The last one out of the 3 stories.
You will discover that I'm a huge perv, 'cause I really took too much
time for the sexpart. Yes, there is
sex in this one too! Whoohoo! It's also a pretty long part, 'cause well...I don't know, I like to write it, I guess.
I don't have a Beta-reader currently, but if you feel like Beta-read my stuff you're welcome.
You will also discover if Gaara will
stay with Hinata, 'cause Hinata is completely head over heels in love
with him! So cute! 333
And thanks for the reviews on my previous two stories! It's really good to hear that people like my little drabbles!
Gaara & Hinata © Masashi
Kishimoto
-730 Days-
"I...I...can
I...ask you something?" Hinata stuttered, her voice almost
unhearable and a deep red blush on her cheeks.The
guard in front of her raised his eyebrows. "Depends" he
answered with a distant
voice.
This
was one of those moments she wished she could dissappear in thin air.
She
swallowed twice and looked up to the man again, her eyes avoiding
his.
"A...are...you
know...ehm...if...the Kazekage will visit Konoha...today?".
"The
Kazekage? As far as I know the Hokage hasn't planned any meetings
with him
or people from Suna in particular. At least not today".
A
heavy feeling of dissapointment struck Hinata, and it left a weird, painful
feeling in her stomach. She couldn't help a sad frown on her forehead.
"Oh...thank...thank
you". With a quick bow she finally walked away from the
gates where she was hanging around all morning.
That
guard probably would wonder why she was so sad about the Kazekage not arriving
today. Her father would probably question the calender hanging so prominent
in her room, where a red cross was marking this day.
Hinata just
didn't want
to think about that or about the questions her behaviour would have
rose.
It
started a week ago, when she noticed the 7th of May was only a few
days away.
Although she always had kept the date in her head, counting the days, waiting,
hoping, fantasizing, remembering... But it has never been that worse.
Never.
The realization of Gaara arriving in a couple of days brough her
in a state that could be described between being in love and pure
hornyness.
And somehow she didn't enjoyed it. She didn't enjoyed walking around
with the desperate feeling of longing, waiting and craving for his touch,
his kiss, his body. She just wanted him to be there already!
Some times
she just had to give in to the calls of her body and when she lied down
in her bed she just had to touch herself, muttering his name in her pillow.
Followed by a huge feeling of shame that would hang over her like a black
cloud for the rest of the day.
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"Hinata?".She
looked up in the direction where the voice came from. It was Neji, he was
leaning against the wall of one of the sheds next to the Hyuuga mainhouse.
"H...hello
Neji" she said. Trying to make her voice sound firm and in control,
while from the inside she was falling apart.
Neji
came out of the shadows and walked towards her, dressed in his trainingoutfit,
lightly sweating. She had almost forgot how tall he had become
during the years, as she didn't saw him that much anymore. And slightly,
she was happy with that, he always made her feel uneasy.
"What's
the deal with you wanting to know if the Kazekage will be in town today?".
He always came straight to the point when in came to things like this.
And judging by the way he was standing in front of her, he wasn't going
away until he knew the fine details about the heiress of the noble Hyuuga
clan asking around if the Kazekage was coming by when those things stopped
being her business a small year ago, when she stopped working as the seventh
assistant of Tsunade, or well, more like Tsunade's cleaner.
"I...I...heared
a rumour" she answered with a soft voice. "I...I wanted to make
sure...".
Neji
raised one eyebrow, obviously not satisfied with the answer she had gave
him.
"It..was
nothing. I...I...just asked".
He
closed his eyes, it seems he was thinking. Linking pieces together?
When
he opened his eyes again, trying to pierce her again with one of his devastating
gazes, he grabbed her by the arm and pulled her closer to his face.
Yes,
Neji was definately on to something, and no, he wasn't happy.
"Don't
lie to me Hinata!" he hissed and dragged her by her arm into the shadows
of the little shed. Hinata was close to having a panicattack.
He
started whispering. Face close to hers, eyes hard, voice lightly trembling
with rage.
"There's
something more. I know it! I heared you, last night, doing those...those...things...to
yourself. You were saying his name!".
Confronted
with the one thing she wanted to keep to herself at any time, she started
to blush so immensely, she felt the heat spreading over her face, on the
skin under her hair, her ears, her neck and her entire body.
She
knew she couldn't lie to Neji at this point. But she could at least
try to
cover things up a little. Making it sound less worse than it actually was.
"I...I...just
have...a little...crush on him" she confessed. Followed by a
more brave: "There's nothing wrong for a girl
to...fantasize...a little".
Neji's
grip on her arm loosened a little as he moved back. She could start to
him about the fact he regulary was moaning TenTen's name when he was playing
with himself just to emphasize this was a common thing for young
adults to
go through.
"Hmpfh.
But...the Kazekage, Hinata?" Neji said, his voice dripping from dissaproval.
The
answer was a deep red blush.
"You
have a weird taste in men" he said, shaking his head, taking a
couple of
steps back. Hinata looked at him, feeling relieved and slightly
scared.
He
looked back, the cold look in his eyes was fading away a little. It looked
that he was in doubt about something.
"There
is a secret meeting between both councils tonight, Suna and Konoha, the
Kazekage will be there" Neji whispered. "It is supposed to
be a secret. The
convoy from Suna will arrive around 4 o clock, if you want to...well...see
him...or whatever...Northern gate, 4 o clock, just hide yourself
a little".
