Woo, back to plot. This is Saïx and Xigbar now woo! (not yaoi though) and I play Saïx (yay!) and Krystal is Xigbar.

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Chapter VI: Emotionless Fury

Saïx was standing outside of Demyx's room, a disgusted look on his face as he left and went to his own room to look outside at the moon. That always calmed him down for some reason. He entered his room and went to the windows. "Get out of here. You're no good at hiding." He said emotionlessly, staring up at the heart-shaped moon. "In this room your abilities are useless, Xigbar." He finally turned, looking up at the ceiling where Xigbar stood suspended upsidedown.

"What the hell crawled up your ass, huh?" Xigbar feel from the ceiling and landed on his feet. "Just cause' you want Demyx and Axel got him and you didn't, doesn't mean you have to act like a PMSing love-crazed teenager and take it out on me" He slipped his hands into his pockets and leaned up against the wall as he eyed Saïx.

Saïx growled slightly. "I am hardly a teenager, Xigbar. Its not because of Demyx. I can care less of that weakling. Not to mention his obsession for music gets in the way of his missions." He turned to face him, his voice continued to keep the monotone like it always did, as well as the blank expression. "I'm always like this...to save my strength."

"Well, if that's not the biggest load of bull i've ever heard! You're really bad at lying." Xigbar laughed softly at Saïx's pathetic attempt.

"Why would you care what I thought?" His amber eyes narrowed at Xigbar.

"Whoever said I cared? I'm just saying its pertty pathetic that you try to cover up the obvious. Its kinda funny, actually." Xigbar laughed.

"Well. Now that you stated the obvious that i'm lying, get. Out." His voice showed a slight bit of anger at the end. He continued to glare at him.

"Aw! Don't cry now. I'm sure you'll be able to fool someone someday...someday being the clue word there." Xigbar continued to laugh as he walked out, but stood by the door to listen to Saïx.

He turned back around when he thought he had left, not able to see the door form where he stood. "Idiot." He mumbled to himself as he looked back at the sky.

Xigbar stood infront of the door looking at Saïx. "You know, i'm still here. Not that bad at hiding as you say I am. So, what's the real problem?"

"You're annoying. That's the problem." He glared back at Xigbar, his fists clenching in anger.

"Okay, and? Your point is? That's one problem. The other is?" "Are you always this persistant!" Saïx asked, avoiding the question entirely as he turned to face him.

"Of course. Haven't you figured that out by now?" Xigbar laughed. "Stop avoiding the question. I'm not going to shut up until you talk. And if you don't talk, i'll force you. And you wouldn't like that too much..."

"Force all you want. I'm not going to continue this meaningless talk."

Xigbar shrugged. "Do you know how wrong that sounds? Now why are you so annoyed with my question? Embarrassed of the answer?" He asked, smirking.

"There is no reason to answer anything to you." He growled.

"Right, sure. Like I said, you're bad at lying." Saïx snapped then, his weapon materializing in his hands as he ran at him. "Get out!" He screamed.

Xigbar slammed the door ni his face and said, "If you haven't noticed, I was out. I was outside the door smart one." Xigbar took out his sniper prepared for Saïx. "I think whatever crawled up your ass went to far."

The only response he got was a large dent in the door from Saïx's Claymore. Xigbar could tell just from how large the dent was that Saïx had gone into berserk mode, and he could hear him breathing through the door during the silence.

"Seriously, you should get that thing out of your ass." Xigbar put a hand up to the door. "It'll probably help your mood abit." Xigbar stepped back to the side of the wall, out of the way, for he knew Saïx's reaction wouldn't be good for what he was about to say. "Or maybe you can go confess your undying love for Demyx and get it all off your chest. We all know that you're gay and that you love him. There's no hiding the obvious. And as i've said before, you're no good at lying." Xigbar raised his weapon and readied himself for the worse.

Saïx opened the door with a swing of his Claymore, glaring daggers at Xigbar. "I don't love Demyx!" He hissed, glaring at him. "Nor do I love that traitor, Axel!" He ignored the gun Xigbar had pointed at him and slammed his hands on either side of his head, inches from his face to intimidate him. His body was shaking from the anger he could no longer hide from him. "If you must know...i'm jealous! They found a way to cope over losing their hearts! They learned to recover their hearts! How can a weakling like Demyx and a traitor like Axel do something that the rest of us cannot?" As he asked the last question he slammed his fist into the wall. His voice even went from the calm and collected tone to now being in so much stress that it was as if he would break at any moment.

Xigbar, not intimidated by Saïx's normal routine, relaxed his arms and held his snipers over his shoulder. "Good. You finally opened up and said something besides meaningless threats. Now then, if Demyx is such a weakling, how did he learn how to have emotions? And I said nothing about you loving Axel." Xigbar laid a hand on Saïx's shoulder and calmly said, "Well if you're so jealous, why not get over your hatred for Axel and Demyx and ask them yourself how they found emotions." Xigbar took his hand off and stuck it in his pocket. "But if you can't get over your hatred and must know," He leaned up against the wall again and continued. "Its something called 'love'. They found love, and it just happened to be with eachother. That's the big secret. Love. It overcomes all and works in mysterious ways."

