So here is the second chapter. It's from Michelle's point of few. Just read and you will see :) Thanks for all of you that read the first chapter, especially those who reviewed. I was so happy when there didn't read anything like "You sucks" or something like that... so thanks! Read and review!
I never thought this day would come. I thought you were stronger than this. You were always the strong one, you always hold me when I fell into pieces. You never cried when I did, you just whispered comforting words to my ear. You were so strong. Everything around of us could fall apart, but you still didn't give up. You just smiled and said everything would be fine. I didn't guess that I was always the only thing keeping you together. Now I cannot be there with you when walls come closer to you. How could I know that you would fall apart? You use to be the strongest man I have ever known.
But all that is gone now. I have seen pain in your eyes, fear, and I saw you crying. You were only piece of the man I use to know. Every visit, every time I saw you, I saw you falling deeper. Every time I found you little more broken, one more piece missing. But still, I didn't see this coming. I was so naïve, I didn't want to give up hope.
What did I do to help you? What did I do to stop you falling deeper? I tried everything that game to my mind, but nothing helped. I should have tried harder. I tried to comfort you, but I always started crying, the stupid tears didn't leave me alone. You always ended comforting me. I was so week, but so where you. And I saw that every time I cried, I broke little piece of you. But I couldn't help myself. Maybe if I hadn't cried, you would still hang on.
I have to do something. I promised not to give up on you. I will keep that promise. But what should I do? My head is empty, and I feel so desperate. I just keep thinking your eyes and your tears when you said goodbye. I saw that it hurt you too. Why didn't you game back, you heard my screams. I saw you looking back. You saw my tears. Why didn't you come back and say you would hang on little longer? Why did you let the guards take me away? You broke my heart. I think how desperate you must be. And I see only one way up. Only thing that maybe would get Tony up from the bottom would be getting him out of there.
Then I remembered. It had been so long ago, but still I remembered. I remember Jack who told me he would get pardon to Tony… Now was the time. It had been almost six months, but still nothing had happened. I had see Tony, I knew he had given up. I was so afraid; I didn't know what to do. So I called Jack.
"Jack Bauer", he said, and I almost hang up. His voice was quiet and tired. Why did I bother him, I know he had done everything he could. He had said that he had tried, but had he tried enough? Still I wanted to hang up, but Tony's eyes didn't leave me alone.
"Hey, It's me", I said, trying to smile. How hard it was. "Michelle, I didn't expect you to call, how you are?" he said and I almost saw him smiling in the other end. I didn't know what to say. But I had to say something. "If I would say I'm okay, would you believe it?" I said. I didn't know what I was doing, I was bitter, and the words just game. "I don't lie to you Jack. It's has been hell. But we have hanged on until now." I took a deep breath and tried to think how to say this. "It's Tony…" I whispered to him. I started to cry. The damn tears didn't leave me alone. "Michelle is everything ok?" he said worried. Maybe he still cared about our faith.
"I went to see him, like I go every month…" I whispered truth my crying. I couldn't control myself anymore. "He has given up Jack …" It hurts so much even think about that. My Tony, who used to be so strong, has given up. I guess Jack understand what I mean. Tears went down my cheeks. "Given up? What do you mean?" Why he asked? I know he understands, why he asks? "Don't you understand? He has given up hope; he thinks he won't get out of there alive!" "Michelle I'm sorry. Do you want me to visit him next time and speak to him..?" he sounded confused, it was something I have never heard in his voice. What had happened to him? Jack had always known what to do. But now he didn't understand a thing I was speaking of.
I lost my temper, I had said it so clear but he didn't see it. Tony and he used to be friends. They always knew what the other was thinking. What had happened? "He won't see anyone again Jack! He said he doesn't want to see me again, he said he has lost his life…" I screamed in the phone, I wanted Jack to understand. "He doesn't last till next visit Jack, I'm afraid he tries to… try to kill himself." I said lowering my voice to whisper. I tried to wipe the tears, but there were too many. I sobbed; I had said it aloud now.
Jack sees now, but he doesn't say anything. Does he believe me? The silence is killing me. What if he doesn't try to get him pardon, what if he doesn't get pardon? What if I will never see Tony again, what if he dies? I could never live without him, so I try not to think.
"Tony said that?" he asks, and I can now hear the fear in his voice. We both know Tony too well. We know he wouldn't say it without meaning it. God knows what has happened to him there. What has broken my husband, what has made him give up? He is the only one who knows.
"Yeah", I whisper. I would like to escape from this situation; I like to be in Tony's arms. It's the only place where I have ever feel that I'm safe. But it won't happen. Not now, maybe never. "He won't do that, he is strong", he says, not believing. He hasn't seen him. Tony is strong, but even the strongest finally brakes. He hadn't seen him falling apart.
I understand that he doesn't believe. But he has to. It's the only way. I try to explain. "Please, I have never seen him like that. His eyes were full of pain. He was so afraid Jack, I saw it. He has given up… I don't know why, but he has." Please Jack, just believe. I'm not strong enough to make you believe if you don't want to.
"Even if you would speak the truth, what could I do Michelle? If he won't hang on 20 years, what I could do?" he said, confused. Had he forget? Had he forget what he had promised me the day they took Tony? "Don't you… Don't you remember?" I asked. I couldn't believe it. I remember like yesterday when I was crying in the hallway after they had taken him. He came to me and said he would get him out, he said he would get him pardon if it come to that. Was it just empty promise? Had he lied to me?
"Michelle, I have already tried to get him a pardon. I can't get him pardoned now… The President is busy; his time at president is almost over!" he said, he remember after all. Didn't he care about us anymore? Didn't he care about Tony's faith? Had he given up on him? He hadn't even visited him once.
"It's the time, don't you see! When president has chanced, Tony will never get pardon!" I pecked him, but he didn't say anything. "Just go to see him, go to see him now! You work with Secretary Heller, he can arrange you an extra visit! Just look at him, so you understand." I said, but he didn't answer. Didn't he want to get him out? "Please Jack, after that you can decide what you do. Tony has saved your ass so many times, are you letting him die?" My eyes were so full of tears. It hurt so much to know that my husband is falling so hard… Jack, please do it. You will see. "Okay, I do that", he says and I can breath again. "Thank you Jack" I say and he hangs up.
He will get him out. He has to. Tony is only reason why I haven't fallen in the ground and cried there forever. He will get out. He has to. I have made a promise to him, promise that I won't give up on him. I won't.
"Jack got you out. I guess he saw your desperate eyes and see what I saw. You were given up. What he said to the president I don't know. But you did get the pardon. I was never been so happy than the day you get out. But then came to reality, I wasn't strong enough to pick the millions pieces of you and make you one. I give up. I broke my promise. I'm so sorry. "