Hinata
looked at her cousin with big eyes, surprised by the faint smile on his
lips before he walked away.
"Thanks
Neji!". It was already out of her mouth before she realized she sounded
a little bit too happy.
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'Northern
gate, 4 o clock' Neji's words echoed in her mind while she was on her
way. Her heart pounding in her chest. Butterflies in her stomach. He
did came!
How could she ever doubt him!
"Silly
cow" she mumbled to herself, not noticing the ridiculous smile on her face. "Silly, silly cow".
She
runned down the street, around the corner, through the little alley between
the Ninja Academy and the cafe where she had her first beer. A permanent
blush on her cheeks. Hoping, longing, wanting.
The
Northern Gate was closed. It was also one of Konoha's smaller gates,
and mostly
used for the arrival of people that wish to travel in private. She hid
herself in an alley, having a good view on the gate and people that could
arrive any second now.
The
anticipation was almost to much for her as the minutes slowly passed. Guards
were casually walking around. There wasn't actually a real sign that a
Kage and his council were about to arrive. There should have been
ANBU everywhere!
"Please
be there" she whispered, not losing sight of the gate for one nanosecond.
She didn't even dare to blink too much.
Hinata
felt her hope fade when the clock stroke 5. She started to doubt Neji's
intentions.
Did he really said that on purpose?
Just to torture her?
And that smile...was it as sincere
as she thought it was? She moved her eyes away from the gate and stared
at the ground. Was Neji this rude? This coldhearted?
She
swallowed again and turned to face the gate again. To her surprise a
new person
appeared there. Shizune. It couldn't be anyone else, there wasn't any ninja
in town who got followed around by a small pig all day long. She was talking
to one of the guards. Instructions?
Once
again Hinata's heart started to fill up with that jumpy feeling called hope.
5:10.
More than a hour later. Hinata still was hiding in the alley, peeking at
the gate. It was gotten really busy. More guards arrived, they
welcomed three
other ninja's, who just came jumping over the gate.
The Suna-logo clearly
blinking in the sun. She smiled.
"I
knew you would come" she sighed happily.
The
gate opened, and a small group of people entered. Mostly wearing long robes,
hiding their faces under large hoods. Shizune was talking to them, according
to her bodylanguage with a lot of respect.
Finally
some hoods came down, reveiling faces.
A
lot of grey hair...and even some bald heads. Old men. Amongst all the
grey and
wrinkles there was one head with fiery red hair standing out.
Hinata
couldn't recall one day in her life when she wanted to be so close to a
person until now. A hazy smile appeared on her face, knees shaky.
He
was standing pretty far away from her, but everything he did, every gesture
he made, the way he crossed his arms, the grace of his movementsmade
her sure it could only be one person and one person only.
Gaara.
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Silently
outside, but completely on fire inside Hinata ate her meal. Her father
sitting on the other side of the table. Hanabi on her right. Neji wasn't
present, he probably was involved in the secret meeting between Suna and
Konoha.
"Hinata"
her father started, carefully putting down his chopsticks, looking at
her. "There are some errands I want you to do for me tonight".
With a short
nod of his head he was letting Hanabi know she was not allowed to
hear the
conversation and with a little bow she stood up and walked out of the room.
"This
is secret information, this will not leave this room, is that understood,
Hinata?".
She
nodded silently.
"There
is a meeting between Konoha and Suna tonight, and I have to attend there
as the head of our family. I have desided to take Neji with me, as he is
involved in the arrangement".
Hinata
waited and wondered what her father wanted her to do, and if her 'errand'
would have to do with Gaara in any way.
And even more, will it be an
important job? Will her father finally be able to but some trust in
his oldest
daughter?
He
handed her a small piece of paper."These
are the things you need to purchase for me. I would like to offer the councilmembers
from Sunagakure some gifts to show our respect".
Hinata
nodded her head, she wouldn't dare to stand up against her dad. But once
again, the assignment he was given her was one that could easily be done
by one of the servants.
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There
was nothing special about the assignment her father gave her, he just sended
her out to do groceries. Only for councilmembers this time.
That really shows how much he trusts
me. Hinata thought while a
bitter feeling went through her chest.
She
had to carry around two full bags with goods who
varied from so called 'good luck charms' to pornographic novels (as
requested
by one of Suna's councilmembers). In a certain way she felt humiliated.
And it stung her that her dad didn't quite trusted her yet.
On
the other hand, there was Gaara, making her feel happy, dreamy and slightly
horny as well. And he wasn't even around her right now, go figure! And everytime one of her muscles was giving
trouble because of the heavy bags, she thought of him, being there.
At least, until the questions started to rise in her head when those muscles wished not to be ignored anymore.
Will he long for me?'
she wondered, while she, absent minded, handed over the
bags to one of Tsunade's assistants that was waiting outside. The questions
just kept creeping up from everywhere!
She didn't even heared the
short 'thanks'
coming out of the mouth of the assistant before he carried the bags inside.
Her concience was bugging her with these questions that all came down
on one thing:
Was Gaara feeling the same things as
she did?
She
couldn't imagine him counting the days, as he was the one who started
to turn
her world upside down. He invented this 'yearly rendez-vous'.
If he wanted her so bad as she wanted him, why
didn't he came by more often? Why did he leave her waiting for a year?
Hinata
sighed and tortured herself with the thoughts that Gaara might only be
interested in her for the sex. The yearly sex, that is. She closed
her eyes
and couldn't help producing a little tear.
