A/N: So sorry it took so long, you kow how these things go. Work and schools and all...but anyways...this one will open up your eyes to some of the people at Hogwarts, or for me, this is my interperation of how they act.
Chapter 3:
As the weeks went on, Harry was seeing less and less of Draco. He would just disappear for long periods of time, and Harry was getting to the point to where he was almost bored.
Sitting in his bed, his thoughts went to a place they hadn't gone in nearly a year. His thoughts had found their way back to Cedric.
Of course, no one had known. Not even Hermione in the beginning.
Cedric had been one of a kind, for sure. Strong willed, smart, and definitely handsome.
Harry thought about the whole thing that night, just lying in his bed with his blankets tightly around him. He was still trying not to cry as he thought of the Triwizard Tournament. He didn't want to let go of Cedric. He would have given his own life for Cedric's. It just wasn't fair.
Nostalgic thoughts filled his head. He remembered when they had first met, in his third year. Cedric had been so perfect in Harry's eyes, it was amazing. But he just pushed those thoughts away when he was younger. He believed that he was strange enough already, without adding homosexual into the mix.
Back in his fourth year, he finally started to admit it to himself, but not anyone else, of course. It was all Cedric's fault had been his first way of thinking.
"Harry! I can't believe you made it into the tournament! How did you trick the goblet into accepting you?" Cedric asked him, wandering over by Harry as the walked back to their respective common rooms.
"I didn't put my name in. I don't know who did…" Harry said in response, looking at the older boy.
Cedric looked at him skeptically before resting a hand on his shoulder and smiled. Harry turned his eyes towards the taller boy.
"Well then, I suppose we'll just have to do our best then, right? I have to turn here. G'night Harry." He said, turning down a hallway, leaving Harry there, and blushing slightly. He shook his head and walked to his common room.
That had been the first time that Harry had ever been in contact with Cedric, and now that thought will be burned in his head forever. They had remained distant for a while afterwards, but after the first task, they had started to talk again.
"Thanks again for the save, Harry. If it hadn't been for you, I would have gone down in that first task." Cedric said, leaning against the wall next to the window ledge that Harry had been sitting on.
"Well, I had help too, and I couldn't leave you in the dark. It was the right thing to do." Harry replied shrugging. The bell rang overhead, warning them that class was going to start. Hopping off of the window ledge, Harry turned to say good bye to Cedric.
He hadn't been expecting Cedric to hug him in the deserted corridor. Harry was rigid at the taller boy just rested on the smaller boy's shoulder.
"C-Cedric!" Harry exclaimed, hearing the final bell ring overhead. Cedric just sat there, quite happy with where he was.
When Harry started to shake, Cedric stood up again. Grasping one of the smaller boy's shoulders, he smiled.
"Cedric, what the hell did you do that for? I'm going to be late now!" Harry exclaimed.
"So just ditch the class. You can claim that you got sick. I just wanted to talk to you. Get to know the real Harry James Potter, not the one I grew up hearing his name every night before I went to bed at home." Cedric said, starting to walk down the hall. "If you want to talk, follow me, if you want to be late to class, go to class."
So Harry did the logical thing, he followed Cedric. He wanted to get to the bottom of this thing.
When they got to a deserted classroom, one that hadn't been used in years, Harry sat himself down on the teachers desk, with Cedric settling himself next to him.
"Why did you do that Cedric?" Harry demanded. His hands were clenched on the edge of the desk.
"Because you were just so damn cute, Harry." Cedric replied. He flashed his perfect smile at the younger boy, making Harry's heart beat just a little faster.
"I'm not cute…" Harry muttered, looking down. "So what do you want to know about me that the rest of the world doesn't know?"
"Everything. Tell me everything, Harry." Cedric said, looking into Harry's eyes. Harry blushed a deep red, and went to explain about what he remembered.
"Wow…I didn't know you had such a traumatic childhood… I'm so sorry to bring it up." Cedric said, a hand resting on the boy's shoulder again. Harry looked at him, a few tears dripping down his face. He hadn't wanted to seem so weak, but he couldn't help it.
