Chapter 6- Decisions and Memories Part 1

Draco woke up in the middle of the night, drenched with sweat. His thoughts came back to Hermione; maybe he was going a little fast.

He never expressed why he actually did love her, thinking of that, why did he? It was just the simple things, he came back from the abuse from his father, he was sick of being arrogant. He never wanted to turn out like his father; he'd kill himself first.

Draco always had a sweet and sensitive side, but he never showed it. He's always showed his father's side of personality. Now it was his time to change. He was going to graduate, he wasn't going to get the dark mark, and he would make himself happy.
Why did he love Hermione? The way she walked, and the way she talked, the way she cries, and the way she gets angry. Her soft ringlets framing her face. Her chocolate/almond eyes devouring his lust.

For the past year or so he had his eye on her. She seemed to mystify him and made him think. It seemed that she sort of changed him. She was the best thing for him. The one thing he feared of most was rejection. What was she thinking about him loving her?

He knew something happened between a guy and her. He just seemed to read her thoughts, but what did happen? He did something to her that's why she's afraid of being close with someone.

He needed to get back to sleep, but it seemed rejection was haunting him, besides he needed the rest. The students were going back to their regular schedule tomorrow.

Hermione woke up in the morning, dreading the fact that she had to face Draco today.

'It seems too soon,' she thought. 'I mean why would he want me? He's hated me almost all my life.'

Maybe she did go a little overboard with the kiss last night. That's just going to eg him on, and she definitely wasn't a tease.

It was all so complicating, that's why she kissed him. She was yearning for somebody to love, somebody to hold when she was down. She wanted comfort and sensuality. She didn't want anybody to hurt her. It sounds strange but Draco seemed to be that someone.

He just seemed right, but how could she forget of all the things he did to her in the past?

'I need more time,' she decided.

Hermione was with her fellow Gryffindor's at the house table. She said 'hi' to a few people, Harry and Ron stared at her, deciding what to say.
"Err…Hermione, how are you?" Ron finally managed to say.
"I'm fine," She replied.

There was a pause while they started dishing up their plates.
"Hermione I haven't talked to you in like forever, why won't you talk to us? Did we do something wrong? What's wrong Hermione, you don't tell us anything anymore," Ginny blurted out.
"I'm fine Ginny, if you really cared you would have sent me letters, same with all of you, this is the first time I've talked to you for six months!" Hermione replied icily.

The three friends looked ashamed. While Hermione continued, "I need my space, just give me time, and leave me alone." She walked off through the double doors to her first class.

Draco was sitting at his house table watching Hermione. He noticed she was not really talking to her friends, and then Ginny said something to piss Hermione off. Next thing he knew she was exiting the great hall.

The Slytherins found it odd the way Draco Malfoy was acting. They made simple conversation with him but all he did was nod or shake his head. He just couldn't stop thinking about her. He finally decided to get up and go to his first class. Outside fog was drifting in the air.
It was pretty chilly, that afternoon Hermione had Potions with the Slytherins. A crowd of teenagers drifted in the gloomy room. Professor Snape was at his desk; it seemed he was in a mellow mood.
"Make two lines," He drawled.

The students hurried to obey him. They wouldn't want to start off the school year with losing points. Then he started naming off partners,"Parvati and Millicent, Potter with Goyle, Ron with Crabb, Kirsten with Blaise, Pansy and Seamus, Hermione, and Draco..."
Hermione was shocked, but she didn't show it, she just walked over to his table, sat right next to him and didn't say a word.

'Oh no, this can't be! I mean why? Again, what am I going to do it seems so awkward.'