While
crossing the street to the Hyuuga property she looked at the moon, a heavy
feeling suddenly sank in her heart.
"Once
a year isn't enough" she whispered softly.
Silently
she opened the gate that gave her access to the main house and it's gardens.
She didn't noticed the tears rolling down her cheeks anymore. Even better,
she didn't care anymore. All those uncertainties, all those questions,
all those theories about his intentions did not end up in a conclusion
of him being in love with her too. Yes, in love.
She was in love with
him, she already diagnosed that when she fell asleep in his arms for the
first time. There was no way denying that. She loved him for
everything
he
was. A love impossible in many ways.
She
wiped away the tears with the sleeve of her baggy coat. She didn't
want to
let Hanabi know she cried. Although she planned to continue her
crying further
in her bedroom. Clutching her pillow, shaky shoulders, probably the calendar
next to her to remind her of the fact that this was certaintly worthy
to cry over.
"Why
the tears, Hinata?" a voice sounded, not far from her.
She
jumped up, first shocked than realizing that the owner of that voice could
be no one less than Gaara. As if he was sensing her pain and came rushed
over to let her stop worrying. At least, that was what happened in hopelessly
romantic novels. Not in real life, in real life Gaara just had a
nasty habit to sneak
up to people to scare the living daylights out of them.
Tears
started flowing down her face again, a huge mixture of happyness, relief,
sadness, love and everything in between running through her body.
She
frantically looked around and noticed a silhouette leaning against
the same
wall of the same shed Neji was leaning against that afternoon. The silhouette
didn't move, he probably was staring at her.
Hinata
walked up to him, first slow, but a small sprint at the end.
"Gaara!".
She stopped in front of him, doubting between hugging, kissing or just
waiting until he made a move. She chose the last option, although
her body
screamed for feeling his arms around her.
"Why
are you crying?" he asked again.
As
if it was a reflex Hinata started to wipe away the tears from her
cheeks.
"N...nothing"
she managed to say while compulsively rubbing her eyes, hoping the
tears would stop coming.
"Stop
that" his voice sounded, and to emphasize those words he grabbed Hinata's
arm to stop her from rubbing.
"S...sorry..."
she whispered with a tiny voice as she felt how Gaara let go of
her arm. Helplessly the tears still continued rolling down her cheeks.
"I
saw you when I arrived" Gaara said, carelessly wiping away a
tear from Hinata's
cheek with the back of his indexfinger.
Hinata
didn't answer.
"You
were sitting in that alley" he said, voice far away. His face
turned to the
sky.
"Y...yes...".
Hinata sniffed a couple of times.
"Stop
crying". It came out more as a demand than a kind request. His
voice sounded
as cold as ice.
"G...Gaara?"
she asked, trying her best to look up at him. "What...about the
meeting?".
"Hm..the
council can handle that" he answered, still not making an
attempt to
touch her in any way. He just stood there, arms still crossed, making
her crazy
with desire.
"Let's
go inside" he proposed and started walking towards the Hyuuga mainhouse as he had lived there his entire life.
"My
sister! She might still be awake!". Hinata had to run a little
to caught up
with him.
"I
don't care that much" he replied and suddenly slipped his hand
into hers, causing
her heart to skip a beat or two.
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Gaara
looked at the calendar, his eyes inspecting the image, the dates, the month.
Hinata desided to sit on the chair behind her desk, looking at Gaara's
back. After he took a ridiculous long time to stare at the calendar, he
turned towards her for a second time.
She
looked at him, openly. Blushing as hell, but she looked at him. He looked
back, face blank, the corners of his mouth pointed downwards as they mostly
were, eyes uninterested.
She
licked her lips, making herself ready to let him know what the deal
was right
now. She took a deep breath, concentrated on letting her voice sound steady.
"Gaara?".
The
look on his face didn't changed. It made her feel so insecure, but
she had
to continue. Now she had him in her room, having his attention, she
had to say what was on
her heart for quite a long time now.
She
closed her eyes to regain herself a little to finally answer his
stare with
one of her own:
"I
want you".
If
Gaara was born with eyebrows he was raising them right now as a
strange frown
appeared on his face when she spoke those words.
Hinata
waited hopefully for a reply from his side. She finally told him, straight
in the face.
He
seemed to be thinking it over, processing it, trying to grasp the
meaning of those three simple words, as his eyes drifted to the
ground.
"Want
me" he repeated, his voice sounded if he had never spoken those words before.
"Yes"
Hinata answered, slowly getting up from her chair.
Gaara
looked up again, the frown dissappeared a little. She
walked up to him, cautiously. He looked at her, expectantly. She
stopped in
front of him, feeling everything inside of her go loopy when she carefully
leaned in to kiss him. Hand resting on his shoulder.
"You
really want me" Gaara murmured, his voice was a mixture of
delight and confusion.
"Yes
I do" she anwered, softly brushing his lips, her hand slowly
moving to the
place right under his ear. Although her face almost matched the
colour of
his hair, inside she felt this was the one thing in her life she was actually
sure of. She wanted
him, she loved him.
Softly
she kissed him, while her nose smelled the peculiar scent that always surrounded
him. The scent that she will always remember and reconize everywhere.
To her surprise it took him quite long to finally answer her kiss.
Not that it really was a kiss, she was nibbling at his lower lip, not quite
having enough guts to force him to open his mouth a little.
