Aha! The plot squirrels landed as soon as I called them! They revived Mr. Panda, (my moose muse) and Mr. Panda thought f a great ending! No this isn't the last chapter, har har har. Yeah I know what you're thinking. (shifty eyes)

anyways, I have been fighting my inner fangirl this whole time so that the story will come out the way I want it. This is after all, angst, and the inner fangirl isn't supposed to win at angst. It should be angsty, not a lot of making out and drooling. (the drooling is on my part... heh)

My bete read it too, so it should be grammer and spelling good (stares at beta.) Anyway, did anyone else notice that in both my stories there are planes? That's interesting... I don't get what's with my obsession and putting planes into the story but they like planes. Planes are soo cool, but I hate when your ears pop when you go up and down and- yeah okay time for the story xD

Disclaimer: hmm... maybe... no wait. No, I don't own them. (Peanuts on the planes taste good too.)

I sat straight up and ran a hand through my hair. Okay Riku, think. This should not have happened. I took a deep breath in as Sora rolled to the other side to block the sun's rays and continued to sleep. Running my hand through my hair again with a sigh I decided it would be best if I took a shower first to clear my thoughts.

After I got out of the shower, I was sure to have every piece of clothing on along with my sweater that said "Victims, aren't we all?" I went into the bedroom and after finding that Sora wasn't in there, I closed the door behind me. He was most likely at the moment scoffing down some food so I would have some time to think. Think about how last night should not have been, and the oblivious person on the other side of the globe.

Kairi. She had done nothing to deserve this. Yes, I admit, she would constantly get on my nerves, and I wanted to kill her sometimes, but no one deserves something like this. She had sent me over here on a mission to get her boyfriend safely to Japan because she trusted me. She trusted me, and I was glad to have earned the trust from someone at last. And now I just shattered it. She did not deserve for her boyfriend to have slept with her best friend.

Because that's what Sora was. Her boyfriend. And even though he said that he only liked her as a friend, if he really didn't want to be with her, he would have told her. They were going out for five years now, and something other than that must have lead Kairi and the rest of the girls to believe that he would actually propose to her. He said he likes her only as a friend, but sometimes even friends get very close to the borderline between friendship and relationship. I believe it's on that borderline.

I had just ruined her life by sleeping with her boyfriend, willingly I might add. The worst part of it is that he didn't seem to mind either. Was he not thinking? Or did he simply not care about her feelings? Did he not think of the consequences?

I picked up the phone that had snapped me out of thought and heard a cheery hello from the other side as my heart started to twist.

"Hey, Riku! I got great news for you!" Kairi said and I could almost hear her smile through the phone.

"Really?" I answered weakly.

"Yeah, I was able to get my private jet to fly over there to pick you up early! Mother had been using it all week, and yesterday Cloud and Leon had taken it out. They almost crashed it too… Cloud got a little too 'friendly' with Leon if you know what I mean in the pilot seat and I had to get the pilot to kick them out so we wouldn't have crashed." I let out a weak laugh. If they had crashed, it would have saved us the trouble of doing worse damage by ripping out her heart. "Leon has gotten better since the last time he flew the plane, Most likely all those video games." She giggled on the other side.

"So you think you can get to the airport by twelve?" She asked.

"Yeah…"

"Are you okay Riku? You sound-"

"I'm fine."

"Okay…" She said, sounding a bit dejected on the other side. "Well, anyways, I'll see you guys later!" She said with a happy tone again and hung up. I think my heart just fell out of my chest. I sighed as I heard the water get turned off in the bathroom where Sora must have been taking a shower. He started to hum a song as I heard him walk by the closed door and into a different room. How could he be so happy at a time like this? Was he really that dense?

"Riku! Breakfast is ready!" I heard him shout and I quickly opened the door and walked to the kitchen so he wouldn't have to go looking for me.

"Kairi called. She said she sent her private jet to pick us up at the airport at 12." I said, trying to get him to think of Kairi.

He had to think of her. He had to think of what was going to happen now. She would have to be told what happened and, like I had thought before, she would have her heart wrenched out. And then if I were to be able to ever get over the guilt, there would be no chance for us. I have so many problems that I could not place the burden on him. My real parents disowned me, my foster parents sometimes get annoyed by my insecurities and even Kairi, on the rare occasion, will tell me to stop sulking and get a life. He seemed to be able to handle them so far, but for how long could he hold on? I doubt for long, especially with me doubting the relationship, and myself.

"Mmhmm." That was his response. Was he trying to avoid the inevitable? Trying to avoid the fact that he would have to tell Kairi? I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. It would be best to leave it for when we got to Japan, so we could solve this problem face to face. Sora, Kairi, and me.

Japan, the one place I wanted and didn't want to be. I saw Kairi looking around for us in her little pink dress and her bright, vibrant eyes. And Sora was heading for the food court. And here was I, stuck in the middle.

"Sora!" Kairi shouted and waved to him as she spotted him through the crowd before me. He took one last glance at the food court before greeting her. But there was no kiss, or even a hug. Just a simple hello that made Kairi's eyes darken just the tiniest bit with sadness. I shuffled my way towards them, not really wanting to be with both of them at the same time. I don't think I could bare it.

