Title: I Finally Remembered You. Part 9 – Questions Answered even more.

Author: Xanfan

Rating: R/(NC-17 version at my website)

Pairing: Xander/Angel

Summary: AU futurefic. Slash. Xander, not Buffy, had gone to see Angel in "I Will Remember You" Years later, he finally keeps his promise.

Spoilers: All of BtVS & Ats

Warnings: M/M, mild language, more in future chapters

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.

A/N: The next several chapters are going to be one long flashback. I pretty much took the transcript for the entire episode, "I Will Remember You" and changed the dialog to fit Xander. I got the transcript of this episode from Buffyworld

Words in Italics indicate thoughts.

FLASHBACK continues.

The Clock on Angels desk read five o'clock.

Cordy fussed over a sickly plant, "This plant was thriving just this morning. Now look at it. I'm telling you, where he leads, dark forces follow."

"Xander gave it mites?" Doyle asked, with more than a little trace of doubt.

"How else do you explain it?"

"Jealousy?"

"I'm jealous? Of what?"

"Whatever is going on between the two of them."

"I'm not so much jealous, as confused. I mean, I thought they hated each other. Now they are joined at the hip? Locked down in there in Angel's apartment, alone, for the past 2 ½ hours, doing who knows what. Last time Angel did "who knows what" the world almost got sucked into hell."

"A) Angel's not cursed anymore. B) you don't even know what there doing down there; for sure. "

"Oh please! Angel hasn't had sex in over a year and Xander is still a horny teenager. "

"I thought Xander was into women, I mean, he is YOUR ex."

"It is so obvious, NOW, that all that "hatred" of Angel was really an act to cover his repressed bi-sexuality. My question is, why Angel is down there with Xander."

"He was a vampire, they'll do anything."

"Don't you mean do anyone?"

"Nope. Gender doesn't really matter to them. Species either, for that matter."

"Oh. ..ewwwwwww."

"Don't worry Cordy. I'm sure they're down there just having tea and crackers."

Down in his apartment, Angel and Xander sat at opposite sides of his kitchen table.
Angel poured some tea, "Would you like some more?"

"No, thank you."

"I'm really sorry I kissed you like that."

"You are?" Xander said, hurt.

"Well, not for the kiss itself.."

Xander sighs in relief, "Good. I mean, 'cause, as far as kisses go, I thought it was well above average."

"It was incredible. I just, I-I think, maybe we'd be asking for trouble, rushing into things. Not that I don't want to rush. Believe me, I do."

"Right. You spoke to the Oracles and they said you were cured for good. But how do we know that they really speak for the Powers? I mean they could be… pranksters."

"Or there could be another loophole."

"Exactly. And then the two of us would be in deep and it's 'grr' all over again."

"It would be smart to wait a while. See if this mortal thing takes."

"Exactly. And even if it does, it's still complicated."

"And I'm not sure what I am now. I don't know what my purpose is. I can't just wedge myself into your life back in Sunnydale. It wouldn't be good for either of us. Not to mention the fact that you just started your new job. And what about slaying, you still help Buffy with that. I don't think she'd handle this well."

"Are you going to pull out a pie chart on me now? Because I get it, it's not necessary." Xander asked, angrily.

Angel moved to sit next to Xander, "I'm not saying I don't want you, because I do. I REALLY do. You could probably tell how much… I'm just saying, it's worth the wait, to be sure this is right. I need to be sure nobody gets hurt again."

Xander stood, "You know, it's a good thing I didn't fantasize about you turning human only about 10 zillion times, because today would have been a real let down. So, how does the mature plan go? You call me? I call you? What?"

Angel stepped over to him, "We stay in touch, just not.."

"Literally. Funny. Okay, I'd better…" Xander headed towards the door

Angel turned to look after him, "Right. Remove the temptation."

Xander spun back towards him, "So, we'll…talk, soon."

Xander placed his hand on top of Angel's, on the counter. They both looked down at their hands. Angel turned his hand to grab Xander's, then pulled him into a kiss. They stumble up against the fridge and Xander jumped up to wrap his long legs around Angel's waist. Still kissing, Angel carried him over to the kitchen table, swept its contents onto the floor and laid him down on it.

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Angel collapsed alongside Xander, enjoying the feel of his own heart beat, racing with exertion.

They both relaxed into a light doze, lulled by their slowing heartbeats.