Oh my, it's been a while since I've updated! I'm sorry! I've been a little caught up with shit going on! I have the next chapter ready, but I won't post it until I have the NEXT NEXT chapter ready! Hope ur enjoyin the story!
SASUKES POV
School is finally over. God, that took forever. Maybe this time Naruto will be awake when I visit him.
It's been about four days since the big fight. Naruto was in the hospital. When I got him there, he was in critical condition. He barely made it. The nurse told me that he was lucky to have such a good friend to bring him here. I didn't really know how to respond to that.
Zaku and Dosu weren't quite as lucky as Naruto was. No one picked them up and no one looked for them. People figured they were skipping school when they didn't come during the entire week. The school called their parents, and sure enough, they never made it home. They did a search for them, of course. Dosu and Zaku were hiding out in the countryside, hoping that they could skip school and live a better life without being afraid of me everyday. Of course that didn't work out. They got their wounds properly treated. I guess they'll be back to school on Monday.
I've been thinking a lot since I rescued Naruto…
I found it absolutely pathetic that the ONLY TIME that I admitted Naruto was a friend was when he was an inch away from death. I never would have admitted it otherwise. I'm pretty pathetic.
But when I did admit it, I felt a little bit relieved. There was a tension I was trying to build up with Naruto to keep him away, but he kept breaking the tension with his smiles and jokes. He had a talent for making friends. No one else has ever really been friends with me. I was a little bit happy that I finally had a friend. But I was also scared.
I still can't trust Naruto. Goddammit, I want to trust him! But there's something pulling me back. It might be me or it might be his past. I know for a fact that I'm afraid to trust anybody else except for Kakashi. But then this Naruto kid came along… and he changed me in just one month. He actually became a friend to the big loner on campus, Uchiha Sasuke. Uzumaki Naruto… he's a different kind of kid. But I like him. He's alright.
Wow, am I at the hospital already? That was quick. I guess I was so lost in thought about Naruto. Damn, he's in my head all the time. I really need to get used to this "friend" thing.
"Excuse me, where is Uzumaki Naruto's room? I'm a friend of his from school." I felt good saying that I was his friend. It felt good knowing that I finally have someone who will watch my back and I can watch his. I smiled a little bit after I said his name. I like this friend thing so far.
"He's in room 302. That's just down the hall and it's the 5th door on your right!"
"Thank you." I walked down the hall, looking for Naruto's door. When I found it, I put my hand on the doorknob and froze.
What was I supposed to say to him if he finally woke up?
Hmm… what do…friends…say to each other? I guess if he's awake, I'll tell him that I'm glad he got better. Yeah, that sounds friendly.
Haha, listen to me. I sound like an idiot talking to myself like this.
I opened the door, and sure enough, Naruto was upright. He was eating his jello when I came in. Once he saw me, he threw the jello down and smiled as wide as he could.
"SASUKE! YOU CAME!"
"Duh. I wanted to make sure you were still here. The nurse said you were about to die when you came in here, you know."
"Haha, yeah, pretty crazy, huh? Well, I'm glad that I'm still here!" he smiled and laughed again. I looked down at the ground.
"Erm…" I started. Naruto stopped laughing and looked at me concernedly.
"What's wrong?" he asked. His face was in a slight pout.
"I…just…" I started. I started blushing and looking at the ground. Dammit, I'm so bad around people! I can't just let them know how I'm feeling! I kicked the ground and looked around. "It's just that… you know…" I tried again. Naruto looked puzzled.
"What? I don't get it! Is this some kind of riddle?" he asked. I shook my head.
"I…Imjustreallyhappythatyourfeelingbetter, okay? Happy now?" My face was about as red as a strawberry. I sounded like a wife visiting her husband. I quickly turned my face around. I waited for Naruto to respond, but he didn't for a while. After he didn't respond, I turned around to see what he was doing.
…HE FELL ASLEEP? UGH! MY BIG STUPID CONFESSION WAS IGNORED!
"Na-Naruto! Wake up, you idiot!"
"snort wh-wha…" he said. His eyes were glazed when he opened them. "Oh, sorry! I sort of fell asleep. I'm a little bit tired." He smiled and scratched the back of his head nervously.
"Look…" I started again. "I…I'm really glad that you're feeling better, okay?" I started blushing again. Dammit, why the hell am I blushing? I guess I'm still really awkward. This friend thing is nice, but weird.
Naruto was silent for a moment, and then he laughed. I scowled. What was he laughing at?
"What are you laughing at?" I asked through gritted teeth.
"You! Haha, you're so awkward! It's funny to watch!" He smiled again at me and started laughing. Dammit, he's making me even more awkward!