Is this human nature? To act without thinking, so you can regret it later?

"Hey Kairi," I said.

"Hey Riku!" She gave me a quick hug and stepped back with a smile on her face looking from Sora to me. "I'm starving! Let's go get some food!" She kept smiling at us as Sora quickly agreed and ran to the food court. God, why couldn't that plane have crashed?

"Come on silly, let's go." She poked me in the chest and I looked up from the floor at her. Her face turned to puzzlement as she must have seen the look on my face that screamed 'I need to talk to you.' Damn me and not being able to hide my emotions.

"Riku, what's wrong?" She said.

"It's nothing." I said meekly but Kairi kept staring at me. She called Sora's cell since he would not be able to hear her shouting at him from the food court.

"Sora? Yeah it's me. We'll be right there, I saw something and Riku offered to buy it for me." She nodded and closed her phone.

"Riku, what's wrong?" She asked and crossed her arms.

"I told you it's-"

"Don't give me that crap," she said. Shocked I stared at her. Was that Kairi? Or was there a pod person in there somewhere? She sighed. "I'm sorry. I'm just tired of complaining to everyone and not being able to do anything. I want to help."

"Kairi, I don't think you can help…" I trailed off and unconsciously glanced over at the food court. Kairi noticed though and looked around as her eyes fell on Sora.

"If it concerns Sora, I will help," she said sternly.

"Kairi…"

"Spill it!"

"Fine! I slept with him, alright?" I snapped. Silence. I felt like I was in one of those movies where the scene is focused on two people and everyone else is just a blur. Kairi took a step back and said a quiet 'oh.' I stayed quiet and averted my eyes to the floor. Kairi closed her eyes and took in a deep breath, let it out, and opened her eyes. And to my surprise there was a smile on her face.

"We'll talk about this later. I was planning on having fun right now with you guys and I will. Especially now…" She trailed off and I put a hand on her shoulder.

"I'm sorry, Kairi."

"No, I said we'll talk about this later. Right now… I want some tacos."

I sat in her living room with Leon and Cloud. She must have told them something, because they seemed uncomfortable with her and Sora in the next room. I can only guess what they are talking about. Cloud started to build a house out of playing cards. As he was about to put the roof on, Leon kicked it with his left combat boot, sending the cards flying. Earning a glare from Cloud, he collected them from the floor and started to build the house on the other side of the table. Leon put his foot on the table, getting a growl from the blonde, but Leon's boot didn't move. He just kept his foot on the table, lazily watching the blonde who was in deep concentration.

I ruined Kairi's life. She was so happy before, and now I have destroyed it. Sora must have been happy too, if he was still in a relationship with her. Then I came along. Kairi sent me, trusting me, to pick up Sora and get him here. What do I do in return? I sleep with her boyfriend. I haven't heard the voice in a while, it muse be because I've taken over it's job of putting myself down. I deserve it. Is this my purpose in life? To ruin everyone else's? To bring everyone down with me because I am so bad at living? Pathetic and useless, I do not understand why I am still here. I let these good people - my friends - I let them down. I bring them into despair because I have so many pathetic problems.

I will eventually lose them all. Then I will be alone. The way it should be…the way it should have always been. That way I could have never hurt Kairi, the person who actually believed in me, and Sora who helped me let it all out. I repaid them with grief, I should only get the same. Grief and loneliness.

I stood up from the couch. I know what I must do. I must leave these good people, so that I will not burden them with any problems, or heart breaking decisions, or sacrifices. I will eventually get to that, but for now, I have to get out of this house.

As I started across the room, Leon peered at me from under his bangs.

"Hey, where are you…" Cloud turned to watch me leave, and his card house fell down. I exited the house into the cold rain and breathed deeply. I love the smell of rain.

I could barely see a few feet in front of me as I went down the street, people running through the rain with umbrellas or newspapers, trying to find shelter. I don't get it; people use water everyday, they even go to pools and in the ocean. So why is rain so different? I had a reason to get out of the rain though; I wanted to get home, lock myself in my room, and sleep. Then I could dream.

Nothing bad happens in my dreams.

I stopped at the corner of a block as the sign had a red hand telling me not to walk. I started to think about what I might do tomorrow when the light changed to the little white person walking. I started across the street when it happened. Two bright beams of light were seen from the very corner of my right eye since I couldn't see it from the left. I instinctively turned my head to the left to get a better view when the piercing noise of the horn made me cringe.

Then it hit me.

Literally.

HAH! Weren't expecting that were you?

No, no, he's not dead, obviously. I mean ,then how could be be telling the story? I always think that's weird when the character dies but has been telling the story... because how are they telling the story? Besides, I wouldn't let Riku off that easily ;D Ah, and the angst, yes Riku has gone into full blown angst mode, or as close as I can get him for now.(cackles)

There needs to be some good solid AxelxRoxas fanfics... no I'm not crazy... no... my next story isn't about Axel...heheheh... So... who else beat the game:D

So... make AXENATOR happy and review! Tell her your thoughts, comments, constructive critisisms, threats, uhh... anything else you can think of. :D (I have never been in coach, I wonder how nice it is in there.. I get stuck in the plain seating-) (gets knocked out by random reader who wants me to stop talking about how cool planes are.)