The
guts she lacked in kissing, he had too much. He pulled her body
closer to
his with one quick movement and easily found his way to her tongue.
Yet again,
Hinata experienced the kiss as a little bit shallow, it
actually didn't blew her mind as she would expect from him. He also
stopped kissing
her pretty quick, leaving her confused.
"Say
it again" he suddenly whispered, both hands cupping her face.
She
looked at him, first confused before knowing what his slightly
demanding look tried to
say to her, what he wanted to hear coming out of her mouth.
"I
want you" she answered, covering his hands with her own. A
flicker of satisfaction
ran across his face before he kissed her again. And
this was the kiss she was waiting for, the kiss that totally thwarted
her imagination.
How on earth could someone who
was
known for having serious issues with love in general, kiss the way he did?
She closed her eyes, focussing on the movement of his tongue inside
her mouth,
the shivers that ran up and down her spine, his hand squeezing her butt,
the sensation of being so close to him. Time just didn't excisted anymore,
her universe only evolved around him and she desperately tried to answer
her kiss in the most passionate way she could think off.
"Hinata?"As
struck by lighting Gaara stopped kissing her, his face turned towards
the bedroomdoor.
She noticed he was slightly panting.
"Hinata?"
the voice sounded again, this time followed by the sound of a small
knock.
With
the sound of Hanabi's voice she got thrown right back into the real world
again. Gaara had letted her go, she felt his hand sliding off her butt.
"Yes?"
she answered.
"You
are home, I thought I heared you! Who were you talking to?"
Hanabi's voice
sounded a little bit giggly. "Do you have a boyfrieeeeeend?".
"Go
away, Hanabi, I want to sleep" Hinata replied, while slowly
reaching for Gaara's
hand again. She hated it when her sister was behaving like this, like
the typically 13-year old brat.
And
especially now, now she finally was alone with Gaara, and almost was
going crazy with desire.
"Hinata
has a boyfriend! Who is it?" the voice sounded playfully.
Hanabi
was really
pushing her luck right now. And not only with Hinata, also with Gaara who
probably was getting even more ticked off as she was right now. And it was well known that you didn't want to tick off Gaara.
Slowly
he slipped his hand out of hers, moving towards the door, eyes
narrowed.With a
rough movement he opened the door to face Hanabi.
She
saw her sister, who probably was expecting Naruto, jumping up with surprise
and shock.
Nope, definately not Naruto! With that, Hinata was pretty sure that Gaara was giving her poor sister one of his
death-glares again.
"I'm
busy with trying to have a decent conversation with your sister here" he
growled.
Hanabi's
eyes were practically rolling out of their sockets, her mouth half open.
"Go
to your bed" Gaara demanded in a voice that made clear he would
not put up
with any word coming from Hanabi's mouth. After that he slammed the
door in
her face.
That
insane longing for him really got on a hold during that short confrontation
between Hanabi and Gaara. And she knew that her little sister wasn't
stupid and probably also was perfectly able to add 1 and 1 together
to make it two.
In this case, Gaara and Hinata doing pretty other things than only
talking.
It
got replaced by a growing feeling of panic, that it probably would be
all over town that she, Hyuuga Hinata, future head of her clan, had pretty
warm relationships with Sunagakure's 5th Kazekage. And her father
would go insane...and Neji...and the entire clan.
"She...she
saw you" Hinata whispered, slightly panicking. "My father...Neji...if
they find out...please...".
"Shut
up" he harshly replied. With a sway of his arm he hauled her
close. "We
were in the middle of something".
"But
Gaa...".
But
he just didn't gave her time to worry about that as he just pressed
his lips on hers and claimed her mouth.Every
feeling of worry, panic and fear got completely nullified by the
sensations his kiss brought her right now.
He
lifted her up, still busy with giving her those mindblowing kisses, placing
his hands on her butt. Almost automatic she wrapped her legs around his
waist, while answering his kiss.
"To
the bed" he said between the kisses.
"Yeah"
she answered before she turned her attention to his earlobe. She knew he
liked it when she did that. Her heart jumped happily when she heared
a small
purr coming from his mouth when she closed her mouth around his earlobe
and started to nibble.
He
carried her to her bed, and layed her down gently between the sheets. Almost
immediatly Hinata reached for the buttons of his coat. It was another coat
this time, no zipper, but still heavy and long. Consumed by an almost inhumane
feeling of desire she still managed to carefully unbutton his coat,
instead of tearing the
clothes from his body.
The things going on in her
body were so extreme, that it tended to took over her mind, letting
her hands
reach for the content hidden inside his pants. He allowed it while silently
brushing her cheek with his hand, slowly moving to her lips, touching
them gently, forcing
her to lick his fingers.
She
was amazed by the fact she got him out of his coat that quickly. That she
was so determined to touch him down there, as her hands worked on his belt.
"You
definately want me"
he purred delighted probably understanding the full meaning of those
words right now, pushing his fingers a little bit more inside her
mouth. She thankfully greeted them with her tongue while her
hands were encountering some slight trouble with his belt.
He
retreated his fingers, slowly tracing her chin, her throat. Eyes
focussed on
hers, trying to read her reaction to his caresses.
Finally
she loosened his belt and removed it patiently. The buckle jingled for
a few seconds when she putted it beside him.