"I shouldn't have even visited you!" I shouted. This was super embarrassing. I'm not used to talking to people like this. I'm positive that my face is beet red right now.
"Aw, don't say that…" said Naruto innocently. He put on his puppy dog eyes. I just looked away. "Come on, Sasuke. It was just a joke."
Yeah right.
"Listen. I'm not very good in people situations, okay? So give me a break! I…I've never…" I started to pause again. I took a deep breath to get myself ready for what I was going to tell him. "I've never had a friend before. So I don't know how to act or be a friend. That's why I'm so damn awkward." I kicked the floor and looked at my shoes. I could feel Naruto's eyes looking at me. I heard a shuffling on his bed.
"You've never had a friend before?" he asked.
"…never." Never ever.
"Weren't you lonely?"
"…a little."
"But you're not lonely anymore, right? Cuz now we're finally friends, right? You even said so yourself!"
I thought my words out carefully before I spoke them. This was one of the most awkward situations I had ever been in.
"I…I guess I'm not lonely. I can't be with you tagging along with me." That might have sounded mean, but I didn't mean anything by it. Besides, it is true. Naruto is always tagging along with me.
"Good!" Said Naruto, laughing again. "No one deserves to be lonely!" he grabbed his jello again and started to eat it.
NARUTOS POV
I can't believe it! Sasuke finally thinks of me as a friend! It took an entire month of coaxing him! Awesome! Now we can go to parties together and go to each other's houses and eat together and everything! I'm so excited!
I'm glad that I'm Sasuke's first friend. I think he was the kind of guy who's just misunderstood. Poor guy! Well, that's okay! Uzumaki Naruto is going to make him feel a whole lot better! Once I'm out of this hospital, we're gonna have the time of our lives! I finished my jello so I could talk to Sasuke some more.
"Hey, Sasuke! Once I'm out of this joint, let's hang out some more!" My eyes were glittering. I was so excited!
"…uh…sure…I guess…" Sasuke looked around the room awkwardly again. Heh, it's funny how anti-social this guy is. He's so popular, but he doesn't know the first thing about people!
"We could go after school to this great little hangout I know! How does that sound? They have lots of junk food and stuff there. Ooh, and I think that Sakura works there, too. They sell really good ice cream. They have lots of flavors! My favorite is probably chocolate. What's yours?" I said this all very fast. By the time I finished, I was out of breath.
"Uh…I like strawberry…" said Sasuke.
"Strawberry? That's kind of a girly flavor," I commented. Sasuke's eyebrows twitched. Oops, I shouldn't have said that.
"It is not! So it's pink, big deal! That doesn't mean it's girly!" He looked me in the eye when he said this. I'm glad that he finally looked me in the eye. It made me happy, for some reason.
"Sorry, my bad. That wasn't cool." I smiled to reassure him. He was really insecure. Sasuke seemed so complicated to me. He tried acting cool, but on the inside, he really has no confidence in himself at all.
There was a small silence. Sasuke was looking toward the door, like he wanted to leave.
"You can leave if you don't want to stay," I said. Sasuke's eyes widened a little bit and then he looked at me.
"Sorry, I was sort of spacing out. I guess I'll visit you tomorrow." He gave me a wave and I waved back to him. As soon as he left the room, I sighed. I don't think anybody except for Dad is going to visit me today…
I brought my knees to my chest and sighed. I already missed Sasuke's company, even if he was just spacing out. I hope we can go hang out after school! I've never really hung out with people outside of school! Shikamaru always told me that his mother was too strict, so she wouldn't let him out of the house after school. It's too bad for him. I think he needs a little freedom.
I looked at the clock and sighed. Darnit, it was only 4:00…
I shifted around for about five minutes, then sighed really loudly.
"GODAMMIT IM BORED!" I shouted. Yeah, like THAT'S gonna make this more fun.
I decided to daydream like I usually do when I'm bored. Oh man, I'm so excited to get the hell out of this stupid hospital! Now that Sasuke has finally admitted that we're friends after an ENTIRE month, I finally feel comfortable doing stuff with him! We can go out for ice cream, talk about girls, eat ramen, talk about girls, help each other on homework, talk about girls…
Ooh! We could probably have sleepovers, too! He could come over and we'd have a ton of fun! I have lots of video game systems jammed in my room, so we could play those! I even have some of the latest games! And then we could talk about stuff and check out stuff on the internet… Haha, I'm already excited!
I kept myself occupied with daydreams until Dad came in at about 5.
"HI, Naruto!"
"Hey, Dad!"
