! It took me forever to update didn't it? Oh, I was working on projects, and I should be doing homework right now but pssh, forget that! I got loyal fanfiction readers to serve! And yes, I do know that Riku said I have to sue the bathroom in the last chapter,; I'm sure you all know it was use and not sue. But I will fix that...eventually...

Disclaimer: I don't own it. If I did, I would be greatly influenced by my friend to make Sora jump Riku during the game and have him molest him. Because she wants him seme, but I like Riku seme. But we'll just have to wait till KH2 to get more info on who would really be seme ;D

Warning: Angsty Riku...uhhh...(insert regular ranting of how I don't think my writing is good enough here) well my beta read this so I hope she got all the mistakes and stuff. Don't look at me Bob! You weren't online in time to read it first! Okay, now that that hidden message is out of the way, hehe, on with the angsty filled chapter of doom!

A funny thing happened. After I got out of the bathroom, Sora was talking to someone on the phone. He saw me instantly as I walked into the kitchen and he shoved the phone at me, saying it was Kairi. He ran to the bathroom; I guess he really had to go.

"Riku?" I heard Kairi's accented voice on the other side. Even if she knew Japanese, it was still heavily influenced by her American accent. I made a slight 'mmhmm' to tell her I was there as I kicked open Sora's fridge to get something to drink. I can't let go of the phone and cradle it against my shoulder, it's one of those talents I couldn't get.

"Oh Riku! I have the best news!" She paused as if I was going to reply a giddy 'what?' like her friend Selphie would, but I just continued to look in the fridge. "Well, all us girls here, have come to the conclusion that..." I heard a series of giggles from the other side of the phone. "Sora will propose to me!" I almost dropped the carton of milk I had managed to get out of the fridge. I was able to get it on the counter with a heave as I fumbled with it and managed to gasp a 'what!'

"Well, we've been going out since like... junior year right? So now it's been like..." a giggle "five years! I mean, He has to propose sometime soon. So we think-" another giggle. "It will be this time I see him!" My eye twitched from the giggling and I grabbed a glass from the cupboard as I stayed silent on the phone. Kairi cleared her throat on the other side and I sighed to let her know I was still there.

"Well," she said, her voice a bit uneasy. "The next plane we were able to get you is in about a week so you'll have to stay there." I groaned, there was no way I was going to be able to stay here with him, especially now that Kairi has told me that she was sure he would be getting her a shiny diamond ring. I felt a headache come on, and started down the hallway to get my pills from my bag. As I was able to enter the room Sora came back out of the bathroom.

"Hey Riku, mind letting me talk to her?" He asked and I just nodded.

"Wait Riku!" Her voice crackled over the phone.

"What?" I sighed.

"Promise you won't tell?" She pleaded, as if I would waste my time telling him she knew. No, I would waste my time trying to find out if that was the truth.

"I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die." I said, crossing my finger over my heart and then handed Sora the phone. I shuffled into my room, grabbed the bottle of pills, and downed a few. The funny part of all this is, that I was serious when I said 'hope to die.'

I was sitting in the living room with the bottle of headache pills, finding that this was a useful way to keep the voice at bay for a little when it would seem suspicious if I went to the bathroom more than once in an hour. I had decided to change my clothes and wear my other outfit of black pants, shirt, and over sized hoodie. Glaring at the screen, I was trying to shoot laser beams at it or something, after I was putting my clothes into the dresser and found something in it.

Since I was staying here for a while, I decided to put my clothes in the dresser so that they wouldn't get all wrinkly in my suitcase. When I found an empty draw, it appeared to be that all the way in the back was a little box. And in that little box was this small diamond ring.

You can probably tell why I am now wishing I was the guy Eyes in the DVD that was still on. There are plenty of hot guys in that show. I'm sure one of them has to be gay. I mean, if you lived in a world where all the guys were that nice looking, I would expect all the guys to be gay.

"Riku!" Sora bounced over the couch and landed next to me on the couch. He saw the almost half empty bottle in my hand and raised an eyebrow. "Some bad headache, eh?" He asked and I just nodded wearily. All these pills were making me drowsy.

"Well, have I got a surprise for you!" He said with a cheery smile that could kill any emo kid. I raised an eyebrow at him as I continued to watch the TV. I really didn't have any idea what they were doing, but it was something to distract me from him. "We are going to go to the mall!" He clapped excitedly. Okay, I guess he doesn't get out much.