She had never touched a man down there. And sometimes even the thought about the male part alone made her blush until infinity. The thought about her discovering Neji touching himself while hiding in the part of the mansion where the Hyuuga's trained flashed through her head for a couple of seconds. And it not really turned her on that much.
This
time she was the one wearing a coat with a zipper, but Gaara's long, swift
fingers didn't had any problems helping her out of it. He
was kissing her in the neck while doing that.
"Hmmm"
she murmured, turning her head a little bit to the side to give him better
access. Her hands were working on removing his pants, he had been sitting
on his knees, probably to make it a little bit easier for her get his
pants over his butt. She was so clumsy. She cursed her clumsyness!
For
a moment he stopped kissing her neck, and scooted over to the side of the
bed to remove his pants, who were hanging on his knees already. Ending his little striptease with removing his shirt by pulling it over his head and dropping it
next to
his pants. After that he crawled back onto Hinata's bed and placed a small
kiss on her lips.
"Undress
yourself" he whispered in her ear.
Hinata
felt the horrible blush spreading out over her face when he said those
words. She felt kinda embarrassed now she had to undress herself
while he was watching -probably judging- her.
Carefully
she took off her shirt, nervously looking for the buttons of her pants.
She crawled to the end of the bed to take her pants off as well, which
only left her in her underwear. Gaara still watched her. Sitting on his
knees, arms crossed, a faint smile on his face. She
became really hesitant when she realized she had to remove her bra.
"Go
on" his voice sounded impatiently.
Carefully
her fingers hooked behind the straps of her bra, letting them slide
off her arms. She probably wasn't making him happy with her
insecurity when it came to her body.
He
moved to her side of the bed and without saying anything he hauled
her on his lap. She yelped a little out of surprise but quickly
regained herself by wrapping her arms around his neck."Waiting
a year is long, too long" he mentioned, his lips brushing softly over
her shoulder.
That
moment would probably be go down in history as the only moment she'd thank
God with all her heart.
"It
is" she sighed, touching his chest, slowly making her way to his
navel and
the areas below that level. She shivered when he carefully stroked
her leftnipple
with his thumb and followed it with a tiny squeeze. She moved a little
bit closer to him, placing little kisses in his neck, licking his earlobe
again, while her hand went lower a little bit more.
He
gasped softly when she closed her fingers around his manhood. She answered
that gasp with a blush and soft kisses. Vaguely she knew what to do,
she saw Neji do the same. He was moving his hand up and down,
probably that
was the key to make a man like the touch.
Carefully
she moved her hand upwards, attentive of his response. She swallowed
and moved her hand down again. Gaara stopped the caresses to look at
her.
"Don't
be nervous" he responded, his voice sounding relaxed.
"I...I...I'm
not really sure...".
He
cupped her face between his hands, giving her the mildest look she'd
ever seen on his face. His voice was trembling a little bit with
excitement: "He's not gonna break in two".
Hinata
smiled, her heart getting flooded with warm feelings that she
reconized as the same feelings she had when she
was 12, when she saw Naruto. But her life stopped evolving about the
noisy blonde boy 3 years ago. And those 3 years were enough for her
to deside that she wanted this man, and she wanted him to be with her
forever.
She
repeated the upwards/downwards routine a couple of times, while, with
endless red cheeks, watching his face closely. Her lack of experience
with satisfying a man made her feel terribly insecure. And she wanted
to please him, she wanted to please him so much. And in the back of
her mind, she also wanted to show him that she was capable of being a
good lover, a good mistress and even a good friend and maybe a good
wife. That she was more than the shy Hyuuga failure.
She
sped up the movements of her hand a little bit and finally she heared
a small moan coming out of his mouth while he rested his head on her
shoulder, stroking her arms lightly with his hands, willingly
undergoing her touches and caresses.Hinata
smiled when he started to rock his body against her hand, when he dug
his fingers occassionally in the skin of her upperarms and especially
when his breathing began to be a mixture of breathless gasps and
small growls coming out of his throat.
Suddenly
he desperately wrapped his arms around her neck desperately, pressing
her against him while his body trembled heavily. With
her free hand she went through his hair, concentrating on the
delightful sounds he was producing right behind her ear. He
practically squeezed her breathless with the grip he got on her while he came.
Producing a loud noise that sounded like "argh' to her.
It made her dare to whisper that one thing she wanted to say to him for a long
time:
"I
love you".
He
was breathless, still holding on to her, his eyes half closed. A
faint smile on his face, he seemed to be at ease. At ease in her
arms. She felt his fingers playing with her hair.
"You
love me?" he
finally asked, looking up to her with a look in his eyes that was
still doubting between surprise and disbelief.
Hinata's short feeling of bravery and the slight triumph she felt that such a powerful man submitted to her touch dissappeared in one second. She couldn't believe she just said that to him, or whatever made her say that to him. Confessing to him that she wanted him was already heavy enough for this night. How could she letted out The Big One? And that's why The Mother of All Blushes spreaded out over her face, her neck and whatever spot on her body.
Gaara laughed. It started with a small giggle, very unnatural to hear that coming out of his mouth but it ended up in a rasping laughter. His shoulders shook from the fun he appearantly had about it.
This wasn't helping, this wasn't helping at all, Hinata's mind was making double shifts to not interpret this reaction as pure rejection. She saw her hands trembling, mostly an indication that she was becoming upset, very upset. And Gaara was still laughing. He was laughing at her? Why didn't he told her what was so damn funny?
