me to you: wow. I am so impressed and so thankful for all your reviews. Don't tell my Grey readers, but I think I may like you better... (ducks in fear of attack by Del and Ris). Seriously though, thank you so much- So, so much. Tonights IS wasnt that great, but it did give me a few ideas.. not as many as the previous. Next weeks, though... I cannot wait. Anyway, here is chapter 10... I get over 100 reviews by tomorrow, 11 will be posted. It is all set to go.
Remember this: I am totally pro Jummy. I have my plan for everything set. There will be some Jummy moments to come.. within like 2 chapters... I think chapter 13 or 14.. I have to check on that. So please keep in mind that I know exactly what I am doing. I am not just going to throw Jude and Tommy together. The girl has a lot of growing to do as a person and an artist... I am working on that. Anyway, please continue to read and review. Thanks for all the encourgement!
Also, songs used are all by Kelly Clarkson. I love her! One of her songs one me a contest. woo.
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Beautiful Disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy, hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of a miracle
Waiting so long
So long
-Kelly Clarkson
So, it's official. Vincent Spiederman is my boyfriend. I want to laugh every time I say that. Me and Spied, who knew, right? Okay, I guess the attractions was obvious. Claudia squealed. EJ rambled about it being "so Ashlee Simpson" of me. Tommy warned me about mixing love and music. Like he can talk, need I remind him that his girlfriend owns half of G-Major. What is even more amusing is that the media is taking a notice in me. They've noticed me, but even more so with the TV show and my new relationship with Spied. ..
"You would think with my own camera crew I would be used to the "ratzi," Jude explained, during one of her one on one's in her bedroom. " It's weird. I am not sure how I feel about it. It's really cool, yet very creepy. I hate that my boyfriend and I can't be all boyfriend and girlfriend- y, without a camera around. At the same time, its nice to have documentation. Some girls save mementos. I'll have a DVD. Spied is not going to let me live that down. Anyway, long story short. I'm happy." Jude cursed her lameness and shut off the camera. Spied would be over soon for their annual movie night. Claudia and Jaime would be joining them. She had a sneaking suspicion that Jaime and Claudia had passed the line of casual flirting.
"Chicken!" Jude heard Spied holler. Jude put down the camera. She took a moment to check herself out in the mirror and rushed down the stairs to meet her man. Aha. Spiederman was her man.
"Hey jackass," Jude kidded. Spiederman chuckled and shook his head.
"That is Mr. Jackass, to you," he said with a quick kiss. Jude rolled her eyes. Jaime and Claudia were all ready waiting for them in the living room. Jaime had brought the pizza, while Claud supplied the movies.
"It is officially Adam Sandler movie night. We have the Water Boy, the Wedding Singer, and Fifty First Dates," Claudia read off, while laying the movies out across Jude's coffee table.
"I'll get the drinks. Spied, set them up."
Jude giggled to herself as she grabbed sodas from the kitchen. She had a great boyfriend, a great album in the making, and great friends. Life was great.
Tom walked in to his penthouse, humming a song by an artist he was working with. He was surprised to find Samantha sleeping on the couch. Her hand clutched the remote. He assumed that the television show she had been watching was Grey's Anatomy. There was an awful lot of usage of the words seriously and McDreamy.
"Sam… Samantha… Martez!" he called , shaking Sam awake. Samantha looked at him confused. "Mc Tommy?"
Tommy snorted in amassment. "You call me Mc Tommy?" Samantha stretched and sat up.
" No."
"Liar."
"You're Mc Yummy."
"I have no sane women in my life."
Sam shook her head and giggled. Silence fell on the two. Samantha looked from him to the television. Derek was confessing to Addison that Meredith was neither a fling or revenge. He loved her.
"Sam, we should talk."
Samantha felt her blood run cold. She looked to the screen. Addison wore the emotions she could feel creeping up her spine.
"I have to tell you something. I'm not telling you this to hurt you, but to be honest with you. Sam, you are one of the few women I have ever told that I love and meant it. You pushed me to be a better man," Tommy began. He looked down at his hands. His eyes rose to meet Sam's. " Last year, I kissed Jude at her birthday party. I was.. am attracted to her."
Samantha wasn't sure how to reply. She wanted to laugh at the irony of the situation. She was sitting in the living room of her fiancé's penthouse, listening to him tell her that he had feelings for someone else. Her eyes wandered to the television. She might as well dye her hair red and call herself Addison.
"Sam?"
"Is this where you tell me that you choose me by default?"
Tommy looked at her pained. "Sam, no. "
"No, what? Tommy, come on. Isn't this dance getting old?"
"Sam, I love you. I want to marry you."
"Why? Because I am convenient? Legal? Available? What? What is it Tommy?" Samantha questioned.
"Sam, come on. Don't be like this."
Sam shook her head and got up. "I love you, Tommy." She kissed him on the forehead and walked out of the apartment.
Tommy pounded his fist on the leather couch he stood behind. That went well.
" Johnny, its Sam. Get the guys. We're going into the studio. Now." She closed her cell phone and started her car.
Johnny looked at the phone. " I swear, Tom. If you did something stupid, I will kill you myself."
He flipped open his phone again and dialed Wes and Spencer. " Guys, something isn't right with Sam. I think we may finish the album tonight."
Samantha played her guitar furiously. The music she had written long ago, crept up from the bottom of her soul.
---I walk out of this darkness.
With no sense of regret.
And I go with a clear conscience.
We both know that you can't say that.