Cedric reached down and wiped the tears away with the back of his hand. Leaning down, he pressed his lips softly against Harry's, making Harry look at him shocked. When Cedric broke away, he smiled.
"I've wanted to do that for over a year now. Ever since you fell, I've wanted to understand you, Harry. I think I'm doing a little better now." Cedric said, right as the bell rang for dinner.
Cedric smiled and left, as Harry reached up to touch his lips. He hopped off the desk and walked to the Great Hall, not the least bit hungry. Sitting himself down between Hermione and Seamus completely in shock of what just happened, they both gave him a fleeting look before returning to eating.
'How could I dare to think of such a memory?' Harry thought to himself. Tears started to run down his face, and he couldn't believe he had even thought of that again. The next thing he was thinking of was after the ball, when Cedric tried to help him with the next clue.
"Harry!" someone said from behind him, making Harry look behind him. Cedric looked stunning, all dressed up and such. Cedric smiled when he saw Harry turn around.
"Watcha need, Cedric?" Harry said a little apprehensively. He wasn't particularly happy with him at the moment, dancing with Cho and all.
"Will you meet me in about an hour? I'll wait outside the Gryffindor common room, if you would like." Cedric said, making Harry look at him questioningly. "What? I just want to talk! Also, bring your egg." Cedric said.
"All right. In an hour, right?" Harry said, looking almost annoyed. Cedric nodded and Harry walked off into the common room. Changing quickly, he sat for nearly 45 minutes with his egg in his lap.
When the time came, he bid goodbye to Ron and Hermione, ignoring their questioning looks.
Right as he walked out into the corridor, there was Cedric. He smiled and stood up, glancing at Harry quickly.
"Where are we going, Cedric?" Harry said, following the taller boy. The egg laid heavily in his arms, it was very annoying.
"I'm going to show you how to get the answer for the next task. Do you want me to take the egg?" He said looking back and watching Harry.
"I got it." Harry muttered, turning a little red. Cedric smiled at this, he looked so adorable when he blushed.
They arrived at the prefect's bathroom, and Harry looked at Cedric questioningly, but Cedric just shook his head, and led him inside. Turning on the taps, he let the tub fill.
"So how will this help me, Cedric?" Harry asked. Smiling, Cedric reached up and took off his shirt. "God man! What are you doing?" Harry said a little too loudly.
"Well, you can't get in fully dressed can you?" Cedric said, sliding his pants off, but leaving his boxers on for Harry's sake. Sighing, Harry followed suit, to Cedric's happiness. So Cedric jumped into the pool sized tub, and beckoned Harry to join him. Harry walked over to the side, and sat on the edge. Balancing the egg on the side, he jumped in after Cedric.
Harry swam around for a few moments, trying to get used to the water. He didn't notice when Cedric swam up behind him, but he did notice Cedric pull him into a tight embrace from this position. Harry blushed bright red, and looked down.
"What's wrong Harry?" Cedric muttered in his ear. Breaking away from him, Harry swam over to the edge, and pulled himself up to sit on it.
"Did I do something to offend you, Harry?" Cedric said, swimming over to him.
"Why do you do that?" Harry muttered, still looking down. Cedric pulled himself up and sat next to him.
"Do what, Harry?" Cedric asked in response.
"You know what I mean. When no one else is around, you hang all over me, but when you're out in the public, you're all over Cho…I'm sick of it!" Harry said, grabbing his clothing and the egg before running from the bathroom. Cedric, tried to call after him, but it didn't work.
'Well, I ended up figuring out the clue anyways, so why does it matter?' Harry thought after this one. He had his face buried in the pillow, and the blankets over his head. He could hear his roommates now, some sleeping, some changing, and some just sitting around talking. Harry didn't want to talk, because he knew what he would end up saying, so he just continued his little trip of his.
Harry was happy when the first task finished. He was ecstatic when the second task was finished. He only had one more to go. After they escaped the water, Harry found himself walking alone again. Heading back up to the castle, he felt a hand enclose around his wrist. Turning to face whatever had him, he saw Cedric smiling down at him.
