It wasn't for Paradise
Toboe: Sorry this took me so long! This is Tsume's poem. Oh! Yes I will be writing one for all the characters… maybe even Darcia…. What Tsume says is like 'this', and what he thinks it's like 'this', and what others say is like "this" and howling is like "this". I do have to say I'm sorry for not updating more often but I do have Pre-Ap Classes this semester and on that point I should be studying for my test tomorrow:D Enjoy and HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY!!!!
I knew deep in my heart it would come to this
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The likes of me are not made for that holey land,
That Paradise
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I'm not one for faith
Or myth
Or stories
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I believe what my eyes tell me
And my paws touch
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I believe in the cold hard ground
Unrelenting iced winds
And the loneliness of a wolf
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"Why do you continue this pointless struggle?"
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Those words…
They burned…
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"Paradise can't be opened by the likes of you"
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'Save your breath, Darcia, I already know that'
Yet still…
It cuts me worst then his fangs, his claws
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I have seen blood before,
I have killed
I am a wolf thought, it is my nature
Kill or die
Die or kill
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Yet somehow this time it is different
That is my lifeblood seeping into the ice
Not a worthless human
It is me who is dieing
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I feel… as thought I should relax
Yet I know that is wrong
Kiba fights for what he believes in
Ageist a monster
A battle for Paradise
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I am part of that battle aren't I?
But what am I fighting for?
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I didn't believe in the place that white wolf drew
A paradise
Free of humans and filled with wolves
And flowers as far as the eye could see
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I don't even know if I believe in it now
Even after I have seen Cheza
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Now I know the truth
Paradise would never open for me even if it is real
I have done too many things,
Unforgivable things.
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Who…
Who am I?
What have I been fighting for?
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I was once an outcast, abandoned by my own pack
A lone wolf
Banned by my kind I ruled over humans
Then I met them
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To this moment
I still can't figure out why I was stupid enough to follow you
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It wasn't for Paradise
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Was I just a pawn?
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NO!
I will hold on to this fact to the brink of death!
I wasn't used!
I believe…
It was because I had found a home
A pack
And I had a place
No matter how much I yelled at you, growled, bite you
I wasn't alone any longer
I realize that now...
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Yes
I believe that is it for the brothers I had gained,
Not that I would let them know that
Not even as you stop to see if I am okay
Instead of chasing after Cheza
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"Tsume! Are you all right!"
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The answer is no
But I can not tell you that
So I will rest awhile
'I'm a little tired that's all.'
'Go after him! I'll meet with you later!'
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I feel…
I must tell him…
He has the right
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'He's dead.'
'Hige asked me to put him down'
'I don't feel like moving anymore either…'
'I knew it all along, somewhere deep down.'
'I knew, and that is why I lived my life like I did.'
'When I met you I was certain.'
'It was so obvious that I wouldn't be the one to open paradise'
All he does is stare at me
'JUST GO!'
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"Tsume! Hang in there!"
For the first time ever I believe he is distressed
Fhe, Idiot
'He has to be stopped!'
"Grab on!"
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I don't believe Kiba will ever now how much that open hand meant to me,
I do know why I came,
Screw Paradise
I had found a pack
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'Get the Hell out of here!'
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I'm glad he finally listened
I did not want him to see me die
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I will give one last warriors howl!
"Goodbye White Wolf!"
'Let's meet again, next time in Paradise'