This to show, for all the time I loved you so, so
Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
Cause what you did was low
She sang passionately. The rest of her band stood behind the glass. The three men exchanged glances. After years, Samantha was finally sharing the songs she had written after Tomantha Part 1. Without them realizing, she launched into another song.
---He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Sam played a handful of the songs she had written about her first relationship with Tommy. She had notebooks upon notebooks stacked in her closet in Los Angeles. No one had ever heard them before. Now, here she sat in a studio, thousand and thousands miles away from home showing the three men she trusted most a part of her that was hers and hers alone.
Wes, Johnny, and Spencer walked into the recording booth without a word. Spencer handed her a slip of paper. Infinite Abyss: Beauty in the Breakdown, was written in his slant print.
"It's yours," Wes said. "I called Kwest. He's on his way. We are going to lay down as many rough tracks as we can. Then we'll get to real work."
Jude entered G- Major to find it eerily calm for a Saturday. There had only been a handful of cars in the parking lot. Most she had recognized belonged to a member of Infinite Abyss.
Jude walked into studio A to find Tommy with a set of headphones on. He looked like he had just crawled out of bed.
"Tommy?" she said, grabbing his shoulder.
Tommy jumped slightly. "Oh hey. Sorry. I zoned out for a sec."
" A sec?" Jude replied. " I called your name for like 2 minutes. Where's Kwest?"
Tommy rubbed his face with his hand. " He's held up in studio D with Infinite Abyss. I don't know what's going on. Sam and I got into it last night. She ran off. Next thing I know, I'm getting a call from Kwest saying that he's locked up with them. They've been laying down tracks since 7 o clock yesterday."
Jude looked at her watch. That was a little over 14 hours ago. "Wow. What happened with you and Sam? You guys have been arguing a lot, lately."
Tommy closed his eyes. "yeah. Jude, I really don't want to talk about it, especially with the camera here. Can we just get on with recording?"
"Sure," Jude nodded. She picked up her guitar and headed into the other room. She cut the intro of the song shut and went straight to the lyrics.
You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover telling you what to say
You think I'm stupid but the truth is that it's cupid baby loving you has made me insane
So before you point your finger
Get your hand off of my trigger
You need to know the situations getting old
And now the more you talk the less I can take
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me, how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I'm all alone
So before you start defending
Stop all your pretending
I know you know I know so what's the point of being slow
Let's get this show on the road today
I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn, my desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me, die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don't then just leave
Jude kept her gaze on Tommy as she sang the song. He had once again been her muse. Something told her that he had been more struck by the lyrics than he normally would have. There was just something about the look in his eyes….
Tommy and Jude had worked for 2 hours straight, when Kwest had stumbled into studio.
He yawned loudly and slumped into the empty chair between Jude and Tommy.
Jude and Tommy looked at Kwest oddly. Kwest, somehow, made himself comfortable and began to doze off.
"Um, Kwest, man. What are you doing?" Tommy inquired. He and Jude exchanged confused glances.
"I have been up for over 24 hours. Infinite Abyss basically recorded their entire album in a night. We laid down 13 songs in about 16 hours. All songs were written by Sam. I live in fear of pissing off that woman. Now, shut up so I can sleep," Kwest mumbled.
"What? Thirteen songs in sixteen hours?" Jude repeated.
"Mm-hmm. Only 12 are making it to the album," Kwest mumbled. He yawned again. His arm suddenly shot out with a purple CD case in his hand. "Here." Kwest closed his eyes and began to doze off.
Jude took the disk from Kwest and handed it to Tommy.
"Infinite Abyss: Beauty in the Breakdown. Written by Samantha C. Martez.
Music and Arrangements by S. Martez, S. Walsh, J. Howard, and W. Clarke.," was scrawled across the cover.
Tommy just looked at it.
"Are you going to play it?" Jude asked. She was curious what had inspired an entire album to be created in one night. She reached over to pick up the case. She studied the titles of the songs. Jude slipped the disc into the stereo and pressed play. Jude put up the volume as Sam's voice filled the studio. Jude sat back in her chair and observed Tommy closely. His eyes flashed sentiment with every song, but his face remained the same. She loathed his expressionless face.
Every song was about him. Jude assumed that they had written previously, but a new emotion could be heard in Samantha's voice. She felt sorry for the other woman. What had she and Tommy argued about? Jude asked her shadow to step outside while she talked with Tommy in private.
Tommy hadn't said anything since the record ended.
"Tommy, what did you and Sam argue about?"
Tommy didn't answer. For a few minutes, the only sound in the studio was Kwest sleeping.
"I told her about your birthday party last year. I told her about the thing in the rain."
Jude's eyes widened. He told her to forget it, yet he told his fiancée about it.
"I over heard Darius talking to her at your video shoot. The tabloids have been playing up an illicit affair between us. Between that and Darius, it got her thinking. Not to mention our late nights in the studio," Tommy explained. "I cheated on her. It was a long time ago, but I know she doesn't completely trust me."
"Sam knows I'm 17."
"She also knows that I care about you, girl. It's all complicated. It's like that show Grey's Anatomy or something. Sam watches it like it's her religion or something."
Jude was his Meredith? She wasn't sure how that made her feel anymore.
"Go find her," Jude suggested. " If you love her, you will go chase her down."
"Jude."
Jude shook her head.
"I am serious, Tommy. Go."
Tommy looked at Jude conflicted. She pointed her finger to the door.
"Now!"
Jude watched Tommy get up and hurry out the door. She leaned back in her chair with a somber look on her face.
"You did the right thing," Kwest told her. Jude nodded. Tommy deserved to be happy. After all, Jude was happy with Spiederman.