"What do you want?" Harry said coolly, making Cedric drop the smile right off his face.
"I missed you. You haven't talked to me recently." Cedric replied. "I can understand if you're still mad at me though."
"I'm not. I just thought you had chosen Cho. I couldn't blame you either; she's much prettier than I am." Harry said, coming to a dead stop and looking at the ground.
"Don't say that, it's not true! You are five times better than Cho in every way! I just thought you were avoiding me." Cedric said, dropping Harry's arm, and tackling him to the ground in a hug.
"I thought….never mind. Cedric, you're very heavy." Harry said, looking up at him. Cedric smiled and rolled off the boy, pulling Harry on top of him. Reaching up, he pulled the smaller boy down and kissed him fiercely on the lips, much unlike their first kiss. Harry's eyes grew wide, but finally, he just let it happen.
When they broke apart, Cedric smiled at him. "Like I said, at least five times better." He said, making Harry smile slightly.
Harry climbed off of Cedric, and laid on the wet ground next to him. Cedric turned to his side, and placed one arm on Harry's waist for a moment before getting up. Helping Harry up, they headed towards the castle.
When they walked through the doors, Cedric led Harry back to the classroom where they had first gone. Harry looked up at him questioningly, but he just shook his head.
Opening the door and then locking it behind him, Cedric smiled. Wrapping his arms around Harry tightly, he brought his mouth down into another kiss. Harry just closed his eyes, until he felt one of Cedric's hands slide under his shirt. Rubbing his back, the hand moved to the front of Harry's body and began caressing the young boy's chest. Harry broke them apart and looked at Cedric.
"What are you doing?" Harry asked, looking up at Cedric. Cedric looked down at him for a moment, and then went and sat on the desk.
"I'm sorry Harry, I was just caught up in the moment. Will you forgive me?" he said, watching as the younger boy walked up to the desk and rested his hands on Cedric's knees.
"Yeah, I forgive you. It almost felt….nice." Harry said, looking down again and turning bright red at the thought. Cedric just smiled and pulled the boy closer to him again.
Leaning down, Cedric began to spread kisses up and down the young boy's neck Harry almost moaned from this, making Cedric smile wider. He wrapped his arms around Harry and the younger boy just sat there, at the mercy of the older one.
When Harry let his shirt slide off of his body, he realized what was happening. Looking up at Cedric, a few tears splashed down his cheeks. Cedric stopped for a moment, and looked down at the boy.
"What's the matter, Harry?" he asked the smaller one, wiping the tears from his eyes with his thumb.
"N-nervous. I've never kissed someone before you. And here you are…" Harry drifted off, but Cedric knew.
"Nothing to be nervous about, Harry. I'll stop if you tell me to." Cedric said, smiling down at him again.
Harry just nodded, and Cedric went back to his fun. A few moments later, Harry let out a moan just as the door opened. Looking over at the person, Harry nearly groaned. Hermione was watching the two.
"Harry! There you are! Ron and I were so worried when you didn't come back after the task. Why aren't you wearing a shirt, and why does Cedric have one of his legs wrapped around you?" Hermione asked. "…Oh…god…I'm sorry guys. I didn't mean to disturb you!" she said in a high voice, and she walked towards the door. Harry looked up at Cedric, and quickly ran over to Hermione.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you…"he muttered, grabbing her arm. She turned to him and smiled.
"We don't have to tell each other everything, Harry. I can understand if you wanted to keep this quiet. Just as long as you're happy, right?" Hermione said in a gentle voice. Harry led her over to Cedric, who smiled at her.
"Sorry to scare you like this. Cedric Diggory." He said, extending his hand to her.
"Hermione Granger. It's not a problem. We probably wouldn't have met at all otherwise." She said, taking his hand. Smiling at him, she turned to leave.
"Don't have Harry out too late. I'll make up some excuse for Ron. Good night, Cedric." She called over her shoulder.