"I'd rather not." I replied. I slumped farther down in the couch. I think I'll just go back to sleep, that's something that isn't torturing for me. I can dream all I want about Sora not going to get married to Kairi. Sora puffed his cheeks out and pouted, glaring at me.

"You're no fun!" He snapped at me, as he got off the couch and stomped to the kitchen. "And the milk is going to spoil now!" He yelled as I remembered I never put it back in the fridge. Oops.

"Oh the horrors." I said sarcastically as I closed my eyes and leaned against the arm of the couch. I slowly drifted off as I heard Sora ranting in the kitchen.

Ding Dong. My eyes shot open and I quickly sat up. Realizing that I had gone to sleep I looked around to see if Sora was there.

"Sora?" I called out, but he didn't answer. I shrugged my shoulders and shuffled to the front door. Someone had to answer it.

"Hello!" A tall guy with blonde hair and a cigarette in his mouth smiled. I blinked at him.

"Sora isn't here if you're here to see him." I said and I started to close the front door.

"No, sir! I'm not here to see him!" I stopped my hand and reopened the door. I looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

"I'm here..." He said as he pointed to a large black suitcase. "To sell this marvelous flamethrower to you!"

"What?" I asked, not understanding.

"This flamethrower could be yours sonny boy!" I stared at the man and saw a name tag on him.

"I'm sorry Cid, but I'm not interested in a flamethrower." I answered him. His face screwed up and he crossed his arms.

"Look here bud, I didn't come the way here to get told off, now are ya going to buy the flamethrower or what?" I shook my head no.

"What about some tea?"

"I like tea."

"Well, this flamethrower can also be a tea maker!" He grinned and I grabbed the door handle. This guy was kind of scary.

"Well, I'm sorry but I don't have any money right now to buy the tea maker... flamethrower." I answered.

"Oh, so now you don't want it? You're too good for the tea maker? Huh? Is that it?" He said and I shook my head.

"No, I didn't say that!"

"Oh Cid!" I heard Sora and looked around the blonde to see him running up the driveway with a bag of groceries. Cid looked at Sora like he didn't know who he was.

"Cid? Remember? I bought that from you last week!" He said and pushed past him and me into the house.

"You did?" He said, confused.

"Oh yeah, It's a lovely tea maker, I love it." Sora grinned.

"Really? See, I didn't know if I should just leave it as a flamethrower or-"

"No no, it's great! Okay, I gotta go put my stuff away. See you next week!" Sora continued to smile as he closed the door. He turned to me.

"Never open the door for him. If you try to refuse his offer he will make you buy the tea maker." He padded into the kitchen and threw the bag down on the table. "Just pretend like you already have it and he'll go away." He said as he took out a few cartons of milk and opened the fridge to put them in.

"Doesn't he realize you're lying?" I asked and Sora shook his head.

"Cid used to be the owner of a tea shop down the street. But one day he took a slip down some icy stairs and got brain damage." He said as he threw the paper bag into the trash. "He doesn't even remember falling, or that he ever owned a tea shop. He lives alone in a beaten down house now, because he never remembered to pay his bills for the nice house he used to live in. His wife left him."

"So everyone lies to him?" I asked.

"We have to. Telling him the truth wouldn't help. He wouldn't remember it. Leon, Cloud and I all worked for him. Once we tried to tell him about the tea shop, and he couldn't take the fact that he had lost everything." Sora smiled sadly at me. "Sometimes it's better to lie so you don't hurt the ones you care for." He walked out of the kitchen.

I know what the consequences of that are. I never told my adoptive family that I was gay because of that.

(obvious change of days since he will now be eating breakfast...)
Don't wanna eat the breakfast do you? Just put it to waste. I held my head in my hands as I leaned against the counter. I'm not hungry I told the voice, but it continued to rant in my head.

"Another headache?" Sora asked as he walked into the room with a mess of bed hair. I tried to hide my blush as I noticed that he wasn't wearing a shirt and just swim trunks. Wait, swim trunks?

"Where are you going?" I asked curiously. He grinned widely at me as he grabbed a box of Captain Crunch from the counter.

"We are going to go to the beach today."

"The beach?" I choked out.

"Yes, we need to get some color on you. You look paler than George Washington's white horse." He laughed at his joke but I didn't. I didn't want to go to the beach because the beach means the heat. The heat means not being able to wear long sleeves or risk passing out. This leads to me not being able to wear a shirt long enough to hide it.