Snape's voice interrupted her thoughts, "Now today we're going to do a memory potion called "De La Memory" the whole point for this potion is seeing past events, or so called memories that you treasure or fear most. Now, I expect you to take this seriously it could help you in the future, Ingredients are on the board, follow them carefully."
"Hermione?" His voice jerked her back to life, she was thinking about the potion; she didn't want him to see her past! They started reading off the board for there ingredients. So far they had their water, Bilicon powder, Snake fang, and Strode string. They emptied the water first in the cauldron, and then they added the other remaining materials.
"Once you've had your materials added in both of you cauldron's peer over your partner's cauldron, and you'll be pulled in their memories, don't be afraid, no one can see or hear you," Snape drawled again.
Hermione went over to Draco's cauldron feeling sick to her stomach. Draco walked over to Hermione's cauldron feeling uneasy and peered over, and then he felt like his body was sucking him in a black hole, visions whirled past him, and he found himself in a room on a stormy day.
Suddenly a man stumbled through the door; you could smell the liquor on his breath. It filled his nostrils with the overpowering smell. He walked to the next room, Draco followed him.
"Hermione," the man called out. He stumbled up the stairs, and Draco heard Hermione cry out and all of a sudden the man threw her down the stairs. She started to cry and try to get up. She succeeded and tried to run away, but he caught her by the arm.
"Please, just leave me alone, go away!" She screamed.
"No, you can't leave me now, your mine!"
The voice echoed in her ears. He slapped her, kicking at her, abusing her. Sobs escaped her throat.
The voice yelled, "Why do you make me do this? You're such a bitch!"
She screamed in pain and hatred, as he violated her.
"You sick bastard, I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" She screamed at him repeatedly.
He thrusted while she screamed, Draco couldn't bear to look anymore; he was filled with rage of what he was doing to her. She grabbed her clothes as she ran out of the room, he was screaming at her. She was packing her things and crying as she fled the house.

The man screamed after her, "Run, yeah go! You'll never escape me!" The words seemed to slap her in the face.
He wanted to run after her, beat the bloody pulp out of the man who raped her, but he felt himself whirl into another memory.
He saw Hermione, and it must have been her mother sitting in a café, having a cup of coffee. "La Shanu" was the name of the coffee shop. Her mother found herself saying, "Hermione, dear, I need to get away for a while."
Hermione was utterly shocked, "What do you mean?"
"I'm telling you that I can't stay here for another minute, I need to get out, but I'll be back."
There was a long pause. Hermione swallowed the scalding coffee; Draco noticed her feeling sick to her stomach. Outside a steady rain had begun to beat against the windows; it looked and sounded cold.
"But you can't go mom, I'll have to deal with him." She whispered searching her mother's eyes for a resolution.
"I know, but you'll be going back to school soon and..." Her voice seemed to trail off. Hermione couldn't believe her ears.
Her mother started to get up, "My taxi's waiting honey."
"What?" She stammered. "You're leaving now?"
"Well soon, honey, your growing up, after school you'll be on your own anyway, I need some time, and so do you." She seemed desperate. They were outside by now. The rain came harder, beating against their bodies, puddles forming.
"So you're saying that. You're abandoning me?" Hermione cried.
"No, no darling, I love you, I want you to be happy."
"What by doing this?" She yelled.
"Hermione dear, you only have two weeks until you leave for you seventh and final year, I love you, please don't be angry with me," She pleaded.
"I love you too mom." By now her clothes were drenched. They hugged and cried it seemed like seconds had gone by.
"You know this is hard for me, I need to go now," She said as the taxi driver honked the horn. "Always remember that I love you." She slowly got in the taxi, not keeping her eyes off her daughter. The taxi door slammed shut. It started to drive away.
Hermione ran after the speeding vehicle screaming after her, "Mom! Oh, mom! Please don't leave me, I love you! Mom! Mom! Don't leave me please!"
The rain mixed with her salty tears, as she was drenched.
Draco was crying by now, he ran after Hermione wanting to comfort her. He was whirled to another vision, this time it was a series of visions whirling past him. The first one had Hermione screaming and throwing the photograph, another had Draco kissing her in the forest, the next had Hermione blaring music in her room, and another had Hermione and a group of friends in a mall. While the events were occurring for Hermione's memories, Hermione was being pulled into the memories of Draco………

:
A/n- Sorry to leave you there, except the next chapter will have it leaving off for Hermione in Draco's memories..so yeah..now to my faithful reviewers. \

iloveme2- hey, thanks.. ok? I hope you liked this chapter!

Crutches the magic hippie- thanks..lol your username is awesome

Dragongirl81- Thanks so much, a lot of people say that they ran across it…I hope you liked this chapter!

Cait 3 – Thanks, lol I thought you guys woulda thought that it was too mushy

Goodybad- thanks! I know you've read these chapters before but bare with me! I'm gonna take a look at your stories when I have time!

Coming soon…… Chapter 7 Decisions and memories part 2

CYA L8TER I'm OUTTIE