After she locked the door, Harry let out a sigh. "That was way too close, Cedric…" he said, as the taller one nodded in agreement.
"But where were we?" Cedric said, snaking one arm around Harry. He pulled the small boy up to him, before dropping to his knees, taking Harry with him. Leaning him over, Cedric looked at the younger boy underneath him.
"Please don't go all the way, Cedric…" Harry said in a small voice, and Cedric winked at him.
" As you wish." He replied, before showering the younger boy in kisses again.
Harry sat up after this, realizing how lucky it was that he was even a virgin anymore. After that encounter, they had many like it, but none of them ever got that close. He had forgotten how Hermione had found them. But after this whole thing happening, he had to go and die. He had to leave Harry to deal with his feelings. But in that maze, Harry hadn't cared. Harry was going to leave Cedric to die, eaten by that maze itself.
Get out of my way, Potter!" Cedric yelled, running past the shorter boy to the glittering cup.
"No way in hell, Diggory!" Harry said, smashing past Cedric, making him fall.
Cedric looked down, and saw something slowly wrapping itself around his wrist. Harry was still running when he heard Cedric's strangled cry.
"God dammit, Harry, help me!" Cedric cried, making Harry stop and turn to him. Then he slowly turned back to the cup, and then again to Cedric. Memories of each other flashed in his eyes, and Harry ran back to Cedric.
"Reducto! Reducto!" Harry yelled over and over, cutting the branches from him. One began to enfold its way up Harry's leg, but he just involuntary yanked it away, causing it to open a huge gash. Groaning slightly, Harry helped Cedric up again.
"For a moment, I thought you were going to leave me there…" Cedric said, looking down.
"For a moment I thought I was going to, too." Harry said, accepting Cedric's help as they both went for the trophy. Walking slowly, just to be sure, Cedric looked down at Harry when they stopped.
"You take it, you've saved me so many times in this maze." Cedric said, smiling, but Harry shook his head.
"That's not how it's supposed to work. You would have beaten me in a race here. It's yours." Harry said.
"No."
"Let's both take it then. It's still a Hogwart's victory." Harry said, looking around.
"You're on." Cedric said. "One, two, three…." Both took it, and both felt the trophy leading them somewhere completely new.
"Did you know that the trophy was a portkey? Do you think that this is part of the task?" Cedric said, before Harry fell to the ground, with the combined pain from his scar and his leg. "Harry! What's the matter?"
"Take the portkey back, Cedric. TAKE IT BACK!" He yelled, gasping for air.
Then the next thing he knew, Cedric was on the ground next to him, and he was against the statue. Harry looked around wildly, and found Wormtail.
Once the battle ended, Harry took the portkey back and just laid there on the ground over Cedric, as they had so long ago. Sobbing over him, he heard the joyful music and everyone cheering. No matter what anyone said, until Moody forcefully took Harry from Cedric, did he finally acknowledge his death.
By the time he had thought through this, Harry was sobbing again. Most of the other boys had fallen asleep, but Seamus and Ron could still the boy that was in between them. Harry couldn't help it though. He still missed Cedric with a passion. But for a while he thought that he had someone to help him through the death.
"Harry! It's all right, mate." Ron said, after seeing Harry thrashing around. He had another nightmare, and it wasn't like he could control himself in his sleep.
"Damn Cedric…" Harry muttered, just loud enough for the people next to him to hear. Of course, Ron thought it was about his death, but Seamus didn't really know.
Sure, Seamus couldn't believe that the Dark lord had come back, but it was so hard to disagree with that black-haired boy sometimes. He was just so cute when he got so serious.
Seamus had been watching Harry again. When Harry had walked into a clear corridor, Seamus followed. Turning around, Harry grabbed a hold of his shoulders and faced him.
"What the hell are you doing, Seamus?" Harry snarled at him. He was in a bad mood as it was.
"I can't help it. I'm drawn to you. I don't want to believe you, but there is also the point that I do want to know. Tell me what you saw, Harry." Seamus said, looking into his fierce eyes.