He grabbed his weapons and stood. "Now that you know the big secret is, get that thing out of your ass and calm down. Okay?"

Saïx said nothing for awhile, in deep thought. Love...? As he heard Xigbar leaving he spoke. "Wait." He looked at him, his eyes showing the confusion he was in. "I...don't understand how to love. I've never felt it...even when I was human. So how am I to get my heart if I cannot do that?...I cannot wait any longer for my heart to be returned." He looked to te side, not understanding the emotions he was feeling...fear, confusion and longing to be while. But he never understood the fear. Was it because he did not know if he would really be complete if he had a heart? Or perhaps it was because he was afraid to 'love'.

Xigbar turned and looked at him. "If you didn't love when you were human, and you haven't loved now, then that obviously shows that its not the fact that you don't have a heart to love with, its that you either choose not to love, or you're scared to love, you don't know how to love, or you fear what would happen if you did. You're a coward. A coward who's afraid of change." Xigbar took a mirror and put it up infront of Saïx's face. "That look in your eyes in fear. Along with confusion and doubt. Even a coward such as yourself can feel some emotion. Maybe you can't or haven't loved because anger is the first and strongest emotion you've felt. But you don't need a heart to have emotions." Xigbar tossed the mirror and crossed his arms. The mirror didn't break, but faded into darkness. "If you find love, you'll find a heart. Or more so, the emotions of a heart. You think you don't have emotions because you have no heart. You have emotions. You have anger, hatred annoyence, and so much more. You haven't found the missing emotion to fulfill all emotions. Love. You find that, and you'll feel as if you have a heart." He turned as he was about to walk away. "You just have to find it first." He looked Saïx's way and said, "Are you up for it?"

"Its probably all the reasons I never have. So I am afraid of what would happen. If I can be complete by doing this..." He paused and looked at again. "I'll do anything to obtain it."

Xigbar shook his head. "You're stupid...you may 'do anything', but you would only do it to obtain the feelings of a heart. I can't beleive that you would truely, honestly want it...you have to put your whole mind and body into it. You have to want it. It has to be true love." Xigbar shoved his hands in his pockets. "Is the coward able and willing to do that?"

Saïx was annoying with Xigbar calling him a coward...but at the same time he couldn't disagree with him. He was afraid. "...I am willing. I just...don't know how to be able to. I don't understand the emotions of a human heart. I've never felt love for anything. But I am willing to try." He was looking at Xigbar in the eyes when he spoke, showing his point how willing he was to feel such an emotion.

"Hmm...Its ganna take time, and i'm not sure if you have the patience for it." Xigbar laughed slightly. "When the day comes that you actually love someone and you're loved back, i'll be sure to buy you a condom and congradulate you." He grinned as he said that, knowing it would make Saïx angry. "We'll just see if that can happen."

Saïx growled at that, the growl turning slightly animalistic. "Bastard." He hissed. He didn't want to wait, he could have easily forced it if he wanted...even if it was Xigbar. "You're going to show me." He took a step closer, putting his hands on the wall again, blocking Xigbar from leaving. "Even if its you." He glared at him as he spoke, his eyes cold and unfeeling, the same cold look he always had when he was calm and collected, or serious.

Xigbar looked at him with slight shock on his face, but he sort of expected it from him. "Well now, you're never going to know the true feelings and you may not even get to know what the emotions feel like if its not real." He put his hand on Saïx's chest and lightly shoved him away. "And its obvious that i'm not the one for you. You don't love me, how about you stop being a coward and go find someone that you really love. But I can certainly tell you that if you act this way and force people, you'll never know how it'll feel."

"There's no one to find in this hell. Humans won't love a Nobody. So I guess there is nothing." He turned away, heading back into his room. "I don't need love." He said before he was out of earshot of Xigbar. He had gone back to the window again, staring up at the moon.

He looked over at Saïx and shook his head. "You're so stupid. You get all pissed because you can't have emotions. Now you say you don't need love. So basically you're giving up. And after being so dramatic! Like I said, you're a coward..."

"Fuck you, Xigbar. Get out and leave me be." He didn't look at him, continuing to stare mindlessly at the sky.

"Whatever." Xigbar began walking off as he said, "But you know what you need to do...don't come crawling back to me if you fuck up or give up."

"I won't fuck up because I have already given up." He hissed, glaring back at him to see him leaving.

"Whatever. Your loss. Give up on everything you've ever wanted...nt my problem." Xigbar walked off, lifting his hand in the air and waving it. "Seeya."

Saïx didn't reply, turning his head away from the door to the sky.

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Weee XD Saïx is puzzled! XD Next is new chars! Origonal Chars! woo! I need to draw Krystal's char... XD now off to bed for me.