He
fell back on the bed, smiling, still a bit giggly. Hinata just sat
there, paralyzed. She felt everything just ebbing away from her,
everything just flowed out of her. Suddenly the night she was sharing
with him seemed to be far away. She gazed at him.
Gaara
took a deep breath, rolling over on his belly, arms spread over the
bed.
"Hinata"
he just said, glancing at her, one hand grabbing hers.
She
did not know if she should pull her hand away, just to let him know
how much he hurted her with that outburst of laughter because she
said she'd loved him. Especially because Gaara was known for his
inability to laugh.
He
sat up, letting go of her hand for a few seconds before grabbing it
again.
She
was aware of the fact she probably looked ridiculous, her eyes
getting all teary again, a disspointed look on her face.
Once
again that swift movement and with the blink of an eye she found
herself back in his arms.
"Stop
torturing yourself with feelings like that" he whispered in her
ear.
She
didn't answer, she knew he was about to crush her heart, things like
that didn't need an answer. And well, she should have known, that he
wanted her, didn't mean he loved
her.
With
a weird feeling inside of her she felt she got thrown on her back
between the sheets. Her head facing the window.
He
crawled on top of her, grabbing her chin firmly between thumb and
indexfinger and turning her head towards him. His face came close to
hers, his eyes looked different than before. Serious, deadly serious.
"Promise
me one thing" he said, his voice barely a whisper. "Those
feelings of love...keep them for someone special. Keep them for
someone who is able to feel the same".
Hinata
looked at him, slowly understanding what he was saying but not
answering.
"Promise
me".
A
tear rolled down her cheek, carefully catched by one of his fingers.
"Didn't
you...longed for me...like I did for you?" her voice was
shaky, her left hand highly in doubt between touching his face and
wiping away a second tear.
"Promise
me" Gaara replied, placing a firm kiss on her lips.
"I...I..don't
think I can" she answered, touching his cheek.
His
hands trailed down her body. "You will".
She felt his weight leaving her. He sat on his knees between her legs. She felt totally numb inside. She knew things like this happened to her more often than to other people. But why didn't she prepared herself properly for that? He wasn't just a random boy, or an easy going one like Naruto, he was Gaara for godsake. They couldn't come any more complicated! She cursed herself for not knowing this, seeing this, and just letting her allow herself to get consumed by her feelings for him. She should have known a person like him could never comprehend or accept the meaning of the word 'love'.
Her
overactive mind had to stop it's stream of painful conclusions when
she felt his hand parting her legs a little bit further, quickly
followed by a tongue slipping inside of her.
She
gasped in surprise and was in doubt about what she had to feel right
now. It felt good, it felt really good, but on the other hand, the
relationship she thought she had with him just got shattered to
pieces. It wasn't allowed to feel like that. His hand stroking her
thigh like that, his tongue doing some pretty amazing things to her.
"Please"
she whimpered, in order to maybe make him stop doing that. Or at
least, it would have been more convincing if she didn't let out a
moan afterwards when he reached the most sensitive part in that area.
It
didn't take long for her to give in to his actions, once again. The
dazzling feeling made her bury her fingers in his hair, forcing him
not to move one inch. She heared herself moan, she felt the tiny
sweatdrops on her forehead running down her face. For the sake of
everything, why didn't he stop!
There had to be some sanity inside of her that was able to make him
stop?
"Please...stop"
she managed to say. The answer consisted out of a combination of his
hands pushing her legs more upwards and changing from licking into a
more sucking movement. That practically drove her crazy.
How could she promise him not to
love him when he did this? When he caused this?
And
at the moment she thought he couldn't add more to that feeling, he
actually did. Her resistance fell immediately, her movements began to
make no sense anymore, neither was her breathing. She didn't know she
was capable of making noises like that. With
the last control she could get over her body she got up a little, her
eyes searching his. He stopped his business for a while to look back
and hear the words he expected to hear.
"I
promise" she said breathless, before falling back between the
sheets to undergo the last things he had in store for her. The last
things she needed to push her over the edge. When the sweet pleasure
went through her body she repeated that sentence again, this time it
was part of a long moan, a rather loud one too.
She
rolled up to her side, pretty much breathless, her mind still in to
much of a fuzzy state to concentrate on her surroundings. Somewhere
far away she heared the sheets rustle.
"Hinata?".
Still
a little bit light in the head she turned a little bit towards him.
He lied on his stomach, head resting on one hand, watching her.
Looking painfully handsome in her eyes.
"This...this..is
the last time, right?" she asked.
He
answered with a short nod, reaching for Hinata's hand.
She
grabbed his hand and squeezed it lightly before she crawled closer to
him.
"Let's..make
it a good last time. That...that...we never will forget this"
she whispered bringing her mouth close to his ear, stroking his cheek
with the back of her hand.
He
smiled, a little, and slid one arm around her waist."I'll
promise" he answered before hauling her on top of him by rolling
over on his back.
Once
again her heart reminded her how much she was in love with him, and
how much it hurted to realize that she had to let him go. Ofcourse
she couldn't neglect the sweet feelings of pleasure going through her
body when she started to move on top of him, and ofcourse she loved
how his hands stroked over her back, her butt, the sides of her body,
but on the other hand...it hurted her so bad that this would be the
last time she would be this close to him.
Hinata
leaned forward to kiss him, while she did her best to maintain the
pace of her movements. She was happy he met her halfway to answer her
kiss, leaning on his arms.
