Worthy of Tears
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight though I do wish I had the rights to Edward. ;)
A/N: Edward's thoughts as Bella is dying. Be prepared to be depressed. I never want anything like this to happen in the sequels but I went to a wake yesterday and need someway to vent. Please R/R.
Salty trails dampen cheeks
Eyes lightless, body weak
Face passive; very pale
Life dimming; I cannot fail
Thoughts war in my mind
Bloody tears I wish were mine
Hear her voice in my head betray
Those trusting words I'd hear her say
Change me: I've already changed you
Do you still believe you are the monster
I fail to see in you?
We can share a life, perfected bliss
Wait to long and any chance together
we may by just a moment miss
Curse my arrogance, my prideful conceit
Borne strong enough any enemy defeat
Feeling her fragile heartbeat slows
No scent alluring me when breeze blows
Eyes turn dark and not from thirst
Survive eternal without my love; accursed
Imagined eyes reflect sympathy
Gone is the edge of polite courtesy
Once ocher orbs now desolate
Countenance articulates to what degree desperate
Marching alone; wonder if I'll become
A blood hungry monster upon her death succumb
Never before have I felt the need to cry
But my undead body long ago ran dry
I place her gently on the damp ground
Hoping if she's gone I too can drown
I caress her features unnervingly
"Bella, no, don't go," is my unanswered plea
Her body lay broken amidst tides of crimson
Something from a past life blurs my vision
A trembling finger reaches to touch
Outward sign of my agony that hurts so much
"I'm sorry that I proved lesser than my fears
You are the only one, Bella, worthy of my tears"