"Did Sasuke come to visit you while I was gone?"
"Yeah!" I said cheerfully. I told him everything, just like I always do. I went all the way from the minute I woke up all the way through the countless daydreams of me and Sasuke hanging out (now that we were officially friends). I told him that he was the first friend who was really a great friend. I must have gone on and on just about Sasuke! Dad smiled at me when I was talking.
"I'm happy for you. You've finally gotten a really good friend."
"Yep! He's awesome! We're gonna hang out on Monday after school!"
"Great!" said Dad. He started smiling, which turned to grinning ear to ear, which turned to laughter. I stared at him while he laughed. What was so funny? Was me making a friend really that surprsing?
"Hey, what's the big deal?" I asked.
"Nothing, nothing," he said while he was calming down. "I'm just so happy that you finally have a great friend. It sounds like you really like him, too! Can't I just be happy for you like a father should be?" He ruffled my hair and I laughed. It was moments like this I was so happy to have him around me.
"Pardon this inturruption," said the loudspeaker suddenly. I jumped a little bit. It surprised me. "Visiting hours are over. Kindly find your way to the exit. We open visiting hours at 11:00 tomorrow. Thank you and good evening."
Dad gave me a wistful look and I gave him a longing one. I didn't really want him to leave. I would miss him too much.
"Sorry, but I gotta go. I'll see you tomorrow after work, okay?" He gave me a little salute and walked out. I waved half-heartedly. I didn't want him to go. I put on my pouty face when he left.
It was about 7 o'clock. I was used to going to bed at about 11. I had four hours to spare. I spent most of it just watching television. I usually hated watching television, but I had nothing better to do. When I was super tired and bored out of my mind, I fell asleep. And I dreamt.
It was a sunny day at Konoha high. I found Sasuke and we were talking. For some reason, I was looking at myself in the third person. I saw myself talking to Sasuke and laughing. I looked really happy. We were hanging out and having a great time. I even got a rare smile out of Sasuke. I was talking to him about how we would get to hang out after school. He seemed excited and ready. I was really happy in this dream. Until I saw Zaku pass by.
Zaku seemed a lot bigger than me in this dream. He towered over me. His voice was deep and menacing. He grabbed Sasuke and pulled him up. I tried to stop Zaku, but he hit me aside. I screamed out of pain. I was yelling really loud, but no one seemed to hear. I saw Zaku whisper something into Sasuke's ear. Sasuke looked extremely depressed after he said this. I stopped screaming. My held my face where he had hit me. It stung so badly. I saw myself staggering to get up, but I couldn't get up by myself. Sasuke was looking down at me. I put my hand up there for him to help me up, but he didn't. Instead, he spat in my hand and walked away. I stared at him. He stared at me. And then, with a simple turn of his foot, he vanished. My hand was still out there, waiting for him to hold mine to help me up. I started to cry a little. Then a little more. And then a lot. I tried to wipe my tears away, but Sasuke's saliva was still on my hands. It just made my face more wet and drippy. I saw myself trying to shout, but I had no voice. I tried looking for Sasuke, but I had no sight. I tried listening for Sasuke, but I had no hearing. I tried to smell Sasuke's familiar scent, but I couldn't breath. I tried to touch Sasuke, but he was too far away. All I knew was lonliness.
I suddenly started to fall into myself. When I had made contact, I begun seeing things in the first person. I fell down this black hole, trying to shout, but my voice wasn't there. I was falling so fast I couldn' think. I just felt lonliness and despair. Only my tears were left.
I woke up, crying on my pillow.
I looked around the room to see if anybody was there. I didn't see anyone. I touched the things around me, smelt the pillow, saw the water next to me, and heard the low humming of the hospital. "Sasuke…" I said quietly. Good, my voice was still working.
I hugged my pillow and stuffed my face in it.
I was pathetic. I was already afraid of losing a friend that I thought I trusted. I was just so scared. I had never been treated well. Why would he be the first to treat me differently?
So many thoughts were running through my mind. I felt like the trust that I had for Sasuke had vanished because of my nightmare. Internal conflict. I couldn't think straight. I trusted him, but that dream was just so terrible…
I grabbed my hair and pulled it a little bit to regain my thinking.
He says that he cares about me…but it could be pity…
I felt my trust in myself falling through my fingers like water.
It was really Me who I didn't trust. But I trusted Sasuke. Comepletely.
He won't abandon me, ever.
It's just me who has doubts.
I'm disgusting.
Hm…this chapter got a LITTLE weird, but w/e. I just needed to get some of the emotional crap over with XD Anyway, I hope ur looking forward to my next chapter!