"You want to know? Fine! I saw one of the people I love most get murdered right before me. I fought the bastard that brought it on him, and I got away clutching his body to mine, in a desperate attempt to bring him back! Anything else you would like to know?" Harry said, nearly shouting at the beginning, but by the end he was just shaking, about to cry for about the millionth time.
"You loved him?" Seamus said quietly, taking a few steps towards Harry, not wanting to make him mad again.
"Yes, I loved him. Now you know the big secret about my life, happy? You and Hermione." Harry said, wiping a couple of tears from his eyes. Releasing Seamus, Harry ran towards the deserted common room. He had a bad habit of ditching class, but it wasn't his fault, he wasn't going to walk into a class crying.
He had sat himself down in front of the fire, trying to stop the tears. When he heard footsteps behind him, he couldn't bring himself to care. When he felt a pair of arms wrap around him comfortingly, he just leaned into them. The person let him cry all over both of them, and Harry was glad. When the person reached up to wipe the last of his tears away, Harry opened his eyes. Seamus looked at him, and wrapped his arms around him again.
"What are you doing?" Harry asked, his voice slightly groggy. He looked up at Seamus again, and Seamus turned bright red, releasing him.
"I couldn't help myself. I don't like to see you hurting, Harry." He replied, the smaller boy just watching him for a moment, before crawling back into his arms. "What are you doing, Harry?"
"You held me like Cedric did." Harry muttered, just letting Seamus hold him.
'I can't believe I used Seamus like that. I should be disgusted with myself.' Harry thought to himself. He was facing Seamus now, who was turned away from him, still awake. Sometimes he did miss being held by him, but he can't go back to Seamus, he had Draco now. At least he hoped he did…
Harry couldn't help himself, he cried more than Cho these days. But Cho was just a filthy slut in his eyes anymore, so what could he say.
Tears splashing down his face again, Harry sat alone on his bed, trying to stop. He knew he couldn't help it, but it was so embarrassing trying to stop himself from crying every five minutes.
He didn't hear the footsteps ascending the stairs. He didn't hear the door open. He just felt himself stop crying. Seamus looked at him, looking right into Harry's eyes again. Smiling a little, Harry pulled Seamus onto his bed to hold him closer. Seamus was always the one to comfort him. He was glad to have such a friend, even if he still didn't believe the whole thing happened.
"Why were you crying, Harry? Were you thinking about Cedric again?" Seamus asked, and Harry nodded.
Seamus swung his legs over the bed, as Harry leaned against him, comforted by just his presence. The Irish boy just gave off that kind of aura. Looking down at him slightly, Seamus smiled, and ran a hand through Harry's beautiful black hair. Harry looked up at him, and Seamus kissed him gently.
'Seamus was just a replacement for Cedric. I can't believe I used him so much. I took my anger out on him. I just wish I could apologize now.' Harry thought, still facing Seamus. He looked like such an angel this night, with the moonlight hitting him just right. 'Of course, Seamus used me too…' he thought after a moment.
"Harry…I love you." Seamus said one night, as he sat by Harry in the empty common room. Everyone else had gone to bed.
"Why would you say that, Seamus?" Harry said, looking at him questioningly.
"Because it's the truth, Harry. Ever sense I saw your vulnerable side, I know that I loved you. You didn't seem so unattainable then." Seamus said, standing up and kneeling down by Harry's chair.
Harry turned to face him, and looked into Seamus's shining face. The moonlight suited him well. He reached out at touched the Irish boy's face. Seamus stood up after a few moments, and Harry went into his outstretched arms. Embracing tightly, Seamus buried his face into Harry's hair. Pushing Harry down to the ground, Seamus looked down at him from their position. Harry looked up at him, and Seamus started to kiss Harry, gently at first but soon after getting it very passionate and controlling.
Seamus pushed Harry's shirt up and started to rub his chest, moving in slow circles downward, while still capturing Harry's mouth with his own. When his hand hit Harry's pants buckle, he slowly began to undo it. Harry pushed Seamus away for a moment.
"What do you think you're doing?" Harry said, looking up at him irritably.
