Silver and Gold
Chapter 4
It's almost Christmas, Remus is still with Mike, I would have thought that Remmy would have more sense, but I know he's being stubborn, sometimes I think he has more pride than me, I laugh lightly to my self he'd say that was impossible. James, Peter and Lilly are leaving for their homes, in a matter of hours. I don't know what Re's doing for Christmas, I haven't talked to since 'the argument', he's probably going home his mum always wants him home for Christmas, just like mine never does. I'm in the dorm room staring blankly at a book about werewolves, that I took out of the library a few days ago. I'm sat on the chair by the window, clinging to the big brown book like it's my last lifeline, my last link, I close my eyes against the bright morning sunshine, I breath in the sent of a new day and let out a sigh.
"What you thinking about?" I jump I thought I was alone
"Bloody hell James, don't sneak up on people" I turn to see James, grinning at me what's he so bloody happy about? He's not allowed to be happy when I'm miserable! His hair is messier than normal, and his clothes are slightly wonky, he's wearing a brown jumper that Remus' mum knitted his for Christmas last year and a baggy pare of blue jeans. How is he managing to look messy?
"You didn't answer my question" he taunts dam James and dam him never being able to drop anything, I just want to be left on my own form Christmas to get over my infatuation with Re
"I'm not thinking about anything" I know he won't buy it, but I have to try
"Yeah right, that's why your sitting here hugging a book with a look on your face that makes you look constipated?" was that even a question? He sits down next to the chair, which I am sitting on
"Oi" I say making a swipe for his head, he ducks my hand and laughs at my pathetic halfhearted attempt to hit him, folding my arms across my chest I go back to my brooding
"Seriously Paddy, you know you can talk to me" I go back to looking out of the window, watching the trees dance in the wind
"I know it's just…" I drift off
"It's what?" he encouraged
"Moony and Mike, I can't believe Moony is being so stupid and stubborn, he doesn't love Mike, and Mike's just a pushy prick" I turn away from the pretty scene out side, bring my self back to reality, where my hopes and dreams seem pointless right now
"Pads, you need to let him make his own mistakes!" Prongs takes a deep breathe "Your trying to turn his head around and make him love you, when he doesn't even know your gay, you guys should really sort this out over Christmas, you will have the whole place to yourselves" my mind is agreeing with Prongs
"What? Did you say over Christmas alone? I thought Re would be going home for Christmas like he normally does" is that panic in my voice, can't be nothing panics the almighty Sirius Black!
"Didn't you know? Re's mum and dad are gong to visit his aunt you know that one he doesn't like?
"No I didn't know, Marie isn't it" I'm staring at the carpet, which is a very interesting deep red colour
"Yeah that's it … so instead of putting up with his dratted aunt he's going to stay here, talk to him Sirius, for god's sake just talk to him" James is sounding a little drained and tired of the situation, I don't blame him so am I
"When are you and Peter leaving?" I ask meeting his hazel eyes with a pleading look, I can't believe he is going to leave me with Remus when everything is in such a mess, he knows I'm not good at saying sorry especially when I know I'm right!
"In about 5 minutes, Pete said bye already, he's off with Isabella" I grin, knowing what James meant
"Ok I'll see you in the New Year" James and I stand at the same time and I embrace him as if my life depended on it. It will be the first Christmas in 4 years that I don't spend with James, he's going to visit his mother's parents for most of the holiday and their not too keen on me, I relies James
"Bye" he says simply
"Bye" I whisper my last lifeline my single last hope just walked out the door, I'll have to deal with this on my own!
Later that day I went looking for Remus, I had to talk to him James was right, not that I'm going to tell him that! I look in the most logical place for Re to be the back of the library, I walked there slowly in the hope that I would think of something to say by the time I got there. He's sitting right in the corner, with his head bowed into a book, his hair is covering his face, which is being propped up on his elbow
"Re" I say softly, his head shot up, revealing his tear stricken face to me, I move swiftly towards him putting an arm round his shoulder, propping myself on the seat next to his shushing him gently "Re wants the matter?" I ask gently, my fingers caressing his shoulder, he rests his head on my shoulder the tears following freely down the side of his cheek
"Me and Mike spilt up" did I hear right, I know Moony's in pain right now but its really for the best
"What happened?" I think I know what happened, Re realized mike was a total prick that's what happened
"You know who I'm in love with someone else?" he asks, I nod "well I couldn't get him out of my head the whole time I was with Mike, and Mike new and he couldn't handle it" Re sniffs back his tears, only he could pull it off without making it look disgusting "I said to Mike that I was willing to let this guy be in the past" Re sobbed dam stupid Mike, my hand moves from his shoulder to his head, my hands slipping into his hair massaging his head and I gently resting my head on his "and then Mike got a bit heavy with me, he said that if I loved him at all I'd sleep with him, we got in a big fight, in which I told him I didn't love him and never could and so we spilt up" he cried "Siri" his arms wound around my neck bringing his body closer to mine "you were right about him, he was horrible" Re wept into my neck
"Shhh its ok Re, I've got you, I won't let him hurt you again," I whisper into his ear, Mike will be lucky if I let him so much as look at Moony again
"I can't believe I was so stupid" he breathes into my neck "to sacrifice the love of my life, you, for an idiot like Mike" HOLD IT DID RE JUST CALL ME THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE OR AM I HEARING WRONG?
"Re" he pulls away from me and smiles weekly "did … um …do you" grate I can't form coherent sentences. Oh well I was always better at show then tell, I lean forwards and capture Remus' lips with my own softly and he instantly replies moving his lips against mine, my heart is singing! We break apart the need for air too great, my forehead rests against his as I pant for breath
"It's always been you … you make me what I want to be" he whispers, I can't help but smile
Author's note: it's not the end not by a long way just the beginning!
This still isn't all of what chapter 3 was originally going to be (I'm saving the best bit for chapter 5)
Reviews are always nice and they give me motivation to work faster, although my chapter rate will become slower from now on as I'm going back to school