She was like an angel, descended down from heaven.
Yeah, lame. I know, but that's what I thought; that's what happens. It makes you feel- Ohh, damn, what's the word?
Love.
My friend tried to tell me about it once. She didn't try to explain it to me, exactly, but that's what she felt. Her face lit up, her smile, it just. Glowed. And I wondered, what in the hell is that? Too much time outside, maybe? She would stare at the sun a lot. She probably needs glasses now, but won't admit it.
Recalling that, well, I was pretty stupid. Dense, naïve, clueless. I was only 15 and I thought I knew the whole world.
I guess Tidus had, finally, hit maturity that year. In a lot of ways, he became more immature, and grew a "mustache". Yuck, a few black hairs above his lip and pimples? What every girl dreams of.
He began acting stranger. I figured it was some hormonal thing, but, no. I was wrong, in so many ways. Apparently he had found himself and what he wanted, me.
It was probably bound to happen anyway. Trying to get with the, literal, girl next door, your childhood friend. I just didn't think about it; stuff like that didn't bother me. Never did, never interested me. But, ugg, my stomach hurts just thinking about him; his upper lip, covered in all of three hairs, coming towards my face. And I let him, too!
That's normal, right? The girl falling for the boy? He makes the first move, the poor, shy being, and then the girl responds? Bleck, I just couldn't do that. I didn't even try the dating thing. LAME. I never wanted to be tied down. And don't even get me started on kids. I just didn't talk to Tidus for a while. I think he got the hint. He didn't try it again.
Kairi was the lucky one. She didn't get sweaty faces shoved into hers. She knew what she wanted. And, I guess, I wanted some of that too. She was so happy, not that I wasn't, but it was a different kind of happy. Like I said, it was love. A feeling that drives you. Happiness comes and goes; love is permanent. Happiness is a train ride, love is an angel's face.
Her face is a bit like Kairi's, except not. It's hard to describe- it's perfection. She has long blonde hair; it's clean and her shampoo smells fruity. Her eyes are bright blue; she's the epitome of innocence. She's not awkward or clumsy, like me. She carries herself with grace.
I figured I might be interested in Tidus in a few years down the road. I'd probably be stuck as his high school sweetheart. I just wasn't interested in dating. Nah, I'm just not interested in boys.
I didn't think it was strange to say it. It doesn't need to be said, it's obvious. Love is like that. Everyone can tell when you've fallen head over heels.
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