"You don't want me to do this? It would be the best way to let your anger out about Cedric." Seamus said, knowing that he had said that wrong.
"My anger? I don't have any damn anger about how I should have died rather then that beautiful boy, understand me? No anger!" He yelled, trying to get up. Seamus just pinned him back down.
"I thought you just said you didn't have any anger about it. You sound pretty angry." Seamus said, smiling at Harry.
Harry looked down from where he was. He couldn't believe that he just screamed at him. Harry just looked up and said, "Fine, do what you want. Just don't go all the way." Almost just like he said to Cedric. Almost.
"I promise." Seamus said, winking at Harry kindly before devouring his mouth in another kiss. His hand went back to the buckle. Harry moaned loudly into Seamus's mouth, knowing this was not going to end well.
Finally finishing with his pants, Seamus pushed them down. Reaching down there, Harry cringed at his touch. It was nothing like Cedric's soft gentle touch. He tried to move away, but Seamus held him there with one hand.
Neither on them could hear the footsteps coming down the stairs. But when they heard a loud gasp from the other side of the room, they both looked up.
"I'm so sorry for disturbing you…" Hermione squeaked out, before turning towards the stairs.
"Hermione! Stop!" Harry yelled, fighting his way from Seamus, but she had gone running up the stairs already.
"Holy shit, that scared the hell out of me." Seamus said, before smiling at Harry. "Sorry mate. I got caught up in the moment."
"It's all right, I'll explain it to her tomorrow. I'm going to bed." Harry said, sliding his pants on.
"I'll join you." Seamus said brightly, and Harry glared at him. "Oh, ok. I'll go sleep in my own bed." He said, sounding disappointed. He kissed Harry once more, before going to bed.
'I refused to see him after that. But I didn't cry over Cedric but in my own mind anymore either. So I suppose Seamus did have a purpose.' Harry said, looking around. Everyone appeared asleep, but now he was wide awake. Getting dressed, he reached for his cloak, but not before a hand enclosed him, Harry looked up, and Seamus smiled at him.
"Why were you crying, Harry? You do sob rather loudly." He said looking at the black-haired boy.
"Why do you think I was crying. I escaped up here and thought about him for the first time in nearly a year." Harry said, looking down slightly.
Seamus smiled and didn't saw anything. Sitting next to Harry, he pulled the boy closer to himself, and felt Harry start to cry softly again. But Harry pushed away from Seamus.
"I told you. I don't want to be near you again, even if you do hold me like Cedric did." Harry said, running from the room. He continued to run, after throwing on the invisibility cloak and found his way to the astronomy tower.
His hopes weren't high, but on the off chance that Draco was there, that would be very nice. Climbing the ladder, he opened the trap door, but didn't see anyone. Sitting himself down, he looked out to the sky, still dark as anything with its beautiful stars. He could still feel the tears coming softly and calmly.
Feeling a hand fall upon his shoulder, Harry looked up. Draco smiled down at him.
"Hello, Harry." He said simply, sitting himself down next to him. Draco brought himself close to Harry, wiping the tears before rested his head on Harry's shoulder. "What's the matter, Harry?"
"The past, nothing more. But Draco, you look so pale. What's the matter?" Harry asked. Draco looked away rather quickly.
"He-who-must-not-be-named has been asking much of me, and I must keep up appearances. I'm so sorry." Draco said.
Harry saw him and the sadness in his eyes. Pulling Draco's face towards him, he gently kissed him, just as Cedric had done so long ago. Draco looked at him, slightly shocked, but then just started to kiss him back.
"It's always all right. Just don't leave me." Harry said, breaking the kiss a few moments later.
"I won't leave you, Harry. I swear this to you." He said, wrapping his arms around Harry and burying his face into Harry's chest, just relaxing . They stayed like that until day break.
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So another one done, and another one to go. It wasn't much of a cliff, but I have some funnnnn stuff coming up, in a couple of chapters, whill they still be there for eachother? Well, I hope so, but my mind isn't always so trustworthy. Til then, Sayonarra!
-Saka