"You
deserve much better than me" he said after breaking the kiss,
his voice sounding hoarse with excitement, but his face deadly
serious.
"Stop
saying that kind of things" she whispered, surprised by the firm
sound of her voice. "Stop...stop bringing yourself down that
way". After saying that she looked away for a few seconds. She
stuttered before looking up to him again, blushing.
"You...you...don't
know how much it hurts for me to let you...to promise you...to not
love you". She placed both hands on his cheeks, looking at him,
realizing she had to give him a very sad look right now.
Gaara
opened his mouth to reply.
"I
know what you want to say..." she interrupted him, while she
slowly started to regain her pace again as she still was on top of
him. She had to gasp for a second, a little bit surprised by the
feeling that began to shoot through her body again.
"You're...".
She cursed her damn blush again. "...amazing".
Gaara
didn't replied and only closed his eyes, she saw the corner of his
mouth turning downwards for a few seconds. He was probably enjoying
the moment in his typical way, or ignoring/disliking what she said to
him.
She wrapped her arms around him and sped up the pace a little bit, holding on to him. He smelled so nice, she noticed when she pressed her face against his shoulder, smelling that weird, but yet so intoxicating, sandalwood-ish scent that always was hanging around him. He pressed her against himself, kissing her in the neck, slowly tilting her head backwards with his hand to give him better access to all the parts of her neck that he might have forgot. She closed her eyes, getting lost into the rhythm of her movements, the sheer pleasure of feeling him inside of her, his tongue tracing upwards from her collarbone to her earlobe, one hand going through her hair still forcing her to tilt her head backwards while the other hand rested on her butt. He just covered, used and did everything so damn right!
"Wait"
Gaara said, probably sensing the things going on inside of her. He
stopped all those wondeful touches and looked at her with a faint
smile which concisted out of one corner of his mouth curled upwards.She
looked back at him, her entire body completely on fire and she
couldn't help it to say: "D..don't stop now".
He
started to lift her up a little, both hands placed on her butt and
with one swift movement he layed her down on her back in the sheets. His
eyes were alight with lust, and he still had the faint smile around
his lips. He leaned towards her, placing a kiss on her lips.
Hinata nodded to let him know that he could go on, touching his chest lightly with her fingertops before she leaned back in the sheets, anxiously awaiting the moment he would take over to finish it for them both.
The
pace he maintained was incredibly quick. But she liked it, she liked
it a lot. It was a lot more forcefull than the last time, but she
really didn't care.
"Oh
Gaaaaa" she just screamed around the house, arching her back,
clawing the sheets. Thoughts just kept coming up in her head while
she listened to her own moans, his hoarse breathing, the sound of
their bodies making contact with eachother.
How could she promise him not to love him? It was impossible, he was everything she wanted, she looked for in a man. At this point she would probably do everything, absolutely everything for him. He was difficult, complicated, mostly unreadable but he could be surprisingly sweet, caring, attentive. And this person, this person that did not had a clue about love in general, who claimed to be unable to give love...weren't the things he was doing to her not born out of love? Because Hinata would not ever believe the sex they had and still were having was only based on lust. He had easily could have taken Sakura or Ino if he just wanted to stick it in somewhere. But he always came back to her. She was the one.
"Nah...Gaa"
Hinata moaned, feeling the sweet feeling building up inside her
again, looking through the lashes of her eyes at Gaara. He had his
eyes half closed, she saw how the muscles of his arms tensed, his
lips were firmly pressed on eachother and she liked it how he
sometimes had to part them to let out a little moan.
She
felt her body tremble uncontrollably, heared her letting out short
moans that went over in something like "Gaah". Finally
ending in a weird sound she never produced at any occassion, while
her body started to wrench itself in a pretty weird position, and she
couldn't help it, she couldn't control it for that second. And once
again, the orgasm she had could easily be described as mindblowing.
Like everything Gaara did to her seemed to be.
He
came just a few seconds after her. Ending with a long hard thrust and
producing a sound that mostly resembled "Narrgh". His eyes
were shut, he was frowning a bit. Sweat made his hair stick to his
forehead. He looked gorgeous that way.
Still
out of breath she watched him carefully when he moved himself out of
her, rubbing his eyes, wiping the sweat from his forehead with a
piece of one of the sheets. Hinata got up and reached out to him,
pulling him back on the bed, in her arms. She blushed lightly, but
really couldn't care less right now.
She
felt how he played with her hair a little, twisting it around his
finger, while the look on his face still was sort of fuzzy."Gaara?"
she finally said, when she felt him moving away from her to reach out
to get some sheets to cover up both of them.
"Hm?"
he replied while he pulled the sheets over her, and finally over
himself.
She
searched his eyes, wanting to read his face before going further with the important thing that she had to say to him.
"I...I...can't...I cannot keep the promise" she said, voice almost a whisper. "I'm sorry". She let her head hang, a little bit ashamed but also eager inside to hear his reply. How she could feel his eyes burning holes into her, he probably would end up breaking her heart right now. Second of all, to make things even less comfortable, she felt the tears stinging behind her eyes. 'Please, don't let me cry in front of him' she prayed inside to no-one in particular. She rubbed her eyes as casual as possible, turning her face slightly away from him. After that she lied down on the bed again, pulling the sheets over her nose, still awaiting his reply.
In fact, he didn't replied at all, not with words. She should have known he wasn't quite the talker. Finally he cuddled up against her, she felt his arm sliding around her waist.