"Umm..." I started, trying to think of a way to get out of it.

"Oh, we have to go shopping first to get you a bathing suit don't we?" Yes! Savior! I can buy the bathing suit, and buy those lovely wrist cuffs!

"Great!" I said a bit too quickly and he looked at me confused.

"Uh, okay. We'll go after breakfast."

Shopping was good because I got my black arm warmers and they were very nice leather. I also was able to get out of having to wear this pair of hideous swim trunks that Sora insisted on. He said that I would like good in rubber duckies. I was able to convince him otherwise and got, surprise surprise, black instead.

As we sat on the bus to get to the beach, I stared out the window, instead of at his bare chest because he decided he didn't want to wear a shirt. I on the other hand, was wearing a shirt that had a heart that was mutilated by the club with spikes that was still impaled in it. Sora had taken a disliking to my shirt that I was perfectly fine with. When I had walked out of the room he immediately demanded to know why I was wearing a shirt followed by why do you have such depressing shirts. I told him that life was depressing and I was counting the seconds till I died. He hadn't talked to me since.

I turned my eyes slightly when I heard Sora sigh loudly as he pulled his legs up onto the chair and sat cross legged. I wanted to ask him what was his problem, but I already knew it so what would asking do? It's not like being nice to him would change anything. Because he's with Kairi. I groaned as the voice made its presence known and slumped down on the bench.

Nothing you could do could stop Sora. You're just someone he has to take care of until he can get rid of you. He really doesn't like you; he's only putting up with you for Kairi. There's no way-

"We're here!" Sora exclaimed excitedly, grabbed his bag of whatever, and literally leaped down the aisle and off the bus. I on the other hand, took my time walking and almost got stuck on the bus. When I finally got off, Sora was already prancing around on the sand. I stepped off the road and waited till the bus left, just watching him. He stopped mid jump and caught my eye. I started walking and staring at the finely grained lovely sand. You know, sand is just so interesting. I love counting how many grains get stuck between my toes and make me go crazy.

"Rikuuu..." A husky voice breathed onto my neck, making me tense up and stop counting the grains of sand. I felt a finger start to twirl a long strand of hair and the owner of hand still didn't appear.

"Stop hiding behind me Sora," I groaned and grabbed the hand in my hair to make it stop.

"What are you talking about? I'm right here." I jerked my head to the left and cursed to myself. Sora raised an eyebrow at me and stared at me. He was trying to figure it out, but I wasn't about to let him.

"Well, why don't we go find somewhere to sit." I said as I started to look around and wander about as if I knew where I was going. There was hardly anyone on the beach, most likely because I was told by Kairi during briefing that the American kids still had school. So it was easy enough to stand in one spot and claim it as your own because no one really cared.

"Great," I heard Sora walking towards me. "Now only one thing missing..." he trailed off and before I had time to turn to give him a quizzical look, two hands grabbed the bottom of my shirt and pulled it forcefully over my head.

"Hey!" I turned quickly in an attempt to grab my shirt back but Sora held it away from me with a smirk on his face.

"No shirts allowed on the beach." He said as if there was a giant sign post saying that. I turned a slight pink and turned back around. I wasn't about to fight for my shirt since that seems very stupid and there was no one here. So I was okay...except for the fact that I could feel Sora's eyes burning through my back. I cleared my throat loudly and sat down on the sand, spreading my toes out and pulling the sand out from between them. Gross, but sand is disgusting. I hate how it gets stuck and then when it gets wet it's almost impossible to get off.

"Riku, don't be so boring!" Something soft hit me on the back of my head and I turned to see a beach ball rolling a bit away from me. I looked at the grinning brunette and then continued to sit on the sand. He instantly gained a pouting face and stomped over to me.

"Come on!" He then pulled my hair. He pulled my hair. Oh I don't think so; no one pulls my hair and gets away with it. I shot up and grabbed his arm and looked downwards at him. I got a nervous grin in return and I smirked. I pulled on his arm so that his head crashed against my chest and I bear hugged him with one arm and then started to rub my knuckles furiously into his skull. HAH! Fear the 'noogie'! FEAR IT.

"Hey!" Sora whined and moved his head and bit my arm. I released him with a shout and he started to run down the beach laughing manically. I snorted and chased him down, pushing him into the surf. I pinned his two arms down to either side of him as I straddled him and grinned at him victoriously.

"Don't drown me!" He giggled out and tried to pull his arms up but I just pushed them back down. He pouted and stuck his tongue out at me. "Fine, you win."

