Okay, so here I am again with another CSI story (smiles). It's in the POV of Sara, Hodges, and Nick. As stated in the summary, Sara reflects on how she feels about Nick, Hodges reflects on how he feels about Sara, and Nick reflects on how he feels about her. Hehe, no one will know who she is until the end…but you may know way before. Lol. There's going to be three chapters to this story. I allude to some episodes, and in this particular chapter, I am using a scene that got cut from "Stalker". So...yeah…anywho.
Disclaimer: CSI doesn't belong to me. Boo on that. I've borrowed the characters, and unfortunately I must return the. Boo on that too.
Enjoy!
Sara POV
For me, it's a never ending circle with Nick Stokes.
I see him every day at work. Every day I see him, I can't help but think of him. Every day I think of him, the more I want him. The more I want him, the more I need him. The more I need him, the more I think of him.
See the circle? Well, I've been living that exact thing for the past couple of years. You see, I had this really big crush on my supervisor, Gil Grissom. At one point I actually thought I loved him. But about two years ago there was a woman who was killed in her bathroom. Now you're asking, what does that have to do with my feelings for Nick? Well, the woman had a very good similarity to me. Grissom stopped at nothing until her killer was found. He did, and he also confessed something to the killer. Grissom, however, didn't know I was behind the glass of the interrogation room, so I heard every word he said…
Grissom sat still in his chair while his suspect stood up, "It's sad, isn't it, doc?" he said quietly, "Guys like us. Couple of middle-aged men who've allowed their work to consume their lives. The only time we ever touch other people is when we're wearing our latex gloves.
We wake up one day and realize that for fifty years we haven't really lived at all. But then, all of a sudden ... we get a second chance.
Somebody young and beautiful shows up. Somebody ... we could care about. She offers us a new life with her ... ... but we have a big decision to make, right? Because we have to risk everything we've worked for in order to have her.
I couldn't do it ..."
To me, this meant that Grissom did in fact have feelings for me, but wasn't willing to give up his career for me. So I moved on. I turned my attention to the one and only Nick. He had been in front of my face the whole time, and I never knew it! We had always playfully flirted with each other, but it wasn't until we were walking down the Strip after a case that got me really thinking about my feelings for the handsome Texan.
We walked down the Strip after finishing a case about a guy with his fraternal twin brother's DNA (it was a bit confusing at first). I congratulated him on his 'almost promotion', and slipped my arm into his. Nick didn't shy away, which was a good sign. It was kind of weird, in all honesty. Not that Nick didn't move away, but the fact that I felt comfortable hold his arm. It felt right; like I was supposed to be with him. Maybe it was a sign?
Then when we found the dead alien priest, something funny happened. Nick and I went to investigate the church that the priest worked at. We found his friend running it. I remember the funny conversation like it was yesterday…
The priest looked at us, "Are you two married?" he asked, intrigued.
I looked up at Nick to see what he said, "No." he shook his head. I instantly shook my head also.
"No? All right, well, we're open 24 hours. There's a toll-free number right there on the back, all right?" the alien priest handed me a pamphlet, "Don't let this moment pass you by. She's gonna getcha."
Now, if that wasn't a sign, then I don't know what is! The PRIEST thought we were married. Okay, it was a ten minute marriage alien/Elvis priest, but still a priest nonetheless.
Another sign (if you want to call it that) is the fact that he's always there for me to lean on, and vice versa. When Nick was seriously injured by his stalker a little over three years ago, he told me that he had no one. I assumed he meant he had no one to talk to, no one to lean on, and no one to help him. I later answered him with, "For all it's worth, you've got me." And it's true. Nick will always have me to talk to, to lean on, and to help him.
Everything that has happened between the two of us in the past six years, good and bad, has made me think about my life and what I want to happen in it, who I want in it. I want Nick in my life. Not just as a friend, but a lover.
My name is Sara Sidle, and I think I'm in love with Nick Stokes.
Hooray, I finished it! Sorry if it was short, or it was horribly written. Lol. Feedback is always welcome. I'll get part 2 up as soon as I can. It will be in Hodges' point of view.
Okay, until next chapter readers!