'Hinata! Silly girl! Stop sniffing!'
she screamed to herself inside her mind. Ah, hell, she couldn't stop
the tears from flowing anymore and she started to cry. Her shoulders
shook with every sniff, burrying her face in her pillow.
"You
deserve someone better than me, Hinata" Gaara's voice sounded,
cold as always. The same sentence he had been saying to her, at least
2 times earlier this night. How she hated that sentence! He always
brought himself down like that, thinking that he wasn't capable of
relationships, love or other emotions that were concidered human. And
yes, she couldn't recall him expressing much more than annoyance or
that strange blank stare when she met him outside the bed. But why
didn't he stopped thinking about the past, the things that he COULD
NOT do, or at least, he told himself that too many times. He wasn't
the psychopathic killingmachine anymore, he didn't had to hold back
any longer because of some demon inside of him. He had become human,
and maybe more than he realized.
She
looked up from the pillow and wiped some tears away. He had closed
his eyes, his arm still wrapped around her.
"Stop...stop
living in the past" her voice trembled lightly. "Please...stop
torturing yourself with those memories. I...I...you...you are not
that person anymore". A big teardrop rolled of her nose. She had
his attention, as he looked up to her right now.
"You...you...you're
a good Kage, you're intelligent, and...y...yeah...you're not...the
most...well...you know...". She started fidgeting with her
fingers again, and cursed herself for it, twice. "...social...
You're...so much more than...what you think you...are. A...and...you
can smile...and I...can see...". She stopped in the middle of
that sentence, realizing she was getting lost in her words again.
That mostly happened when she wanted to say a lot of things at the
same time. Instead she gazed at how she fidgeted with her fingers.
"I
think you're amazing...inside, outside..." she finally managed
to say. "And I...love you" she added after a couple of
seconds. She sobbed again.
Hinata
heared how Gaara took a deep breath to reply to her words. But she
had to say just one thing more until she would listen to him: "You're
perfectly...a...able to give love...you just...don't realize".
Carefully
she dared to look at him a little bit. He was frowning, his face a
mixture between annoyance and surprise. He wasn't even looking at
her, he looked through her, like she wasn't there.
She
moved herself a little bit closer to him, knowing that she had to go
through with this, in order to not get her heart broken in a way even
Naruto's heartbreakingskills couldn't match. Silently she wrapped
her arms around his neck, pulling him closer to her.
"This
night will be the last, Hinata" he whispered in her ear, his
voice strangely calm. "I cannot identify the feelings that are
going on when I'm around you. I cannot confirm what they are. How can
I...answer this love of yours, when I can't figure out the things
going on inside myself? I can't figure out why I...like to be
here...with you".
She
swallowed, processing his words.
"So...you
run away from them?" she asked.
"Yes"
he answered before freeing himself from her arms, letting her know
that the discussion was closed.
She
swallowed again, feeling tears coming up again, rolling down her
cheeks.
"If
your intention is...with...this...to not hurt me...". Her
voice was thick with tears. "You're hurting me even
worser...with...leaving my life...for good, like you are planning
now".
"You'll
thank me for it later on" he replied, eyes already closed.
She
knew he wasn't being stubborn, or heartless, or something she would
like him to be to justify the pain inside of her. He was confused,
sad, probably realizing that getting over his past would be much more
tougher than he'd expected. A light wrinkle appeared on his forehead,
the corners of his mouth started to turn more downwards while sleep
kicked in.
Hinata
grabbed his hand, and squeezed it tightly before placing a little
kiss on it. With the tears still rolling down her cheeks and holding
on to his hand, she dozed off into a deep, dreamless sleep.
------------------------
It was a rainy morning, the clouds were grey, the rain came pooring down. She found herself hidden deep between the sheets, she shivered. It was cold, her feet were freezing. Half awake she sat up in her bed, she heared sounds coming from the right. Dizzy she gazed at the alarmclock, 8 o clock in the morning. After that she turned her eyes to the direction of the sounds she heared. Impatient steps, the rustle of fabric.
Gaara
was just retreiving his missing sandal from under the bed when his
eyes met Hinata's.
"Goodmorning"
he said, face unreadable.
"You...you're
still here" she managed to say before she started to crawl
frantically over the bed towards him. She ignored the cold and
wrapped her arms around his waist. He didn't seem to react on the
hug.
"Stay"
she said, almost begging.
Gaara
did not answer and slipped his one bare foot into the sandal, after
that he freed himself from Hinata's grip.
"I
have to go now" was the announcement while he walked up to the
window to open it.
Hinata
didn't know how quick she had to get out of her bed to stumble/run
towards the place he was standing.
He opened the window, letting more cold in.
"Bye Hinata" he said, reaching out for her, hands placed on her cheeks, giving a small kiss on her forehead.
As in a bad dream she
felt his hands leaving her face, he turned around, looking up to the
clouds outside.
And
with the blink of an eye he was gone. Only leaving a small circle of
sand dancing in midair.
Leaving
only her in the room, only her, still not able to keep her promise to
him.
She
loved him too much for that.
THE END!
This was the last part of the GaaHina-frenzy that suddenly got a hold of me. I think it's a pretty cute couple. The idea of two socially incapable people sharing things like this together really attracts me. Hinata is just too shy to ever be able to approach a boy, Gaara is just to damaged to ever understand how it is to be in love with someone. They just meet eachother in the middle.