"Because I always-Omfph!" Sora rolled me over so now he was on top and my hair was getting soaked with that disgusting salt water. My poor hair, it's going to look so bad tomorrow.

"Because I always win!" Sora laughed and then jumped up and started to prance back to where the beach ball was. I sat up and shook out my hair and frowned at soaking leather bands on my arms. Just great, I sighed. I looked out to the ocean as the waves started to come in faster and bigger, crashing into the sand as the water went up to my ankles. My mind was blank for once, and the voice was surprisingly not talking to me.

Starting to wonder if I was dreaming or not, someone cleared their throat to the left of me. I turned my head sharply, making it crack as I saw Sora staring at me. I sighed in relief that it was only him and went back to looking out at the ocean, but Sora didn't sit down to join me. I buried my feet into the sand nervously even if I hated it and turned my head to see him staring at me from where he stood with the beach ball. I couldn't tell what expression was on his face but it was making me start to feel like I would be needing my bag pretty soon.

But Sora sighed and sat down on my left making my feet go deeper into the sand.

"Will you tell me why you count the seconds?" He said in a voice that had an undertone of sadness.

"What?" I asked, not knowing what seconds he was talking about.

"You said, you were counting the seconds until you died." I curled my toes in the sand and clenched my jaw. "Will you tell me why?"

"No." I said immediately, not giving my mind any time to debate over it. Sora sighed heavily and there was a moment of silence between us. The sun was starting to set, and no matter what I read in the books, I was watching it. Not like it would matter much if I stared at it knowing the rumors that if you stare at the sun like that you'll go blind.

"Is a part of it because you're blind in your left eye," he said, more like a statement of fact than a question. I clenched my jaw tightly, feeling my head start to hurt as I refused to answer him.

"Will you tell me why you are blind in one eye?" He asked. I felt my heart start to tug as a part of my brain told me it was okay while the other told me not to. And I was tired of listening to the one that told me no.

"My father beat me." I said as blandly as I could, trying to make believe it didn't bother me. I was hoping that he would end his mission to pry into Riku's private life, but it didn't.

"Why?"

"I told him I was gay." I brought my knees up to my chest and rested my chin on them as I glared at the horizon. Sora was silent making the regret start to form in my head that now Sora wouldn't even talk to me. I closed my eyes and held back the droplets of tears that were forming behind the lids. Crying won't solve anything, it only makes it worse. I opened my eyes and my arms were throbbing but there was no where I could go. I heard Sora shift on the sand with the crackling sand, but I couldn't see what he was doing. Cursing myself and everything I could think of, I was about ready to go stomp off to sulk and be alone when I felt Sora grab my throbbing arm. He pulled it towards him and I looked at nothing, pretending that I didn't notice.

But I did notice the fact that he was going to learn a second secret of mine. I knew it and nothing in my body told me to stop him though. I continued to sit and do nothing as he pulled the leather over my fingers and eventually my arm was bare. I felt his soft delicate fingers run over the cuts and scars that started at my wrist and ended below my elbow, tracing over every single one. His fingers glided across my skin back down to my wrist and then they went across my palm as he lined up his fingers with mine I turned my head to look at him sitting facing me and staring at my hand.

"It's okay." He said quietly as he held my hand and looked at me with a bittersweet look.

I buried my face into his chest and cried.

Awww... depressed like Riku has two of his secrets leaked! And what about Kairi and Selphie's assumptions? Is that ring really for the red head demon of evil giggles or is there a different reason Sora has it?

And poor Riku, if you didn't figure it out from this chapter, I'll just refresh your mind and let you know that Riku obviously doesn't live with his parents. Well, his birth parents. I got that idea from remembering a show (randomly I might add) about how some kids were kicked out of their homes after they told their parents that they weren't straight. I think that's very sad, I mean, how can you disown/beat/ignore etc your kid like that? It makes me very sad. :(

There are some secretive hints in this chapter! Actually, I only know of one hehe, so if you can figure out the rest of the plot from here, good for you! If not... good for you! :D (Oh and I absolutely love Cid, and I tried hard to keep him as close as in character as possible. I never really played FF7 and didn't pay much attention to him in KH eheh. But I do know he likes tea.)

There once was a girl who finished uploading her chapter. This girl then sat at her computer and awaited eagerly for any reviews that might come.

In other words, I would become very happy, so go review review review and then read some other Sora/Riku goodness:)